21
Sagan
Onyx was too quiet after I told him everything that happened with Thorn. Well, not everything. I skipped the intimate details… But the almost relationship stuff that had hurt me. The confusing stuff and parts he basically had been pushing me to share.
Or I thought that he wanted to know.
“Thorn Blount is a fucking moron beyond compare,” he finally said, nodding when I simply blinked at him.
Onyx cupped my face with both hands. “You did nothing. He is a boy trapped in the grief of losing his parents and what he lost. The man he has become is still in that moment and I would bet anything it’s not even about him being Alpha anymore. ”
“It’s all about being Alpha to him,” I argued. “That’s what we’re doing and—”
He brushed his lips over mine. “Kael is trampling all over the memory of his parents. Thorn probably hates his parents for not protecting him. They couldn’t have known Kael would do this to his own nephew, the Alpha’s own brother could be so horrible.”
And Onyx knew that firsthand, nodding when I swallowed loudly.
“But you deserved none of what he did to you, Sagan. He is trapped in his own pain, but that never excuses the pain we cause. You were doing everything you could to save me from pain because you hurt. You were trying to do the right thing. Thorn was childish—selfish and—mating you could never be a downgrade. That doesn’t even make sense. ”
I opened my mouth, but he kissed me again.
“Just this once, trust me without questioning it. I promise you that I’m telling the truth, I see the whole picture, and I have no reason to lie to you. He’ll see it one day too and how big of a fucking idiot he’s been even.”
I wasn’t really sure what to say to that. I wanted to believe him and that it wasn’t me or even anything to do with me—being mated to me, but all about Thorn. I really did.
It just seemed too convenient of an answer. I wasn’t sure what I was going to say in response, but apparently Onyx was done talking about Thorn.
“I hate that you got hurt, but I’m so glad he was fucking stupid,” he whispered.
He lifted me up and then I was sitting on the counter with him standing between my legs.
“Really glad. I hate that you went to him for sex. I would give you better—please you better and give you whatever you need, baby girl. Always.”
“I don’t want it to be a competition.”
He snorted. “It wouldn’t be. We have feelings for each other.”
That wasn’t what I’d meant and I was fairly sure he knew that, but I didn’t get a chance to say that when his mouth found mine. It was different this time, not just passionate, but also somehow more intense and… Lighter? Which was conflicting, so I was confused and trying not to show it.
“He knows where he stands, or more that Thorn isn’t in the way,” Iris explained.
Great, now my dragon had to explain relationships to me.
“We feel his dragon’s joy that we can be his and his dragon is already ours,” Eloise clarified, sounding way too happy at that.
I wasn’t sure how I felt about that, but then Onyx leaned away and pulled off his shirt by the back of his collar in a sexy move that showed just about every thick muscle he had and my mind forgot anything but him.
I reached to take off my shirt too but froze when he chuffed, making it clear that he wanted to do that.
Sure?
Eloise saw it as him wanting to take charge and ravish us. Iris saw it as him wanting to spoil us.
I just saw it as fun in my future and I was in.
Sure enough, I was naked seconds later, and after some attention on my breasts, I was spread out on the counter and he was sitting on the damn stool between my legs like I was the meal. He smirked up at me and I realized that was completely intentional.
And then I was.
The meal.
A few times.
He started slower than I wanted, fingering me and licking every inch like he was trying to map me out, commit my body to memory. He teased and touched gently but possessively and kept chuffing like he was trying to not say too much.
“Perfect,” he groaned when I came the first time. “Fucking delicious and perfect. Give me more.”
I had a second smaller orgasm as he kept eating and thrust his fingers deeper, another finger as well. Something about that seemed to piss him off though? It took me a bit to realize that he didn’t like his efforts giving me small orgasms because he became more aggressive.
Was this man for real?
Seriously?
Apparently, because he seemed desperate to hear me scream his name and I was glad that the suite was renovated and some updates to the soundproofing had been made.
There had been some back and forth for security reasons, but Maple had put her foot down and said to give me some fucking privacy.
That if there was a real problem, I could level the castle.
So people would know if I really needed them.
I loved my aunt a lot but also didn’t want to think about her right then.
Another orgasm hit me and I forgot I had any aunts at all.
Or uncles or cousins for that matter.
“Back,” I groaned after that one and then yelped as I was immediately lifted off the unforgiving counter and carried into the bedroom. I swallowed my nerves when he set me on the bed on my knees and gently pushed me down. I couldn’t hide what I was feeling as I looked at him over my shoulder.
But all Onyx did was drop to his knees and eat me out that way.
Fuck, was it good. Apparently, I really liked my oral sex that way if it was from him. Something to keep in mind.
I was pretty sure he figured it out when I came screaming his name into the bedding and honestly made a fucking mess in a way that was embarrassing. I didn’t think I had finished like that before.
“As much as I want to take you like this too, I know a queen won’t,” he said as he stood and ran his hand over my ass. “At least not until we’re mates and then you give yourself to me in every way.”
That was some pretty serious talk there, but Iris actually like that he acknowledged that.
“I’m just honored you’ll let me have you,” he whispered as I heard his pants unzip. “If you’re ready?”
Gods yes, I thought, my dragons echoing inside my mind. I rolled over and nodded, licking my lips as I got to see him naked again.
Raw heat filled his eyes. “Can I show you the way I’ve been dreaming of having you, My Queen?”
Oh, shit, how did he figure out that I liked that? I practically purred and nodded.
He moved over me and then gave me maybe the best kiss of my life before pushing my hair out of my face and staring into my eyes.
“I accept all of you, Sagan. All your secrets and all that you come with.” He waited until I nodded.
“But once I have you, I’ll have you, and you cannot shut me out again. I won’t be okay with it.”
“That’s not…” Fair? How things worked?
Normal?
He nodded, probably agreeing with all of it.
“I’m saying I won’t wait and will… Storm the castle to get my queen.
I won’t be patient and not make scenes. It means we’re something and I will come for my partner even if I have to beat Benson’s ass or shove people out of my way.
Until you say back off or give you space, I won’t stop. ”
All three of us swooned again, even Iris, because all she wanted was for him to always know we were the boss.
“Okay, I’ll try,” I promised. “I—I’m trying.”
“I know, baby girl. I just—this is real.”
“It’s…”
He smirked at me. “It’s real.” And then he lined up his dick and slowly pushed inside of me, not making me say words that I wasn’t ready to say.
Maybe wasn’t ready to feel? Knew if I wanted?
Fuck if I really knew.
What I did know was I wanted him. Feeling him inside of me was amazing and he knew what he was doing.
He moved my feet to his chest and pressed down on my hips as he slowly but deeply thrust into my tight, willing body. His eyes flashed shock and he chuffed. “I love how fucking jealous you are right now. That’s it, be jealous.”
“I’m not jealous,” I lied through my teeth.
Onyx folded me in half so we were nose to nose. “I don’t even remember their names, My Queen. None compare to you. You feel beyond anything I’ve ever experienced. No pussy will satisfy me again—no body could ever sate me.”
“I’m not sure I believe you,” I lied through my teeth.
“I’ll just have to show you.”
And he did. Fuck, did he ever.
He sat back on his feet and lifted my hips so he pulled me onto him as he thrust forward, smirking when my eyes went wide. “Oh, My Queen likes that. Have you never been taken like this?”
“No,” I gasped. “Please, you hit—it’s so—” I cried out his name and finished as he moved faster and hit that right spot.
He ground his teeth and seemed to be holding back as he continued to move. “This is so much better than I dreamed. A decade of dreaming and it’s better.”
Who said that? Who seriously said things like that?
“Fine, I like him too,” Iris admitted in a put-out tone like she was being abused to have to say it.
My dragons were as awkward and socially inept as I was. Seriously, they were.
He kept moving me that way, drawing out my orgasm until another hit me and I thought I might beg him to move into my room if I could have sex like this all of the time. That sounded ridiculous, but it was that good.
“I can’t last,” he grunted as he moved faster. “Been too long.” He chuffed something that sort of sounded like my name as he made noises that were more his dragon than a man could make. Then, Onyx finished so deeply inside of me I felt it.
Like felt his dick explode and fill me. It was unreal. He really had been pent up and truly affected by not having been with a woman in years or—I wasn’t sure.
But then I felt something else. Something I’d never felt before during sex. Fine, my limited sexual experience, but now it was four men, and that should be enough to know things? Probably?
It hit me hard when a feral look filled his eyes. Possessive. Animalistic even.
“I knew we couldn’t trust this beast,” Iris seethed.
“You are not breeding me,” I bit out, pissed too.
“No, I’m not,” he grunted, swirling his hips as his mating knot locked him in place inside of me and did everything amazing to my body. “You weren’t flying.”
That calmed me—and my dragons—down so we could just enjoy it.
Until I saw Onyx’s dragon move behind his eyes.
Until the moron kept talking.
“But one day I will, Sagan De la Rosa,” he swore as he leaned over and licked my nipple, trying to set me off again.
“One day when we’re mated, we will fly, letting our dragons agree to have a baby, then come here to your bed, and I will give you a child with my knot.
I will see your stomach rounded with our child and kill anyone who dares to touch either of you. ”
I swore it was him sucking on my nipple and not just hearing that which made me orgasm again. I couldn’t even think of having kids for decades at least. Not remotely with the way things were. I didn’t want to be pregnant.
My dragons didn’t either.
But loved like that?
Desired?
Fought for?
Protected?
Yeah, I wasn’t a psychopath. Of course I wanted that.
Didn’t everyone?
When we finally finished, both our chests were heaving and we simply stared at each other. It was awkward but also not.
Awkward because we couldn’t move for a couple of minutes with his knot inside of me like that.
Not because we’d shared something beyond words.
“How was your day, dear?” I asked, licking my lips.
“Because mine was a bit wild. I finally had the sex I’ve been wanting to and it was everything, but I also learned the man’s dragon is off his rocker and wants to knock me up the first time.
So that’s a lot to digest because I want to repeat the sex, but you know, not ready for a baby anytime fucking soon. Like decades soon.”
He blinked at me like he couldn’t process that ramble. Full disconnect almost and could not compute. Then he slowly leaned his forehead to my chest and started laughing.
Shaking laughs that rocked his body and his hair moved all around.
And he moved me as well.
Which did several things to my body given his knot was pressed against the perfect spot inside of me.
I moaned and fisted his long hair while he was still laughing, riding the pleasure and swirling my hips.
I tried to tell him to cut it out, but he just kept laughing, and then like a fucking comedy show, I angled my hips a bit and moaned out his name as I finished again.
He wasn’t laughing when I came back down, staring at me with a feral look as his tongue wet his lips. “Your body just became my playground and I’m going to enjoy it, take good care of it, and make sure you always have my name on those lush fucking lips when I’m done with it like that.”
Holy. Fucking. Shit. I’d let out a beast all right.
I just wasn’t sure if I should be worried about that or not.
Probably? But also… Yay?
What wasn’t happy?
When he left later and didn’t sleep over. I wanted to apologize, but my dragons both said I shouldn’t. This was what I needed and to hear I wasn’t doing anything wrong.
I wasn’t sure that was true, but it meant a lot to me that Onyx didn’t make a big deal of it. Sure, we had another round of sex after we finished the food and talked some, but he didn’t make me feel like I was broken.
He made it clear that he did want to stay, and I saw the looks like he wished things were different… Just not that I was different.
And clearly, he wasn’t hiding who he blamed when he beat the shit out of Thorn. Holy fuck was that going to be a thing later but honestly, I didn’t care.
It was hot. I made a mess of it and stormed off flustered, but him putting Thorn in his place after hurting me was maybe exactly what I needed?
Maybe?
Maybe the one person who could traumatize me most because of who he was related to was the one person who could heal the damage that person had done? How fucking wild was that?
So is your life and everything your own parents have done to you.