Chapter 5 #2
I turned back around and walked even faster. I needed to get away from him. Tech kept up with my strides with ease.
“It wasn’t like that, Will. I knew that if we got to talking, we would naturally fall into a conversation, showing everyone we were close. I couldn’t let that happen. For one, Cara warned all the guys to stay away from the nannies. I don’t know if she will feel a certain way about us hanging out.”
That caught me by surprise. I had no idea about these restrictions.
I mean, I understood it. Mixing business with pleasure could definitely get tricky, but that wasn’t the same as merely holding a conversation with each other.
But a part of me understood when he said we might have ended up giving each other away.
When Tech and I got to talking, we could go for hours, and no one and nothing else would have existed.
Right as I made it to my door, I turned to face him. “If that’s the case, then why are you here?”
He stepped forward, barely leaving any space between us. “Can we go in to talk? Please, Dimples?” His piercing blue eyes stared at me with so much hope that I couldn’t turn him away. It was another reminder of how weak I was for him.
“Fine, but you have five minutes.” I unlocked the door and stepped inside. When Tech tried to walk farther into the apartment, I put up a hand to stop him. “No need to get comfortable. Like I said, you have five minutes.”
His face held so many expressions I couldn’t pinpoint them all.
“Since when do we talk to each other like this, Will? I know you’re pissed at me about this morning, and I can admit that I was wrong.
I’m dealing with my own demons on this thing happening between us.
I just don’t want to bring this to anyone until I can get through a few things first.”
That had me shocked. He basically just admitted his attraction to me. Still, I needed to hear the words out loud. “What exactly is happening between us, Tech?” I crossed my arms with a raised brow.
His lips twitched as if he wanted to smile, but he managed to keep his poker face. “I like you, Will. A lot. And I think it's safe to say that you like me too. I want to keep getting to know you, but I’m not ready to talk about this with anyone else. I want things to remain between us.”
I took a step back from him. I couldn’t believe my ears. “After everything I told you about Jeff, you’re seriously standing here asking me to be your secret?” Cynically, I laughed, placing my hand up. “Well, no thank you. Been there, done that. You can leave now.”
I tried reaching around him to open the door, but he placed his hands on my hips, pushing my body against the wall. He caged my body against his, leaving no room behind me. I could feel every rip and ripple of his abs. My God, why did you have to make this man so sexy?
It just wasn’t right.
“This isn’t anything like Jeff. I promise, Dimples. This is about my past.”
I was having a hard time catching my breath with him so close to me. “You mean your past that I know nothing about. You're asking for a lot of understanding without explaining, Tech. That’s not fair to me.”
He looked down at the ground for a moment before lifting his head again.
“My given name is Allen. I told you before that my father was controlling, but he was also homophobic. I’ve known I was gay since I was thirteen.
My father would try to beat the gay out of me.
I took his punishments until I was eighteen.
By then, I had learned how to suppress my feelings.
Once I turned eighteen, I ran away, changed my name, and never looked back.
Over the years, I became so used to lying to myself that I forgot what I truly wanted. And then you came along.”
My chest heaved as he laid everything on the line. I was crumbling. I knew he had a rough past, but nothing to this magnitude. “Tech.” I swallowed the lump in my throat.
He shook his head, bringing his lips closer to mine.
“Jacob. That’s my name now.” I nodded, on the verge of tears, as he gave me another piece of himself.
“I know I’m asking for a lot, but please just give me time.
I can't stay away from you. I’m not confused, and this isn’t some kind of fling. I want you, Will.”
Time seemed to stand still as we stared into each other's eyes. The intensity between us was overwhelming. It was real and raw. I couldn’t fight this off even if I had the strength of Thanos.
“Tell me, can I have you, Dimples? Hmm?” he purred as he finally closed the space between us and crashed his lips down on mine.
I moaned into his mouth as I clutched his shoulders.
I couldn’t believe he was kissing me. The way his mouth moved with mine, I knew for certain he wasn’t unsure of his feelings for me.
He had me burning up inside.
His hands roamed down my body until he grabbed both of my ass cheeks in his hands and gave them a firm squeeze. I gasped, and he slipped his tongue in my mouth. He was devouring me, biting and sucking my lips, and grinding his hips into me. I could feel his erection against mine.
I palmed his cheeks, kissing him back with just as much intensity. I stuck my tongue in his mouth, and he started sucking it, making me think of how it would feel if he sucked my… Oh God.
I ripped my mouth from his because I almost blew in my damn pants. Tech took the time to kiss and suck my neck, rubbing against me. I was painfully hard and needed relief.
“You’re going to drive me crazy,” I gasped as he bit my collarbone.
“Say my name, Dimples. I want to hear my real name falling from your lips when I make you come.” I whimpered as he unbuckled my pants. “We won't go all the way, but I need to make you come. Can I do that for you?”
I bobbed my head vigorously. That sounded perfect to me. After pulling my pants down enough for my hard length to pop out, he then did the same to himself.
“Words, baby. I need to hear you say it.”
A shiver made its way through my body. “Yes, Jacob. I want you to make me come.”
He smiled deviously as he brought our cocks together. I had a nice length, but not too much girth. Jacob, on the other hand, was enormous. I had never been with a man this big before. That thing looked like a damn cable remote swinging between his legs.
“You’re going to be mine, Dimples. I just need time.”
Not giving me a chance to reply, he covered my mouth with his. Jacob reached down and grabbed both of our cocks in his hand, jacking them together. He swiped his thumb over the heads using our precum as lube.
I placed my hands on his pecs as he took my body to euphoria. He groaned into our kiss when I ran fingers through his hair. We both chased our release as we humped into his closed fist. I was so fuckin close.
He trailed kisses down my neck, palming my ass with his free hand, squeezing it tightly.
“I’m so close, Jacob,” I cried out as I felt my release coming.
He groaned before whispering in my ear, “Fuck. Say my name again, baby.”
I panted with each stroke he gave. “Jacob,” I moaned.
He throbbed against me, so I knew he was just as close as I was. “That’s it. Fuck… I’m coming, baby. Come with me. Now!” he growled just as we both shot our loads all over his hand.
We both stood there in silence, gasping for air. I was spent. Never had I orgasmed that hard. Tech brought his forehead down to mine.
“I just need time, Dimples.”
I nodded, completely out of breath to give him a verbal answer.
It was against everything I believed in, but I would give him time to work through his childhood trauma before he opened up about our relationship.
I wanted this to work with Tech. I just hoped in the end I had my man and not a broken heart.