Chapter 11
The morning after the fight, I woke up with Carsyn in my arms. We didn't have sex, but I was okay with that. I was content with holding her and being in her presence.
When we got home, we showered separately and got into bed. I knew the day had been a lot for her. I couldn't imagine the things she felt. Things didn't seem to bother her much, but I knew it did. I didn't think watching a boxing match would affect her the way it did, and I now hated that I took her. I felt like it was my fault that she had that reaction. I probably should have waited longer. I wanted to see if it would help her regain her memories or at least make her happy. Instead, it did the complete opposite. I made sure I got her out of there as soon as it was possible. I didn't go into full detail when I texted Evander, but he understood it.
I wasn't completely sold on the idea of going to therapy, but if it would make Carsyn happy, I would consider it. Maybe I'd wait to see how things turned out for her. I thought I hid my fear of her leaving me, but I could tell she knew something was going on with me.
When I was by myself, I thought about Carsyn leaving, and sometimes the thought suffocated me. She could fully recover with no recollection of our marriage and leave me. It was a conversation I had with myself every day. I prayed about it too.
Nia stayed the night at Carsyn's parents' house, so I eased out of bed to call them. I didn't want to wake Carsyn, but I wanted to check on Nia and let them know we would pick her up once we got ourselves together.
Once I was out of bed, I went into the bathroom to empty my bladder and brush my teeth. After I was done, I grabbed my phone off the nightstand and headed downstairs. I knew Carsyn would be hungry once she woke up, so I wanted to fix breakfast for us.
My phone vibrated as I walked down the steps, and it was a text message from my father telling me to call him when I got a chance.
Once in the kitchen, I grabbed what I needed to make omelets then dialed my dad. It was a good thing I left my earphones on the counter so I could multitask.
"What's up, Pops?" I asked when my dad answered.
"How did it go last night?"
I shared the details of how the night went with my dad as I whipped the eggs and cheese in a bowl. I had a pack of bacon out as well. I also cut up a pepper and some onions. Carsyn wasn't a fan of peppers in her omelet, so I only cut up enough for me.
"It may take time for her to get used to it, or maybe she never will. The only thing you can do is support her in whatever she does," my father advised once I finished telling him everything.
"And that's what I told her. I don't know how I feel about therapy, though."
"I think it's a good idea for both of you. I think you should go separately and together. It will be good for y'all's relationship. None of this is easy for any of us. I've been praying every day that you two make it through this and come out stronger than y'all were before."
"I hear you."
I poured the eggs into the pan, then put the bacon in another pan to cook them both at the same time.
I didn't think about us going to couples therapy, but maybe he was right. We would be able to talk about the things we both might be hesitant to say to each other.
"Listen, I called to see if you guys wanted to come over later. I'll throw some food on the grill, and we can all hang out like a family. I already talked to everyone else, and everyone is down with it as long as Carsyn is."
Having family time might be good for Carsyn. I felt like I'd been a little selfish, but I just wanted her to get used to being around myself and Nia again. Maybe all of us being together would help jog her memory, even if it was a little bit.
"I'll see what she says when she gets up. Last night was overwhelming for her, so I wanted her to rest. I'm making breakfast for us now, so I'm sure she'll be up soon. I'll let you know."
"Works for me. If she doesn't, that's fine. Just let me know either way."
"I will."
We talked for a few more minutes about a lady he met at Home Depot last week. He told me how they exchanged numbers and planned to go on a date soon. I was happy that he was trying to date again because that last one did a number on him.
By the time we hung up and the food was done, Carsyn had come downstairs.
"Good morning, Noah," she greeted me as she entered the kitchen and sat at the table.
"Good morning, Care Bear." I walked over to her and kissed her forehead.
"Why didn't you wake me up?"
I plated the food, poured some orange juice, and brought everything to the table. I looked at Carsyn as she watched me. She had her hair down, framing her face. The ends were slightly curled from the shower the night before. She wore one of my T-shirts to bed, and I knew she didn't have anything on underneath. Before the accident, I would have put her on the table and had her for breakfast, but I was still trying to be careful with her.
"I figured you needed the sleep.” I had to stop thinking about burying my face between her legs.
"I was tired, but I wouldn't have been mad if you woke me up." She bit her bottom lip and looked up at me.
"I wanted to make you breakfast first. My dad called, and he invited us to come over later. Your mom and them will be there too. How does that sound?"
She looked off to the side and twisted her wedding band.
"We don't have to if you don't want to," I told her before she got too deep in her head. I didn't want her to feel obligated to go.
"No, it's okay. I think it's a good idea. I guess my parents will bring Nia there."
"Yes. We can kinda chill out until it's time to go."
"Okay. I might want to go back to sleep." She yawned.
I knew the night before had taken a toll on her emotionally and physically. It was the first time she had taken pain medicine in days.
"That's fine. I can do some stuff around the house while you rest."
I needed to cut the grass and do some other yard work, as well as some light cleaning.
"Okay."
We ate our food, and I gave Carsyn some pain medicine when we were done. She went upstairs to shower and rest until it was time to go. While she was gone, I cleaned the kitchen and notified my dad that we were good to go. I made sure to check in with her parents, and they assured me Nia was fine with them until we met up at my father's house. Evander let me know he would swing through as well. Supposedly, he was bringing some chick with him. Hopefully, she was cool.
It took me a few hours to complete everything, and by the time I was finished, it was time for Carsyn and me to get ready to head out.
Everyone was at my dad's house, including Evander and the chick. She'd been cool and didn't do too much when she saw Carsyn, even though she said she was a fan of hers. She talked to her about the skincare line she had and said she would send Carsyn some samples. Other than that, she pretty much stayed to herself.
My father made burgers, hot dogs, steak, and chicken on the grill. We had corn, potato salad, and a bunch of other shit for sides. There was also plenty to drink, from water to beer and wine. Conversations flowed as we sat around the yard. Everyone asked Carsyn how she was but didn't make a big deal out of anything.
It was Carsyn's mother's idea to show her pictures, so we grabbed the ones my dad had and the ones her mother brought.
"Mom, remember that time you fell through the front door?" Carlie asked as she cracked up, holding her stomach.
Carsyn laughed, but it didn't seem like she remembered it.
"Jesus, I don't even know how that happened," my mother-in-law said as she wiped a tear from her eye.
"Or, remember that time that dog jumped on Dad, and he acted like it was attacking him?"
Everyone laughed again. My father-in-law could spar with the best of them, but he didn't fool with dogs.
Carlotta passed her daughter a photo and said, "Look, Carsyn. This is from when you went to the prom."
"Wasn't his name like Larry or something like that?"
"Laray," Carlie said.
"Oh yeah." Carsyn looked at the picture and smiled.
Nia had been on the swing while my aunt pushed her, but she got off and ran over to Carsyn. When she lifted her arms, Carsyn picked her up and put her on her lap. Nia rested her head against Carsyn and put her little arms around her waist. I knew it would be a matter of time before she fell asleep because it had been a long day. She'd eaten plenty of food and played her little heart out. My father had a playground built in his yard for her. She was the only grandchild, so she was spoiled as hell.
"Here's a picture of you and Noah's first date," Carlie noted as she passed Carsyn another picture.
Carsyn took the picture from her and studied it. I noticed her brows squished together the longer she looked at it.
They continued showing her pictures and telling her stories, and while she seemed interested, she also looked a little uncomfortable. I knew Carsyn wouldn't say anything, so I had to be the bad guy.
"I think we should call it a night."
Groans went around the yard, but I stood on business. I understood why nobody wanted the night to end, but my wife needed some rest.
"You're right. I'm sure Carsyn needs to get some rest, and little Miss Nia is out for the count," my mother-in-law said.
Carsyn yawned and rubbed Nia's back when she stirred.
"I'll take Nia home with us again," Carsyn's mom offered as she stood from her seat.
"Mom, are you sure?" Carsyn asked.
"Yes, she already told me she wanted to stay another night. I told her we could make something special for you."
Carsyn smiled as she kissed the top of Nia's head. I knew she wanted to spend more time with Nia, but I could use another night with just the two of us.
"Okay. She has to come home tomorrow because I miss her," Carsyn declared.
"She will. Get some rest and spend some time with Noah." She winked, then took Nia from Carsyn's lap.
Nia didn't care that she was moved. She just snuggled up against her grandmother and went right back to sleep.
Thirty minutes later, we were in the car heading home.
"How are you feeling after tonight?" I asked Carsyn.
"I feel overwhelmed, but good. I enjoyed being around our families and seeing all the pictures from over the years. It was a lot, though. Evander's girlfriend was nice too."
"I can imagine how that made you feel. I'm proud of you for sticking through it." I looked over at her at a red light. "That's not Evander's girlfriend. She's just someone he's been talking to."
"Oh, okay. Well, I liked her."
The light turned green, so I focused on the road and drove the rest of the way home.
My father didn't live far from us, so it took us no time to get home.
While Carsyn went upstairs to shower, I messaged the family chat to let them know we made it home safely and locked up the house. Carsyn was still in the shower when I made it upstairs, so I asked if she wanted some company.
"Do you mind?"
"No." Carsyn stepped back and made space for me to enter.
Carsyn grabbed my washcloth and squirted body wash on it. She started at my neck and worked her way down. She slowly washed my shoulders, my chest, stomach, and down to my legs. When she made it back up to my dick, she took her time and stared into my eyes as she washed me.
Both of our eyes glanced down when it hardened in her hand. I didn't want to ruin whatever went through her head, so I didn't say anything.
"Turn around," Carsyn instructed.
When I did what she said, she washed my shoulders, back, and the back of my legs. I wasn't sure if she would wash my ass or not, but I didn't want her to anyway.
"Here," she stated, passing me the washcloth.
I had no problem washing my own ass. Any man who thought it was gay to wash their ass was weird as hell. I've seen dudes at the gym say that shit, and it disgusted me. Like, you be in there sweating and shit, but won't wash your ass. Them be the same dudes that want a chick to go down on them. Nah, fam, that ain't it. Don't no woman want a man with a stanking ass fucking on them. Weird shit.
I quickly forgot about that shit because the way Carsyn looked at me when I turned around to rinse the soap off me had my dick hardening more. I grabbed the back of her neck and pulled her into me, crashing my lips into hers. Her hands were on the back of my neck as our tongues massaged each other. She moaned into my mouth, and my dick twitched. I didn't want to fuck her in the shower, so after a few seconds, I pulled back.
"Let's get out of here," I insisted as I turned the water off. I opened the shower door and passed Carsyn a towel before grabbing one for myself.
She paused when she exited the bathroom because before I joined her in the shower, I lit a few candles and turned some music on. I wasn't sure what type of time she was on, but I thought if I set the mood, it would help. It turns out she didn't need any help. Carsyn was just as ready as I was.
Carsyn dropped her towel and positioned herself in the middle of the bed. I wasted no time following her lead. My towel ended up next to hers, and I climbed into the bed as well. Carsyn's legs were wide open, and I licked my lips at the wetness in between them. I wasted no time putting my head between them and licking her pussy.
"Noah," she whispered as she grabbed my hair.
I pushed her legs further apart and stuck my tongue inside her.
"Oh, God."
I fucked her with my tongue for a minute but went back to licking and sucking on her clit. Carsyn's pussy was so damn wet. I used one of my hands to trail up her body and squeeze one of her titties. Her moans made my dick even harder.
I loved Carsyn so damn much that it hurt, and that fear of her leaving me suffocated me whenever I thought about it. There was no way I would let her leave me. I hoped she could feel every emotion I felt for her through each swipe of my tongue.
"I'm gonna cum," she cooed as she pushed her hips forward.
Her nails dug into my scalp, and it felt so damn good.
"Noah. Noah." My name fell from her lips as her essence rained down on my tongue.
"I missed the taste of you, baby," I admitted as I continued to lick up her juices.
She pushed my head further into her as she came again.
After she blessed me the second time, I came up and kissed her.
"I can't lose you, Carsyn," I expressed as I entered her.
She closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around my neck.
"Look at me, Carsyn. I can't lose you, baby." I couldn't stop the tear that dropped from my eye. I had to reiterate it because I meant it.
Carsyn cupped both sides of my face. "I'm not going anywhere, Noah." She caught the second tear that had fallen.
She pulled my face to hers and kissed me. My heart pounded in my chest.
Carsyn's back arched, and she moaned when I hit a spot deep inside of her.
"You are my world, Care Bear. You were put here on Earth just for me." I slowly moved in and out of her. This moment couldn't be rushed.
Carsyn gave up trying to catch my tears because they kept falling. I kissed away the tears that fell from her eyes. She didn't say anything, but she didn't have to. I didn't want her to either. The sound of her voice alone would send me over the edge.
It didn't take long for her to cum again. I gave her long, deep, and slow strokes. I needed her to cum multiple times, and she did. It wasn't until I felt as though she had enough, that I finally came. It was hard as hell holding out, but I managed. When we were done, we curled up with each other and fell asleep.