Chapter 18
I lit a few candles and tried to get over the fact that I was bitter as hell.
Let me explain. Law wasn’t answering any of my text messages or calls.
Rumor around town fucking Pinkie on the regular.
Not that I was shocked. He slept with her in the club that night but I thought we were better than that.
Pinkie was beautiful, but the bitch was old; what the fuck she wanted with Law?
Lately, I’d been stalking them but I could never find them out together so I let it die down.
Since I was back home, I hadn’t told anyone I was pregnant besides the ones close to me.
Today, I was about to post my sonogram pictures and videos of the heart beats of the baby.
It was my way of letting my clients know my reason for hiding and not opening for business.
It wasn’t their business what I had going, but it would relieve some questions.
A few clients hit me up and asked for appointments, and I accepted because I could use some money.
My spot was small, but when you’re a business owner, you make adjustments.
I could still go to my mama’s basement but I just wanted to do things on my own.
After writing down the few appointments I made, I got out of bed and took a shower.
Lately, the baby that was growing inside of me had me drained, so all I did was sleep and go grab something to eat.
Nobody told me it was going to be this hard.
In the mornings, I was throwing up and at night, I was so exhausted that I would skip eating just to get some sleep.
Even a simple shower would drain my energy.
With my towel still wrapped around me, I went to the kitchen to fix a bowl of Fruity Pebbles since that’s what I could keep down when my doorbell rang.
Law was the last person I thought would show the hell up at my doorstep. Shit between us wasn’t the best. He ignored me, and I ignored him so it was hard to communicate. That’s what happens when two strong-willed people fucked with each other.
“What you doing here?” I asked, leaning my head on the door.
“I brought you some junk food, and I wanted to talk.” He showed me the bags in his hand. I stepped aside to let him in. “Why the hell you move in this small ass place knowing you got a baby on the way?”
“It’s enough space for us. Don’t come in here with the shits. I’m tired, and I’m hungry.”
“I didn’t come to argue. All I came to say was it’s time for us to move on from the childish ass playing on the phone and shit. We got a kid on the way that needs us to act like adults. Can we at least do that?”
“Are you still fucking her?”
“Fucking who?”
I crossed my arms over my chest and stared a hole in Law’s eyes. He was charming but I knew his ass like I knew myself. He was acting dumb but he knew who I was talking about without mentioning her name. I hated old bitches.
“Don’t play with me. You know who, Law.”
“Are we a couple?” He pointed between me and himself.
“We are what the hell I say we are. You can fuck a million bitches, but they will never be me.”
“You right, so why you questioning me? Am I asking you are you still sleeping around while carrying my damn child? Nah! But what I will tell your lil’ ass is, you better get all that shit out before that stomach grow ‘cause the first time I hear about a nigga squishing my baby, I’m on your ass.”
The laugh that escaped my mouth caught Law off guard. It was funny because I knew just how serious he was, but for a nigga that wanted to stay single, why was he worried?
“It ain’t funny either. Think I’m playing if you want to and see.”
“Law, it is funny, and you know it.”
He went to the kitchen and put the bags down while I went to throw some clothes on. I didn’t want to tempt him in anyway and sex would only confuse what we had going on.
“I see you went and put something on. You got scared, huh?”
“Of what? You ain’t got shit that I ain’t already had. I ain’t never been scared to take shit from you and we both know that.”
“Oh, yea? Come sit on it now.”
“Boy please! You probably just pulled a condom off from fucking your old bitch. I don’t want to fuck behind her old ass.”
“Damn,” Law laughed. “She ain’t old, but she really got you pressed. I thought those days were over with.”
I looked at him and rolled my eyes. He ain’t seen shit yet because as soon as I saw her, we had some shit to talk about. She could feel how she wanted to feel because as long as I was carrying this baby, Law was a part of me and I wanted her to respect her boundaries.
It was well after nine when Law decided to get up and leave.
He had been here all day and now I didn’t want him to go.
I appreciated that he let down three jobs today to stay and massage my back and let me get some sleep.
He even fell asleep with me. From the looks of it you would think we didn’t miss a beat but there was still an awkwardness about us.
It was something we hadn’t discussed yet but we both wanted to.
“Come lock the door behind me.” He patted my thigh so I could remove my legs from over him.
“You must be leaving to go lay up with your senior citizen,” I joked.
“You worried?”
“Nope, not at all. I appreciate you chilling with me today but I understand it’s her turn now.”
“Summer, quit with all that damn pettiness. If you want a nigga to stay, then say that. I thought you were a little more mature than that.”
“I’m good.” I threw my legs on the floor and got up to walk to the door. I wasn’t going to beg him for the obvious. Law knew damn well I wanted him to stay. When he didn’t move, I stared at him.
“I’m not leaving. You got a whole attitude because I’m about to go home and chill.”
“I don’t have an attitude Law. You can go.”
“If I stay, we fucking. You can feel how you want to feel but dammit I need to see why I got to stay in this little ass shit you live in.”
“I don’t want to complicate things between us by adding sex to the mix. We did so good today without arguing. Don’t you think sex is going to only make me go crazy and you too?”
“I know how to control myself; it’s you that act a damn fool when a girl speaks.”
“It’s respect Law. Them girls be petty as hell when they do it too, knowing I’m right there.”
“And what I used to do? Curve they ass. I never disrespected you once. I matured and took our relationship serious. I fucked up the first few months and got that shit together. Every time you go on a damn rampage, it’s because of your insecurities and shit.
As your nigga, I made sure I told you how beautiful you are, took care of you, and made sure that, even though we argued in private, in public we were on point. You got some shit to deal with bruh.”
I came and sat back next to him and just thought about what he said. Law moved closer to me and brought me in so my head was resting on his chest.
“Look, you know me better than anyone and vice versa. We done what we done to each other but the fact still remains we got a baby on the way. We can continue to act like we don’t care about one another or we can forgive and move the hell on.
What I don’t want to deal with is your insecurities because I give you no reason to feel that way. ”
“Law, look at you.” I held my head up. “You fine as hell. What woman wouldn’t want you? I don’t want to battle with a bitch about you, so whatever you got going on with that girl needs to end.”
“I ain’t got nothing going on.”
I wanted to believe him but whores like Pinkie don’t just come around and not get what they want. Law had some of the best dick there was and I was going to kill him if he put his mouth on her. Just thinking about him having sex with her boiled my blood.
“So you not fucking with Pinkie anymore?” I eyed him.
“Nah.”
“Oh, ‘cause I don’t give pussy to niggas that fuck with other hoes.”
Law laughed before kissing my lips. And just that simple, I stripped out of my shit and rode my man into a coma.
If he was getting some from Pinkie, she wasn’t doing it right.
Law was snoring so loud that I recorded him.
I had to turn the sound off to post the video.
Yep, I was back, and the bitches needed to know that I was locking shit down.
I was giving Law something he always wanted. Between him and his mama, I didn’t have to worry about anything. Nobody could take what we had, even if they tried. No amount of sex could snatch Law’s heart. He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into him like I was going to run away.
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”
“What we got ain’t perfect but we’ll get the shit right before my baby gets here.”
Just hearing that promise put me at ease. I didn’t seem to care about him and Pinkie anymore or any other woman who thought she could have him. My body relaxed, and I went to sleep in my baby arms.