30. Sunshine
Chapter 30
Sunshine
T he afternoon flew by. We got the house scrubbed down and by the time Logan and Luca came home, everything was spic and span.
Luca had gone shopping and bought more blankets, some games and a range of ready-to-eat healthy snacks. Logan had bags full of fresh produce and started cooking up a storm. I convinced Julian to play Animal Crossing with me. He’d started dragging his heels during the last phase of cleaning, going from bouncy to lethargic, and looking a little flushed. But when Luca asked if he wanted to go to the nest, he said no.
So we bundled down on the couch. Julian plastered himself between me and Luca and watched me play Animal Crossing. He made suggestions on how to redecorate my island, and what things to craft. It was a nice way to spend the night, and before too long he'd bounced back enough to want to redecorate his own island.
I was relieved to see he was getting to sate his nesting instincts through the game instead of exhausting himself. I put down my controller and started to slide out of the blankets.
Julian whimpered. “Babe, don’t leave.”
“I’m stealing us some food.” I put my finger to his lips. “Be right back.”
I headed into the kitchen, to where Logan was stirring a pot. I peeked around him, not wanting to get in the way, and saw he was making béchamel sauce,. Rows and rows of meatballs were sitting out on paper towels, and a big pot of water was almost at boiling point.
He smiled. “You okay? You need anything?”
“Yes. Food to steal.”
Even though my arms were sore from cleaning, I felt lighter. Giddy. When I’d left work today, I’d told Holly and Raina that Julian’s heat was about to start. I had the next two weeks off, and I was going to spend it with the men I wanted to be my pack.
Maybe it was tempting fate—after all, I was just a beta—but I was excited. They never treated me like I was just a beta after all.
Logan pulled me into a hug with one arm, kissing the top of my head. “You did good today. He never lets us help. Doesn’t want our scent to kick him off early.”
I smiled up at him, and his blue eyes were filled with such warmth that it took my breath away. I had to pause for a moment before I could speak. “I have three omegas in the family. I’ve been well trained.”
Logan leaned down, stealing a quick kiss while continuing to stir the sauce. “I’ll send you out there with some meatballs. I also made some fruit tarts and chocolate mousse.”
“Hell, yes.” I took in a deep inhale of Logan’s herbal scent. This close to Julian’s heat, I could smell bay, thyme, rosemary, and even a faint whiff of lavender. “Dessert is my favorite.”
I moved to the side to let him cook and I could see the two other meals he had going. “Do you always cook and freeze a million meals?”
“Doesn’t hurt to have some easy leftovers. And if we don’t use all the frozen meals, Julian’s fire company won’t say no to them.”
“So, before his heat, Julian cleans, and Logan cooks.” I turned my head and called out to the inhabitants of the couch. “And what does Luca do before Julian’s heat?”
“Luca rests, like a smart person.” He sent me a devastating wink from where he was still sprawled next to Julian, reading a book.
“That’s smart.” I kissed Logan on the cheek, stealing some meatballs.
Logan brushed his hand over mine. “You’re sure you don’t need anything? This is your heat, too. You can ask for anything.”
I surveyed the mountains of food and looked at Julian and Luca curled up on the couch. “I’m great, thanks.”
“Alright.”
I stole another kiss before loading up a plate of meatballs and taking it out to the living room. Julian wrinkled his nose. “I’m still full from dinner.”
“Fine.” I slid back onto the sofa, next to Julian. “More for me and Luca.”
Once I was settled, I passed a meatball over to Luca, right in front of Julian. After ignoring it the first time or two, he decided to steal every second or third one. We managed dessert that way, too. Once Logan finished cooking, he traipsed up and down the stairs, taking food up to the nest, like we were preparing for a siege. Finally, he settled down on the couch with us.
My eyelids drooped even though it was early. The extra heat Julian was radiating beside me, combined with my pleasantly tired muscles made me sleepy. Next thing I knew, I’d started to make simple mistakes while moving the controls.
I set the controller down. “I’m exhausted. Can we go night night?”
Julian looked more tired than me, but he’d decided to rearrange his entire island, which was an extremely time-consuming process. “Let me move two more houses.”
I pouted. “That’s at least another hour.”
Julian looked at me, and I could tell he really wanted to keep going with the game. But even as he opened his mouth to reply, a jaw-cracking yawn escaped him. After that, he just mumbled, “Okay.”
“Nest?” Logan asked.
Julian shrugged. “Might as well. I don’t know if it’s going to be tomorrow. I feel normal, just tired.”
I looked over at Luca, and then Logan, and I knew we were all thinking the same thing.
Julian was definitely going into heat tomorrow. He was boiling hot, moody, lethargic, and his scent was overpowering.
We headed up to the nest, and I changed into my new nightgown from Twine and Egg, the soft texture like butter against my skin.
After we were all ready for bed, we crawled into the inner nest. Julian arranged a mountain of pillows and blankets around us, until I became a little alarmed that if they fell weight of them might crush me. But I found I liked the effect of being surrounded, as the darkness softly pressed around us.
Once he was satisfied with his arrangement, Julian pulled me towards him in the middle of the nest and plastered himself against my side. Logan curled up next to me and Luca took Julian’s other side. Their scents mingling together in the nest until I let out a breathy sigh of happiness.
Julian giggled. “Smells great in here, doesn’t.”
“It sure fucking does,” Logan growled.
“Yes.” I leaned my head against Julian. He was like a furnace, radiating heat, but for some reason I didn’t feel too hot.
Luca patted Julian’s shoulder. “You want to sleep?”
Or have sex was what was left unspoken.
Julian grumbled. “I’m tired.”
I kissed the top of his forehead. “Good, because I’m exhausted. Someone was a drill sergeant all afternoon about the baseboards.”
“You liked it.” Julian wriggled next to me, shifting his weight like he was trying to wear me like a second skin.
“I did.”
Exhaustion greyed the edges of my vision.
I slipped into sleep, the comforting weight of the pack around me.
When I woke up, I couldn’t tell what time it was, and the nest was pitch black. I’d flipped around while I was asleep, so that now I was facing Logan, with Julian snuggled up right behind me. Disoriented, I lifted my head to look for a window but of course there wasn’t one.
The scent of the nest was overwhelming. The sharp hit of rosemary from Logan, the warm cinnamon vanilla from Luca, and the overwhelming citrus of pineapple and coconuts. I sucked in another breathe, wanting to taste their scents on my tongue.
My slight movements partially roused Julian, and he made a little whimper from behind me, his arm curling tighter around my waist. He dragged me closer, arching against me, his mouth on my neck.
Concentrated desire raked across my skin, like a brand. My pussy pulsed, getting wet, and I stifled a whimper. Julian’s hands roamed down my sides, while his breath teased the sensitive area at the base of my neck.
He whined, and Logan stiffened next to me. Rosemary and vanilla grew stronger, and I could smell my own linen scent. I arched back against Julian, the walls of my pussy clenching around nothing.
I was desperate for him. I wanted him to saturate every fiber of my being.
Licking up the side of my neck, Julian stopped to nibble my ear. I gasped, arching further back into him. He shoved his hips against me, grinding his hard cock against my ass.
Heat fluttered through me at the agonizing sensation of having him so close to being inside me, when he felt so far away.
“I think it’s started,” Julian panted.
“You think?” Logan snorted. The alpha propped up on one elbow, then leaned forward across me to give Julian a scorching kiss.
I shuddered, electricity zipping through me as Logan moved his hands over my body while he continued to kiss Julian. In gentle exploration, he touched my breasts, stroking and kneading. Then he scooted his hips closer to me, so I was pressed between him and Julian.
I lifted my leg up, throwing it over Logan’s waist. Julian immediately slotted in behind me, feverishly rubbing himself against me. We were still clothed, and he started making whimpering sounds of frustration, as desperate as I was to feel skin on skin.
In response, Luca moaned from behind Julian, moving his hands in between me and Julian to grab his cock and give him a squeeze.
Julian gasped, breaking from the kiss, and bucked into Luca’s grip.
“Good omega,” Luca growled. Logan purred in response and heat fluttered through me. My heart pounded enough that it felt like I could feel the blood rushing in my head, in my veins. I wriggled back and forth against them both needing more. More touching, more friction.
Logan pulled me into a kiss, taking control of my mouth. He pushed my nightgown up, breaking from the kiss long enough to pull it over my head.
“Yes,” I panted. Luca helped Julian wriggle out of his pants and before I knew it, we were all naked again. Thank goodness. Why the hell did we were clothes in the nest? Clothes were stupid.
Julian put his hand on my hips, rubbing his cock against me.
Molten fire burned through me. I shifted forward to lie on my side. Julian followed my motion, rubbing against my entrance from behind.
I moaned, the delicious friction of him against my swollen lips enough to make tension spiral inside me. “Please.”
“Mmmm, you’re already so wet.” Julian nipped my neck. “Oh, yes, babe.”
The familiar nickname settled me. He was semi-lucid, like he’d said he would be, but this was still Julian.
“Take me,” I begged, pushing my hips back.
He slid inside me without any more hesitation, and we both groaned. Julian wrapped an arm around my waist, holding me tightly against him like I was going to leave. His cock was bliss inside me, the angle deep enough to hit that special spot without hurting. He moaned, and buried his face in my neck, huffing in my scent.
“Alpha,” Julian whined. “Please.”
“Please what,” Luca purred, his hand curling over Julian’s shoulder.
“I need you.” Julian set a quick deep pace, holding onto my hip and thrusting over and over until I thought I would scream from the intensity. It was too much and not enough.
Luca shifted, opening a compartment, and I heard the now-familiar sound of a bottle of lube opening. Luca poured some on Julian’s ass, which only made him thrust deeper into me.
Logan shifted down my body, pulling a nipple into his mouth. I gasped in shock, putting a hand on his shoulder. “Oh, god.”
Tension ricocheted inside me, connected from Logan’s mouth sucking on my nipple to my clit, setting it throbbing between my legs. As though he read my mind, Logan’s hands smoothed down my body, then between my legs to brush against the tender nub.
I jerked forward, but Julian held me in place.
Luca thrust against Julian, and his cock got harder inside me. He whined, his pace taking on a frantic level. I moaned, ecstasy rising inside me.
There was nothing but the nest—Julian’s thrusts inside me, the feeling of Luca’s hips snapping against Julian hard enough to drive the omega into me, Logan’s hands all over my body, running over Julian’s shoulders, leaning over to steal kisses. I lost track of hands and mouths, the tension driving me higher and higher until I shattered at the top.
“You’re squeezing me.” Julian gasped. His fingers bit into my skin, almost hard enough to hurt. “I’m going to come inside you. Fill you up.”
Heat blasted me as he came, carrying through on his promise. He didn’t stop fucking me, he kept going, and he stayed hard. My own arousal went from satiated to needy in two seconds.
“Oh, yes,” I panted, unable to get anything more intelligent out.
“Logan, fuck her.” Julian’s breath came in harsh pants, fingers still digging into my skin like he was in physical pain. “Come inside her.”
He pulled out, and I whined at the loss.
Logan groaned, and his desire made the nest smell like an herb garden. I locked stares with him, nodding. “Please,” I whimpered. “Please, please.”
I needed. I needed the things Julian was panting about breeding me. My body was on fire, and they were the only ones who could quench it.
Logan slid inside me and I arched up at the sudden intrusion. He was so much thicker than Julian, and this angle made him feel bigger.
“Holy hell, Julian.” Luca bit Julian’s neck, driving back inside him. Julian cried out, rutting his semi-hard cock against me.
I curled against Logan, feeling so safe, but so turned on I couldn’t think. He moved in and out of me, his pace not as frantic as Julian’s, and he took the time to cup my breasts, and then reached between us to gently circle my clit again.
Julian growled, moving his hands between me and Logan to help his alpha with my clit. The extra stimulation almost sent me over the edge. I was overstimulated, not sure what was up or down, if I was about to come or not close enough.
“We’re going to fill you up with our come.” Julian bit my neck. “You’re ours, we’re going to have a million babies.” He whined, dragging his cock against me again, in a gesture that was becoming wonderfully familiar.
“Fuck, Sunshine, I need you.” His omega whine bounced off the walls of the nest, and my body melted.
“Wait your turn,” Logan growled. “You want me to come inside her or not?”
Julian licked my neck again, at the place where my neck and shoulder met. “You want that, don’t you babe?”
“Yes,” I panted. Logan lifted one of my legs up higher and pushed inside me, hitting deeper. I buried my face in his throat, taking in a deep lungful of his herbal scent. “Fuck me, alpha.”
“That’s it,” he said, sounding strained. “Come on baby, you’re almost there.”
I was shocked to realize I was teetering on the brink of another orgasm.
“I’m going to fuck your ass, okay?” Julian pressed his cock between my ass cheeks. “I need you.”
“Wait,” Luca growled. He shifted above us, grabbed a box. “Put a condom on first.”
I shivered with anticipation, not sure how I would handle it. We’d taken turns, but I hadn’t managed double penetration.
Julian fumbled with a condom, rubbing his cock against me, and then fiddling with the rubber and lube.
Luca took pity on him and helped sheath him, stroking his cock a few times. “You want your beta?”
“I can’t live without her.” Julian pressed a kiss on my shoulder. “I need you so much Sunshine.”
His voice was raw, utterly undone. I wiggled against him. “Take me. Please, while our alpha is fucking me.”
Julian’s scent ramped up and blasted the nest, and he rubbed against my tight ring.
“Go slow,” Luca commanded. Logan stroked his hand down my arm, reducing the pace of his own thrusts until I whimpered.
“Patience, Sunshine.” He pulled me into a kiss as Julian slowly worked his way into my ass. As he pressed inside, I whined, grabbing at Logan’s shoulder.
I was pressed between them, and full. So full.
“Fuckfuckfuckfuck,” Julian whimpered. “Oh, I can feel Logan. Fuck, I’m gonna come.”
Desire twisted like a knife inside me, the sensitive skin stretched and pulled. I was so full. I rocked my hips, on the edge of bliss, but needing more.
Julian groaned. “Can I move?”
“Yes,” I said, my voice sounding strangled. “Oh, god—I’m so close.”
Logan and Julian worked themselves in and out of me, each finding his own rhythm. Logan’s cock filled me, his thick knot stretching outside me as he slid almost all the way out and Julian pressed inside. Luca matched Julian’s motions, his hand on his omega’s hip keeping him to a slower pace.
“More,” I whimpered. They were holding me on the edge of pleasure and pain, and my skin tingled and shivered.
Logan was the first to break, thrusting back inside me at the same time as Julian, and impaling me with his cock. I cried out, wiggling my hips, not sure if I was trying to angle away or towards my alpha and omega.
Julian buried himself to the hilt pulsing into me as he came, then picking up speed to matching Logan’s rhythm.
I shattered into a million pieces, coming so hard that black spots speckled the edge of my vision. They didn’t take mercy on me, instead they kept their pace up, alternating their thrusts until they didn’t, thrusting inside me at the same time, filling me up over and over—their hands roaming my body, Julian’s whimpered gasps about coming inside me, the sound of their grunts and moans as erotic as their scent surrounding me.
I came again and again, finally going limp as Logan came once more, and Julian followed. I could feel Luca shuddering as he clasped our omega’s hips, letting out a sigh as he came as well.
I blinked, and then giggled, euphoria breaking over me like the sun on a cloudy day.
Julian smiled, his hair plastered around his face, and holding me close. “You okay?”
“I’m great.” I knew I had a sappy grin plastered on my face but I didn’t care. Logan kissed me, his scent following him like a cloud.
We lay pressed together, Julian, Logan, and Luca all caressing me and each other. Luca told Julian he was a good omega, and Logan leaned over me to steal kisses. It was nice. I didn’t feel left out, nor like anyone else was getting left out.
My stomach rumbled and I wondered what time it was. The nest was still dark, and I wasn’t sure what time we’d woken up, nor how long we’d been at it.
Julian’s stomach rumbled loud enough for us all to hear it and Logan sat up. “That’s it. Food time.” He leaned over and slowly undimmed the lighting just enough that we could see each other.
“No, alpha.” Julian reached for Logan. “You can’t leave the nest.”
Logan kissed Julian, stroking his hand through his shiny black hair. “You need to eat, omega.” His voice was rumbly, laced with a thread of command. Shivers danced over my skin at the tone in his voice.
Logan smirked at me, before looking at Luca. “You can handle them?”
“Of course.” Luca purred, like a cat with the cream. “Hurry back.”
“What do you want?” Logan looked at Julian.
“Protein bars and some coffee. And sports drinks.”
“A hot meal.”
Julian wrinkled his nose. I tugged him against me. “I’m starving. You need to feed me if you’re going to be able to fuck me some more.”
Julian sighed. “Fine. Pancakes, bacon.”
Pancakes sounded like bliss. Julian snuggled down next to me, pulling a heavy blanket over the three of us.
“I don’t like it when he leaves the nest,” Julian pouted.
“He’ll be right back. With food.” I kissed Julian’s forehead. My body was still tingling from the aftershocks.
“Are you okay?” His voice was slurred, like he was having to make an effort to talk. “Did my previously undiscovered breeding kink scare you?”
I laughed. “Not at all. It was hot.”
Julian licked the tender place behind my ear. “Mmm.”
“You did wonderfully, darling.” Luca leaned over Julian to kiss me. His scent covered me, the cinnamon vanilla making me hungry for him, as his tongue licking over my lips. Julian whimpered next to me, his scent getting thicker.
Just when I started thinking we would have time for another round before Logan got back, the flap to the canvas opened, and the alpha returned.
“Hey now.” He grinned at us, looking disheveled. His eyes were dark brown, the pupils blown black just like Luca’s. “Food first.”
“Luca started it,” Julian said, looking pleased.
“Tattletale.” Luca nipped the omega’s shoulder. “I’ll get you for that later.”
“I hope so,” Julian purred.
We all sat up and scooted over to the opening of the nest. Luca pulled down one of the sides of the nest, and it converted into a small table.
Logan set plates of pancakes down and we scarfed down the small fluffy bits of heaven. Julian stared off into space, so we took turns feeding him.
I had a wicked thought. “I have a surprise for you if you eat all your food.” I nodded at his half full plate of scrambled eggs, pancakes, and bacon.
He perked up. “A surprise?”
I nodded, stuffing another bite of bacon into my mouth. I was ravenous, but already my pussy was tingling at my brilliant idea. Between Luca and Logan feeding me sports drinks and coffee, I felt more alert, some of the fuzzy surrealness of the hormones receding.
Julian ate his plate of food, allowing the three of us to feed him. He perked up after the meal, and I felt good about making him eat.
I didn’t expect to feel so pleased with myself for making Julian eat but just seeing him bounce back after downing three sports drinks made me curl with satisfaction. No wonder Logan had a thing about feeding people.
Logan cleared our plates out of the nest so it wouldn’t smell like food, and Julian dragged me back to the center of the pile of blankets and pillows.
“Luca, get behind our beta.” Julian brushed his mouth softly over mine. “Did I do good enough for my surprise?”
“You did,” I said, wrapping my arms around him. Coconuts and pineapple surrounded me, and for a moment I had to rest my forehead on Julian’s shoulder.
This was Julian, my best friend, my boyfriend, and now the man who was making me crave him more than food, sleep, or caffeine.
“Okay babe?” Julian kissed the side of my head. “We can slow down. Luca would love to edge me.”
“That’s true.” Luca curled an arm around my waist, his fingers lightly brushing the soft skin on my stomach.
“I’m great. Just adjusting to feeling so much all the time.”
Julian chuckled. “Take your time.”
Logan came back into the nest, and Julian let out a whine. “Come press against me. It’s been too long.”
Logan crawled over to us, pressing against Julian’s back.
I laid back against Luca. He was sitting up, and I felt wonderfully enclosed with Luca behind me and Julian snuggled up against my front. Logan pressed against Julian’s back and we were back to being the best sandwich in the world.
Luca peppered soft kisses along my back and shoulders and Julian stroked his hands down my sides. I shifted into a more comfortable position, spreading my legs so Julian could slide forward. He was hard and pressed our hips together.
Pleasure zipped through me. I put Luca’s hands on my breasts and his breath caught. He gave them a gentle squeeze and the electric shock of desire pinged through me.
Logan grabbed Julian’s hair, gathering it so it fit in his hand, and pulled the omega’s neck to the side. He nibbled, leaving Julian to squirm against me. I pulled Julian into a shuddering kiss, our mouths fitting perfectly together. We went deep, stroking our tongues together, like we could eat each other whole. My world ended and began at the taste of his mouth on me, the feel of Luca’s hands stroking my nipples, at Logan’s groans, the sight of him pleasuring Julian so thoroughly.
I wanted more, more closeness, more of whatever the pack had to give.
Julian broke from the kiss, his eyes glazed over, his lips swollen from our kisses. “We’re going to take you over and over.” Julian nipped my shoulder, and I shuddered.
“Let me get the surprise set up first.” I glanced back at Luca.
“Right.” Julian grinned at me sheepishly. “I got distracted by your hotness.”
“You want your bag, kitten?” Luca pressed a soft kiss to my shoulder.
“Yes,” I sighed, Julian rubbing his cock between my legs.
“Got it,” Logan said.
Julian whined, but Logan was quick to bring me the bag I’d stashed in here along with more condoms for him and Luca.
While Luca and Logan were putting condoms on and lubing up, I pulled a lock out of the bag. I’d tried all three at Holly’s suggestion, but the thin flexible one was my favorite. It didn’t impede sensation inside my pussy since it just sat right inside me, and the flared base to keep it from disappearing inside me.
“Sex toys,” Julian clapped his hands. “What’s that one do?”
I grinned at him. “Since you’ve been a good omega, getting me all hot and bothered, I can show you.”
I shifted my hips and pressed the lock inside me. The scent of the two alphas and omega went up three notches and the three of them were staring at me.
“It’s a lock. I thought it would be fun to try.” I looked at Julian. “If you don’t like?—”
Julian covered my mouth with a kiss, hungry and needy. He pulled away and pressed the head of his cock against my entrance. “I like. Tell me if this hurts.”
His words were slow and slurred, and I appreciated the mental effort it must have taken him to actually use words. I nodded, shifting my hips so I could take him better.
He slid inside with a moan, the stretched feeling inside me even tighter with the lock. Like I’d hoped, it didn’t take away from the pure bliss of having him inside me.
“Yes?” Luca asked, breathing in my scent. “You’re okay?”
“Very okay.” I wiggled. “Don’t stop, Julian.”
He groaned and pulled out only to push back in faster this time. The sharp burst of pleasure sent me reeling and I cried out, grabbing onto his shoulders. I pulled him against me, as he moved in and out of me.
“Alphas, please, we need you,” I gasped, wanting to feel more, seeking that oblivion.
Luca pressed against my ass, rubbing back and forth. He timed himself against Julian, so someone was always pushing against me. The pressure as much as the pure sensation ratcheted up the tension spiraling inside me. Logan positioned himself over Julian, holding onto the omega’s hips before thrusting inside. It sent Julian harder inside me, and I cried out at the sudden friction. Luca pressed inside me, quicker than Julian had, working my ass over like he was a pro.
He angled himself deep inside, my nerve endings firing at the pressure and squeezed feeling. He went slow, so very slowly, but it still made me feel so full. I sucked in a breath, breathing in Julian’s scent until it was all I knew.
Julian whined loudly, building up an unsteady rhythm. Both Luca and Logan worked us, thrusting in tandem and then off kilter until we didn’t know what to expect, helpless to the pleasure they gave us.
“Sunshine, Sunshine,” Julian gasped, gripping my forearms tight enough to almost hurt. “Oh please I need you.”
“Take me,” I panted. Edgy need filled me, desire pounding in my body until it felt like they broke me down and filled me back up with their own body.
“I’m gonna come inside you,” Julian drove inside me, over and over now, his insistent need driving us both higher.
He bit my shoulder hard, and I yelped, the hard edge of pain adding to the sweet sharp pleasure we were chasing.
“Yes, come and I’ll lock you,” I panted.
“Yes, and Logan knot me.” Julian drove inside me, over and over.
“I love you,” Julian panted. “Sunshine I love you so much.”
Tears bit the corners of my eyes. “I love you to.”
Luca purred, snaking his hand between me and Julian to rub my clit as he pushed his cock in and out of me, the rocking motion pure bliss.
I couldn’t think, all I could feel was the pleasure and love tangling over me, Julian’s pure need, his cries. I shattered into a million pieces, coming with a shout.
Julian cried out, coming inside me as he thrust himself over and over like a jack hammer, Logan’s hips driving him forward. Luca pressed into me two more times, until he came with a grunt. Julian thrust inside me, not stopping until he’d come again, and I wrapped my legs around him, doing a Kegel and squeezing my pussy walls shut.
Julian yelped again, but the soft silicon held him inside me. Logan grunted and gave one more thrust before knotting Julian. Our omega came again, mewling into me like he was dying.
Rapture sank into my bones. For long moments I forgot where I was, who I was. The hot sticky press of the men who loved me anchored me to this world, because otherwise I would have floated away on bliss.
I kept my eyes closed, sinking into joy. Julian loved me. Even my most anxious moments I couldn’t deny that he couldn’t lie, couldn’t mistake his feelings for anything than what they were.
Julian shifted so he wasn’t laying all his weight against me.
“You okay?” My voice was a croak.
He nodded, his face flushed and his pupils still blown black. “Okay?”
“Amazing.” I smiled at him, pressing a kiss to his mouth. “Sleep?”
We shifted, Julian pulling out of me reluctantly and curling on our sides. Logan shifted him to the side, still knotted inside him. I curled up to Julian’s other side, and Luca helped me get cleaned up before curling to my back.
Luca stroked his hand through my hair, long soft movements that made drowsiness pour through me.
“You’re amazing.” Luca kissed my shoulder, licking where he’d bitten me.
Julian settled against me, shifting closer, without opening his eyes. He was out, and so was Logan. It was semi-dark and I didn’t know what time it was.
“I love you.” Luca pulled me into a kiss, and I sank into him.
They loved me back. Joy bounced around me until it felt like I would burst. He pulled away with a soft smile. “You’re everything we ever needed, and we’re lucky to have you.”
I rolled over to press my face against Luca’s chest, making sure I was pressed against Julian. “I love you too. It felt too soon but…”
“Never too soon.” Luca kissed the top of my head, his voice thick with sleep. “Not when you know it’s right.”
I sighed, rubbing my face into his chest, loving the hard planes of his muscles, the slight tickle of chest hair.
“Get some sleep. We’re going to ravish you again in a little while.”
I started to pout, but exhaustion weighted me down. I slipped into sleep, weightless and free with security of the pack around me.