Retribution (Anthem River)

Chapter 24

Chapter

Twenty-Four

K ade was wringing his hands together as he waited at the overgrown area he’d chosen to bury his brothers. Saint had assured him that all the families of his men would be there. Would they hate him because he survived? Would they wish it had been him and not them? Would they try to attack him?

“Kade baby, breathe. Everything will be okay I promise you,” Ram said as he pulled his anxious boy into his arms. Kade was going to pace a hole in the floor if he didn’t calm down pretty soon.

“You can’t promise that,” Kade griped. God forbid Ram promised and then it turned into a shit show, he’d be a little pissed if he were being honest with himself. He wanted it to go well, he wanted his men’s spirits to know they were loved and thought of often. Their families deserve closure and his men deserve to have a place to finally rest. Kade was a firm believer that if the body was not in a restful place, then the soul of the dearly departed would wander lost until the vessel it was placed in on earth was laid to rest. He needed to know for himself that his men could finally rest, that their families would finally get the closure they deserved after all these years. That Cho’s wife and children would finally have a place they could come and visit him, tell him stories and have him as part of their lives once again. It all seemed so insignificant in the long run but he knew it would give Emma peace of mind. She now had a place she could come to vent, to berate Cho for leaving her and their children, but he also knew that Emma would bring their children here all the time. So they could learn about their father and have their own special bond with him. He knew wherever his men had gone after death that Cho was always by his daughter’s side no matter what. He had been obsessed with that little girl when he’d been alive, he could talk about nothing else and he’d named Kade her Godfather. He’d been so fucking proud and touched his buddy had trusted him with such a big responsibility, and while he’d been a shitty Godfather so far he made a silent vow to himself that he would start to become a more permanent part of their lives. From the way Emma had described her she was like a mini Cho running around, and while he wasn’t very comfortable around kids himself, he was so fucking happy there were still parts of his tender-hearted loyal friend on this earth. The world was a better place because they existed.

They had gotten there hours earlier, Kade no longer able to hold it in any longer. He’d gone around and memorized the feel of each coffin. He’d made sure they all had the nicest available, he’d also added things from the guys’ lives in there for them to enjoy in the afterlife. He really hoped they were together, they’d always been happiest together and he could only hope they were still cutting up with each other. He missed them desperately; the jokes, the laughter, the pranks and shenanigans they’d pulled on each other was something Kade would remember as long as he lived. He’d loved those guys more than he could say and as he waited on their families he stood vigil. The five coffins were set up next to each other. He’d always miss the times they’d had at the mess hall. Where Lewis would start a food fight and then the others would join in. McBride had always played random action music anytime they were about to be deployed and they would all get drunk and sing along. Keegan had introduced him to the wonders of TV and he’d always think of the man whenever he watched Spongebob. Cahill had always been the quietest of them, but the man was a damn shark at the poker table. Cho was in the middle while the others fanned out around him. Kade stood guard in front, his head bowed at parade rest. This had been the first time in years he’d broken out his uniform from his closet. He wished he could have seen the look on Ram’s face when he’d seen him, but the strangled groan had clued him in. His Daddy liked his uniform and that fact made Kade irrationally pleased. It had taken him for fucking ever to get all the ribbons and buttons on, and he’d had to have Doc make sure they were all straight and to help him tie his tie and attach his pins and cords. He’d heard the gasp Ram had let out when he asked him to put the last piece on him, he’d waited for the others to leave before he’d asked. He’d been awarded the Medal of Honor when he’d returned, he’d still been in the hospital when it had happened and he couldn’t even tell you how it happened. He’d been so out of it with pain and so doped up he couldn’t remember anything. It wasn’t something he felt he really should have been awarded but he didn’t really get a say in the matter, but he put it on for his men. Because of them he got it.

Ram was blown away. He’d known Kade had a long successful career in the military before his capture, but seeing the amount of medals and ribbons on his boy’s uniform really made him realize he had no idea just how badass his baby was. He gently handled the precious metal before Kade turned and he wrapped the blue fabric around his neck.

Kade turned back around and looked at Ram head on. “How’s it look?”

Ram had to clear his throat before he could speak. “Perfect.”

Kade nodded in response. Thankfully Ram seemed to understand that he was getting overwhelmed and just led him to the truck.

Waiting was the hardest part for Kade, he was not a patient man by normal standards and pair in his anxiety and anger and he was a walking time bomb ready to explode and take out whoever was close to him.

Ram moved closer to Kade as he saw several people started to arrive. He really didn’t think he was supposed to be up there but there was no way in hell he was leaving Kade to fend for himself. He smiled softly at a small woman who moved closer to them, she was with a young girl and boy and with the way the woman was staring at Kade he would bet she was the wife of one of his men.

“Kade.” Her voice was soft and pleasant.

Ram felt his boy tense next to him and while he knew it was a no no to grab his hand while he was in uniform he brushed their shoulders together so his boy would know he was still there.

“Emma.” Kade could barely get her name out through the lump in his throat.

Ram almost moved forward when the little girl who couldn’t have been more than eight or nine moved closer to his boy.

“Are you Kade?” she asked, her crescent shaped eyes squinting as she cocked her head at him.

Kade swallowed hard. “Yeah I am, you must be Avery.”

Ram knew the blinding smile the girl gave Kade would have warmed his boy’s heart if he could see it.

“My daddy used to talk about you a lot in the videos he left for me,” she told him excitedly.

Kade didn’t even know what to say to that, he couldn’t imagine the shit Cho had spouted about him and he almost smiled even as a pang of hurt slashed through his chest. He would miss that fucker until the end of his days, and then he would search for him in the afterlife, because some friendships were powerful enough to transcend lifetimes. “Oh, yeah?” he asked, his voice hoarse with emotion.

“Yeah he used to call you the brother he always wanted but never got. I don’t know why he’d want a brother, they’re annoying,” she said with the utmost disgust only a young girl could muster.

Kade snorted. “I’m sure they are, but it’s a lot like having a built-in best friend. Wouldn’t it be cool if you could be with your best friend all the time?”

Ram hid his smile as Avery hummed, cocking her head to the side and staring off into space as she thought. “Maybe. He’s gross though.”

Kade shrugged. “That’s where you come in as the big sister, you make him a little less gross each time you see him.”

Avery pursed her lips, then shrugged and bounded off like nothing had happened.

“Thank you, Kade. She hasn’t really bonded with her little brother ever since he was born, all she really talks about is her father and Thomas can’t really remember him. He was born shortly before you were reported missing.” Emma looked at Kade with sadness and warmth in her eyes.

Kade pulled the wrinkled, crusty note from his pocket and held it out. “He made me swear if he ever died and I lived, that I would give this to you. It was still in his pocket.”

Emma took the note, finally allowing her tears to fall. She’d been desperately trying to hold them back all week, but she couldn’t do it anymore. “Thank you, Kade.” She wrapped her arms around his waist and hugged him tight before she moved back to her seat where her daughter was currently trying to fix her younger brother’s tie.

Ram grinned. Avery was griping at her brother that he needed to quit wrinkling up his clothes if he wanted to be her best friend, while the young boy just stared up at her like she hung the moon, stars and the sun. “You okay?”

Kade sucked in a deep breath. “No, but it is what it is at this point.”

Ram gripped his shoulder hard in support. His boy didn’t know it yet but as soon as they got home he was going to show Kade the error of his ways. His boy had fled the country without even a word and it was time he paid for that, they just had to get through the funerals and he’d be able to take his boy apart and put him back together again.

The funeral went off without a hitch, Kade was so happy that the families of his men would now have a place to come to talk to them whenever they were in need. The peace and closure he was able to offer them eased some of his own guilt over the whole situation. He was standing alone in front of Cho’s temporary headstone when he felt a presence next to him.

“Thank you for bringing my son home.” The frail paper thin voice that most old people possessed had to have come from Cho’s father. Hiroshi Cho had been a formidable man when Kade had met him years ago, but the loss of his son had aged the man drastically overnight. He didn’t even need his sight to know the man in front of him was wasting away.

“It’s the least I could do.” He bowed to the man, wishing he could do more to take away the man’s pain. He had no idea what it was like to bury a child, but from what he’d heard and witnessed it was one of the most painful things anyone could go through.

“Losing my son shattered me, a father should never bury his child, it’s not the way things are supposed to go, but losing him and not being able to bury him almost killed me. It’s because of you that I have more strength than I’ve had in years. My son loved you in only the way a brother could love another, and I will always be grateful to you that you were there with him at the end. That he didn’t die alone.” Hiro’s voice gave out on him as he moved closer to Kade’s side. “I will ask you one thing.”

Kade had a feeling he knew where this was going, but nodded his acquiescence.

“He didn’t suffer did he?” The question was asked so low Kade almost didn’t hear it.

Kade braced himself to answer and let himself remember that day, something he hadn’t allowed himself to do in a long time. He shook his head. “No, he didn’t suffer. I had already been injured at that point.” He made a gesture at his eyes. “He was trying to get to me. It was all my fault.” He had to swallow hard. “I lost my temper and hit one of the guards, in retaliation they blinded me and killed the others.” He knew it probably wasn’t a good idea to tell the man all the details, he should have just lied and said no and left it at that. “They were shot, it was over within seconds.”

Ram kept his eye on Kade and the man he could only guess to be his brother’s father as they spoke quietly. He could see every flinch the other man gave off whenever Kade would speak, but he didn’t seem angry he just seemed sad so Ram stayed out of it in the hopes that Kade would also be able to get some closure for this.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t able to save him,” Kade said, softly. He’d give anything if he could take his brother’s place. He deserved to be here more than him.

Hiroshi gently grabbed Kade’s arm. “My son adored you, it does not surprise me one bit that he died trying to protect you. Please don’t let my son’s death be in vain, Kade, live for him. You know that’s exactly what he would have wanted.”

Kade nodded as he could sense Hiroshi leaving. He could feel the sun on his face and the cool breeze fluttering by. He crouched down, sinking one hand in the dirt that now covered the body of his best friend. “I hope you like the place I picked out for you guys.” Instead of choosing Arlington like he’d originally planned to, he’d found an old abandoned property with a dilapidated house on it and bought it. It had amazing views of the Guadalupe Peak, and he’d known the second he’d stepped on the ground it would be the perfect place. It was a bit of a drive but so worth it to give his men the burial they deserved. “I miss you man,” he said roughly. “There are so many times I’ve just wanted to talk to you. Or sit next to you and enjoy the silence. I reconnected with a few of the guys that came through basic when I was a drill sergeant.” He chuckled. “You would have fucking loved Saint.” The tears came, he’d cried more in the past few months than he’d ever cried in his life. “They’re a good group of men, and I started that security firm I always told you I would. All the guys are a part of it too, I did it in your honor man and I hope you’d be proud of the things I’ve done. I got a new man too.” He could imagine Cho’s reaction and he grinned through his tears. “I know, I know, right about time huh? He’s a good guy, he’s actually the uncle of one of the guys… kind of weird if you ask me, but hey the sex is good.” He could feel the heat on his cheeks and could only pray no one was close enough to hear him. While he’d loved all his brothers, and would have done anything for them, him and Cho had been the closest. “I promise to come visit you often man, and I hope that in time you would have forgiven me.” He stayed there for a few more minutes just soaking in the sun and fresh air, it really was the perfect place to bury them. It was almost like he could feel how pleased his brothers were with his decision to bury them here, if he thought hard enough he could see them smiling at him in his mind and that eased some of his doubt.

“You ready to go?” Ram asked after a few minutes.

Kade nodded and stood. His back twinged and he knew he’d probably pay later for squatting so long. “Yeah, I’m ready to go home.” He walked towards their trucks.

“The new headstones should be here later in the week or early next week,” Doc told him as he passed. “I’ll come back and make sure they’re put in right then let you know.”

Kade nodded, hugging his brother close. “Thank you for all you’ve done Doc, I couldn’t have done it without you.”

Doc grinned at the words whispered by his ear. “Not a problem brother. Go home and get some sleep. You look like hell.”

Kade sniffed. “Saint is now my favorite brother.”

Doc sniggered. “Oh yeah, sure.” He clapped Kade on the back before heading to his own truck with Scorpion on his heels.

The drive back to Kade’s apartment was quiet but not strained. Ram gave Kade the space he needed to be able to process everything and just enjoyed being beside his boy for the time being. He smiled every few minutes as Valk’s snoring from the backseat got so loud it could wake the dead. The big baby was good for a lot of things, being a support in the car was not happening, he fell asleep within minutes of starting the truck every time. He pulled into the parking lot and parked in Kade’s disabled parking spot. He’d found out that even though Kade didn’t drive the owners of the apartment had given Kade the spot for his rides so he wouldn’t have to go search for them anytime he needed to leave the apartment.

He gently tapped Kade’s thigh. “Let’s go in and get a quick shower and I’ll fix us a light snack before we settle for the day.”

Kade nodded unconsciously, his mind still miles away.

Ram would let it go for now, knowing his boy still needed time to compartmentalize everything. While Kade headed off to the shower he fixed them both a little charcuterie board of fruits, cheeses and meats. He didn’t know about Kade but he could really only eat most vegetables if they were drowned in some type of sauce. Once he was done he grabbed a couple of bottles of water and headed to the bedroom. He found Kade sitting on the bed slumped into himself as he dried his hair. His glorious body was mostly on display and Ram had to smother his groan. He needed to stay on his mission and not get distracted and just love on his boy. He needed to make sure Kade knew the error of his ways. “Here baby, some snacks for you to eat, I’ll fix dinner later.” He set the plate down on the nightstand and handed Kade the water. “I’m going to jump in the shower and I’ll be right back.”

Kade nodded, and leaned back to grab a few pieces off the plate and opened his water.

Ram hurried through his shower, being quick but thorough as he scrubbed himself. Sitting outside hadn’t been bad for him considering his childhood, but put him in a suit and he felt like he would melt in the sunshine. When he walked back into the bedroom, still drying his hair, he noticed Kade had moved up on the bed, laid back and had one arm thrown over his face. He took a few minutes to just enjoy the view of his baby. All that tawny skin on display, the ink, the scars, all of it made Ram’s mouth water. Kade’s sizable dick was soft and the tip was resting on his thigh. He shrugged and dove for it, sucking his boy all the way to the back of his throat.

Kade shouted in both shock and pleasure. Fuck, Ram was sucking so hard he felt like his dick would pop off. “Shit,” he groaned.

Ram pulled back with a pop, Kade hadn’t gotten fully hard yet, his body going back and forth from shock and pleasure, to shock and pain. “I think it’s time you get the punishment you earned for your actions.”

Kade froze at Ram’s calm tone, his dick went completely flaccid and he swallowed hard. “I thought you said I wouldn’t get punished?”

“I said I won’t spank you or use impact play with you for punishment, not that you wouldn’t get punished. There are other ways to get my point across than spanking you.” He moved closer to Kade and settled beside him. “Now, do you want to tell me why you’re being punished?”

Kade sighed, but rested his head on Ram’s shoulder. “Because I left the country without notifying you. It wasn’t very nice and I can see how it was a dick move. I’d be pissed as hell if you did that to me. I’m not sure why you’re not pissed at me.”

“No, I’m not pissed at you due to the circumstances, now if you just fucked off to another country for shits and giggles and didn’t tell me then I would be pissed and believe me, you’d know it.” Ram huffed, raking his fingers through Kade’s hair. “So, what’s going to happen is you’re going to roll over and you’re gonna keep your hands under the pillow and let me have my fun.”

Kade swallowed hard as he rolled onto his stomach and slid his hands under his head. He faced away from Ram knowing the man wouldn’t hurt him anymore than he could take.

Ram started at Kade’s head, raking his hands through his hair as he straddled his waist. He traced his profile as he nipped at his neck and breathed in his ear. He grinned at the involuntary shiver Kade gave him. He kept his touch light and moving, he wanted to keep Kade on edge as long as he could, he wanted this to be a rewarding and trying session. His boy needed to learn his place but he also wanted Kade to know he did it out of love and not as a way to just beat him down and control him like he couldn’t take care of himself. He leaned back and ran his nails gently down Kade’s back, chuckling when his boy hissed and wiggled his hips. He teased Kade until his boy’s body was dotted with sweat and he could barely control his moans. He leaned back to grab the lube, he really had wanted to draw this out but he was so damn hard it hurt so they would have to try again later. He was gentle with the first finger, gently tapping the furled skin before pushing forward. His boy granted him access with a deep sigh of relief. He grinned, giving up control had to feel so good for Kade, his boy was so tired, but trying to give up control with anyone else just led to him being treated like a child. He was happy his boy knew that just because he submitted to him in the bedroom didn’t mean he had to outside of it. He worked his way up to two fingers before he pulled back. He wouldn’t outright hurt Kade but his boy was going to feel this for days. He slicked up his dick before notching the head at Kade’s entrance, grabbing Kade’s hips to arch his back. “Take a deep breath for me.” When Kade did he thrust forward.

“Ah, fuck!” The burn was so fucking intense, pain and pleasure made it hard for his brain to decide what it wanted to tell his body to do. “Oh fuck.” He arched his hips as Ram set up a brutal pace, he had to grab the headboard and push back against it to keep from being slammed into it.

“You’ll tell Daddy next time you leave won’t you?” Ram asked, his breaths coming in harsh gasps.

“Yes!” Kade bellowed. “I’ll tell you once, twice, fuck me, three times I swear.” His body was so overstimulated but with the way Ram was pile driving his prostate, he was going to come and there wasn’t a damn thing he could do about it. He leaned back against Ram when he pulled him up, as he slowed his thrusts, but made them no less powerful. The back of his head rested on Ram’s shoulder as he dug his nails into the powerful forearm that was wrapped around his chest. He’d be embarrassed later about the high pitched grunts that were coming from him but it felt like Ram was just forcing the air out of his body with each controlled thrust. “Fuck I’ma cum.” The next thing he knew he was face first on the bed and Ram was pulling out of him. His throat closed with panic. “What-”

“You’re fine baby, I’m right here.” Ram flipped Kade over and settled in between his thighs. “You don’t get to come yet.” He sucked hard on the skin right above Kade’s nipple.

“Shit.” Kade almost choked on his own breath as his body shook with pleasure. How the fuck did this man know just what to do to get him to see fucking stars. He’d never felt like this before, granted his only partner had been Devin, but even in the beginning he’d never felt like this.

Ram easily slipped inside and he smiled as Kade made a disgusted face at the suction noise.

“Gross,” Kade groused. He really didn’t need to fucking hear that shit. He sneered when all Ram did was laugh, his big body jerking against Kade’s. “If you’re done having a fucking seizure can you get back at it?” He rolled his eyes when Ram’s chuckles turned into guffaws. He was just about to make another biting comment when Ram chose that moment to start pounding Kade into the mattress. “Fuck.”

Ram grabbed Kade’s legs and settled his heels over his shoulders and damn near bent his boy in half as he gave him the pounding of a lifetime. Sweat was pouring off his face and his muscles were screaming at him and he knew both him and Kade would be sore as fuck in the morning. He reached to grab Kade’s dick but he didn’t even need to bother, Kade arched as he came, his shout loud as his body continued to convulse under him. He slowed his thrusts and set up a calm movement as he waited for Kade to catch his breath, he let his legs fall back to the bed as he leaned down to kiss Kade’s slack lips.

Kade grabbed Ram’s neck and pulled him down to hide his face in his neck. Fuck he felt so vulnerable and he had no idea what the fuck to do about it. The tears came and he had no way to stop them.

“There’s my good boy,” Ram murmured, kissing Kade behind his ear as he nuzzled his neck. He could feel the wet heat on his neck and just wanted to give his boy time to let it all out. He tried to pull away but the panicked whine halted him. He settled back down, but rolled them so Kade was on top. He had to give his boy props, Kade made sure he didn’t slip out during the move. He bent his knees and rested his feet flat on the bed to give Kade a place to rest. “Easy, baby. I’m right here I’m not going anywhere. Do you know what’s wrong?” He sure as hell did but he wanted to see if Kade did.

Kade sniffed hard. “I’m sorry I disappointed you,” he said, softly.

Ram grumbled. “You didn’t disappoint me baby, you’re my good boy and I’m so happy with you. You scared me baby that was all, and I forgive you.”

“I promise I’ll tell you next time,” Kade said, his tears still coming in strong.

Ram ruffled Kade’s hair before he cupped the back of his head and kissed his temple. “I know baby, but even if you don’t I won’t be disappointed with you. I’ll be upset and I’ll take it out on your ass but I’ll never be disappointed with you. There may come a time where I’m disappointed in your choices, but never you.” He gripped some hair and pulled Kade’s head back. “Do you understand me, baby?”

Kade nodded as much as he could before he settled back into his spot in Ram’s neck. It was weird Ram was still inside him. He could feel the man pulsing every few seconds as his hole milked him slowly, but he felt so empty. He moaned and swirled his hips hoping that would get the picture across to the man under him who seemed perfectly fine to just lay there with a hard dick in someone’s ass… Rude.

Ram hummed, his body felt so relaxed with Kade on top of him like his very own personal weighted blanket and he was starting to get drowsy. “What’s the matter, baby?” He felt Kade wiggling around on his dick and the boys frustrated whines. “You want my cum, baby?” To see the red blush crawl up Kade’s chest to his cheeks was something he was never going to forget.

“You gonna give it to me?” Kade snapped, so not liking the way the conversation was going. He was all for submitting to the man but damn he didn’t want to say that shit out loud.

Ram chuckled knowing exactly where his boy’s mind had gone. “Do you think you deserve it?”

Kade’s brows furrowed, not understanding. He thought Ram had forgiven him.

Ram knew he’d made a mistake the second he’d spoken the words. He thrust up making Kade gasp. “I didn’t mean it like that baby, I was just teasing you.” He assured his damaged boy.

Kade nodded. “Okay, thank you, now please can you-?” He grimaced and Ram smiled.

He picked up his pace. He wouldn’t make Kade say it tonight, his boy was already on an emotional rollercoaster and it was his job to make it all better.

Kade laid back over Ram, his head on his shoulder as he enjoyed the gentle sway of both their bodies. He hummed ridiculously pleased when he felt the warm heat fill him and Ram’s body slump under his.

“Let me clean us up,” Ram said softly, grabbing the wipes he’d placed in the nightstand and hastily cleaning them before throwing them to the floor. He choked on a laugh when Valk stood up a dirty wipe resting on his forehead as he glared at Ram before he huffed and moved away.

“What?” Kade asked groggily.

“I threw a wipe on Valk’s head.”

Kade snorted so hard he started coughing. “Don’t be mean to my baby.”

Ram laughed. “I didn’t see his big ass.” He shook his head as Kade settled back down. He would wonder until the end of his days how he’d gotten so fucking lucky. “Love you, baby.”

“Love you, Daddy.”

The next morning Kade groaned when his alarm went off. He was so fucking spoiled. He used to barely sleep at night and would alway be up before his alarm went off and now he would snooze the bitch until he would almost be late to the office.

Ram chuckled from beside Kade. “Come on baby, get up and take a shower and I’ll make you some coffee and breakfast. You know you could have taken the day off, I’m sure the guys would understand.”

Kade grunted as he pulled himself into a sitting position. “No, me and the guys are having a celebration of life for the guys, it’s basically us hanging out and telling stories.”

Ram smiled, for all the stoic badassery he’d seen from those men to know they were just a bunch of softies was so cute. “Alright, I hope y’all have a good day. Make sure to call me when you’re done and I’ll come pick you up.” He smacked Kade’s thigh. “Now come on before you’re late.”

Kade grumbled the whole way to the shower.

Ram grinned happily as he set about making Kade a quick breakfast and packing him some snacks. He figured one of the guys would bring or order food for everyone today but he wanted Kade to have something just in case. He had to take a deep breath when Kade joined him, decked out in some worn jeans and another tight T-shirt. He narrowed his eyes, his boy knew exactly what he was doing. “I don’t think your ass can take another pounding right now.”

“Hmm?” Kade asked, ignoring him as he poured his coffee. He really wanted to try something this morning, but he’d been trying to work up the courage to ask for weeks and he was still being a little bitch about it. “No idea what you’re talking about.”

Ram grabbed him and turned him to face him. “Really?”

Kade just hummed again and took a sip from his coffee, keeping his eyes trained where Ram’s chest was.

Ram cocked his head. “What do you want, baby?”

Kade froze with the cup halfway to his lips. How the fuck did the man do that? It was annoying as fuck. “I don’t-”

“Whatever it is, baby, all you have to do is ask and I’ll give it to you,” Ram promised.

Kade raised an eyebrow. “I could say the bones of my enemies.”

Ram shrugged. “Give me their names and a few hours and I’ll get them for you.” He chuckled at Kade’s shocked face. “You seem to forget I grew up Amish, I can kill and skin pretty much anything.”

“Alright Hannibal Lector.” Kade rolled his eyes.

“He’s hot as fuck,” Ram said through his laughter.

“Which one? Anthony Hopkins or Mads Mikkelsen?” Kade asked, this would totally be one of those questions that if Ram got wrong he’d leave him.

Ram snorted. “Both.”

Kade nodded in satisfaction. He loved Anthony Hopkins and while the man terrified him on some primal level he was a beautiful man, and don’t get him started on Mads. While the man wasn’t classically beautiful he was definitely gorgeous on a rugged level.

“You’re not gonna distract me Kade, what do you want?” Ram asked, softly. Watching Kade closely to see if he could guess so Kade wouldn’t have to tell him. He hoped Kade would eventually grow into his voice but he loved when he became all embarrassed and flushed.

Fuck him did the man see everything , he groaned internally. He didn’t even know what to say.

Ram saw Kade’s eyes flicker down as he licked his lips.

“Do you wanna suck me, baby?” Ram asked, his voice pitched low to add some more dominance in the hopes it would give Kade more confidence, but judging by the blush taking over his boy’s face he’d hit the nail on the head. “Go ahead baby, you never have to ask.”

Kade nodded. He was going to sink to his knees but hands under his arms stopped him.

“Couch,” Ram said, gruffly. He didn’t want Kade to be in pain later because of this. He laid back on the couch and just let Kade take control for a bit. He wanted his boy to learn his body just as much as he was learning his.

Kade’s hands shook as he unbuckled Ram’s belt, he hadn’t really gotten a good taste last time with what happened and he was dying for another try. He gently eased Ram free and sucked the head into his mouth. He was so glad Ram didn’t try to hide his sounds, that was all Kade had to go on beside feeling and he was pleased to hear Ram’s deep groan and feel his muscles tense in pleasure. He stayed sucking on the head for a moment before he moved a little further down. He didn’t go too far, he’d have to work up to that again but what he couldn’t fit in his mouth, and there was a lot he couldn’t fit, he used his hands on.

“Fuck baby,” Ram grated out through clenched teeth as his legs moved restlessly. Fuck he’d had a lot of guys suck his dick over the years but he’d never been this close to coming so fucking fast. “Not gonna last,” he warned.

Kade took that as a challenge and doubled down on his efforts sucking hard while jacking the base.

“Shit.” Ram’s back arched as he came down his boy’s throat, he wrapped one hand around Kade’s throat to feel it, before collapsing back on the couch to catch his breath. “Fuck me,” he muttered.

Kade grinned triumphantly.

Ram kissed him hard, groaning at the taste of himself on Kade’s tongue. “Fuck we need to go before I take you back to bed.” He got up and righted his clothes before ushering a smug Kade out the door.

Only once Kade was safely in his office did he laugh like a loon, he was so fucking happy Ram had been able to understand what he wanted and he made a mental note to try and work on being able to tell Ram more of what he wanted. It was hard but he was trying and that was all he could do and he knew Ram got off on him being all tongue tied and nervous like the dick he was. He rolled his eyes as he sat at his desk and listened to Valk settle on his couch. He had no idea how long had passed, he got so lost in his emails, when Valk let out a deep rumbling growl. Kade froze, unsure of what he was hearing, Valk never growled.

“Well, well, well, look who we have here.”

Kade tensed even more at the sound of Devin’s voice. “What the fuck are you doing here?”

“You have something I need, so you’ll be coming with me,” Devon told him sweetly.

Kade raised a brow. “What the fuck are you talking about? I’m not going anywhere with you.”

Devin sighed like he was being put out. “I thought you would say that, good thing I didn’t come alone. Go ahead guys.”

Kade could have fucking kicked his own ass, he was so focused on Devin he hadn’t even noticed he wasn’t alone. He jerked back from his desk, sending his chair crashing into the first person that came after him. He heard the next one coming and was able to move as he sailed past him. He heard Valk snarl and a scream as a crunching noise filled the office.

“Enough of this.”

Kade froze as he heard the one voice he never thought he’d hear again. “You!” The fucker who had blinded him and killed his men. He was moving forward when he heard a shot and Valk yelped. “Valk!” He moved towards his baby, then he felt something crash against the back of his head and then there was nothing but darkness.