Chapter 8 #2
Will ignored me for days. I was losing my mind.
I didn’t even realize how much I had become dependent on him.
His love, his affection… His presence was what kept me going.
Not having him was depressing as fuck. Even the guys noticed the change in my mood.
I tried going to his window at night, but he kept it locked.
I couldn’t take the chance of knocking too hard.
That would draw attention to me, and he knew that.
One night, while lying in bed, I got an alert from the cameras.
When I saw Will walking around the woods on the west wing, I moved like lightning to get to him.
He often did this when he needed to clear his head.
As soon as he spotted me coming toward him, he rolled his eyes and tried to walk away.
“Is this what I have to do to talk to you?” I took a step toward him, and he countered by taking two steps away from me.
“There’s nothing left for us to say to each other.” He shrugged, refusing to make eye contact.
“How can you say that after all this time?”
Will threw his head back with a humorless laugh. “Right. After all this time. And where are we? Still at square fuckin’ one,” he growled with heated eyes.
“Will, you know I love you, but I just—”
Will shook his head vehemently. “I’m not doing this with you anymore.
I’m tired of being your dirty little secret.
If you don’t want the guys knowing about you, that’s your business, but I will not hide who I am for you or anyone else.
I want a man who isn’t ashamed to claim me to his friends! ” Will hissed at me.
Will had never been this angry with me. That caused my throat to clog up. Was he really trying to leave me?
“What exactly are you saying, Will?”
“I’m saying that if you aren’t ready to step up, then maybe it's time somebody else does!” he shouted.
The thought of another man touching him had me homicidal. I would kill anyone who even tried to touch him. Will was mine! I understood his frustration, but he was out of his mind if he thought I would give him up.
I raced forward, not giving him much time to get away, before wrapping my hand around his throat, pulling his body flush against mine. Nothing threatening or violent in a way. I would never hurt Will, and he knew that.
Our noses touched as my chest rose and fell with heavy pants. I was trying my hardest to control myself. His talking about giving himself to another man was bringing out a side of me I didn’t know existed.
“Get this through your head. You. Are. Mine,” I snarled before smashing my lips against Will’s.
He melted the second our lips touched. He placed his hands on my shoulders, holding on tight while I devoured his mouth. I kept my hand around his neck and palmed his ass with the other, grinding on him.
Will moaned into my mouth. The sweet sound made me growl as I pushed him up against a tree. I started to unbutton his jeans, and he placed his hands on top of mine.
“Wait… what are you … doing?” he asked in between heavy breaths.
“Shut. Up,” I growled, moving his hand away. His eyes dilated as he let out a whimper.
Will was over us keeping this a secret, but he still enjoyed riling me up.
He loved to see how hard I would fight for him.
How much I loved and desired him. And it was times like this when I was overbearingly dominant that he craved.
I knew in my heart he wasn’t ready to be done.
Our love was deep and passionate. We were in tune with one another.
So even as he stood in front of me, telling me how another man would be touching what was mine, I could feel his heart and body calling out to me.
I pulled his pants down, exposing his hard length.
“See, that mouth says one thing, but your body is saying another.” I gripped his cock in my hand and started stroking him.
Will tried to pull my mouth down to his to smother his cries.
“Nuh-uh. Let me hear you, Dimples. Let me hear those sweet fucking moans,” I grumbled as I buried my face in the crook of his neck.
“Oh God. You’re driving me crazy. I want to walk away, but I can't. I love you sooo much.” His body trembled as he was near his release.
I let go of his hard length, causing him to groan in frustration. “Now, why would you want to walk away? Hmm?” I asked as I spun him around.
I pulled a bottle of lube from my pocket, dousing my hard rod and his ass.
Quickly, I sank one finger inside him and then another, preparing him to take me.
Will rubbed against me, moaning as quietly as he could.
When I felt he was ready, I removed my fingers and replaced them with the head of my cock.
Slowly, I pushed inside him. No matter how many times he took me, it was always a snug fuckin’ fit.
His ass squeezed my dick like a vise. Will’s eyes drooped as he was high on lust. I palmed one of his ass cheeks, opening him up.
I sank in easily. Will dropped his head back on my shoulder while holding on to the tree for dear life as I began thrusting.
I was on a mission to show him nobody could make him feel the way I did. Physically or emotionally. I knew I was asking a lot from him, but letting him go wasn’t an option. He held my heart in the palm of his hands. It honestly scared me of the man I might become if he ever did leave me.
Thinking of another man getting was what I was at the moment, made me slam into him with more intensity than I ever had.
“Ohhhh… fuck yes. Jacob!” Will moaned as he met me thrust for thrust.
I wrapped my hand around his length, never breaking my strokes. “You’re mine, Dimples. You always will be. Do you hear me?!” I growled in his ear.
“Yes!” he panted as his cock throbbed in my hand. I knew he was close, and so was I.
“One day I’m gonna give it all to you, baby. Marriage. Kids. Everything you’ve ever wanted. But you’re going to stop all this talk about another man having you. I will kill any bastard who thinks of having you. Do you understand?”
“That is not supposed to turn me on. What the fuck is wrong with me?” Will groaned, looking over his shoulder at me.
I grinned wickedly, speeding up my pace. “It's no more than what you would do if I slept with another man.” Jealousy swirled in his eyes. I chuckled, kissing his lips. “No need for that look, Dimples. I told you nobody else will ever do it for me, and I meant that.”
Will gasped as my hips sped up along with my hand. We were both right on the cusp of an intense orgasm.
“Fuck… I’m going… to come, Jacob,” Will moaned before I buried my tongue in his sweet mouth. His dick erupted, spraying the tree with his release, and I filled his ass.
I pulled out of him and adjusted his clothes, then my own. “I’m going to lock up my bedroom. I left so quickly I forgot to do it. Then I’m coming over so we can finish this talk. Okay?”
He hesitated for only a moment before he nodded.
I kissed his lips and watched as he walked back home before I did the same.
Before I went to my room, I went to the cave.
I was so lost in the moment that I forgot the cameras were out there.
I needed to delete that footage. Once that was done, I locked up my room and made my way to Will’s.
After that night, Will and I got back on track.
It wasn’t easy, and we spent many hours talking about me finally coming out.
Eventually, Will gave me a timeline. He said I had one more year to come out, or he was done.
That was four months ago. What scared me was that I knew he was dead serious.
He hadn’t brought up the subject after that night.
These days, he was occupied catching up with his childhood best friend, Alice. Cara and Sara intervened when they spotted her husband choking her out in the parking lot of the diner the club owns. At the time, the girls had no clue who Alice was. They just knew they saw a woman being abused.
The girls offered to take her in that night, but fear made her decline.
Cara ended up giving Alice her card and told her to call when she was ready.
Less than twenty-four hours later, Alice made that call.
Not only had her husband beaten her but his brother joined in.
When Alice arrived, we were all shocked to learn that Alice and Will had grown up together.
He and Oscar weren’t always a duo. Alice’s husband, Declan, eventually made Alice cut off both friends.
Will had such a big heart that he wasn’t angry with her.
He knew she didn’t want to stop being friends with him, and love sometimes made you do stupid things.
When he said that to me, I couldn’t help but feel he was taking a jab at our situation. Despite what Will thought, I was really trying to tell the guys. But every time I tried, I would end up having a nightmare about the night Sire caught Cody and me kissing.
It’s like I was stuck in a losing battle, either way it went. It drove me crazy that even after thirteen years, Sire still had control over me in some ways. He made me hide who I was back then and even now. I was sinking deeper into this hole of defeat, and I didn’t know how to get out.
I wanted nothing more than to give Will what I saw my brothers were giving their women. I just didn’t know how.
Will’s alarm clock on the nightstand went off, breaking my thoughts from going down memory lane. I had been up for a few hours after another nightmare of Sire.
Will stirred in his sleep before slamming his hand down on the clock.
I couldn’t do anything but chuckle as he repeatedly hit it until it stopped.
Will wasn’t a morning person. The sun wasn’t even up yet, so I was confused as to why he had it set so early.
Eyeing the clock, I noticed it was six a.m. Normally, Will didn’t get up until seven thirty.
Will groaned before rolling over to face me.
“Morning,” he hummed as he snuggled up to me.
We were both naked as the day we were born, so I instantly started to get hard.
Will’s eyes shot open as he started backing away from me.
“Nooo, Jacob. I need to get to Cara’s early.
Chase has a doctor's appointment, and I need to be there when the triplets wake up.”
“Why so early though?” I pressed myself against him, making him shudder.
“B-because their doctor’s office is an hour away and his appointment is at eight thirty.”
“I’m sure we can squeeze in a quickie,” I purred, squeezing his ass.
Will untangled himself with a grin. He got out of bed, revealing he was just as hard as I was.
I chuckled, rising out of the bed, making my way to him.
Will was shaking his head frantically as I lunged at him.
I started licking and sucking his neck as I slid my middle finger down the crack of his ass, pressing against his hole.
Will bit his lip, eyes dark with lust. “Jacob… baby…ugh, you don’t know the meaning of a quickie.”
Just as I opened my mouth to say something, his bedroom door flew open. Alice stood there, her eyes wide and her mouth hanging open. I jumped away from Will as my heart sank into my stomach.
“I-it’s not what it looks l-like,” I stuttered.
Alice slammed the door shut, and I turned to Will. The look he was sending me was something I had never seen from him. I mean, he looked ready to rip my fuckin’ head off. I opened my mouth but couldn’t think of anything to say.
“Are you fuckin’ serious?!” he shouted.
I tried to get closer to him, but he backed away. I was honestly afraid to pull him to me like I always did, so I kept my distance. “Dimples, it's not like that. You know that I love you.”
“No! I’m not doing this shit anymore. You’re standing here, bare-ass naked with a hard dick, and all you can say is, it isn’t what it looks like!” he shrieked. He was so angry that his face had turned red.
“That’s because it isn’t anyone’s business what happens between us.”
Shit. I didn’t know why the fuck I said that.
All the anger washed away from Will’s face. Now he was staring at me emotionless. “Get out.”
The two words were like a knife in my chest. I couldn’t accept that. “Dimp—”
“Out! Don’t bring your ass to my window tonight because it will be locked, and it will remain that way. You’re not ready to come out, and that’s completely fine, but I will no longer be your secret. I deserve better than that.”
His last statement made me feel like the biggest piece of shit.
I deserve better than that.
And he was right. Will deserved the world, and I was too much of a coward to give it to him.
I knew at this moment there was nothing I could do or say to make things right.
In all the time we had been together, I had never watched him shed a tear over me.
I felt nothing but anguish as I watched the tears roll down his face.
Knowing I was the cause of his pain, I decided to give him what he asked for. But I wasn’t giving up. I never would. I knew in my heart Will was my soulmate, so I wasn’t going to live without him.
I gathered my clothes and got dressed. Will never took his eyes off me.
Once I was dressed, I walked to the window and opened it.
Before I hopped out, I turned to look at him one last time.
Something felt different this time. The lack of emotion from him, combined with the look of disdain he was sending my way, was alarming.
Still, I held onto the hope that he would come back to me and not leave me lost without him.