Chapter 9
Chapter Nine
“Yo, sis, what’s up? I was just thinking about you.”
My slightly overprotective brother, Tyler, is a slob, but he’s a good brother and I could really use his company. I rang him up, hoping he’d be up for a stay while he isn’t working.
“What do you think about coming out to Tahoe?” I say over the phone.
Tyler is a community college teacher with summers off, so he’s available.
As long as I don’t tell him about Eric—he hates my ex—having Tyler around will help take my mind off things.
There’s a small voice in the back of my head that wants to pump Tyler for information about his old high school buddy Jaeger, but I’m ignoring it.
He chuckles into the line. “Funny you should ask, because I’m here.”
“What? Where?”
“With Mom. Came out to see her new digs.”
My mom just bought her first house, in Carson City. She’s rented her entire life, so this is huge.
“You should check it out,” he says. “It’s not much, but she’s proud. It would mean a lot if you came.”
Jesus, as hard as my mom worked at the casinos to put Tyler and me through college, I’m proud.
She only recently relocated to Carson. She’s got a stable job with benefits there.
It pays less than what she made in Tahoe, but Carson City has lower living costs.
“I will, I promise. I’ve been getting settled with my job and all, but I’ll come out as soon as I can. ”
“Well, don’t take too long, or you’ll be leaving again.”
For grad school. How could I forget?
“So, what do you think?” he asks.
“About what?” Tyler doesn’t know about my reservations over school. I’m avoiding thinking about them, but they’re fixed in my subconscious.
“Dude, what’s up with you? About me driving out.”
Oh right. “Tyler, I called you, remember? I already said I want you to visit.”
“Cool. I’ll be there in a couple of hours. Everything okay?”
I wouldn’t call my brother the most perceptive male, but he can be at inopportune times. “Yeah, fine.”
And it will be. Now that things are officially over with Eric, I’ll eventually move on. It’s everything else that has me screwed up. The reason I couldn’t see how bad my relationship with Eric was. My reservations over grad school. At some point I’ll have to address these issues. Just not now.
Two hours later, Tyler walks in the door and drops his duffel on the dark brown wall-to-wall carpet of our rental house. We picked this place for its proximity to the lake, but it’s the size of a dog kennel and the furnishings look like something from a seventies sitcom.
Tyler lifts his brows warily. “Where do you want me?” He peeks inside the single bedroom. “I don’t mind spooning with Gen, but you snore.”
“I do not snore!” I punch him in the arm and he grins. “You can sleep in the loft,” I tell him.
We both tip our heads back to view the alcove above the kitchen.
Gen and I have a single bedroom, but there’s a small loft above the kitchen with a sketchy pull-down ladder. Neither Gen nor I wanted to risk our lives to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, so we share the queen downstairs.
“Leave your stuff here; there’s not much space up there.”
His gaze is dubious. “Is there a bed?”
“There’s a full mattress on the floor. You’ll be fine.”
Tyler digs into his duffel, already spilling stuff across our living room floor.
“Tyler, our place is small. Rein in the clutter.”
He bites into the bar he unearthed from his crusty bag and scratches his flat belly. “Can’t. Not my nature.”
This argument’s a losing battle. He’s totally right and sometimes I wonder how he manages to attract as many women as he does.
Physically, I suppose he’s good-looking.
His hair is wavy and a little longish and hipster, especially when paired with his dark reading glasses.
I’m not going to call the color red, because he’d kill me and it’s not totally accurate.
Let’s call it chestnut—a medium brown with red highlights.
Lots of red highlights. Neither of us are carrot tops like our mother, and I am forever grateful for our father’s plain brown hair in that respect.
Tyler and I both have pale blue eyes, and that’s probably our most redeeming physical quality.
I often get complimented for mine by the opposite sex.
I assume he does too. Add to that a six-foot-two athletic build, and I suppose some women might find him attractive, if you look past his slovenly ways, flash temper, and myriad other annoying habits I’ve had to live with all my life.
As a brother, though, he’s protective, funny, and loyal, and I’m really happy he’s here.
Over the next couple of days, Tyler and I hit our favorite food spots and he visits me at the casino. He brought his mountain bike, so when I’m sleeping in the a.m. after working late, he entertains himself on the trails with a buddy who still lives in town.
Having Tyler around has been good for my morale. He keeps me distracted, and he has no patience for mopers. He’s highly vocal about it too, usually in the form of an insult that pisses me off and snaps me from my depression.
The weekend’s almost here and I’m working tonight, but Tyler has dropped in for a visit. He’s gambling at my table and I’m kicking his ass, which is sweet music because he always beat me at cards growing up.
“Damn, Cali, when did you become a shark?”
I’m trying to act professional, but I can’t help shooting Tyler a smug look when my customers aren’t looking. I have three decks in my dispenser, which reduces a player’s ability to make predictions. Tyler counted cards when we were kids, but three decks is a lot, even for him.
Despite my best intentions not to, I’ve obsessed over asking Tyler about Jaeger.
I don’t want to give my brother the wrong impression.
Knowing him, he’d assume I had a thing for his buddy and get all overprotective.
But it’s been long enough since Tyler arrived that I think it’s safe to venture onto the subject.
My last customer saunters off and I deal Tyler another hand, ever-so-casually saying, “So, I think I ran into one of your friends from high school. Do you remember that athlete, Jaeger?”
“Who? You mean Jaeg?”
Jaeg. That’s why his name was familiar, but not. He went by a nickname in high school. “Isn’t he the one you said was going to the Olympics?”
“For skiing. Of course I remember him—he was one of my best friends. But he’s not going to the Olympics—or he didn’t go.
” Tyler swipes his hand on the felt table for a hit, and then hits again after I deal the card.
He busts with a king, a three, and a nine.
“Shattered his knee. Dropped off after that.”
So that’s how Jaeger’s sports career ended.
I saw the scar on his knee at the beach but was too busy appreciating his body in swim trunks to think anything except that the scar looked rugged and manly.
Athletes are intense about their sports.
Olympic athletes border on obsessive. It had to have been difficult for Jaeger to start over.
My brother is by no means a champion athlete, but even he gets aggro when it comes to training on his bike.
Jaeger’s new wood-whittling profession should reduce his appeal, but for some reason it doesn’t.
I’m not sure if it’s the effort it must have taken to reinvent himself that appeals, or if it’s just him, in whatever form, that I’m attracted to.
And that scares me. It’s too soon for me to pursue someone else.
“What’s Jaeg up to?” my brother asks. “I’ve lost touch with him over the years, but it would be great to see him again.”
“His friend works here.” I point to Mason at the East Bar. “Gen and I have hung out with them a couple of times.”
Tyler pockets his remaining chips and stands, glancing at Mason’s bar. Only a couple of customers hover in front of him at the moment. “I’ll talk to your friend and find out about Jaeg. Maybe we can get together before I go home.”
The idea of me, Tyler, and Jaeger in the same room is unnerving. I’m hoping Tyler’s plans with Jaeger do not include me. The last thing I want is for Tyler to pick up on my attraction to his friend and give me a hard time about it.
Tyler sidles up to my table a little while later, but I’m busy and can’t talk. It’s not until the next day that he brings up his conversation with Mason.
He pulls milk out of the fridge and drinks from the carton like the animal he is, while I paint my toes on the kitchen floor a couple of feet away. “What’s on the docket for tonight?”
He shoves the milk back on the shelf—mental note: Throw out carton with Tyler germs—and drums his fingers on the counter. The high energy he’s exuding leads me to believe he has something in mind.
I carefully rub a pink splotch off the tip of my big toe with a paper towel. “Nothing. Why?”
“Your friend Mason gave me Jaeger’s number. I got a hold of him, and he invited us to his parents’ place for dinner tonight.”
I mentally gasp. I’m not ready to see Jaeger. My newfound freedom might propel me to do something stupid, like attack him for hot rebound sex. “Umm—”
It’s possible that the attraction I’ve felt for him stems from my frustration with Eric.
That I was grasping for attention and Jaeger was the closest good-looking guy available.
There’s also the possibility that Jaeger paid me attention to give Mason time to chat up Gen.
He and I were paired together in the fishing boat so Gen and Mason could be alone.
And later, Jaeger hauled me off at the party, I presume, so that Mason could make his move.
Or there’s the possibility that this thing between Jaeger and me is real. And that’s what really scares me. I don’t want to get hurt again, and crappy relationship or not, Eric’s betrayal hurt me.
“What’s wrong? I thought you became friends with Jaeger this summer?”
“I did,” I say, hesitantly.
Tyler rubs his forehead and looks around. “We don’t have to go. I’d like to see him, but I’m here to visit you.”
Tyler leaves tomorrow. Today’s the only day he has left to visit Jaeger. They were tight growing up. I can’t in good conscience say no. “You should go, Tyler. You don’t need me there.”
“He invited everyone, and his mom’s cooking her best dish. Just come, Cali. And bring Gen. It’ll be fun. His parents and sister are great.”
There’s no logical excuse I can give not to go after that declaration. Maybe this will work out. “Okay. I’ve been trying to set Gen up with Jaeger anyway,” I say absently.
My stomach goes sour at the thought of Jaeger and Gen together. Now that Mason is a no-go after Gen refused his kiss, Jaeger is the only person left on the list of prospects. I never should have started that stupid list. Why did I think she and Jaeger would be good for each other?
I don’t want to rebound with Jaeger. I like him too much. Which is also why I’m not eager to set Gen up with him.
Tyler squints. “You’re setting those two up? Really?”
I glare. “What’s wrong with my best friend?”
“Nothing. She’s fucking hot.”
Sometimes it’s difficult to believe my brother is a role model to undergrads.
He’s a hundred percent adult when it comes to his students.
I’m not even sure he notices the pretty girls who plant themselves in the front rows of his lectures.
It’s like he shuts off his guy brain while at work.
But get him home, and he’s as immature and horny as any twenty-three-year-old.
Tyler’s mouth twists as if he’s attempting to reach some deep philosophical conclusion, which, for his analytical mind, is probably a challenge. “It’s just… well, I guess I can’t see them together. They’re both reserved, you know? Aren’t opposites supposed to attract?”
His assertion pleases me, and now I’m a terrible friend. But it makes me physically sick to consider Jaeger and Gen in a relationship. I’ve gotta scrap that idea.
I had everything figured out—life, love. It turns out I suck at relationships and my plans for grad school might be my worst decision yet.
“You might be right. Just don’t discourage her from dating. Gen’s had a rough few months and she’s only now coming out of it.”
He holds up his hands. “I want nothing to do with this.” He points at me. “And you should mind your own business. Let Jaeger find his own woman. He doesn’t need you meddling.”
But what if he chooses the wrong girl? And what if she gives in because she’s messed up in the head and on the rebound?