42. Connor
42
Connor
M y fingers stroked through Violet’s dark hair, sending her lavender scent into the air around us. The house was quiet. Maverick and Reid were at the clubs. But the calm of the night wasn’t soothing me. Even lying in bed and holding her in my arms didn’t prevent the tightening in my chest.
I’d said too much tonight. It’s not that I didn’t want her to know me, but she wasn’t ready. She had her own things to work out. I didn’t need to add to her stress.
But a part of me thought maybe it was time. We crossed some barrier over the last few days. What we were doing wasn’t fleeting anymore. Even Reid agreed she was ours. And we were hers.
The longer we lied to her about where Maverick and I went, the harder it would be to tell the truth. I didn’t come by lying naturally, like Reid and Maverick. I didn’t need it to survive until I was a teenager. They’d spent their whole lives concealing one secret or another.
What was Violet going to say when she found out ours? When she learned we weren’t these good samaritans she saw us as, but criminals? Would she still want us?
“I had a really great time.” She tilted her head until I was staring into trusting green eyes. Vulnerable. “Thank you.”
The confessions burned my tongue, but I swallowed them down as I lifted my hand to stroke her cheek. She was unbelievably soft under my fingertips. I hated myself for continuing to conceal the truth. But I knew the second I told her I risked losing this. And that was a reality I couldn’t face.
“You never have to thank us, little bloom. We like taking care of you. Treating you well. It’s how it should’ve always been.”
“Still, I’m allowed to show my gratitude.” She rolled her lips together as if she had a secret. I recognized the lustful glint in her eyes. But she was too nervous to ask for what she really wanted. She liked when we demanded it from her instead.
Violet shrieked in delight as I grabbed her hips, maneuvering her until she was straddling my lap. Her warm cunt pressed right into my hard cock. I crossed my hands behind my head as I admired the view. “By all means, show me how grateful you are.”
Her dark hair slid across her cheek as she leaned forward. Her teeth sank into that pink plump bottom lip as she started working the buttons on my shirt. I was mesmerized by the gorgeous slope of her petite nose. By the rapid rise and fall of her chest.
She was so goddamn beautiful; I found it hard to breathe. But I didn’t think her hands were shaking for the same reason. They trembled as she pushed my shirt open. Her touch was tentative as she traced the lines of my abs. It was barely a touch at all, but it burned my skin.
She was making me crazy. I wanted more. Needed her. Grasping the back of her neck, I brought our mouths together. Mine was firm, not demanding. But hers was soft, almost shy. I could taste her nerves on my tongue.
“It’s okay. You remember how to do this.” I said across her lips. “It’s just you and me.”
Her lashes fluttered over timid green eyes. “Shouldn’t we talk about birth control? Or diseases?”
Her eyes narrowed when I couldn’t contain my chuckle. My fingers stroked her pulse gently, trying to calm her, but it raced instead. “Well, we’ve shared a lot of fluids already.” Her creamy skin stained pink at the memories. “But I’m clean. We all are. We make everyone at the club test monthly. And we had the doctor check when you arrived.”
“Thank you.” I hated the grateful tone of her voice. Hated that she went through that.
My grip loosened on her neck. Maybe this wasn’t the right moment. She wasn’t ready. But as I started to pull away, she sunk her nails into my chest to hold me close. “I have a birth control implant.”
That was all the confirmation I needed. My lips pulled into a smile as I kissed her again. This time, she wasn’t as shy. Her tongue eagerly moved against mine as she opened for me.
I could kiss her like this forever. Soft and sweet. In no rush to get anywhere. Just enjoying the moment.
I knew better than anyone that perfect moments like this were fleeting. That things could change in an instant. A single heartbeat.
Violet shivered as I slid my hands under her shirt, pulling it over her head. My eyes raked down her body, taking in the curve of her waist. The way her hips flared out. Her perky breasts and tight nipples.
“Fuck you’re beautiful.” I said it because it was true and she needed to know it. But she turned her head like she didn’t believe me. I grasped her cheeks, bringing her gaze back to mine. “Are you sure you want to do this?”
“Yes. I’m ready.” Her silky hair brushed my fingers as she nodded firmly. But her eyes flicked around the room. “J-just not here. It’s too familiar. Too closed in.”
It made sense our surroundings would trigger her anxiety. The room probably looked a lot like Simon’s house. Neutral and expensive.
And we weren’t a group right now. It was intimate. Close. One on one.
“I’ve got an idea.” I smirked as I sat up with her in my lap.
Her body molded to mine as if they’d been designed to go together. She lifted her legs and wrapped them around my waist as I stood. So trusting. Her laughter filtered through the house as I carried her down the stairs, through the kitchen and out the patio door.
Her laugh was like a balm to my soul. A reward that told me I was doing the right thing. My lies were to protect her. My touch was to heal her. I wanted to erase all the horrible memories until there was nothing left but us.
“Right here.” She laughed louder as I dropped down onto my knees in the grass. With her still in my arms, I turned until she was straddling me again. “Where it’s not scary. Where you can run away.”
I cupped her cheeks so she could see I was serious. For all the jokes, I’d never make her do something she didn’t want to. I’d never hurt her.
“I don’t want to run away from you.”
As our lips touched again, I hoped she’d feel the same way when she figured out who we really were.
“I don’t want you to leave either.” I closed my hand around the nape of her neck so she couldn’t go anywhere. “Ever.”
My kiss turned hard. Possessive. I kissed her with all the things I couldn’t say. With everything I felt.
My hands skimmed up her smooth thighs. She writhed, rubbing her sweet cunt against my cock, sending a jolt through my body. I tugged on her sleep shorts. “Now, be a good girl and take these off for me.”
There were no nerves as she stood. A slow smile spread across her face as she pushed the shorts down, then kicked them aside.
I ran my fingers up her calves because I couldn’t stand not touching her. “Now mine.”
She dropped to her knees beside me. Her hands were steady as she popped the button on my jeans. She moved with an eagerness as she got rid of them. She was relaxing. Softening as I gave her orders.
Reid was the first one to notice that’s what she needed. It was easier for her when she wasn’t in control. She didn’t second guess or worry.
With one arm around her waist, I dragged her across my lap until she was straddling me. I fisted my cock as she hovered on her knees above me. A groan ripped from my chest as I ran the head through her slick pussy. “You’re so wet for me.” Her fingers curled into my shoulders as she held herself steady. “Come here and let me feel you.”
Slowly, she lowered herself down. Heat shot through me, burning any thoughts from my mind. An inch and I was losing it. She was so tight. So perfect.
My free hand gripped the grass, so I didn’t force my way in. I wanted to let her do this on her own. And I wanted to watch every second of it. Commit it to my memory.
“Oh god. Oh god.” She tossed her head back and moaned as she took a little more. Her nails dug into my skin as she stilled. It was a close fit, but so fucking good.
“I know you can take it all.” I encouraged as I resisted the urge to lift my hips and slam inside her. “You can do this.”
“I need help.” I stared into her gaze, making sure she was okay. All I saw was desire as she pleaded with me.
“I’ve got you.” With both hands, I gripped her hips, sliding her the rest of the way. My entire body went up in flames. “Fuck. A perfect fit.”
Her back arched, thrusting her pretty tits right in my face. Her inner walls squeezed around me. Her lips parted. I was captivated by her. Consumed.
“There you go, little bloom. Make yourself feel good.” I trailed my hands from her upper thigh to that sweet dip in her waist, letting her take control. “Use me.”
I sat back and enjoyed watching her confidence grow. Her hips rolled, pressing the head to a sensitive spot inside her. She hissed in a breath. Her nails dug into my flesh as she did it again and again.
Each drag of her pussy on my cock sent a spark of pleasure through me. My balls grew heavier with every one. My lungs squeezed for air as she tightened around me. It felt too fucking good. Too quick.
Her tits jiggled. Her chest rose with each staggered breath. Moonlight gleamed on her creamy skin. She was a fucking goddess.
“You’re doing so well.” I thrust my hips just enough to have her grasping me tighter. “Taking every fucking inch of me like the good girl I know you are.”
“Connor.” My name on her lips sunk into my heart. Made my body taut. Had my blood pumping a little harder.
I wanted to hear it again. I wanted to hear it forever. Needed her to scream it as she came for me.
Goosebumps broke out over her skin as I brushed along her stomach until I was dipping down between our bodies. She gasped as I pressed my thumb into her clit. But she was eager to lean back and give me better access.
“Does that feel good?” I groaned as she moved her hips faster. I matched her pace, bringing her closer to the edge while I fought off my own orgasm.
“So good.” Her echoes disappeared into the night.
“Touch yourself.” She stilled for a second before her palms grasped her breasts. My tongue ran over my bottom lip as I watched her pinch her nipples.
I felt her getting tighter. Hotter. Wetter. Her shoulders rounded as she writhed above me. I know she was right there when she opened her mouth and gasped. “I’m going to—.”
“Do it! Let the neighbors hear you come on my cock.”
I kept the same steady pace on her clit as she fell apart around me. Her gasps were music to my ears as her walls trembled and her thighs shook. She tightened and released as the tremors worked through her.
My jaw clenched together as I fought the need to follow her. My balls ached to fill her up. She was going to look even more beautiful with my cum smeared across her skin.
I cradled her in my arms as she collapsed against my chest. My fingers stroked down her spine. I kissed her temple. “Good girl.”
All I needed for the next few minutes was her slight frame cuddled on top of mine. Her sated body under my fingertips. Her scattered breathing in my ear. Her lavender scent around me.
Slowly, her breathing evened out, and she shivered from the cold. That’s when I started moving again. Her thighs tightened on my hips as I gently thrust into her.
“Connor.” She whimpered without lifting her head from my chest. “I-I can’t.”
I grasped her waist and the nape of her neck. Holding her in place, I thrust harder. She clamped down around me as I ground into her clit. I could already feel her heat building again.
“You’re ours, little bloom. I’ll tell you when you’re done.” I whispered into her ear as I stroked her pulse. It started to flutter as I rolled again. “You’ve got another for me.”
I fisted her ass, shoving her down on me. She gasped as I went deeper than I’d been before. My fingers ghosted along the seam as I pulled out and pumped in again.
Her fingers clawed at my shoulders as I moved faster and faster. I kept going when she started panting in my ear. When her walls quivered around me.
“I can’t. I can’t. I can’t.” She shook her head even when she pressed against me. Rubbing her clit into my muscles to get the pressure she needed.
She knew how to end this. But she didn’t want to. I could feel it. Hear it in her excited gasps. Sense it in the way she clung to me.
“Don’t stop.” I ordered, as she tightened around me again. “You’re so close I can feel it.”
My cock pulsed in her sweet cunt. Begged to come. I felt each tremor as I moved inside her. Each spark of pleasure as she used me for her own.
“Fuck. You’re so tight.” I gripped her ass harder. Moved faster. “You’re going to make me come so hard.”
“Oh, god.” She pushed up to straddle me again. A timid but sexy smirk crossed her face as she looked down at me. Her cheeks flushed, and she rolled her hips again. Mine bucked in response as a burst of euphoria rushed through me.
“You like that?” I grabbed her waist, slamming her down on my cock. “You like when I tell you how fucking good you feel? How you’re driving me crazy?”
“Yes. Yes.” Violet screamed as I lifted her. The head stretched her open as she wiggled to come back down.
Her nails raked over my chest as I made her wait. Her pussy pulled at me, tried to get me inside again. I felt each one on the tip, sending tremors across my body.
We both cursed into the night when I slammed her down, impaling her on me. My cock dragged along her walls, sent us both hurling into oblivion. She was the best thing I’d ever felt.
“You feel too good. I’m not going to be able to stop.” My hands dug into her flesh as I pumped into her. “I’m going to fill this sweet cunt so full of my cum it’ll be dripping out of you. That’s what you do to me.”
“Do it.” Her palms slid along my skin, looking for purchase as she exploded around me.
Her pussy grabbed at my cock. Sucked me in. Her command sent a rush through my blood. I couldn’t hold back if I wanted to.
My vision grayed as I buried myself inside her. My cock twitched as pleasure ran down my spine. I thrust into her over and over, savoring the way her body trembled for me. Drawing out every ounce of bliss until she stopped. Until I could breathe again.
“Thank you.” She whimpered as she curled into my chest. “Thank you. Thank you.”
My throat was raw, but I still managed to chuckle as I grasped her chin. Her green eyes were dazed as she looked up at me. “My cum is dripping down your thighs, but you’re thanking me?”
I loved the color in her cheeks. The way her skin felt warm as I ran my thumb over it. “Stop it.”
“You just made come so hard I think I went blind for a second. I’m not going to stop talking about it anytime soon.”
She slapped my arm and laughed before nuzzling into my neck. Right where she belonged.