Chapter 6
Chapter Six
Lucian
Yes, this is what I need.
Mine.
I shouldn’t have let my desires get the best of me, but I couldn’t stop myself, just longing to be closer to her in a way that I have just never felt with anyone before. I know how crazy it might sound and it could be the worst thing that I do but I just need to be closer to her and I don’t want to dare let anything stand in my way.
I need her closer to me.
I want her to be mine.
I want to love her.
It’s screaming inside of me to just take her and screw the consequences, but I know that I can’t do that. If I did that, I’m almost certain that I would be in a lot of trouble, and I don’t want that to happen because I want to make sure that she is safe as well. After everything that has happened so far, something is just telling me that I need to be content with whatever comes my way. I can’t change anything else because it would end up being blown up in my face.
That would be the worst thing to happen.
I just pray that I can get closer to her and not worry about a thing.
Our lips move in perfect sync, brushing against one another and the cravings fill the both of us and neither one of us lets it take over. I shouldn’t have allowed something like this to happen but there was no way I was going to let it take over because that would be the worst thing that I do. As I feel her body arching against mine, desperate for my touch, it takes everything inside of me to not just take her right here and now.
“No more.” I grumble, pulling back even though I hear her whimpering noises as she is just aching for a lot more, “I don’t want to lose control and you’re pushing every button, Fiona. I don’t want to lose that control and hurt you in the process. I want to do the right way.”
I am telling her this because it is true. I don’t want to do something that I would regret, and I know I would regret it if I ended up forcing something onto her that she wasn’t ready for. If that ended up happening, I can only imagine what would end up coming from it and it would make me long for so much more. As I move away, I can tell that she doesn’t want me to leave but I’m not going to just give her what she wants.
I have to do this the right way.
I have to make sure that she knows what she means to me, and that I will never hurt her. I’m not like those other men. I don’t want to be with her just because of the title and I don’t want to hurt her either. I want to make sure that she is content, and I want to make sure that she is happy. I want to make sure that everything that I do is what she needs, and I don’t want to dare let anything else come from it. I don’t want to think about what might end up happening if she didn’t want to be with me but a part of me knows that it might end up being a lot more dangerous. It could be something that would end up biting her in the butt if she didn’t want to pick me. I suppose I couldn’t blame her because, after everything that has happened so far, it’s nothing that I could have ever dreamed over.
It made me want to pull her closer and I didn’t want to dare let anyone get close. I didn’t want to think about what would come from it after that but a part of me knew what I wanted to take from the entire thing. I guess that the whole purpose of finding your fated mate is to find the person that you are meant for, but I don’t know if that is going to be the reality of my life.
If anything, it might end up being a lot more dangerous.
Especially since she is the Princess.
So many people want her and they want to use her. I wouldn’t allow it to happen, but I am only one person and there is only so much I can do. I wish that I could do a lot more for her, but I don’t know if it would happen so easily because it’s pretty clear that this entire thing is a game, and it could really end up destroying me if given the chance.
I don’t know if it is a good idea, but I have to ask myself what I want to do about it. I have to ask myself if this is a good idea and I have to keep trying to decide what might end up coming from it. I know the whole thing is a dangerous game and it could go one way or another, but I just hope that she knows it.
“Follow me, let’s continue.” I murmur softly, slipping my hand back into hers and I guide her away from the seclusion of where we were, “I’m sorry if that was a little much but I hope that I can make you see now what I was talking about. After everything that has happened, I’m sure that you realize now that this whole thing can be really dangerous.”
I’m warning her because it is the truth. As much as I try to protect her, anything can happen. I won’t let anything touch her but unfortunately things that happen we can’t control. It’s kind of ridiculous but it’s more so something that we’re dealing with. I ache for a lot more, but I know that this whole thing could change everything between us.
I want a lot more.
I need it.
I can’t promise that everything would go the way that we needed it to, but I don’t know what I can do to make sure that she knows precisely how I feel about her. I could confess it to the whole world, but I also don’t want to make her uncomfortable. After everything that has happened so far, I just long to be closer to her and I want her to feel the same way.
“Why are we going to a jeweler?” She asks me curiously as we step inside.
I pull out the small pouch out of my pocket that is hiding something from her. I know the designer, Pablo, and he looks between me and Fiona with a big smile on his face. He already knows because I had already told him what I planned to do today but that didn’t mean that I still wasn’t as nervous. I don’t know if this whole thing would end up biting me in the butt, but I have a feeling that it might because it is pretty obvious that this is a game that could end up changing everything.
I just hope that she’s okay with it because this is going out of my comfort zone.
“I brought the jewels.” I tell him, setting them down, “About how long?”
“It won’t take me long.” He assures me, picking up the pouch, “It is so nice to officially meet you, Princess Fiona. I kind of thought that Lucian was lying to me when he said that he met his fated mate but I’m glad that he has met someone that he can love.”
Fiona blushes as she looks up at him, just clinging to me. I love that she is so reliant on me, and she has no problem with holding onto me and making sure that I know who I belong to. I just want to be close to her and I don’t want anything to stand in my way. I don’t think I have ever felt something like this in my entire life and it’s making me ache for a lot.
“What are we doing?” Fiona asks me again, raising an eyebrow at me.
“Well, you’re my fated mate and I want to give you something to symbolize our relationship before we end up going all the way.” I explain to her, hoping that she doesn’t hate what I’m doing, “I’m having a ring custom-made for you.”
Her eyes widen with surprise when she looks at me, “are you serious? That is so sweet…”
She is looking at me with a big smile on her face and it makes me realize that I did make a good decision. I worried that maybe it wasn’t a good idea, but I guess it’s not the way I thought. I just long for her to be close to me.
I want to give her this ring.
I want to give her everything.
I don’t know how it is going to go but I long to bring her closer. I don’t think I have ever felt this way before but it’s just a temptation for a lot more to do everything that I can. I don’t know what’ll happen next, but I pray that I can bring her closer.
I don’t know what’ll happen next.