Chapter 30 #2
Master hadn’t tried hard to keep my present a secret but that was mostly because teasing me about it was almost as much fun as giving it to me. He liked everything that made me…well…that turned my brain off and just let me submit to him.
“I…” Words. It felt like he needed more words as he slowly led me to the bedroom, gently caressing my fingers as he held my hand. “Your texts help me remember. You’ve given me a good schedule too.”
I hadn’t even overwhelmed him when I’d confessed I liked seeing him every day. Everyone else always said it made them feel claustrophobic, but not my Master. It was definitely a Dom versus everyone else thing, but I knew a large part was a Casimir was special thing.
“I want more, though, baby.” Stopping by the bed, he slowly ran his hands over my jacket. He caressed every inch like he was going to make love to it too before giving my shirt the same loving treatment. “I want that tux too.”
Suit porn…the subs online had given me some interesting ideas on how to feed his addiction to it.
“Are…are you going to cage me while I wear it, Master?” Yep. I might not be creative but the other subs more than made up for my lack of imagination. They’d done a good job too because pleasure seemed to wash through him like a wave until even his eyes rolled back in his head.
Yes…the answer was definitely yes, but it took several long moments for him to push away the fantasy and remember I was there with him.
Oh, that stare.
It was like every cell in his body was focused on me and there wasn’t anything else in the world.
“Yes, baby.” Nearly purring out the words, he wrapped one hand around the tie and started stroking it again. “You’ll wear your tux and your cage…and your collar.”
My collar.
My collar.
My collar.
There was probably something romantic or sweet I should’ve said, but I was barely hanging on to the ability to talk. “You…you said I needed…I needed a collar that I could wear all the time.”
He’d said so.
He’d made that very clear.
“That’s right, baby.” He gently released the tie and slowly reached up to trace around my neck. “One subtle collar that stays on all the time and another that’s for when you’re naked and caged and beautifully submissive.”
I was never going to be able to think with a collar and a cage on.
The shiver that raced through me as that reality hit made him chuckle and his eyes lit up with wicked excitement. “Every night when you come home, I’m going to get you ready first thing. Then I’ll decide how to use you, but Sundays are still going to be my favorite.”
Because I belonged to him completely on Sundays.
I was all his.
“All mine.” Master’s fingers made one last slow caress around the base of my neck. “My beautiful boy.”
Before I could even begin to gather up random words for any kind of sentence, Master smiled and released my neck. It was like he was looking at the most amazing Christmas tree and presents were piled all around it, but I was his tree and his present and everything all wrapped up into one.
Letting out a soft, emotion-filled breath, Master brushed his lips against mine as I just stood there.
Shaking.
When had I started to shake?
I didn’t notice it until his hands moved away from me but he saw everything and mimed taking a deep breath. I obeyed which got a tender smile from him and a nod. “Good boy.”
Me.
I was his good boy.
I was going to be his collared boy.
Master stroked my cheek. “One second, baby. Then you’re going to feel steady again.”
I liked feeling steady.
My concrete Master.
He was steady and I was going to belong to him.
Time was moving funny because one second he was reaching for the nightstand and the next he was holding a silver-looking chain in front of me. “Baby?”
Me.
I was his baby.
“That’s…that will…it’ll be…” I could do it. Swallowing hard as he nodded again, I made my voice work. “That’s my…my permanent collar? The one I get to wear…to wear all the time?”
Master mimed taking another breath as he shifted his hands to show me the ends of the flat necklace. “Yes. Once I secure these ends together, it’ll have to be cut off.”
When he paused, I realized he wanted some kind of acknowledgement from me, but all I could do was nod as the boulder in my throat blocked everything else.
“This isn’t a ring to show the rest of the world our cute little commitment. It’s not temporary. It’s not something you have to choose to put on every morning.” Master’s almost angry tone said he remembered when Valerie had thrown her ring at me.
It was so far from where I was currently it was like watching a movie, but it still hurt Master. No one got to hurt me when Master was around.
“You’ll go to bed knowing you belong to me.” Smiling again, he brushed his lips against mine as he talked about how he’d own me. “You’ll wake up feeling the weight around your neck. When you’re sitting in your office, stressed and frustrated, you’ll feel me right there with you.”
Because I belonged to him.
I forced my head to show him I was listening but words weren’t coming as easy. “Yours.”
The croaked-out consent was all I could do but Master’s beaming smile said he’d understood. “Kneel for me, baby.”
Kneel.
I could do that.
I could kneel for him.
Words took too much thought but my body knew what to do without being told.
“Good boy.” When I was in position with the world finally going still around us, he held out the two ends again. “Do you see?”
See?
Oh.
My head jerked, getting a pleased sound from Master. “Your initials on this side. Mine over here. When I put them together, they’re going to lock and blend into one.”
Because I belonged to him.
All I could do was nod and shake and watch the chain come closer and closer. When he finally wrapped it around me, I closed my eyes and worked at taking deep breaths like I knew he’d want.
Air in.
Air out.
“Good boy.” He kissed my head. He hummed softly. “God, that’s…baby.”
Fingers slowly trailed around my neck where the necklace was resting right over my shirt. “Once I let you out of this suit, I’m going to lay it against your skin and it’ll be like I’ve got my hand resting around your neck all the time.”
Because I belonged to him.
He stroked my cheek as I nodded, chuckling softly as he tilted my chin up. “Look at me, baby.”
Look.
Look at Master.
He swam into view as I blinked and tried to clear my eyes. “Good boy. I want you to really hear me.”
Hear him.
I would hear him.
“You are the best bad decision I ever made.” He smiled as he fingered the chain again with his free hand.
“You give me a purpose in life I’ve never had before.
You watch over me and take care of me. You notice what I need and you show me every day that you were meant to stand right beside me in life. ”
Stroking my cheek, he bent over and gave me another kiss. “You show me you love me and you let me keep the world steady for you, baby.”
Steady was amazing.
“I love you too. I love all the wonderful things I’ve learned about you and I’m going to love all the little pieces I don’t know about you yet.” That almost made me laugh. Master knew everything. Everything that mattered and everything silly.
Swallowing hard, I licked my lips and finally pushed the lump down. “I do love you. I don’t. It just.”
How had I missed how incredible he was?
Just thinking about what almost slipped through my fingers had my stomach clenching but then I felt his hand…my collar…his kiss.
“Look at me, baby.” His smile settled me back to the concrete base he’d laid out for me at the very beginning. “The past doesn’t matter. What-ifs don’t matter. The only thing that matters are the decisions we make together.”
Together.
Because I belonged to him…and I was going to be the best bad decision he’d ever made.