The Hookup Mix-up

Perry

I’d wanted to tell Theo about the eye thing but didn’t have a chance…and also that I’m crazy in love with him, but isn’t that something I shouldn’t say after the best sex of my life? What if he thought I’d only said it because we’d just fucked? What if he didn’t feel the same but then felt obligated to tell me because I’d just had my dick in his ass?

I’d also wanted to tell him how inspiring he is to me. How I want to be like him, that I want to go to college and follow my dream and give my father a chance. Because if I do, then at least I would know I did my part, and if he fucked it up again, there’s nothing I could do to change it.

But I hadn’t done any of that. He’d fallen asleep, and I’d lain here all night, tossing and turning, while all these thoughts rained down on me.