Chapter Forty-Four
If Ali didn’t already love JT, hearing her say she trusted Ali to do whatever she wanted might have sealed it for her.
JT looked up at Ali with her face both open and vulnerable but completely at ease.
Ali knew she wanted nothing more than to prove herself worthy of that trust. Possibly for every day for the rest of her life.
But the rest of their lives weren’t happening then. She took her time devouring every inch of JT’s chest. Running her tongue across her nipples then replacing it with her fingers, only to go back to sucking until JT’s breath grew shallow and she panted into Ali’s ear.
“Ali, are you going to make me beg?”
Ali considered the question. Was she? Maybe. She hadn’t planned on it but having this powerful woman begging for her release made Ali’s clit throb with want.
“Do you want me to? Would that get you off?”
JT laughed. “I honestly don’t know at this point. You’re driving me insane with that tongue of yours.” She let her head fall back and stared at the ceiling. “I’m dying, Ali, aching for you. Please fuck me.”
Ali grinned but felt a flutter of nerves.
She’d imagined this moment. She’d imagined it at least a dozen different ways.
On her knees licking JT until she cried out.
Burying her fingers deep inside JT and driving into her until she was shuddering and wrapping her legs around Ali’s waist. Using any of the toys she kept next to her bed.
But now that the moment had come it was like her brain was broken.
How could she decide how to please this woman when all she wanted was to please her one hundred different ways until neither of them could walk?
She wanted this woman spent and begging for more.
“How do you like to be fucked?” Ali felt herself blush, but not from the question. She wasn’t shy about sex, but she was shy about being unsure after all her big talk.
JT held eye contact and reached behind Ali’s head to hold her gently.
“I like to be fucked by women who are sweet and sassy and who talk a whole lot of shit.” She smiled and Ali felt like her insides were melting into a puddle.
“But if you want specifics… I want to feel your weight on top of me and your fingers inside me. I want you to drive your hips into me. Does that sound okay?”
Ali kissed her and moved her legs to be between JT’s. “This okay? I’m not squishing you?”
JT nodded. “You feel perfect.” She wrapped her legs around Ali. “Don’t be scared. You feel amazing.”
Ali’s heart swelled. It was all the reassurance she needed to focus. She traced her hands up JT’s legs until she reached her underwear. “Look, as much as I love how these look, can you slide these off for me. They’re blocking my access.”
JT slid out of them, and Ali settled back on top of her, her hand poised on JT’s inner thigh. “You could probably crush me with your thighs, huh?”
“I wouldn’t.”
Ali dipped her head to suck one of JT’s nipples as her fingers explored her wetness. “It’s pretty hot that you could, though.” She slid her fingers slowly along JT’s slit, dying at how soaked she was. “JT, oh my god.”
“You make me so fucking wet. I want you.”
Ali swallowed and focused on her fingers and every single thing she could feel beneath them. She slid them lower to circle JT’s opening. She teased and prolonged, watching JT’s face change with every touch.
“Ali, please. I want you inside me.”
Ali surged forward, pressing her fingers deep into JT and letting her hips press her hand against JT as she rocked up into the pressure.
She pulled out and drove forward again and again as JT rocked against her.
Ali watched the delicious way JT’s face let her know what felt good.
Her breathing became more frantic, and Ali struggled to keep the rhythm because she was falling apart with every touch, every thrust. She wanted JT to come, and she wanted to watch her fall apart.
JT jerked and Ali felt her tighten around her fingers and she worried she was going to come just from watching.
“Ali, oh my god. Don’t stop. Don’t fucking stop.”
Ali rocked forward again and waited. JT moaned her name, her head falling backward against the bed. Her pussy fluttered with aftershocks and Ali rode them like the best wave on the most perfect beach day of her life.
“Fuck, that was amazing,” Ali said, her filter gone along with her willpower to resist this woman.
JT opened her eyes, looking slightly drunk, dazed, and so happy. “I fucking love you.”
Ali’s eyes widened in surprise.
JT froze. “Oh shit. I mean…” She paused, her eyes searching Ali’s face.
Ali didn’t know what to do. She loved this woman but she’d said it after sex, which everyone knew couldn’t be trusted. Right? Ali reached for JT’s face, brushing her hair off her forehead.
“Really?”
JT swallowed, her jaw and throat working up and down.
She nodded. “Yeah. I’m sorry it came out like this and I’m sure you’re thinking you can’t trust it because I’m all sex drunk on the best sex of my life, but fuck it.
I love you, Alexandra Porter. And not because you just fucked my brains out.
I love you. And it’s not convenient. But it’s true. ”
Ali froze. Was she really doing this right now?
She took a deep breath. “I love you, too. And not because you just said I was the best sex of your life, though thank you for that. I’m sure I have a lot to learn.
But because I love you. And you’re right, it isn’t convenient, but I do.
” She kissed JT and rolled to the side so she could be beside her on the bed.
“What are we going to do?” Ali asked, her brain already moving a thousand miles an hour.
Of course they couldn’t do anything about the circumstances.
This had to be a fling. It didn’t matter that they loved each other.
Their lives were impossible. They could love each other but it didn’t solve the problems that physically separated them.
“Do? You mean tomorrow or the next day? Or do you mean now? Because right now, I really want to have sex with you, in your bed, in your house. And I want it to last for hours. And then if there’s some stuff we have to figure out, fine.
But right now, I love you, and if I’m right, you’re soaking wet and you need me to do something about that. Am I right?”
Ali grinned. “You’re an absolute menace. But I love you, and because you have completely ruined my underwear, I’m going to need you to make me come at least four times to make up for it.”
JT smiled. “Then I better get started.”