Chapter 31
Sebastian
The last couple of days have been hard. I tried to keep it together for the sake of Lily and me.
I could tell she’s been struggling, but I didn’t know how to help her properly.
I wanted to make our last week together special, checking off as many points on her lists as possible; but it also became a harsh reminder and a countdown until that flight left the terminal.
When she was lying in my arms, sad to say goodbye, I almost begged her to stay.
But then, I remembered the spark in her eyes when she told me about all the wonderful sights she’s planning on exploring in the Caribbean.
Therefore, I had to be strong for both of us, making sure she boarded that plane—even though it felt like part of me flew away together with her.
It may be hard to say goodbye, but it would be even worse if she gave up everything for me.
I want her to live her life to the fullest, even if it means I’ll only have her when her adventures lead her back to me.
I’ll be here in my condo waiting with a romcom and a can of Coke for her.
～
Has it always been this quiet in my apartment?
Day four without Lily, and I’m realising just how dull and quiet my apartment is without her.
Just as I’m thinking about her, like I spend most of my time doing, her face lights up my phone with an incoming FaceTime call.
“Hey, beautiful.”
I prop my phone up on the counter and see that she’s walking, probably on campus.
“Hey, handsome. How is gloomy London?” she asks, and I feel myself relax as I talk with her.
Our calls have quickly become my favourite part of the day. She’ll tell me about all the things she accomplished the day before and what she has planned for the day whilst I basically sit and admire her.
Then she’ll ask me if I have anything exciting to tell her, and pout whenever I tell her that it’s the same old.
I wake up, go to practice, eat lunch, have my meetings, another practice or workout, maybe a game.
Then, I’ll head home, eager for her to call me when her day begins.
The same routine I’ve always had, but now, it leaves me feeling empty.
Therefore, I’ve promised myself to go do things I know Lily would enjoy.
A way for me to have her closer to me in a way.
When she asks me about my day, expecting me to say “same old”, she lights up when I tell her that I actually went to the cathedral on the way back from the stadium.
“Really? That’s great, Sebastian.”
Her joy is contagious as she beams through the phone, and I might have to go do all the things on her lists just to see her reaction when I tell her about them.
“I really wanted to kiss you that day,” I mutter, remembering how much I was struggling trying to contain my affection for her. I often find myself looking at the pictures she took of us.
“I really wanted you to kiss me that day. And any other day for that matter,” she says, winking at me.
I’m glad she seems to be in good spirits, enjoying her time back at college.
This is what I wanted. For her to be happy.
She meets up with her friend, Mira, and we say our goodbyes.
The words are at the tip of my tongue, almost spilling out.
Each time we say goodbye, I’m tempted to tell her ‘I love you’, but I want to do it in person.
That will have to wait.
For exactly four weeks and three long days.
～
I’m lying in bed looking over our schedule for the next few weeks, wondering if I have any open windows where I could fly out to see Lily.
I’m getting desperate already.
I have a private jet ready to take me anywhere I want, but my schedule simply doesn’t allow it. It would be easier without the time difference, but all the time lost— especially on the return flight—simply won’t cut it.
I sigh, frustrated that I can’t see her before she comes to visit me.
Four weeks left.
My phone rings, an incoming FaceTime call from the woman of every hour of every day.
“Hey, beautiful.”
I’ve already talked to her on the phone and texted all day, but I’m glad to see her face as well.
“Hey, babe.”
She’s often out and about, wandering around campus or relaxing in a park when we have our calls.
Now, though, she seems to be in her dorm.
“I have a surprise for you,” she says, a sly smile on her lips.
Then she moves the camera down her body, where she’s wearing nothing but lingerie.
I groan out loud, feeling my cock swell at the sight of her.
As she’s been out in public for most of our calls, we haven’t done anything sexual over the phone; just the occasional sexting.
I didn’t know if she would be up for it. It certainly is a first for me.
She seems more than ready for some action, spread out on her bed, looking like the goddess she is.
“Fuck, Lily. You look perfect,” I tell her.
I get more comfortable on the bed, adjusting the pillows behind me as I lean back.
Then I move my hand down my body to my cock.
“Show me, Sebastian.”
She’s a mind reader as well.
I push down my boxers and kick them off before bringing my phone down.
Then I show her my hand working my dick.
“Lily, I love the lingerie, but I need you naked,” I tell her, feeling the pre-cum run down my shaft as I jerk.
She quickly discards the lingerie, leaving her as naked as me.
“What would you do if I was there?” she husks, her own hand toying with one of her boobs.
“I’d start with those tits. Give them some well-deserved attention,” I tell her, Lily copying my orders as I tell her to pinch her nipples and knead.
Her breathing deepens as she toys with her tits, and I hang on to every blissful second of it.
“Such a good girl, doing the things I tell you to.”
“Then I would get to that cunt. Lily, are you wet?” I ask her.
She moans out loud, her fingers reaching her pussy.
“Fuck, yes.”
I grip my cock harder, watching her finger work her clit.
“I would fuck you so good, baby girl. Make sure you’d feel me for days after I’m done with you.”
Watching her, hearing the noises she’s making, urges me on as I race towards my own climax.
“Sebastian, I’m close.”
I watch mesmerised as she comes, her legs shaking as I urge her on with my words.
“Fucking perfect.”
Watching her sends me straight over the edge, shooting my cum up my stomach.
Lily watches me intently through the screen.
When our breathing calms, she starts giggling, a slight blush to her cheeks.
“Gosh, I never imagined I’d have sex over FaceTime, but I guess there’s a first time for everything.”
She’s glowing in the dim light of her dorm, her smile content as she lies down on her pillow with her phone in front of her.
Kind of like we’re facing each other in bed.
“I do enjoy doing as many firsts as possible with you,” I tell her.
It might be my favourite thing ever.
Doing new things with her.
Experiencing things through her eyes.
“You’d never had phone sex before?”
She almost seems timid to ask her question, which is adorable.
“No. You’re my first baby.”
I’m tempted to add ‘and last’, but decide to keep it to myself.
Reminding myself that this is all kind of new, and I don’t want to pressure her or make her feel like I’m the overbearing boyfriend.
“I love all our firsts,” she says, and the word isn’t lost on me.
Why didn’t I just tell her before she left?
It feels like we’re having the same conversation through our eyes, none of us wanting to say the big words over a screen the first time.
“Four weeks,” I whisper, reminded of another time when we were holding on to our control before crossing that line.
My self-control slipped right from my hands, and it might just do that this time around as well.
“Four weeks.”
～
“Should I push you down the stairs?” Dean asks, making me look up at him, a frown on my face.
“What?”
“If I push you down the stairs, you’ll probably be injured and therefore could be out of practice. Then you can let us all out of the misery of your sour mood.”
Fredrick chuckles beside Dean, obviously agreeing with the fucker.
Am I really that moody?
“Shut up. I’m not in a sour mood.”
But my tone isn’t exactly cheerful.
He might have a point, but resorting to injuring myself to go see Lily may be taking it a little far.
“On a serious note, Sebby, you should try to get some time off to see your girl. We can see you’re struggling.”
I don’t think I’ve ever seen Dean this serious, which says a lot.
Shit.
Maybe I am struggling more than I realised.
I could try to talk to the coach and get a few days off.
It’s been almost two weeks since she left, which means we are soon at the halfway mark.
It wouldn’t be too bad to ask for some time off.
I’ve never asked for it before, and it must be possible for family emergencies.
Missing your girlfriend may not qualify as a family emergency, but he doesn’t have to know that.
“Yeah, I think you’re right. I’ll look at our calendar for the millionth time and try to come up with something for the coach.”
It’s at least worth a try.
The worst thing he can say is no, but then I would have at least tried to end this misery.
“Do that, and if that doesn’t work, we’ll always have the stairs.”
～
I’ve just gotten back from practice when my phone rings. I instantly feel lighter, hoping it will be my girl on the other end of the line.
I haven’t talked to her today yet, so I look forward to hearing all about her adventures in the warmth.
When I fish out my phone, though, it’s the wrong Hastings on the other end.
I feel bad for the disappointment I feel when I pick up the phone to a smiling Luke and Jessica on the other end.
“Hey, guys.”
I try to force some enthusiasm into my voice.
“Gosh, he’s just as bad,” Jessica says, a look of concern overtaking her face.
“What do you mean?”
Luke and Jessica let out a sigh at the same time; they even breathe in synch now.
“We just talked to my dear sister, and she looked like she’s just witnessed someone kicking a puppy,” Luke says.
Every time I’ve talked to Lily, she seems like her usual self. Our longing for each other is definitely there, but I try to keep our chats light and fun.