Chapter Ten
Madison
Once I’m in my bedroom, I let the tears run down my face. I can’t stand the way Chloe talks about her past. I know she is hurting, but someday she has to let it go and forgive herself. I can’t believe she thinks she is going to be alone forever. Her sleeping patterns are getting worse and without concealer, you can see the dark circles under her eyes. I’m really worried, but I don’t know what to do. I’ve been sworn to secrecy and there is no way I am going to betray that trust.
For the first time in a long time, I say a prayer asking for Jayson to be a good thing for her. I can tell he really likes her and I hope that he will give her a chance to explain what happened. I don’t know why Chloe can’t see it, but she was victimized. Instead she takes all of the blame on herself. All I can say is that if she and Jayson move forward, he better be a standup guy or I’m kicking his ass!
Speaking of his ass, I think of his twin, Connor. Oh my! I could bounce a quarter on that ass. He is so freaking sexy, but I know his type. That’s ok, because I am the female version of him. Maybe we could just use each other for sex for a little while. Yes, I know that sounds slutty, but it’s better than the alternative. No way am I letting some guy get close to me to hurt me. I saw too much of that growing up with my mom. I tried to have a serious relationship once and all I can say is, been there, done that, bought the t-shirt , and it was awful.
As I lay here listening to my iPod, I wonder what it might be like to have someone close and steady again. I snort out loud because that is the complete opposite of Connor Reece. I’ll be lucky if he remembers my name tomorrow. I’ll bet he has a phone full of numbers just waiting for him to call. Stupid sluts! Oh wait, that’s me. Well, it seems like my best friend’s loathing has rubbed off on me. Whatever, that’s not me! He would be lucky if I looked his way. I’ll just admire him like a pretty painting or a centerfold in a magazine…yep, that fits him perfectly!