Chapter 5 Ciara #4
When Harmoni was discharged, they told us that she was fine overall, but she did have a busted ear drum and a slight concussion. She was expected to make a full recovery. Cadence got examined, but he hadn’t been touched at all. Everything with him checked out to be one hundred percent good.
As Moni and I walked out of the hospital arm in arm, Trell asked for permission to carry Cadence to the car. He smiled as he held the baby and whispered to Rowdy. They stopped walking, and Rowdy pulled Trell into a hug before patting his back and continuously congratulating him.
“What’s all that about?” Moni asked as we got in the backseat of the car.
“Girl, when you feel better, I’ll tell you later,” I responded.
“If it’s something dealing with you, tell me now, Ciara. I’m good. What’s going on, Best?” she asked with concern in her voice.
“Trell made me get checked, and they confirmed that I’m pregnant. It’s twins, but I don’t know what I’m gon’ do. This is not what I expected, and I don’t want to go through with it,” I told Moni as I passed her the ultrasound.
Moni looked at it with her hand over her mouth, and while she examined it, she started to cry. She pulled me in for a hug and held on tight to my neck as she spoke in my ear.
“Ciara Nicole! That’s a blessing, girl! God knew what you needed, and he gave it to you double.
You got me! If you ain’t got nobody else in the world, just know that I got your back through whatever!
Appointments and anything else you need, I’m going to be right there holding your hand.
You won’t ever do this alone. If you don’t want Trell, you don’t have to be with him, but what I do know is that he’s gonna do his part.
We don’t mess with bums ’round here. He knows what time it is when it comes to you and those babies.
I promise I’m rockin’ if you rollin’, Ci!
Just tell me that you gon’ keep them, and I’m gonna do everything I can to make sure y’all straight. ”
“Moni, I don’t know, man. I got so much that I’m still trying to accomplish.
We are not the same. Look at you. You have a man who worships the ground you walk on.
I don’t wanna be a single mother with two kids before I even pass my bar exam.
I don’t want Trell in my life for the rest of my life.
This is just not what I wanted for me!” I cried.
“This happened for a reason, not an accident. If I’m telling you that I got you, just trust me. Look me in my eyes and tell me that when you found out it was twins you weren’t excited. Man, that’s a big blessing. The big man is trying to tell you something, so you better listen.”
During the rest of the ride, I laid my head on Harmoni’s shoulder and contemplated my next move.
I knew I should’ve been comforting her, but I needed it too.
My friend was never one to judge me. She was always there whenever I needed her, and that’s why I would forever go so hard behind her.
When we made it back to her house, Rowdy took Harmoni inside, then he brought out my keys from his pops.
I knew that there was a lot they needed to talk about and get squared away, so I gave them their time, but I promised to come back over tomorrow.
Trell walked up to my car after I got in, trying to talk to me, but I pulled off on him. I had to figure my own shit out.
Once I made it home, I let myself into my house and flicked the light switch, but everything was dark.
I turned my flashlight on my phone as I crept further inside.
I knew like hell they hadn’t cut my shit off because I had my bill on autopay.
As I walked toward my bedroom, I stood at the door and noticed that my whole headboard was broken and there was no sign of Smutty.
Before I knew what was happening, he jumped out of my hall closet and started choking me from behind with the handcuffs that were still on his wrist.
I used all my might to throw my body weight back on him in hopes of loosening his grip.
“Bitch, you ain’t smarter or stronger than me, hoe! You really thought I was about to allow you to play me like that and let you live? You tased me, cuffed me, and almost sliced my ass up. Nah, bitch. No more being nice to you bitches,” Smutty barked in my ear.
I felt myself losing consciousness, and it was harder for me to breathe.
I thought about how ironic it was that I said I didn’t want the twins, and I wasn’t going to bring them into this world.
I wanted to play God, and now I was in a position where I had no choice.
When I said I didn’t want to have these babies, I definitely didn’t mean like this.
I was losing all my strength to fight back, and everything around me started to fade.
Smutty continued to choke the life out of me.
Just as I was about to let go and stop fighting, I heard a faint screeching sound, then brain matter flew all over me and my walls.
Smutty’s body went limp, causing him to fall on top of me.
I almost hit the floor, but Trell caught me.
He got Smutty from around me, and I noticed he had his gun in hand, silencer attached.
“I told you if a nigga was at your crib, he would be a dead man,” Trell said as I collapsed into his arms, and he hugged me tighter than ever.