Chapter 20 #2
When he turned to the side, and I caught sight of that long, thick dick slapping against his thigh, I almost choked on my spit.
He looked at me, brows furrowed. “You good?”
I nodded, slapping my chest. “Yes,” I choked out.
“You getting in the shower with me?”
“Um, . . . is that safe?”
He laughed. “What do you think I’m gonna do to you, baby?”
He smirked as he walked into the bathroom.
I gathered myself and stripped down to finally join him.
He was already under the water when I entered.
I stood there for a moment before sliding my wig off and placing it on the counter.
When I stepped into the shower, he turned to face me.
His eyes landed on my braids, and he smirked.
“Looking like Cleo from Set It Off.”
I slapped his arm. “Fuck you.”
He laughed as he handed me two washcloths and a fresh bar of natural black soap. We showered in silence but kept stealing glances at each other. Time had been good to him. His body was so fit and toned. I just wanted to wrap my legs around him and bury myself in his skin.
As we rinsed off, I felt him come up behind me.
His arms came around me, cupping my breasts as he peppered my shoulders with kisses.
His touch wasn’t sexual, more like he was trying to refamiliarize himself with my skin.
His caress was gentle as his hand roamed my body.
In this moment, I didn’t feel an ounce of insecurity.
There was a time when he loved every roll and every pound.
“I missed you,” he whispered.
“I missed you too.”
He reached behind me to turn off the shower.
After giving my ass a hefty slap, he opened the door and pulled me out behind him.
We dried off, then brushed our teeth, and headed back into the bedroom to dress.
While he slipped into a pair of basketball shorts, I slipped into the oversized T-shirt and boxers he left out for me.
As Kerrion removed the pillows and pulled back the covers, I nervously rubbed my hands together. He looked back at me and chuckled.
“You scared?” he asked.
“N-no.”
“Then come on.”
He climbed into bed and motioned for me to join him. I kicked off my slippers and crawled in, making myself comfortable. He stared at me for a moment before sliding his arm under me and yanking me to him.
“I said I need to touch you. Why you wanna be so far away?”
“I’m . . . sorry?”
I didn’t know if that was the proper response. I was so fucking nervous right now, my body was trembling.
“Neha, baby, you gotta calm down. Why are you so nervous?”
“Because I don’t know how to take this, Kerrion. What are we doing?”
“Cuddling.”
I sat up and looked at him. “No. What are we doing? ‘Because it wasn’t too long ago, you hated my guts, and rightfully so. Now I’m not sure if you’re trying to get in them.”
He laughed. Actually laughed.
I folded my arms. “I’m so serious right now. I . . . I have feelings here. The more we’re around each other, the more I realize I—”
I paused, trying to decide if I should bear my truth. If I said it out loud, there was no going back. No taking it back.
“I still love you, Kerrion. “
He sighed as he sat up. “Listen to me. I never hated you. I could never hate you, Neha. Did I want to choke the shit outta you when I found out about Nayelli? Yes. Did I want my sisters to jump you? Maybe. Would I have done it? No. I’ve loved you too much to ever harm you or let someone else harm you.
“I was hurt. You broke my heart when you left, and you broke it again by keeping my daughter from me. The love I have for that little girl made me forgive you. Not only that, I had a talk with my father about the whole thing. After you told me the truth, I could see where I played a part in all this. I don’t want to be angry with you. ”
He gently grabbed my neck and pulled me to him, pecking my lips.
“I need to know I’m safe to let my walls down with you again. There hasn’t been another woman that got the version of me you did. No woman I’ve loved as much as I loved and still love you. You were home for me, Neha. I’ve wandered for ten years, and I’m ready to find home again.”
“Wh-what are you saying to me?”
“I’m saying, I want to give us a shot. I want to date you while rebuilding a friendship. I want more nights like this, with my son included. He has to be included in everything we do.”
“I wouldn’t think otherwise, Kerrion. He’s part of you and Nayelli. I would never exclude him. I wouldn’t try to replace his mother, but if things progress, I’d love and treat him like my own.”
He smiled. “He already likes you.”
“No, he likes laying on my titties the same way his daddy used to.”
He chuckled. “I mean, I loved laying on you, period. You were always so damn soft and smelled so good. You never complained about my big ass being too heavy either.”
I reached out, fingering his beard. “You were like a weighted blanket. It brought me comfort. I missed that. For so long after I left, I used a weighted blanket to give me that feeling, but it never quite hit the same.”
Whenever we slept together, he would always lay between my legs with his head rested on my chest and his arms wrapped around me.
It had always been the best sleep for me.
There were times when I would toss and turn because I couldn’t sleep without him.
I either had to touch him or smell him to sleep peacefully.
Thinking about it now had me realizing just how crazy it was that we were so codependent upon each other.
So many people told us we were too young to be so serious.
That things wouldn’t last. That it was just puppy love.
That might have been the case for them when they were our age, but it was our reality.
We truly loved each other. To hear him say that he still loved me gave me so much hope.
I made myself comfortable on my back and motioned for him to lay with me. He wasted no time, crawling between my legs and resting his head on my chest. His strong arms slid around me, and he released a heavy breath. I reached over and turned off the lamp.
In the darkness, we found peace in the silence.
Before long, we were drifting off to sleep.