Chapter 8 - Emotion Detachment
Now, now, this is so boring! Hays! Hindi pa kasi ako pinapayagan na lumabas, baka daw kuno mapano ako!
Tsk!
I hate it! I hate it! I fucking hate it! Isa sa lahat ng pinakaayaw ko yung inuutusan at ikinukulong o pinagbabawalan ako!
The heck, I can't even do anything! They used power so that they can ensure my safety.
Safety my ass! Eh, kung yung pumatay sa kakambal ko ay nasa paligid lang at gusto akong patayin ulit!
Hays! Nakakainis talaga!
Lakad dito, lakad doon.
Balik dito, balik doon.
Wala na akong magawa dahil sa kaboringan!
Habang nag-lilikot ako ay may nasagi ako. It's an old looking book one. It's kinda look old, a bit vintage with modern spanish style pero inferness ang ganda pa rin ng libro.
Hindi rin siya masyadong makapal. I guess parang brochure lang ang pages nito. Halata naman kaai sa subrang nipis.
Out of curiosity ay kinuha ko ito at naupo sa kama. Binasa ko naman ang pamagat nito.
'Synaisthimatikí Apóspasi'
A greek title one, Synaisthimatikí apóspasi, in English means Emotional Detachment.
Eh? Why does my twin sister have this? What is the purpose of this thiniest book I have ever seen in my life!
Buti na nga lang rin at nakakaintindi ako ng 10 Languages sa earth such as, English, Filipino, Chinese, Greek, Spanish, Japanese, Korean, Italian, French, at Arabic.
Masipag lang talaga kasi ako noon matuto ng iba't ibang language lalo na at nagagamit ko rin ito as a communication for me to be able to talk and understand my foreign clients or business partners na nagmula sa iba't ibang panig ng bansa.
At hindi ko rin inaasahan na magagamit ko rin pala ito dito sa mundong ito! Nakakamangha nga naman, ano pa kaya ang nagagamit na lingwahe rito, bukod sa taglish, at greek?
Meron pa kaya?
Hays, mabalik tayo sa libro. As my curiosity grow bigger. I started to read it. Napaka-interesting ng libro na ito.
As soon as I finished reading it ay binalikan ko ang pahina kung saan yung procedure sa gagawin ko.
This book contains how to move your emotions. I know... I know na kaya ko pero mas gugustohin kong mawala na ng tuluyan kung ano man ang nararamdaman ko.
The book says, sadness, hate/hatred, despised, angry and revenge will remained. Ito lang ang mararamdaman ko. Kapalit nito ay hindi ako mamakaramdam na nasasaktan ako or what dahil sa pagmamahal na yan.
I can't also feel love and I won't be able to fall in love. Kawawa naman yung mga nagkakagusto sa akin but not my problem anymore...
Magaling naman ako magtago ng galit so these unnecessary emotions of mine should be vanished!
Magiging sagabal lang ito sa mga plano ko.
Agad naman akong tumayo at umayos sa pagkakatayo. I started to fucos my breath and then I felt something...
Then, as I follow the book's guidance. I need to chant, kailangan rin ng right hand ko ay nakalagay sa dibdib ko.
Sabi ng libro ay habang nagc-chant ako ay makakaramdam daw ako ng kunting kirot at makasuka ng dugo at kahit ano pa ang mangyari, I need to slowly pull my hands to successfully remove the emotions that I wanted to remove.
As I started putting my hand on my chest, I started to chant too,
"Mia porselánini kardiá, kápote zestí kai foteiní,
Syntetrimménoi apó érotes pou pétaxan.
Káthe kommáti mia anámnisi, aichmirí kai éntoni,
Apó yposchéseis spasménes, mia agápi aórati.
échysa tin psychí mou, éna révma empistosynis,
Se chéria pou synétripsan to elpidofóro óneiró mou.
tsímpima prodosías, pikrí géfsi,
émeine móno to kenó, mia érimi spatáli.
Tóte, se apógnosi, mia apelpisméni paráklisi,
éna psithyrisméno xórki gia na me eleftherósei.
Gia na moudiásei ton póno, to synechés tsímpima,
Na sopásei i kardiá pou tólmise na tragoudísei.
Ta lógia épiasan, mia anatrichiastikí chári,
ésvise ti zestasiá, den áfise íchnos.
Ta synaisthímata isycházoun, éna pagoméno dákry,
Mia kardiá apó págo, chorís fóvo.
Tóra krya stékomai, mia vasílissa pagetónon,
Ekeí pou kápote ítan mia zontaní psychí.
Chorís chará, chorís lypi, móno pagetó,
éna pnévma agápis, entelós chaméno.
To xórki pétyche, to érgo tou olokliróthike,
Allá me poio kóstos, aftí i pikrí ítta?
Giatí mésa se aftí ti siopí, éntoni kai vathiá,
éna kommáti tou eaftoú mou vrísketai thamméno ston ypno."
(In English means:
"A porcelain heart, once warm and bright,
Shattered by loves that took flight.
Each piece a memory, sharp and keen,
Of promises broken, a love unseen.
I poured my soul, a trusting stream,
Into hands that crushed my hopeful dream.
Betrayal's sting, a bitter taste,
Left only emptiness, a desolate waste.
Then, in despair, a desperate plea,
A whispered spell to set me free.
To numb the ache, the constant sting,
To silence the heart that dared to sing.
The words took hold, a chilling grace,
Erased the warmth, left not a trace.
Emotions stilled, a frozen tear,
A heart of ice, devoid of fear.
Now cold I stand, a glacial queen,
Where once a vibrant soul had been.
No joy, no sorrow, only frost,
A love-lorn spirit, utterly lost.
The spell succeeded, its task complete,
But at what cost, this bitter defeat?
For in this silence, stark and deep,
A part of me lies buried in sleep. ")
As the book says, I began coughing blood. Gusto kong maiyak dahil sa subrang kirot na nararamdaman ko!
Grabe, sabi kunting kirot lang! Bakit ang sakit?!
Anyways, as long as the results are benefitable for me, it's alright. Ngayon ay may hawak hawak akong isang crystal. It kinda looks like a crystal with a lighting or holy divine power na nagliliwanag.
(Ito hitsura niya guys hehe, btw sorry for the low quality of the image. Credits of photo: Drama: Till The End Of The Moon)
The first and second steps are done. Now, in order to complete it. I need to crash it! So then, I immediately crashed it!
Para naman akong nangisay o mas sabihing malapit na ma- paralyze. Nangangatog yung dalawang tuhod ko at nawawalan na rin ng lakas ang katawan ko.
Napatingin naman ako sa manipis na librong may pamagat na "Synaisthimatikí Apóspasi'. Dahan dahan naman akong gumapang at dali-daling itinago sa loob ng shadow box ko.
(Shadow box, ito yung invisible na bahay na lagi mong bitbit. HAHAHA doon po nilagay yung mga dapat na ako lang ang makakakita.)
Well, I am just making sure na walang makakahanap nito. I used my magic para ibalik sa dati yung mukha ng kwarto ko.
Subrang dungis nito dahil sa nagkalat na dugo. Baka ano pa yung makita't malaman pa nila ang mga ginagawa ko.
Nagbihis naman ako ng bagong kasuotan. Nagusot kasi yung kanina tapos may mantsa pa ng dugo,
I don't allowed anyone to enter this room without my permission. Lalo na at andito ako nagsasanay ng kapangyarihan.
Pero for real, I am still exploring what my abilities are.
First, I discover my ability of hearing.
Hearing some noises that are far from the palce, second, the ability to see things from afar, third, I can talk to animals, fourth, I can teleport, and fifth I can make a shadow box to store the things I wanted.
— TO BE CONTINUED —