23. Ciera
I couldn’t believe that Juelz gave me all that money, those cars, and a damn house! While Ari and Toya were talking, I decided to call him. I dialed his number and waited for him to answer.
“Yeah Ci, what’s up?” He said when he answered the call.
“Juelz, what were you thinking? Giving me all this money, a house, and two cars. I can’t believe that you did that,” I spoke.
“Ciera, everything that I did was to ensure that you and my kids will be alright with or without me. Right now, we are not together, but one day I hope that will change. I know I fucked up, Ci, and I’m not going to sit and ask you again to understand my position on why I did it.
I know if the tables were reversed, I may not have forgiven so easily, so I understand.
But know that I’m not giving up, I will do whatever I need to do to get you back.
One more thing, don’t think for one minute that I’m staying with Kenya when I’m not there with you.
I’m staying at the penthouse. I will explain it all to you in the next day or so,” he said, and all I could do was sit there and wonder what the hell was going on.
“Thank you for your generosity, Juelz. I don’t think we need all of that, but thank you,” I whispered.
“No thanks needed, Ciera. I hope to see you soon, and maybe we can spend some time together. I would like to spend some time with you alone, if that is alright with you. I’m sorry if I was too hard on you, I’m just a man that loves his children and you beautiful,” he spoke.
“Alright, we will see,” I said, quickly ending the call.
I just didn’t know what to say after he said all that shit.
I was horny and hadn’t had sex in God knows how long.
Being around Juelz was going to have my ass going through some shit.
I was pregnant by him, who the hell else was I going to get dick from?
Ari and I had just dropped off Toya, and I needed to make a stop before we called it a night.
“Ari, I need to make a stop before we go home,” I said, looking over at her.
“Ok, where we going?” She asked.
“I’m going to see Angela,” I stated.
“That is fine if that’s what you want to do, Ci. But I’m not ready, I will be right here in the car when you come out,” she whispered and laid her head back on the headrest.
When we got to our mom’s house, I just sat there for a minute looking at the house before I finally got out and knocked on the door. It took few minutes, and I heard someone messing with the locks, then the door opened.
“Hi mom, I wanted to stop by and check on you,” I said to my mother.
“What the hell you want, Ciera? You and your sister are the reason I’m sitting here without my man!” Angela yelled.
“No, mom. Your man is the reason he is not here; he was no good. He tried to rape your daughter, for God‘s sake! How can you still call him your man? How could you hear Ari screaming and not help her? Mom, I know you are sick, and I would like to help you get yourself together. As you can see, I’m pregnant, and you are going to be a grandmother. Don’t you want to be healthy and see your grandchildren grow up?
” I screamed at her as tears formed in my eyes.
“I don’t give a fuck about you, and no damn baby. Y’all just left me, and now I’m out here by myself. I know y’all had something to do with Mark getting killed. When I find out what happened, you will pay for it, all of you will pay!” She yelled out.
"Look, Angela, you will not talk shit about my kids. I don't care what you say about me, but my kids are off-limits. Another thing don’t come to me with no threats about a nigga that tried to rape your daughter. I truly don’t give a fuck about what you think happened.
Now, I’m really trying to be a good daughter to you.
I’m willing to help you because I know you are sick, and you are my mother.
You get clean, and I will move you out of this house and into something better.
Change your life, Angela, it’s your choice, clean yourself up and you can live a good, healthy, and happy life.
I will make sure of it, or if you don’t want the help, you can stay at the bottom of the hell you live in every day.
You have the chance to rebuild the broken relationships with your daughters.
I will leave my number, and you call me when you are ready,” I spoke, I left my information and walked out.
It was time for her to make the decision to change her life, as her daughter, I did my job.
When I got back in the car, Ari was texting on her phone.
“You okay, sis? Ari asked me.
“Yeah, I’m okay. Would you like to know what was said?” I asked her.
“No, I’m good right now. Tell me later, just as long as you are good,” Ari responded. I pulled out and jumped on the highway, headed to the Washington tunnel.
Just thinking about our night, I was so happy Ari wanted to go hang out for a while.
It was nice being out of the house. My Grams showed her entire ass tonight; you can’t do anything but love her though.
It was time for Lai to calm down; she was getting ready to be a great grandmother.
I wonder if Lai realized that. I couldn’t wait to see her face when I bring it up.
My sister just seemed off on the ride home, and I know it was because of the shit that jumped off at the bar.
“Ari, are you okay?” I asked because I was worried about what that girl was saying about her being pregnant by Zel.
“Ci, I’m fine it’s just some more shit Zel and I will have to work through,” she said.
“Just let me know if you need me for anything, I will always be here for you, and in the morning, we are going to go down to the bank. I want to put some money in your account, and don’t even open your mouth to say shit Ari,” I told her.
I was going to make sure my sister was straight.
My phone ringing alerted me that I had a call.
“Hey Ken, how are you?”
“I’m good beautiful, how are you and the babies?”
“We are fine, I’m back in New York for a couple of weeks. I plan on coming back to LA soon. I was actually going to call you to let you know I came home to see my family,” I told him.
“Aww man, I wish you would have called me, I’m in New York too. I had to fly out because my sister was here visiting, so I told her I would meet her here,” Kendrick said excitedly.
“Oh wow, what a coincidence! Let’s meet for lunch tomorrow. Where are you staying?” I asked.
“I’m staying at the W downtown, hit me up tomorrow and we can meet up at my hotel,” Kendrick responded.
“Alright, see you tomorrow,” I said, and we ended the call with plans to meet for lunch.
I was happy that we were in the same city.
Kendrick had been a real friend to me, and I truly appreciated him.
I was confused about Juelz, it’s like my feelings for him came back full circle.
I just didn’t want to give in so easily. What he did to me was wrong.
We finally made it back home, and I was tired as hell.
I was going straight to bed after my shower.
Just thinking about this dude had me on one, yeah, he was gonna have to be the one to handle my sex issues.
I guess I need to figure out how to make it just about the sex and not put my heart into it.
What the hell am I saying? My heart was already into it.