Chapter 11 #2
Stone did it with Rose despite being married, though his ex-wife did try to trap him.
The idiot married her without looking at the medical report first. He divorced his patch-chaser wife without her knowing and married Rose, again, without her knowing, before having a fight to keep her when she thought she was the other woman.
Doc did it with Brit despite being pressured into marrying the con senator's daughter who knocked Brit out and caused her to lose her memories.
She gave birth alone and confused before Doc finally found her again before nearly walking down the aisle to the bitch to save the club.
Literally, it was right before his wedding. Dirty shouted he’d found Brit five minutes before he had to stand at the altar.
Anchor was the same. His girl was in a relationship, one she was forced to be in which the idiot didn’t know and he grabbed hold of her tightly but after falling in love, he saw something.
He took it the wrong way and hurt her believing she was hurting him only for the woman to be sold to the now wiped out Pillars, being raped for nineteen fucking months and then you have me and Jas.
We were both from different worlds but had controlling parents, which I think is what drew me to her instantly, the pain in her beautiful eyes.
I knew she was mine, I knew I wanted forever with her, despite my fucked up past. I moved her in with me, bought a couple of labs, and fell deeply in love with her. Only for her to leave without a word, having my child in secret, taking away my chance at fatherhood.
We brothers, when we fall, we fall hard and fast and then we blank and don’t think about the pain we could be put in, we forget about what we grew up with, fuck Trigger was nearing eleven when he claimed Ash.
Dirty, however, well, he doesn’t believe in love, not since realizing Caleb's mama was using him for his patch.
He thought he loved her, but after seeing that he didn’t want to be near her and backed away a little after a few months of fucking, he understood it was just lust he felt for her.
When he tried ending their regular fucks, she told him she was pregnant with a fucking smirk, and he knew she trapped him and the fucker ended up being put off the whole one crap.
I’m calling it crap because my one left me and kept me from my child so I’m now having a hard time with it all as well.
Fucking women. Can’t live with them, can’t live without them, I just don’t know how I can get around the whole broken trust shit with Jas, because she has, she’s broken my trust and my fucking heart.
“It isn’t funny, Lo, the kid won’t let the fucking notion go!” he growls, and I smirk before I sigh and ask, “Why not just meet her?”
“Because I don’t want to, I don’t want my son getting the wrong fucking idea, I mean, look at the shit all of you have done!” he snaps.
I raise a brow and remind him, “I did fuck all wrong except lose my heart and have it torn to shreds.”
“But she’s back,” Dirty says, and we lock eyes as he states, “I got a facial recognition brother, she’s back.”
“I know,” I admit, causing his mouth to part, but he soon sucks in a breath when I state, “She had my child in secret.”
“What the fuck,” he snaps instantly, anger for me radiating, and I chuckle darkly as I drop the rag on the floor.
“It gets worse,” I mutter, and he demands, “How can it get any fucking worse?”
“Mama somehow knew about Jas, and the reason why she ran is that my dear old mother threatened to slit our daughter's throat.” I choke as I drop my head, “I need your help, Alex. I need you to log in to Jasmine’s medical files. I would, but I can’t risk my license,” I look at him, his face full of shock and I say, “Yesterday I overheard Mama on the phone with Kate, claiming she made sure Jas had miscarried our daughter, yet when Jas explained to me and Doc that Mama threatened her and gave her cash she never mentioned being in hospital. I know if I ask her, she’ll evade me. ”
“Fucking hell,” he chokes, and I nod as my situation hits home.
I whisper, “I can’t be in the club anymore, she ruined my fucking life and the brothers backed her after their pres demanded she leave club property.
My own fucking father backed her then to hear her gloating about wanting to thank the attacker that apparently went after Jas…
” I shake my head, “Why does she think she was attacked?”
“Because she was,” a voice says near the door, and we turn to see Doc walking inside, shutting and locking the door behind him, then walking over to take a seat on the toolbox.
“Is Aisling alright?” I ask instantly, and he nods, smiling slightly.
“That girl is all you, Lo,” he chuckles, and I smile sadly.
“What do you mean she was attacked?” Dirty asks and Doc sighs, running his hand through his hair, tiredness etching his features.
“Because she was,” he admits, then looks at me and states, “I didn’t know she was your girl at the time, but she did admit she recognized my cut and was going to speak to me, to you, but then your mother, you know.”
I nod because yeah, I fucking know.
“Anyway, I was walking home six years ago, pissed at the fucking world. Dad was pressuring me, and I felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders when I saw her being kicked several times in the stomach,” he confesses, and I sit up straight as fury hits me hard in the chest. He continues, “I called an ambulance, and she admitted she was pregnant. She was in some fancy dress and heels but you could see the blood and fuck, even I thought she lost the baby,” he chews his bottom lip, “I went back, I don’t know why I did but after I dropped her off at the hospital I felt compelled to go back and check on her and her chart stated she miscarried and I didn’t see her again. ”
“You knew she meant something,” Dirty mutters, and Doc nods while I look down.
“Who attacked her?” I demand to know.
“I can’t tell you that bit,” he admits, and I look up sharply and glare at him because seriously, if this was fucking Brit...
Doc puts his hands up in defense and says, “Your girl needs to feel like she can trust someone, brother. I tell you, and she’ll feel alone, and you’ll lose her.”
“She isn’t my fucking girl!” I growl, “She left me, fucking broke my heart –”
“Because she was scared for her safety, for your daughter’s and yours,” Doc cuts in, and I narrow my eyes at my so-called friend.
He smiles, “Go speak to her brother, there is more to it than you know, but just know your mama is what pushed her to run, so instead having our brother look into her medical records and breaking that trust she still has in you even though you’ve lost yours in her, go and speak to her, get her to open up. ”
I shake my head because I know I can’t.
I’ll take my anger out on her, I’ll hurt her with my words, with how much she’s fucking hurt me, with how lonely she made me feel, I just can’t.
Seeing my decision without me even opening my mouth, Doc sighs and says, “Aisling is being discharged, Logan, tomorrow, and just so you know, I overheard Jasmine talking to the financial team.”
I look at him with confusion. Jas has a job, or that is what I heard her tell a nurse. I’m not sure what she does, maybe she’s a lawyer like she was aiming for but surely her insurance would pay…
As we lock eyes, Doc admits, “She’s asked for a payment plan, her insurance didn’t cover the hospital stay for Aisling.”
Fuck’s sake.
“I’ll deal with it,” I grit, and he nods as Dirty asks, “What are we going to do about your mama? About the club, your cut?”
“Nothing,” I say as I pick another wrench up, “Mama is dead to me, and I’m no longer a brother,” both men tense, but I ignore their reaction and mutter, “I need to concentrate on my jobs and on my daughter.”
“What about Jas?” Doc asks tensely, my admitting that I won’t be coming back to the club clearly pissing him off.
“She broke my trust,” is all I say as I turn to Ace’s bike and continue with what I’m doing.
I’ll help her with our daughter, I just, fuck, I decided to move on a few weeks ago, and despite the everlasting, ever-consuming love I feel for her, I can’t go back on that, not because she’s back.
She hasn’t told me the truth, she hasn’t confided in me, showing me she doesn’t trust me.
She hasn’t bothered to speak to me the whole time she was gone, keeping my daughter from me and ruining those first five years.
I don’t think I can ever trust her again, and that shit, it fucking hurts.