Chapter 15
Deliverance
Ido not know how long I lay insensible, but I awoke to a feeling of sick misery in an unfamiliar room.
Every one of my limbs ached, and it felt like there was cotton-wool in my head.
Even my throat felt dry and scratchy.
There was an unfamiliar servant sitting in a chair across from me, and my body had a variety of noxious smelling poultices on it.
What had happened?
With a sickening jolt the memories came back to me.
My baby! I thought instantly, hands so heavy and sore I could barely move them, but desperate to feel all over my stomach with trembling fingers.
I've lost my child, I thought despairingly, and I turned my head to the wall and wept.
Presently Gideon was sent for, and soon after he came in.
"Deliverance, Deliverance, hush, you are fine!" he said, a familiar rough hand laid firmly on my hair. "The doctor said you have not broken any bones."
But I only cried more, so hard the world was a blur, and Gideon's voice came to me as if above the surface of the waters, until I fell once again into an exhausted sleep.
When I awoke, my husband was still there.
"There was a leak somewhere," he said. "That entire wing has been sealed off for repairs."
I said nothing.
"I had not gone far," he said. "I came into the room as soon as I heard the crash, and at first I thought you were dead."
"I wish I was," I said. "Let me go. Just let me go back to my home village, I beg of you. I can find someone to stay with there."
"I will do no such thing," my husband said. "You belong here with me."
I said nothing else, drifting in and out of a dreamlike state, and Gideon eventually left. I heard him talking angrily to someone. Ada? One of the servants? I knew not.
He returned to force a clear savory broth down my throat, but still I stared at the wall, and so I remained, insensible to all attempts to rouse me until. . .one morning. . .
I felt a flutter in my belly.
Gasping for air, like I had just broken the surface of an icy river, I bolted up in my bed.
Surely, I was mistaken.
It had been a phantom, a mirage invented by my tortured brain.
But no, there it went again! That squirmy, fluttery feeling inside my belly.
I had not lost the baby after all!
"What? What is wrong?" Gideon asked irritably.
I wondered why he bothered to sit with me, but I could barely devote time to thinking about that.
My baby lived; I lived!
I must find a way to escape Grayspires Manor! I had no idea how or when or where. And it would take more courage than I currently possessed to do it.
But I was going to escape!