34. Halo
Halo
I tried calling Joker numerous times, but he wasn’t picking up. I decided to sit in his penthouse ’til he came back, fighting with my thoughts. Everything Jah was saying made sense. All the disappearing, the business he had to handle without saying what he was about to do. He should’ve just been real with me from the start.
“Is it true?” I asked him again.
He slid the water bottle onto the counter and took a step toward me. I took a couple back away from him. I’d dealt with different sorts of men and no way I was about to allow him to manipulate me.
“Just let me explain.”
“Let you explain, Joker? You’ve been walking your ass around here lying to me. I told you that I didn’t want another street nigga, and to find out that you’re the street nigga is fucking insane.”
“I’m nothing like Eno. You don’t have to worry ’bout anything happening to me.”
“No.” I shook my head, tears flowing down my cheeks. “Don’t you dare speak on his name.”
“I didn’t tell you ’cause I knew if I did, you wouldn’t want to fuck with me. It was already hard tryna get yo’ ass.”
“So you lied to me?” I laughed to keep myself from spazzing the fuck out. “How you build a foundation for a relationship on a lie?” I began to pace. It was what helped me think. “I’m walking around here about to be a baby mama to another dope boy. This is insane.” My eyes drifted to his. “What am I supposed to tell Brave when something happens to you? That he lost another father to the streets? Do you think he’ll be able to stomach that? You think I will?” I hated he placed me in this position. “It’s not right. You didn’t give me the chance to choose if I wanted to deal with this.”
Closing the gap between us, he gripped me by the wrist and gazed down into my eyes. “I know I fucked up, and I’m sorry for that, but I promise ain’t nothing gon’ happen to me.”
Her watery eyes searched mine. “You don’t know that though. I can’t deal with this right now.” I pulled away from him. As I stormed toward the elevator, he caught me again from behind by wrapping his arm around my waist. He jerked me into his body and the tears flowed harder.
“Don’t do this shit, Halo. I love you. You gon’ make a nigga crash out.” I squeezed my eyes shut. I loved him too. I loved him more than I realized, and that’s why it hurt so much. I didn’t want to walk out that door and leave behind everything we’d been building. I didn’t want to snatch away the father figure Brave was finally getting. This was a huge weight on my shoulders.
“I need some space, Joker,” I said, squirming in his arms, but he wouldn’t release me.
“I’m not ’bout to let you walk out that door.”
He scooped me up by the waist and carried me to the bedroom. My body bounced on the bed when he tossed me on it. I scooted to the edge to get up and run, but he grabbed me by the throat.
“I know you’re mad, but I can’t let you walk out that door.” His eyes pierced mine. “I’m insane for you. You’re the only woman I’ve ever loved besides my mama.” His lips kissed my tears away, but they wouldn’t stop from falling. They finally landed on my lips. My pussy was betraying me. She soaked my panties, yearning for his touch, while all I wanted was for him to release me so I could leave.
“I promise that I’ll never lie to you again,” he said and pushed me back against the bed.
I lay there with tears streaming down into my ears. He gripped me by the pants and pulled them down.
“Sex isn’t going to make everything okay, Joker,” I said between sobs.
“I just want to make you feel better.” He leaned down, planting kisses on my inner thighs.
“Joker, please just let me go.”
His lips found my pussy lips, and he sucked them into his mouth. Goosebumps coursed my frame. “I can’t let you go ’cause then I’ll have to kill you,” he stared me straight into the eyes and said. His tongue slid inside my folds and that was it for me. My body betrayed me in the worst way. Soon as he latched onto my clit, I clutched the back of his head and fucked his face. I’d never in my life wanted to release so much.
My eyes closed, and my head tilted back. My body began to shudder. “Fuck,” I moaned. My climax was nearing, and I felt it building up inside me. “Yes, right there,” I coached him. “Yes!”
After I climaxed, he released me. I sat up and pushed him back on the bed. I needed to cum again. I pulled his dick out the hole in his pants and briefs. It was standing at full attention. Straddling him, I placed his dick at my soaking wet entrance and eased down on it. Planting my hand in the center of his chest, I bounced as if my life depended on it. His hands tightly gripped my waist and he thrust into me from underneath. Slowing up, I ground on him, my clit rubbing against his pelvis. My body began to shiver again.
“That’s it. Cum for me, bae.”
Him and those words caused me to splash on his dick like never before. My head leaned back, and my eyes rolled to the back of my head. I screamed out at the top of my lungs. He grunted and his dick throbbed inside me. I climbed off him and laid against the bed.
“I love you,” rolled off his tongue. He leaned over and kissed my lips, and then got up from the bed. “I’m ’bout to take a quick shower then we can get something to eat,” he said and entered the bathroom.
I waited ’til I heard the water running before getting up from the bed and finding my pants. Slipping them on, I peeked into the bathroom. I didn’t see Joker, which meant that he’d already stepped into the shower. I tiptoed toward the bedroom door and once my feet touched the hallway, I ran so fast to the elevator and jumped on.
My mind was fucked up. I didn’t know where else to go, so I decided to go to Kris’s house to tell her what happened. Just as I was allowing someone in, he fucked up at this magnitude. It might be little to some, but this was huge to me. I was fine being trapped in my little bubble, not being bothered by no man. I allowed that man into my mind, and he tricked me out my panties and my heart. Now I was attached to him for life with a baby. Got damn, Halo.”
Rushing off the elevator, I ran out the door. “Can you hurry up and bring me my car?” I asked the valet. He grabbed my keys off the hook and walked off. I glanced over my shoulder to make sure that Joker’s crazy ass wasn’t coming for me.
My car pulled up, and I ran around it. Soon as I reached the driver’s door, I saw Joker stepping off the elevator with a towel wrapped around his waist. “Shit,” I said and hopped into the car. I placed it in drive and went to pull off, but he was standing in front of it.
“Halo, I’m telling you now, don’t do this shit.”
“Move,” I mouthed with my lips, and his hands slammed down on the hood of the car. I jumped and gasped.
“The only way out of this is the cemetery. You ready to tell yo’ mama to buy a black dress?”
I let the window down and said, “Get out my way, Joker. I’m not playing with you. I will run yo’ ass over.”
“Do it, ’cause I ain’t moving.”
I lightly tapped the gas, and the bumper of the car tapped him. He still didn’t move. “Joker, please,” I begged, tears filling the brims of my eyes.
“Get out of the car, Halo,” he spoke in a stern tone. His eyes peered at me through the windshield.
“Just let me go home. Please.”
Clenching his teeth, he removed his hands from the hood of the car and stepped up on the curb. I wasted no time peeling out of there before he decided that he wanted to jump back in my way.
Tears blurred my vision all the way to Kris’s house. I didn’t bother to call and let her know I was coming. I just prayed that she was there. When I turned the corner onto her street, I saw her truck parked out front.
“Thank God,” left my lips as I pulled up behind it and got out the car. Trekking up to the door, I rang the doorbell and waited for her to come to it. I had been standing there a good two minutes before the door finally opened.
Kris stared me in the face and asked, “Is everything okay?”
I brushed past her into the house and walked a hole in her floor as I tried to make sense of what just happened.
“Halo, you’re scaring me. Are you going to tell me what’s going on?” she asked as she pushed the door closed.
“It’s Joker. He’s been lying to me,” I stopped and said. I flew over to the couch and sat down. My leg violently bounced. “He’s a dope boy.”
“He told you that?” she asked and came over, taking the seat alongside me.
“No, well, yeah. Kinda. Sorta.”
“Which one?” Kris’s brows snapped together.
“Jah had me meet him and he told me that Joker’s a dope boy. I went to ask him about it and found him with blood on him. He didn’t deny it. He’s not only just a dope boy, he’s the drug dealer apparently. How could he lie to me about something like that?” I gazed at her, tears streaming down my cheeks.
“I’m so sorry, boo. I really hate that you had to go through that.” She draped her arm around me and pulled me into her side. “So what are you going to do now?”
“I don’t know. I’m already pregnant. There’s really nothing that I can do.”
“But do you plan on staying with him? That’s the question.”
“I don’t know. I need some time to think.”
“Take all the time you need.”
Brushing my hand up my nose, I replied, “I really wish I was able to, but I don’t think Joker is going to give me the space to.”