Chapter 20
Jade
Every part of this was wrong. Sure as hell didn’t feel wrong, though.
I was in so deep for Alyssa, wanted her in every way, and it was obvious she just wanted me casually.
A smarter woman would back away, protect her peace.
I wasn’t a smarter woman. Not when Alyssa was giving me that fuck-me look and teasing me, asking me what I’d do with her once I got her away from Abby.
My body had been the one to answer. I pressed myself up against her, kissing her like I was starving and she was my only relief, and she moaned when I pushed her up against the wood plank wall behind her, the thumping music upstairs drowning out the noises she made.
“Alyssa…” I whispered against her lips, breaking off to kiss along her jawline. Moved my hand down to her waist, where the swell of her hip was impossibly enticing under my fingertips.
“Jade?” she gasped, her body arching under me.
I didn’t even know how to say what I needed to say.
My body went ahead of me working on saying it for me, my hand slipping down and bunching up her skirt to reach under, fingertips on the bare skin of her leg, and she went wide-eyed, nodding breathlessly.
“God, I need this so fucking badly,” I growled.
“Seeing you fucking grinding all over Abby…”
I caressed my hand up higher, up her thigh, up to the line of her underwear, and I slipped a finger under the hem. “Oh, god, Jade,” she whispered, her legs wobbling. “Are you… here…?”
Was I? Here? I wasn’t one for being risky with it, but I couldn’t possibly imagine waiting long enough to get somewhere else.
Not to mention, I didn’t know what else we could do—I wasn’t going to dine and dash and disappear with Alyssa in the middle of everything.
“I don’t want to wait one fucking second longer. ”
“Jesus Christ, that’s the hottest thing I’ve heard in my life,” she moaned, rolling her head back against the wall. “Please take whatever you want. Oh my god.”
I couldn’t tell her how badly I really did want her, how serious and deep this thing in my chest was, and it ached all through me seeing how beautiful she was—how seriously fucking gorgeous she was, the most perfect person I’d seen in my fucking life, but this wasn’t a romantic thing.
This was that Alyssa wanted to have a good time tonight.
She was planning on getting it with Abby.
I should have let her. But if I was the one who got to have it with her, I’d make sure she got everything she’d ever wanted.
“Stay quiet,” I whispered in her ear, pressing up next to her as I teased my fingers over her thigh, along the edge of her underwear. “We can’t have anyone coming after us…”
She bit her lip, nodding with a hazy look in her eyes. Big blue eyes that made me want to cry with how perfect she was. Jesus Christ, what a great way to wrap up my time in this town. Getting to touch and pleasure the most beautiful woman in the world.
“Fuck, you’re gorgeous,” I whispered, more than I meant to say, and she ducked her head, blushing harder through a hazy smile.
“You too…”
I kissed her to swallow up the noise as I pulled her underwear down and slipped my hand between her thighs, and she moaned softly against me as I felt the burning heat of her core, slick and wet over my fingertips.
She arched her hips against me, moaning quietly into my lips, and I broke off the kiss just enough to whisper, my lips brushing hers.
“Look how wet you are for me, Alyssa,” I whispered. “You’re doing so well.”
“Oh, god. Jade…”
“You’re doing perfectly. Let me do what I want with you.”
“A-anything at all. Whatever you want.” She closed her eyes with a quivering noise in her throat, and I slipped my fingers up to her clit, making quick circles.
It killed me having to be quick—I wanted to take hours making love to her, lavish adoration on every part of her, but that was a luxury I didn’t have from her right now.
“Oh, fuck, Jade,” she whispered, her voice beautiful and crackling and perfect—she never said that word, didn’t curse much, and something about the small, vulnerable way it slipped out from her lips, losing control and giving herself over to me, it was impossibly tender somehow. “Jade…”
“Do you like this?”
She nodded, her mouth open but no sound coming out as she moved her hips against my hand. I bit my lip.
“Good girl. You’re doing so well. I love getting to take you like this.”
“Oh, Jade.” She closed her eyes, rolling her head back against the wood again, and I knew I should have kept going like this—get her off and finish it as quickly as I could—but I couldn’t help myself, and I slipped my fingers down and pushed inside her, reveling in the way she clenched tight around me.
She gasped, gripping at me more tightly, nodding me on with small noises that were supposed to be words but didn’t quite make it, and her wetness coated my fingers, down over my hand, as I pushed deeper one knuckle at a time until she’d taken me deep inside her.
Moved slowly inside her, and I angled my hand to move my thumb on her clit, and her breath hitched, whispering please, please yes, don’t stop in the most intoxicating rhythm, and I tried not to think about how much I adored every noise she made as I kept moving inside her and against her.
We were just having sex. That was all it was.
I was going to miss her forever. Dammit.
I pushed a kiss up against her lips, and she moaned softly, kissing me shakily and messily as I kept touching her, pleasuring her, and it was all too soon that she broke off with a hazily urgent look in her eyes.
“Jade, I think I’m… you’re going to make me…”
“That’s perfect,” I whispered. “Good girl. I want you to come for me. Give me what I want, Alyssa.”
“Oh, god,” she moaned, and she broke—thrust her hips against me as she clenched tighter around me, sweat breaking on her brow, and she closed her eyes as she came undone.
She tried to stay quiet, stifled moans slipping out of her lips as I kept moving, and I slowed down as she did, leaving her breathless and panting as I pulled out of her.
She opened her eyes again, and her eyes met mine with a look that stopped me in my tracks, like I was the only person in the world.
I kissed her quickly, trying to push down the surge of feelings. “You did perfectly,” I breathed. “That was exactly what I wanted.”
“Jade…” She let out a small, breathless laugh. “You’re so good. Wow…”
“Do you need a second?” I whispered, and she laughed again, shaking her head.
“I need… you…” She tugged on my belt buckle, and something surged inside me.
Not in a million years was I expecting her to try to reciprocate, and my body cried out in an instant, desperate for her, but I couldn’t—if I let her, I wouldn’t be able to hold myself together anymore.
Would end up doing something stupid like groveling, begging her to be with me.
I took her hand off my belt, kissing her.
“We do not have time for that,” I laughed. “They’re going to notice we’ve both left for too long together.”
Something flashed over her eyes, embarrassed. She’d forgotten they were there. I wasn’t sad I managed to fuck her hard enough she forgot where she was. “Oh… we can’t be quick enough?”
Christ, I probably would. She could probably get me off without even touching me. But we weren’t going down that road. “I think we’ve already taken too long,” I said. “Shouldn’t push our luck any further. I’ll go back first.”
“Oh…” She dropped her gaze. Sad and small. I wanted to wipe it away, immediately fix everything, do anything that would make her feel better. “Right. I guess we are at an event.”
“Best event I’ve ever gone to.” God, we shouldn’t have done this. How would we even talk about this? We wouldn’t, probably. Most of the time we were together now, it was with Daniela and Cat too, and we’d just… figure out… how to make it normal. Hell, I’d be leaving soon. Good note to leave it on.
She blushed hard, a little laugh bubbling up. “Um… same for me,” she mumbled. “Sorry we didn’t have time for…”
Just the knowledge that she wanted to was the hottest thing I’d experienced.
I was going to have a very good time tonight by myself.
Aside from the longing. “Promise I’m satisfied,” I said, and I kissed her again, quickly.
Probably for the last time. “Just… promise… you won’t go home with Abby tonight. Please.”
She bit her lip, laughing nervously. “I won’t. I promise.”
“I know I don’t own you and can’t control you, but…”
“You kind of could. That’s hot.” She paused. “That was an inside thought.”
Christ, she was good. I laughed. “I’ll pretend I didn’t hear it. But for the record, I definitely did.”
She blushed, looking away. “Well. Do… what you like… with that information.”
“Ah. Well, I mean, I plan to, if I’m being honest.”
“Okay, good. God, now I need to actually go to the bathroom. Um…”
“I’ll tell the others I checked in with you in the bathroom and you’re feeling a little sick.”
She cleared her throat. “You’re a lifesaver. Um…”
I wasn’t about to stick around for whatever came next.
Whatever did come next was guaranteed to be trouble.
“See you in a minute,” I said, and I hurried away, just trying to put distance between us.
Physical distance didn’t do the trick, though.
She stayed front and center in my thoughts, and that was where the real trouble was.
Daniela and Abby bought it, at least, once I got back from the bathroom and told them about finding Alyssa there and that she wasn’t feeling well, but I knew from Cat’s steady look at me that I was in trouble.
Alyssa got back eventually, as the night was in the last legs and most of the other attendees were up dancing now, and she flashed a nervous smile at us.