Chapter 82-Her Fear
I parked my car in front of the house but I couldn't bring myself to step out. My mind was clouded with so many thoughts and my heart was filled with fear, fear of what would become of us.
I don't want to lose him, even thinking about it makes my heart clench.
I sighed as I threw my head back in exhaustion, just when I thought I could finally be happy, I hear that my boyfriend could possibly get married to another.
I finally stepped out of the car as I closed the door and walked inside the house. It was pretty quiet meaning they must have all gone to bed.
I took off my shoes and walked to my room as I opened the door and walked in closing it behind me.
“ You smell of sex," I heard Bella say and I stopped in my tracks and turned to her.
“ What are you talking about?” I asked, feigning innocence and she just looked at me with a raised brow before bursting into laughter.
" You guys had sex in his office, didn't you, you little seductress,” she said with a chuckle.
“ How did you know? Do you have a super nose of something," I asked and she just shrugged,
“ I just know, and as much as you tried to arrange your hair, you should know me by now, I can't miss any detail, that hair looks like fingers went through them when something went down,” she said and I shook my head before making my way to the bathroom.
" I need to shower,” I said to Bella before I opened the door and walked in. Without wasting time, I took off my clothes as I threw them in the laundry basket and then I got under the shower.
Without meaning to, I found myself crying under the shower, I had to increase the water so it would swallow my sounds. I didn't want Bella to hear me crying. I just couldn't control it. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore then I finished showering and walked out of the shower.
I took my white fluffy towel and wrapped it around my body then I took one and wrapped my hair before I stepped out of the bathroom.
“ You know no amount of water raining down so fast could swallow your cries, in case you're forgetting I have sharp senses, so do you want to tell me what's happening?" She asked as she watched me from the bed where she was seated.
“ I'm scared Bella, I'm so scared," I said as I raised my eyes trying to push back tears.
“ Scared of what?" She asked,
“ I'll just get something to wear then I'll come to bed," I said and she nodded. I looked through my clothes before I took my blue pajamas and wore them. Then I made sure my hair was dry before I walked to the bed.
Immediately I got into bed I wrapped my arms around Bella as I rested my head on her chest, for a minute I didn't speak, I just let the comfort of someone being here for me sink into me, the feeling that no matter what my best friend will always be here for me made for feel a little better, the beating of her heart calmed me down.
“ So do you wanna talk now?" She asked,
“ I heard him talking, his father wants him to marry some arrogant bitch," I said,
“ What?!" she said in shock…” And what did he say?" she asked,
“ He doesn't want to marry her but for some reason I'm just scared, I'm scared of losing him, I'm scared that he wouldn't have a choice but to marry her," I said,
" Oh honey, I understand why you're scared but just have some faith that everything would be alright, God wouldn't let this beautiful thing you guys have to be destroyed, just try to be positive, look at this from the bright side,” she said and I nodded.
“ How's therapy going?" I asked and she smiled dreamingly,
“ Ow, I'm sure Luke has been going with you," I said and she blushed, I wasn't wrong.
“He has, seriously as a nurse I never knew how difficult it must have been for patients trying to get their legs working again, but now that I'm experiencing it I understand, it's just like I'm a child learning to walk again, it's hard and tiring at the same time," she said and I hugged her.
“ You're strong Bella, you'll get through this, just keep doing your therapy and with time you'll be back on your feet," I said,
“ Yeah I can't wait, Mom keeps seeing my boobs everyday when she helps me with the bath," she said and I couldn't help but laugh.
We just continued talking about random things before Bella finally fell asleep.
Tomorrow is Saturday and we'll be moving to the new place Cole got us and as much as I was excited about the move I just feel a type of void in my heart.
I laid in bed as I kept looking at the ceiling but sleep wouldn't come and my stupid mind didn't help one bit as it pictured an image of Cole getting married to that woman, the thought of it was like daggers stabbing into my heart.
I shut my eyes as I pushed the image to the far back of my mind. I shouldn't be thinking things like that, Bella said I should be positive and that's what I should do. So instead of thinking about him getting married to another woman I started thinking of us with our child as we laugh and joke around like a family.
I tried to picture him telling our child bedtime stories as he demonstrates with his hand while I just stand by the door watching them with a smile on my face and then when our child is finally asleep we'll go to our room as husband and wife then make mad love to each other before we fall asleep.
I wanted that happy ending but will I get it?