Retribution (Anthem River)

Chapter 28

Chapter

Twenty-Eight

K ade came awake slowly, his head pounding and his mouth watering with the need to throw up. He squeezed his eyes closed tight and took a few deep breaths to stave off throwing up. He hated doing it, the dry heaving was the worst. He’d rather be back in the hole and being tortured than to throw up ever again. Once he settled down a little bit and he was able to move without the fear of exploding, he opened his eyes and grunted at the bright light. He had to blink repeatedly and keep his eyes mostly closed as Ram’s bedroom came into focus. His heart pounded painfully in his chest when he looked over at Ram. His Daddy was absolutely gorgeous. Ram was sprawled out across the bed beside him. His long muscular body relaxed into the mattress. For the first time he was able to see Ram’s tattoos. On his left arm, the one closest to him, was the beautiful image of a screaming bald eagle. The mouth was wide open as the wings took up his whole bicep. On his right arm was a gorgeous bluish purple dragon with red and green spikes that started from his shoulder and wrapped around his arm to end at his forearm. Whoever had done them was a certified beast. Ram was blurry as his eyes tried to take in everything at once, his daddy was naked, and had kicked off the sheets at some point during the night, and Kade could see everything. His eyes widened in shock when he took in his man’s dick, even soft and laying on his thigh it was big. No wonder he was sore as fuck afterwards, while Ram was only maybe half an inch longer than him he was so much thicker. The girth of the man was downright unfair. The man had a fucking water bottle between his legs. He jumped when he heard shuffling at the door and saw Valk slowly making his way over to him, “Hey, baby.” He grinned even as his eyes filled with tears. He leaned down and kissed Valk on the forehead. “You’re very handsome, buddy.” He chuckled softly when Valk grumbled happily at him. “Ready for breakfast?” As soon as Valk’s tail started whipping back and forth he eased from the bed, doing his best to not wake Ram. The man needed his sleep. Once he went through the morning routine and Valk was happy he skulked back into the bedroom and eased back onto the bed. Ram made a soft noise as he snuggled into Kade’s side, but didn’t wake. Kade took his time studying Ram’s body, gently running his hands over his arms and through his chest hair. He got lost in the motion as his eyes filled with tears. This was what he’d wanted, to be able to see Ram just once more and it was so worth it. He loved the man so much it was ridiculous. He studied Ram’s face, it was smooth and lax in sleep. His olive skin was darker than Kade would have expected for an ex-Amish man, but he’d been out in the sun a lot lately. His hair clashed with his skin, but in a good way. It had gone completely gray. When Saint had introduced them years ago it had been more salt than pepper but it had still been darker. Regardless, the man was breathtaking. The fact that he was seeing his man in the flesh and blood made the tears fall. His eyes burned a little bit and he blinked repeatedly to try and help. He couldn’t get enough of seeing his man. On his perusal back up Ram’s body he met Ram’s sleepy blue eyes. Even the man’s eyes were fucking gorgeous. A dark blush gray, like rolling storm clouds over the ocean.

“Good morning, baby,” Ram said gruffly as he stretched his long body out.

Kade’s mouth watered, fuck him sideways he was a lucky motherfucker. “Mornin’,” he grunted out. To see the desire in Ram’s sleepy eyes as he looked Kade over made his heart a little melty. He really liked how Ram looked back up at his eyes when he spoke to him. Like just because he was blind didn’t mean Ram wanted to just look at his mouth. That’s what a lot of people did when they spoke to him, he knew his eyes made them uncomfortable. It wasn’t something he could help though and when he could hear their voices coming from an angle near his chest he lost a little bit of respect for them.

“You sleep okay?” Ram asked through a yawn.

“Yeah.” And he had. He always slept well in Ram’s arms. He couldn’t help adding, “You have really pretty eyes.”

Ram made a noise of thanks, before his eyes widened and flew back to Kade’s face. “What?” he demanded, his brows furrowed in confusion.

“Your eyes. They’re beautiful, I’ve never seen a blue like that.” Kade almost wanted to look away from the intensity of Ram’s gaze.

Ram reached out and yanked Kade to him. “And how does my boy know that?”

Kade settled over Ram’s chest and rested his forehead on Ram’s chin. “I can see them.”

“Oh, yeah?” Ram asked, playfully.

Kade couldn’t even be mad at Ram for thinking it was a joke. “Yeah,” he murmured. “You have a cute little birthmark in the shape of a bird on the inside of your right thigh.” His head was jerked up when Ram grabbed his chin and made him look up.

“You can really see me?” Ram breathed the question.

“Don’t get too excited,” Kade muttered bitterly.

Ram’s brows furrowed before he growled. “Don’t do that.”

Kade swallowed hard. “I just don’t want you to get used to it. It’ll go away, it always does.” It was true the doctors could never even give him a reason he would regain his vision for a little bit to just lose it again. They had wanted to run all sorts of tests but Kade knew in his heart it wouldn’t last and he would just be giving himself a sense of false hope if he went through with anything the doctors wanted to try. The vision he regained wasn’t even the best. He still needed his glasses and to keep his eyes closed most of the time. His eyes hurt more now than they had in a long time, the lights gave him a headache and made his eyes sting. He never changed anything, he still relied on his tools because he never knew when his vision would leave him again.

“And I’ll love you the same.” Ram assured him easily, hugging him close. “This won’t change anything for me. Am I happy you can see me… yes. Because now you can see how much I love you, and you can see what you mean to me. So when your vision fails again you’ll know deep down into your very soul that I won’t leave you.”

Kade stayed silent, he didn’t want to outright call Ram a liar and he felt like shit for not believing him, but he just couldn’t. People always left him, they never stayed, and he was honestly surprised Ram had lasted as long as he had. He would always love the man for the kindness and love he’d shown.

Ram just smiled sadly, it was like Kade’s thoughts were playing out loud. He didn’t say anything and just pulled Kade back into his chest. Kade would learn in time that he was worth it. Ram would make sure of that even if it was the last thing he ever did on this earth. “What would you like to do today?”

Kade nuzzled his face in Ram’s neck. “I’d like to stay right here for a bit longer… Is that okay?”

Ram cupped the back of Kade’s head and kissed his temple. “Yeah, baby.” The sadness in Kade’s voice tugged at his heart strings. He knew it wouldn’t be a quick fix, but he’d hoped Kade had started to rely on him more for his emotional well-being as well as the physical. Ram would do whatever it took to make sure Kade was happy and healthy, and he knew he should be patient but he really wanted it to happen now. “I’ll get up and make breakfast in a few minutes. Do you want to stay in bed or would you like to join me in the living room?”

Kade sighed. “The living room.” He never liked to stay in bed, and as soon as Ram left the room he got anxious and just wanted to be near him. God help him when Ram finally got tired of him, he wouldn’t survive it. Months of some of the worst torture known to man and he’d been fine, he’d come out of it stronger. Several months with this man and he knew he would literally die if it ended, and he wasn’t exaggerating, he’d put the bullet in his own skull if that’s what it took. After a few minutes he got off of Ram and followed him into the living room, he sat on the couch and took a few deep breaths before he opened his eyes to look outside. He had to immediately shut them when the early morning sun became too much. He cracked one eye open to see if he could focus on anything outside that would help his eyes get used to the new lighting. He saw a giant tree, he couldn’t be sure but he thought it was a pine tree several yards from the house with a small pond just underneath the sprawling branches. He bet it was a very relaxing place to just sit and take in nature. He could see a few horses in the background.

“When we’ve had breakfast I’ll take you out to see the farm if you’d like?” Ram asked, as he dished out their breakfast. “We can go hang out with my brother and Sanem too, I know she really enjoys your company.”

Kade nodded. “I need to check in on Levi,” he stated.

Ram studied his boy for a moment. Kade seemed almost overwhelmed with everything. He gently placed the plate in front of Kade. “If it gets to be too much, tell me.”

Kade looked into Ram’s eyes, hit yet again with the fact that he could see them. He nodded, afraid that if he tried to speak he’d start crying all over again. He shoved a sausage in his mouth in the hopes that would stave off the tears or at least he’d choke before they fell. As he ate he continued to watch the horses grazing several yards away.

“Have you ever ridden before?” Ram asked, as he joined Kade at the table.

Kade shook his head. “No, I had talked to Saint about trying it when I came back from deployment… but that never happened.”

“Do you want to go riding with me today?” Ram wondered.

Kade perked up. “Can we?”

Ram looked at the sky before he smiled at his boy. “Yeah, it’s supposed to be sunny and cool today so we can ride around the property. I know of a couple of the horses that will be perfect for your first time.”

Kade raised a brow. “You gonna take my horse virginity?”

Ram snorted then choked on the bite he had taken when he tried to breath. Kade’s face had turned red and horrified once it clicked what he had said.

“That came out so wrong,” Kade said horrified.

Ram coughed as he laughed, trying to get a hold of himself. “That was priceless.”

Kade rolled his eyes. “Yes, I would very much like to go riding.”

“Good, we can take our time because I don’t have anything planned for the day, unless you do?” Ram pointed at him with his fork.

Kade shook his head. “No, I was just going to check up on some emails, I’m still on doctors orders to take it easy.”

Ram nodded. “Good, after we eat we’ll watch an episode of whatever you want to watch to let our breakfast settle before we head out to ride.”

Kade nodded and shoveled the rest of his food into his mouth. He decided on an episode of the Highlander, because he and Carnage used to sneak into the video store near where they’d lived and watch it before they’d get caught and thrown out.

After the episode was done Ram lead Kade out to the barn to take a look at the horses up close. He expected some hesitation from his boy on meeting the giant beasts but his boy surprised him. He walked right up to the horses and petted them while he cooed at them. His boy was a fucking natural and it was amazing to witness. “Have you figured out which one you wanna take for a spin?”

Kade paused as he thought, looking back and forth between the four horses in front of him. “How about that one?” He pointed.

Ram snickered. “That’s Comanche, he’ll be a perfect boy for your first time. He’s a little bit older but he’s gentle and sweet, but has enough get up and go if you need it.”

Kade petted the black horse as Ram spoke. The horse had warm light brown eyes and seemed happiest when Kade was touching him. “Which one are you gonna use?”

Ram pointed to a buckskin. “That’s Windigo.”

Kade snorted.

Ram chuckled. “Saint named him, he’s a good boy but he’s more for an advanced rider because he likes to test the people in the saddle and he can kind of be a dick.”

“He’s beautiful,” Kade murmured softly. The bright blondish coat of the buckskin kind of hurt his eyes but it was too beautiful to look away from. His long black mane and tail were shiny and straight.

Ram smiled and kissed the horse’s snout. “He is, and he knows it. He was used as a breeding stud when he was younger, but the lady that owned him before Bram got him trained him well.”

“He looks like he would move well.”

Ram grinned. “Oh, yeah. It’s like being on a rocking chair, it’s so smooth and easy. If you want when we have ridden a few more times I’ll let you take him out so you can experience it.”

Kade pursed his lips. “I don’t know if I’ll be comfortable riding once my vision leaves.”

Ram moved closer and threw an arm around Kade’s shoulder and petted Comanche as he shoved his face into Kade’s chest. “That’s understandable. If you want to try, I’ll be with you. If not that’s okay too, I just want you to know it’s an option.”

Kade nodded. “Thank you. Will you teach me how to put the saddle on?”

Ram smiled at the excitement in Kade’s voice. “Absolutely.” He spent some time giving Kade an in depth lesson on all the tack just in case and he showed Kade how to do it, before he pulled the saddle back off and made Kade try it just to make sure he got it down.

“This stuff is quite heavy,” Kade huffed.

“Yeah, but it doesn’t affect the horse any and that would be the only reason to worry. Well that and having to haul it all around,” Ram said, chuckling.

Kade huffed out a laugh. “Getting ready was so much work it’s almost like I just wanna go back to the house and take a nap.”

Ram laughed. “You get used to it after a while.” He moved closer to Kade and had Comanche stand still as he moved Kade to his left side to mount. “You ready?”

Kade took a few deep breaths. “As I’ll ever be.”

Ram cupped his hands together and helped lift Kade into the saddle. He gave his boy a second to get his balance before he helped him move his legs to the right position and how to sit in the saddle. He mounted Windigo and moved him closer to Kade so they could take off together.

“Jesus, you just flew into the saddle,” Kade said, shocked.

Ram laughed. “Like I said you get used to it all and it becomes easier.”

Kade raised his eyebrows. “I’ll take your word for it.”

Ram set them off with an easy walking pace, traveling from the barn to the farthest end of the property. He made sure Kade put on his sunglasses before they got too far out of the shade.

Kade was in awe of the view. All he could see was snow capped mountains and green as far as the eye could see. “It’s really beautiful here.”

Ram nodded in agreement. “It is, and very peaceful too. I used to come out here all the time and just ride for hours at a time and take it all in, but each time it’s more breathtaking than the last.”

Kade’s brows furrowed. “You didn’t stop because of me right?”

Ram leaned over and cupped Kade’s cheek to meet his eyes. He let the horses stop and graze before he answered. “No, I stopped because I never had the time, with work and the club it just took a backseat to what I was busy with. Once you came along I completely forgot about riding because I wanted to be with you.”

Kade didn’t know how he should feel about that. On one hand he felt bad because Ram hadn’t been doing something he loved, and on the other he felt happy that Ram had wanted to be with him and hadn’t pushed him to ride with him. “But you’re gonna start riding more often right?”

Ram nodded. “Yeah, and if you want to join me you can, or you can hang out with your brothers or do whatever you wanna do.”

Kade nodded. “Do you think after a bit more riding we can stop in and see what Sanem made for lunch?” he asked sheepishly.

Ram laughed. “Of, course we can.” That set them off again and they went down by the creek so Kade could see all the different kinds of animals they had. He grinned at his boy’s excitement over the baby chickens and the pigs they had, and he didn’t really have the heart to tell him what they were for.

After riding for a couple more hours he led them back to the barn. “Wait on me,” Ram warned Kade before he could dismount. Once Ram was back on the ground he moved to Kade’s side and helped him slide to the ground. He caught Kade when his legs gave out.

“What the fuck!” Kade scrambled for purchase on Ram’s shoulder.

Ram chuckled as he helped his boy regain his balance. “Riding a horse makes you use muscles you have no idea existed. You’ll be fine but when you ride for the first time or two you feel like you have no control over your legs when you get back down.”

Kade grunted and stood up straight. He tested his legs a few steps and while his thighs and hips were sore he found out he actually liked that feeling. He felt similar to when Ram would fuck him into the mattress.

Ram grinned when Kade blushed and his eyes unfocused. He knew exactly where his boy’s mind had gone. “Let’s get them untacked and cooled off before we head to the house.” He taught Kade how to take all the tack off and how to properly brush the horse and lead them back to their stalls. He made sure they both had plenty of food and water before he wrapped an arm around Kade’s neck and pulled him into a kiss.

Kade let out a soft moan as he moved closer, sliding his hand up the side of Ram’s neck and into his hair so he wouldn’t get the idea to back off.

Within seconds the kiss turned dirty and wet.

Ram nipped at Kade’s bottom lip and Kade sucked on his tongue. He pulled back to breath and watching Kade fight for control snapped his. He bent his knees a little and grabbed Kade’s ass and hauled him into his arms. He could tell by the frantic and harsh hold that Kade didn’t really like to be lifted but he didn’t complain. He knew picking his boy up now that he had his sight back was trippy for Kade, and he tried to be gentle when he did. Ram moved them to the food storage room and kicked the door shut and locked it.

“Wha…” Kade’s words were cut off by Ram’s lips when they made contact with his. Fuck the man could kiss. Every time he kissed Kade he got lost and it was only him and his Batty. He had to tear his mouth away when oxygen became too important. “Fuck,” he gasped.

Ram tried to give Kade a few moments to catch his breath before he mauled him again. He looked down and almost groaned. His boy’s thick cock was pushing against his zipper and he wanted it. He pushed Kade back against the wall and sank to his knees. He wasn’t gentle as he tore open Kade’s pants and pulled them past his gorgeous ass. While Kade was still trying to catch his breath Ram sucked him to the back of his throat.

“Oh fuck, oh shit,” Kade panted as his legs became restless and his shaking fingers dug into Ram’s scalp.

Ram shifted a little to get into a better position before he softly spanked Kade’s thigh, telling his boy it was okay to let go.

Kade cupped the back of Ram’s head and thrust into his throat, he went slow to build up but within seconds he was thrusting sporadically as he tried to hold back his orgasm. “Gonna come,” he warned, breathlessly.

Ram hummed in agreement.

Kade tried to smother his yell as he came down Ram’s throat. He slumped back against the wall and tried to catch his breath. He whined as Ram gently sucked on him as he softened.

Ram pressed Kade back against the wall and kept him in his mouth. Watching his boy shake with sensitivity gave him a sick kind of pleasure. He rose to his feet making sure his body brushed against Kade’s, making his boy let out another delicious whimper. “You good or do you want more?”

Kade groaned, his head plopping down on Ram’s shoulder. He reached out and grabbed Ram’s hard dick. The man was as hard as a fucking rock. “I don’t think I can come again, but I want more.”

Ram nodded and turned Kade around. “Lean on the wall and I’ll take care of everything else.” He had to take a few extra seconds to pull his zipper down, he was so hard he was afraid the zipper was now tattooed on his dick. He pulled out his wallet and grabbed out a packet of lube and a condom. Since they were headed to the house after this he didn’t want Kade to be uncomfortable.

“No condom,” Kade whined. He wanted to feel all of Ram.

“I’ll give you what you need later tonight baby I promise.” He quickly prepped Kade, not bothering to draw it out. He was so close to the edge he was afraid he’d blow before he even got inside. He had to squeeze the base of his dick hard as he put the condom on. Once he’d calmed down a little bit he notched the head at Kade’s entrance and before he could even move Kade took it upon himself and thrust his ass back, taking him to the hilt. “Fuck Kade.” Ram grabbed his boy’s hips and squeezed hard.

“No more waiting Daddy, I want it now,” Kade demanded.

Fuck him his boy knew exactly what to say to get what he wanted. He pushed Kade flush against the wall and picked up his pace. This wouldn’t last long at all, but he really didn’t want anyone walking in on them. “Squeeze me, baby.” Kade did and it was all over. He thrust once, twice, then buried himself and growled out his release. “Fuck’n hell, baby.”

Kade hummed as he slumped back into Ram. He was so tired all of the sudden.

Ram grinned and held his boy tight as he let out a little cry of distress when he slipped out. “It’s okay you’ll get more later. Let’s get you cleaned up and then you can take a nap before we have lunch.” Getting his boy presentable again was like dressing a sleeping toddler… a fucking olympic sport.

“Hey Ram, hey Kade.” Sanem greeted them from the kitchen when they walked in.

Kade mumbled hi as he moved to the couch and laid down.

“Is he okay?” Sanem asked, worriedly.

Ram nodded and smiled. “Yeah, we went for a trail ride and it wore him out, but he wanted to come and have lunch with you.”

Sanem smiled at his boy lovingly. “Good, I’ll make his favorite.”

Ram read the text that came through on his phone and grunted. “Do you mind watching him while I go take care of something?

Sanem shook her head. “Of course not.”

Ram kissed her cheek. “Thank you, call me if he needs anything I’ll be back soon.” As he moved out the door he sent Doc a quick text to have him meet him at The Diner.

Ram and Doc slid into the back booth of The Diner, to wait for Carnage and Savage.

“What can I get y’all?” Sugar asked, as she set down two steaming mugs of coffee.

Ram grinned at her as he took a sip. The woman knew just what he needed. “My usual, please.”

“I’ll have what he’s having,” Doc said, politely. He waited until she had walked away before he turned to Ram. “How do you think this is going to go?”

Ram sighed. “Savage I think will be more worried about the food, it’s Carnage I can’t get a read on. He’s not like aggressive or anything, he just doesn’t really show emotion. It’s hard to gauge what he’s thinking.”

Doc nodded. “We’ll see how it goes.”

They waited for a little bit before Ram noticed Savage and Carnage across the street headed their way.

“There they are.” He pointed to show Doc.

“Jesus,” Doc said the word like it was a swear. “You didn’t say anything about the man being a fucking tank.”

Ram snorted, Doc wasn’t lying. Carnage was built like a man who’d had to spend his whole life fighting to survive. He pretty evenly matched him except for in height he was about an inch shorter than him, but the man’s bulk made him weary of starting anything. He watched Carnage closely as he took in Doc and his surroundings before sitting, making sure his back was to the wall and he had a clear view of the entire place.

“What can I get y’all?” Sugar asked as she came back by.

Savage started to shake his head but before he could speak Ram jumped in. “Two more of my usuals please.”

Sugar patted his arm and gave him a knowing smile. “Anything for you, Ram. You gonna take anything back for Kade?”

Ram raised a brow. “I do value my life.”

She let out a loud guffaw as she walked away.

“You didn’t have to do that. You paid for breakfast the other day,” Savage told him softly.

“I’ll do it again too.” Ram assured him. “Breakfast is the most important meal of the day.” He knew they were having trouble adjusting to having anyone else care about them and he wanted to do what he could to help.

Savage shared a look with Carnage before he licked his lips and turned back to Ram. “We are grateful to you for that…”

Ram saw the uneasy look passed over Savage’s face. “You owe me nothing.” He assured the young man. “You are important to Kade and therefore are important to me.”

“I’ll pay you back as soon as I can get some money,” Savage told him quickly.

Ram shook his head. “It’s not necessary, but I understand your position so I won’t say no.”

Savage nodded. “Thank you. We’ve been working odd jobs but it’s hard when you don’t have any paperwork.”

Doc spoke up. “What do you mean?”

Savage winced. “Our parents didn’t register us. So technically we don’t exist. We have no proof we’re a resident of the United States. When me and Siren were placed in foster care we got papers, but when we were kicked out of one when we were fifteen we lost all the papers and trying to get new ones with no ID and no address is impossible.”

Doc blinked in shock. “You’re Native right?”

Both Savage and Carnage nodded.

Doc pulled out his phone and called Cowboy. “Hey, man.”

“What’s up? You finally get tired of Scorp and wanna hang out with the others?” Cowboy asked, laughter clear in his voice.

Doc rolled his eyes. “Shut up. I need your help with something.”

“Name it,” Cowboy said immediately, the teasing tone gone.

“I’ve met two guys that are having trouble finding jobs because they were not registered when they were born. Both are Native Americans but they need a social security card and a birth certificate.” Doc nodded his thanks as Sugar placed his food in front of him.

“Send me the details and you’ll have them in a day or two,” Cowboy told him, already reaching for his laptop.

“Thanks man, I appreciate it. Dinner is on me next time.” Doc assured him. He hung up and met the shocked eyes of their guests.

“Wha...” Savage looked to Carnage for help.

Doc shrugged. “Kade would do it for you if he knew, I’m just doing it for him so he doesn’t have to worry.”

Carnage leaned forward, his food ignored as Savage basically inhaled his like he was afraid it would be taken away from him. “Know him?”

Ram smothered a chuckle at Doc’s shock over how deep Carnage’s voice really was.

Doc nodded, taking a sip of his coffee. “Yes, I do. We served in the military together years ago. I work for him now.”

“Boss?” Carnage cocked his head.

Doc blinked a few times before he replied. “Are you asking if he’s a good boss or if he is the boss?” At Carnage’s nod he smiled. “Yeah he’s the boss man. He owns a security company called Clairvoyant Sight Investigations, he’s also the best boss I’ve ever worked for. I view Kade as my brother,” he told them, “He’s always had my back no matter what and I’ll always be grateful I met him.” He looked at Carnage. “He speaks of you often. You would be proud of the man he’s become.”

Carnage nodded and leaned back and no-one said anything when his eyes became suspiciously wet.

“Eat up,” Ram urged. “I’m hoping to get everyone together soon so you can see Kade again.” He smiled at Carnage. “He’s waited a long time to see you again. He had slowly been losing hope on finding either of you.” He started to eat his hash browns. “I don’t want to just spring you on him because of the issues with his heart at the moment.”

“What happened?” Savage asked with his mouth full.

“He went into cardiac arrest when I was at my brother’s house helping him with his horses. I came home and found him… I thought he was dead,” Ram said the last part softly as he stared at his food.

“It’s amazing he did survive. But that’s Kade for you. He’s always been a fighter.” Doc patted Ram’s shoulder.

“We’ll be ready whenever.” Savage assured him.