20. Astor
CHAPTER TWENTY
ASTOR
“ S o, explain this to me again. You fucked and now you don’t hate her anymore? I mean, I know hate sex is good, but goddamn was it that good?”
I’m at the bar with Justin and his mouth is hanging on by a thread.
“First, I’m not discussing my sex life with you. Second, I never hated her. I hated that she fucking erased me in the first place.”
Justin knew the history with Alessia. He knew what happened to her and was there to put the falling fucking pieces back together when I was a slither of myself.
“Are you going to tell her about Miles?”
“I want to. It’s eating me alive, hiding it from her, and last night changed everything. I know you think I’m fucking whipped, but it wasn’t about the sex. It’s how she reacted to Anna, how she stood her ground to me. I know she wanted to leave, but she didn’t. She fucking stuck it out. You know for a fact that no one can handle my wrath, but she fucking takes it and dishes it right back.”
The more I think about her words to Anna, the more I get turned on.
I’ll slit your fucking throat.
I hadn’t heard that voice or seen that side of her since she was fucking sixteen.
“What about her father? He’ll lose his shit if you tell her.”
“Do you think I give a fuck about her father?”
I don’t, and the more I’m around him lately, the more irritated I’ve become with him. The way he’s been treating her, talking to her; it hasn’t been sitting right with me. He usually holds her close and coddles her, but that hasn’t been happening.
“Fair enough. Tell me, by chance, is she with a friend with blonde hair?”
My brow furrows at the mention of Caroline.
“And a body that should be goddamn illegal?” I follow his gaze, my blood boiling when I see her and Alessia sauntering over to us with every fucking man breaking their necks to watch them. I’m out of my chair before they reach me and Alessia walks straight into my arms.
“Fix your face, they’re just looking,” she whispers as I close my arms around her.
“If they value their sight, they’ll look elsewhere. What are you doing here?”
“Caro wanted to get some drinks. I guess we like the same places.” She sits next to me and Caroline sits next to Justin, who hasn’t taken his eyes off her. I shake my head at him.
“Justin,” Alessia says, leaning over the bar, “she’s batshit crazy, so don’t get too attached.”
“Crazy is just my type,” he says with a sly smile as Caroline raises her eyebrow.
“Doesn’t she have a boyfriend?” I ask as Alessia chuckles.
“They broke up. He couldn’t handle her. Some girl tried to talk to him, so she hauled off and hit her.”
“Hmm, now I understand why you two are friends. You have that whole jealous thing in common.” She bumps against my shoulder.
“I’m not jealous.”
“Could’ve fooled me.”
“I don’t even like you.”
“Right…keep telling yourself that, malyshka .”
“ Malyshka , little devil ...any other names for me?” she asks, smirking at me.
“They're both so fitting, don’t you think?”
“Justin and I are going outside. We’ll be right back,” Caroline says, approaching Alessia. She grabs her arm and gives her a look. I quickly eye Justin and he grins.
“We’re just going to be a second,” she continues, slowly releasing herself from Alessia’s grip.
We watch them as they leave the bar and Justin puts his hand around the back of Caroline’s neck. I know what they’re going to do.
“She’s going to fuck him,” she says in disbelief.
“Not our business,” I say, because it’s not.
She downs the rest of her drink and turns to me.
“Tell me something,” she starts.
“Hm?”
“Are you going to go back to being cold with me?”
“Cold?” I question.
“Yes. I never know what to expect with you. I don’t want to seem na?ve, and I don’t expect things to be different just because we had sex, but...”
“But what, Alessia?” She tucks her hair behind her ear, looking at the ice in her glass.
“Nothing, never mind. It’s stupid, I’m being ridiculous.” I turn her body towards me. Her green eyes quickly find mine and she tucks her lip.
“If you’re asking me if you matter to me, you do. If you’re asking if you have the option of getting away from me, you no longer do.”
“I had the choice before?” She chuckles.
“Not really.” She hides her smile and I’m a goner, a fucking goner. I tilt her chin up to me. “Bathroom. Now.”
Her eyes widen, but she does as I say. I watch her walk to the bathroom and I wait a moment before I follow her.
I lock the door behind me and I’m on her in a second.
“I’ve been thinking of how good your pussy feels around my cock all fucking day,” I growl.
“Yeah?” she breathes.
I yank her pants and panties down, turning her around. She grasps the side of the sink and looks at me through the mirror. I nibble her ear, running my tongue over it.
“Mhm. And now I’m going to fuck this pretty little cunt while you watch me.” My jeans are down and I’m pushing myself in her before I realize what the fuck I’m doing. All I see is her, those fucking eyes and the look that’s in them. I don’t know how I went so long without this. Without this side of her.
“Astor…” she moans as I stretch her. Her grip tightens on the sink, her knuckles white from the pressure. I wrap my hand around her neck as I sink into her with so much force she jolts forward. I tighten my hand on her hip, holding her in place. My thrust is violent, rushed, and brutal. I know I’m probably hurting her, but I can’t make myself slow down.
I’m angry. I’m angry that she thinks she doesn’t matter. That she thinks she doesn’t matter to me. I’m angry that she doesn’t remember me or remember us . I’m angry that I let her get under my skin and I’m fucking angry with myself for not giving a fuck about it.
She’s mine. And if I have to fuck the sense into her, I will.
“You can’t...”
“I can’t what? Hmm?” She throws her head back, her hand slapping against the mirror as I continue my assault.
“Fuck anyone else,” she says, her voice breaking. Her words hit me in my chest, and hard. I reach around and push two fingers into her pussy. She gasps and moans, pushing herself back on my cock.
“Baby, this pussy is the only pussy I’ll be fucking.” She practically screams as I increase my speed, closing her eyes before I grab her chin. “Open them, watch us come together.” Her eyes snap open and she comes with a force so fucking strong it gyrates through my fucking body.
Yeah. I’m completely fucked.