Chapter 42 #2
“She financially supported me through college, and even after. She bought my house, car, and gave me a credit card with no limit, but I haven’t used it since college.
Emma and I could manage all our finances with our jobs, but I took everything she gave me as proof that she cared about me.
The habit has been hard to break because I’ve spent my whole life begging for her acknowledgement and love.
” He put a reassuring hand on my shoulder.
“How do you think she would react to cutting those ties?”
I pondered his question. “I’m not sure. I always thought maybe she used money to have some control or say in my life.
Once I cut that connection, I’m afraid she’s going to try to alter my life in some awful and negative way.
That could be an irrational fear, but I think that’s why I held on for so long.
” I hugged my knees to my chest. “We never had a mother-daughter relationship. It has always been transactional—at least since I was eleven.”
“You know how strong I think you are, so I know whatever you end up doing, it will be in your own best interest. It’s not selfish to want a life of peace.
If your mom hinders you from creating the life for yourself that I believe with my whole heart you deserve, then I will do anything you need me to do to support you in making that decision.
” I scooted between his legs, leaning my back up against his chest, and he wrapped his arms around me.
“You were right about this place,” I said.
“How so?”
“I feel happy and rejuvenated here. I’m ready to chase the life I want. I don’t have to be put through life anymore; I can experience the good and the bad and know everything meant for me will someday find me. Just like how you did.”
He squeezed me tight. “You are a brilliant woman. You can create the life you want, and I wholeheartedly believe that. I’ll be here to hold your hand on your journey and even join you if you ever need me to.
But I have no doubts that you will accomplish great things, even without the financial security your mom provided. You will figure it out.”
I turned and looked into his eyes. “I believe you. I must be healing or something.”
He laughed. “Come here.” He grabbed the back of my head and brought my lips to his. We kissed slowly and deliberately at first. Then I shifted my body over and practically tackled him back to a lying position.
We both burst into laughter. “Whoa there, tiger.”
“Sorry, I was trying to get comfortable,” I said, lying on top of him while we continued to kiss. I could kiss him forever. He deepened the kiss first, slipping his tongue along my lips and slowly into my mouth. I bit his bottom lip, and he let out a low growl.
“You have no idea what that does to me.” I shifted my body, so I was no longer lying flat on top of him but was rather straddling him around his waist.
“Show me what it does to you.” I moved my hips, grinding against him. I could feel him growing hard. I continued to nibble on his lips, down his jaw, and slowly down his neck. He wrapped his arms tightly around me so I could no longer move against him.
“We should take this somewhere more private,” he said. We shot up and gathered our supplies, heading to the truck. The parking lot was secluded.
“Is the back seat of your truck private enough?” I needed to show him what he meant to me.
His eyes darkened, opening the door to the back seat.
Once settled in the back, I grabbed his hardness through his shorts before he lifted his bottom to slip them down.
I immediately used my mouth to explore all of him.
I licked slowly around his tip, savoring the taste.
“I won’t ever tire of that tongue,” he said through a groan.
I stared up into his eyes, his expression euphoric. I took him as deep as I could down my throat. He let out a light moan, running his hands through my hair. I sucked up and down his shaft in slow motions at first, then picked up speed, sucking hard around his tip. He trembled, begging for more.
“You’re too good at that. I won’t last much longer,” he said through ragged breaths.
I solely sucked on his tip before taking him out of my mouth and crawling back on top of him to kiss him.
We kissed slowly and passionately, truly taking each other in.
“I really do adore the fuck out of you, pretty girl.”
“You don’t know what hearing that does to me. I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me, but I’ll try to show you instead.” I slipped off him to take off my leggings and panties while he grabbed a condom from his wallet.
I straddled him as he brought himself to my entrance. “You’re so wet from pleasuring me. I’ll never get enough.” He let his head fall back, and his eyes fell shut, groaning with pleasure. I bounced lightly, and he wrapped his hands around my bouncing breasts.
“You feel so good inside me. Being close like this with you is where I always want to be.” I kissed him. He wrapped his arms around me, increasing speed from below. He sucked lightly on my neck, and I could feel myself getting close to the edge. “Grant, I’m so close.”
I stopped my movements, hardly containing the orgasm overtaking every inch of my body. “I got you, my love,” Grant whispered in my ear as my body continued to convulse with pure love and pleasure. “Good girl,” he said reassuringly. Grant’s release soon followed.
“You make me come alive. I think my body left Earth, though.” We both laughed.
“Me too. Maybe that’s the difference between sex and making love; that was by far the sweetest release I’ve ever had. I can’t wait to make love in all the places we call our own.” He kissed me lightly on the forehead.
I released myself from him and cleaned up the best I could with the paper towels Grant brought.
He drove us to the trail spot with a sign titled ‘Sunset Trailhead.’ We strolled hand in hand, stealing glances at one another, but otherwise enjoying the scenery in silence.
“Here we are,” he said, leading me to the top of a rock structure overlooking the mountains and trees.
I admired the picturesque scene. He stood behind me, wrapping his arms around my shoulders.
I closed my eyes, listening to the ruffling leaves, birds singing, and Grant's light breathing. This would be my new happy place.
“Thank you for bringing me here. I’ve never been as happy as I am here with you. I feel like I can start living the life I deserve if I have you by my side.” I turned to face him, wrapping my arms around him.
“I’m honored to have found you.” He kissed me lightly on the lips. I basked in the bliss of kissing the man of my dreams, mountainside surrounded by trees, sunshine, and love.