Chapter 5
Chapter Five
Fiona
I can’t believe that Dad actually agreed for me to go out.
Mom and dad are actively protective of me, and they do not like me leaving the castle because they are worried that something might happen to me. I guess that I can’t blame them because it’s pretty clear that there are so many people that are afraid of what would come from the Royal wrath. I think that is mainly the reason why I have been left alone for the most part.
It makes me sick to my stomach that this whole thing could end up being thrown back in my face, but I have no idea what might come from it. I don’t know why Lucian is being so kind to me. He might be my fated mate but it’s not like he owes me anything. Truthfully, it seems like we could end up doing some things completely different, but I don’t know what might end up coming from it.
I walk close to Lucian, seeing how he is keeping a safe distance next to me and everyone who walks past us is making sure that they give us space. It makes me smile because I know that they are intimidated by Lucian but he’s really not that scary, only when you piss him off it seems like. I wish that I could do a lot more, but I have no idea what might come from it if I’m being completely honest. This thing might end up doing a lot worse.
“Are you sure that it’s a good idea for me to be going out?” I ask him softly, seeing how he looks down at me with a gentle look on his face, “I mean truthfully, there are so many people out there who might want to kill me and you’re putting yourself in danger as well. Don’t you think so?”
“You don’t have to worry about me.” He assures me, a soft smile appearing on his face when he looks at me, “If anything, they have to worry about me because I would end up tearing them to little pieces and they wouldn’t be able to fix it because they decided to fuck up. I’m sure you get it now.”
I know completely what he is saying right now, and it makes me smile because it is like nothing I have felt before. It’s an interesting feeling that makes me want to do a lot more, but I have no idea if it is going to be a good idea when I look at him. Lucian might be able to protect me, but I don’t know if it is going to be the best thing for me. I just am trying to do everything that I can to be happy and it’s something that is screaming on the inside for me to do a lot more.
“Are you sure you’re good?” He asks me softly, running his fingers lightly against my cheek as he continues to touch me softly, “You don’t have to worry about a thing with me. I promise. No one is going to dare to touch you when I’m around. I can assure you of that.”
I don’t know if I can believe him right now but I’m doing everything that I can to make sure it is possible. When I look up at him, it is like nothing else I have experienced before, and it is a craving inside of me that makes me long for everything. I want to kiss him, and those words make me blush because I never would have guessed myself to be this kind of person but I’m not going to complain so much.
I just want to do a lot more.
I just long to be closer to him and it’s like nothing I have ever felt before. I don’t know if he is for sure feeling the same way that I am, but I hope so because it is an intense feeling that makes me crave a lot more. It makes me smile because it’s an experience that makes me long for everything else, but I am also trying not to push it because it might end up biting me in the butt. That wouldn’t be the best thing for me.
“I can smell you.” He warns me, a huskier tone in his voice and I notice immediately how dark his eyes are, “I would tone it down a little bit unless you want to get devoured by me, my little mate.”
He is flirting now, and it sends a wave of desire through me that is desperate for a lot more. It is like nothing I have ever felt before, and my heart almost skips a beat. It’s a craving on the inside that makes me long for a lot more and I have no idea if it is going to be okay, but I just want to be close to him even more so. I don’t want to let him go.
I don’t think I have ever felt something like this before.
It’s just growing with more intensity with every passing second.
How odd.
“What are we going to see?” I ask him curiously, seeing how his lips twitch slightly when he looks down at me, “I’m sure you have a lot planned but I kind of want to know.”
“You will see when we get there.” He decides to tease me, making me give him a look because how dare he tease me like that, “and I promise that you’re going to enjoy every part of it, my beautiful mate.”
I really don’t know how he is doing this to me, but it is driving me crazy with every passing second. The desire building inside of me is almost unbearable and I’m hating every second of it. A needing feeling that makes my heart almost skip a beat, desperation filling me on the inside. Truthfully, I don’t know what is going to happen, but I do know that it is going to be okay. At least I’m going to hope so.
I have no idea what is going through his head, but he takes my hand in his and he is immediately dragging me away from there, making my heart leap in my chest because I have no idea what is happening right here. It sends an electric shock through my body as my head jerks up and I’m staring at him like he is crazy. I’m not quite certain what is going to come from it but it’s like nothing I have ever experienced before.
Before I can do anything else, I’m suddenly pressed against one of the trees, making my eyes widen with surprise because I never expected him to do something like this. It makes me want to do a lot more, staring up at him like he is about to give me a heart attack. I long for so much more, wanting to make sure that we are going to be close together, but I also don’t know.
I can feel the heat radiating off of his body, aching for a lot more.
It’s like nothing else I have experienced before, a desperation for everything else. When I look at him, it makes my heart almost skip a beat and a craving builds inside of me for a lot more. I don’t know what else is going to happen, but I do know that I’m needing every part of him. It’s like he knows how to turn my body on, and he doesn’t care what he is going to do to me, he is just making sure that I’m feeling every part of it. It’s like a feeling that I couldn’t even be sure about but it’s a dangerous game of cat and mouse that could end up biting me in the butt if I’m not careful.
Can I really trust him?
Will it be okay?
Will I be okay with him so close to me?
I don’t even know at this point, that is the biggest problem that I have been dealing with. It’s like nothing else I have ever felt before and I long for so much more, a desperation filling me on the inside that is tempted to do a lot more with him. My eyes drift right to his lips, noticing how they look so plump and soft and I long to feel them against mine.
What is so wrong about that?
What would end up happening if I begged him for a chance to be closer?
Would he even want me?
I don’t even know at this point, and it is driving me crazy. A longing fills me on the inside, wanting to be so much closer. Before I can even ask him to do so, he steps closer and his lips meet mine in a soft kiss, wrapping his arms around me as he is holding me closer.
Oh wow, I didn’t expect this…
I think I’m okay with it though.