HARVEY
The tears poured out of my eyes as I sat there crying.
Chevy had been calling, as he usually did, once a week to check on me.
Today, however, I couldn’t answer. I knew that if I picked up the phone, he would have known I was crying.
Chevy was so protective of me, knowing what I had just done, and knowing why, would send him on a hunt for someone who seemed to care nothing about me.
I slid my sweater on as I hopped off the table and walked out the door, then the building.
When I reached my car, I got in and sat in the driver’s seat, trying to wrap my mind around everything, how I fell into a love spell with a man who claimed to love me.
I had always believed that things happened for a reason, and this was my reason to believe that having children wasn’t for me.
That being someone’s wife wasn’t in my deck of cards.
Trent and I were good once, but the moment I set foot in his parents’ million-dollar home, I knew that he and I wouldn’t last. The down talking, the pity, and disdain for me told me all I needed to know.
However, I figured Trent’s love for me and his unborn child would make him choose me, but it didn’t.
His family was the priority. He said he couldn’t continue what we had because his mother and father disapproved.
I was confused. I had a baby growing inside me, and he was pushing us away.
I begged Trent to accept me, to choose us so that we could have something great, but it wasn’t enough.
I knew it was something I couldn’t bear alone, so I chose Planned Parenthood.
I did what I felt was best. How could I raise a child alone, with no support and no family?
I did what I felt was right, and now I was in my car crying because, although I knew I made the best decision for myself, the thought of what things could have been like rested in my head.
I started the car and drove away with my sleeping angel to a place I knew they would get the love and family they needed, in a place called heaven.
I vowed to myself to never compromise myself for a man whose family doesn’t like me.
I would never put them in a position where they have to make a choice.
I vowed that I wouldn’t have kids because a child without a family would forever be searching, just as I had.
My eyes shot open into the deep, dark room.
Although I couldn’t see it, I knew I was staring up at the ceiling.
The bed felt light, the space beside me was empty.
I knew Myles didn’t come into the room as I thought he would.
I took a deep breath, letting out a restless sigh.
All the things I had been running from in my past were coming back to haunt me, just in a different manner.
I knew that it was time to truly open up to Myles before the little we were holding on to was gone completely.