9. Luke
9
Luke
I pray to God ; he isn’t lying to me. He holds my gaze which gives me hope, but I know what he has been through. I know how much he has fought this, so of course, I’m worried this is all going to blow up and fall apart. Turning my head, I kiss Evan’s palm. I finger his hair and rub his scalp, causing him to moan in pleasure.
“ That feels so good,” he mumbles. I kiss his chiseled, swollen lips, and he pulls me so close our features touch. “ It has never felt like this, Luke .”
I smile to myself, pleased that this feels different because it feels exponentially different for me as well. “ You’re special. There is no one like you, Evan .”
His eyelashes flutter as he looks down and then back up. The blue in his eyes darkens to a stormy hue, and I can see the discomfort of my words on his face.
“ I know you’re not used to hearing how perfect you are.”
“ Because I’m not, Luke . Fuck , I am such a damn mess!”
“ Shh …” I kiss his lips lightly. “ Listen to me. No one loves you like I do, Evan . No one else understands the real you, knows every detail of your mind and body like me. No one else’s opinion matters. No one’s! Just me, and I’m telling you that you are everything I want and need.”
He buries his face against my neck, nestling in my hair. “ I wish…”
“ You don’t have to wish because it is the truth,” I tell him all the things I want him to know about my love for him. I get angry when I think about all the ways his family hasmade him feel lacking, or perverse. “ I love everything about you, baby.”
His cock stiffens in my grasp. I begin stroking him slowly, purposefully.
Still , he resists, grasping a fistful of my hair. “ But you are so good, so very good. No one understands how wonderful you are. I’ve never felt worthy of you.” His eyes fly open and search mine eagerly. “ How could I ?”
“ You are so fucking worthy, Evan . When I’m buried inside of you, remember how you’re the only man I find worthy enough to love.”
His lips curl up slightly. “ Only man, huh?”
“ That’s right!” I pull at his lower lip with my teeth.
“ And Rachel’s our girl.”
Damn , he is sweet like sugar. Even though I am in his bed, he is still charming me. “ Ours ,” I mutter before I bite his lip. “ And you are mine.”
His dark pupils are blown and wide. “ I love you so fucking much, Luke .”
My heart soars with his words.
“ Please ,” he whispers.
“ What do you want?”
“ I want to make love to you too. I’ve wanted you for so long, and now… I can’t imagine not sharing this with you. I need it. I need you.” Emphasizing his need, he fists my hair so hard it hurts.
I take his hand from my hair and lay it palm up. He watches as I pour lube into his hand. I nuzzle him and kiss his lips. “ Slick me up.”
He tenses, and worry washes over his features. “ I think you should wear a condom. I want nothing more than to feel you bare but… I don’t know if…that guy could have…”
“ Okay ,” I tell him. “ I’ll wear one.”
“ I’m sorry.”
I give him a reassuring smile. “ Don’t be. You’re being responsible and careful.”
I reach over him and grab one of the foil packets from the drawer. He watches me with rapt attention, still holding the lube in his palm. I have to let him go in order to put on the condom. Lying back, I roll it over my cock that’s beginning to throb.
“ Come on,” I gesture to my dick. “ Want you to ride me.”
He seems surprised. “ You’re sure?”
“ Yeah , it will make it easier for you to control the pace. Want you to have all the control so it doesn’t hurt.”
He nods as he rises to his knees. I tuck my hand behind my head as he takes my cock in his hand. He smirks a little as he begins lubing me up. He squeezes and strokes, making it painfully hard. I groan with each downward stroke of his hand.
Grabbing the bottle of lube, I pour a generous amount in my hand, reach around behind him, and finger his entrance.
“ Fucking hell!” he spits out.
We work one another. He strokes me while I stretch him. It quickly becomes too much for either of us to take. His hand falters as he starts riding my fingers. So fucking needy. I’m glad it’s not just me.
“ Fuck that’s hot, baby,” I groan.
Spurred by my reaction, he rolls his hips causing me to thrust a little faster. He looks like a damn wet dream, and it’s making my cock full and aching.
“ Luke !” he groans.
“ Yeah , baby?”
“ I don’t want to wait anymore.”
“ You sure you’re ready?” I ask.
He gives me a wicked smile and winks. “ Only one way to find out.”
My hand drops to the bed as he shifts to straddle my hips, takes hold of my cock, and positions himself. For a moment he pauses, and I worry that he’s going to change his mind.
Our gazes lock on one another. His heat is the first thing I feel, and then the tight resistance of his body on my crown. He falls forward, his hands landing next to my shoulders. He hovers over me, keeping just my tip inside of his body. The intensity in his eyes pins me to the bed. His gaze roams over my face, and when it lands on my lips he licks his own. He looks into my eyes, shifts his hips, and slowly—agonizingly slow, he sinks down.
“ Fuck !” I groan. “ So fucking tight, Evan !”
The change in his breathing grabs my attention. I caress his jaw with my thumb. His eyes are tightly shut with a grimace on his face.
“ Go slow,” I whisper.
“ You’re sure you want me?” he blurts out.
“ God yes, Evan ! So damn much! It will be a miracle if I don’t blow my load before you finish your descent.”
Our gazes lock for what feels like the longest time. It takes a few moments, but eventually his face softens. That’s when I feel him moving again, and my cock slides deeper and deeper into the heat of his core. Once he has me fully inside, I tremor, desperate to move, desperate for more. But God help me the pleasure that rolls through me is almost too much to bear. His eyes are on fire with lust and such a raw need that it might consume me.
“ Fuck , Luke !” he growls between clenched teeth. He keeps me deep inside, tensing around me, letting his body acclimate to the intrusion.
“ You okay?” Reaching up, I graze my knuckles across his cheek.
His eyes fall closed. “ So full…” He shivers and the tremor shimmies down my cock, sending an electric tingle through me. I have to hold on to something, so I grasp his bicep.
I look between our bodies, taking in the sight of us connected, physically merged together. His cock is bobbing with every breath he takes. My gaze travels along his torso, watching the change in his muscles with every breath and even the slightest movement. It occurs to me that I finally have him all to myself. I tilt my hips up to bring him closer. My hands caress his ribs along his hips. His skin is heated, and as I slide my fingers through the hair on his chest, he slides his knuckles over my lips.
“ You’re inside me,” he barely murmurs.
I grasp his hips, holding him there, keeping him connected to me. When I look in his eyes, I see peace and happiness. “ Yeah baby, I’m inside you. I hope you’re not scared anymore.”
He shakes his head and closes his eyes for a few moments. Evan looks like I feel, over-sensitized and hovering in the ether where there is nothing but our bodies. Every slight shift of his hips, even the pressure of his lungs filling with air is intense. It’s difficult to register all the sensations assailing me, but I take inventory of each one as we stare into each other’s eyes, transfixed. We will never be the same. Our connection is instantly changing us forever.
The jerk of my cock interrupts the moment, and Evan sits up, arches back, and rolls his hips. His hands lock over my own. Our deep moans fill the room and have me sinking my fingers into his flesh. Like a flipped switch, he begins rocking and riding my cock.
“ Holy fuck!” I growl. The sensations he is flooding me with are more intense and powerful than any I’ve ever felt. God I’ve loved him so long, needed him so much. I never want this to ever end.
Drunk with lust, he braces his hands on my chest and begins fucking himself with my cock. I am so intoxicated with him, surrounded by him, and desperate for more. The bed shakes as his body rises and falls, impaling himself on me.
“ It’s too fucking good, Luke . I can’t!”
The muscles in his arms flex and tremble. Grabbing his wrists, I sit up, drop his hands, and throw my arms around him. Our mouths crash together in a kiss that is so desperate it’s almost violent. His teeth sink into my tongue causing me to snarl and curse into his mouth.
His hands are all over me, touching me everywhere while his cock presses against my abdominals. He grabs my hair, yanking my head back so he can bite my throat and suck on my flesh. I howl his name with the wonderful agony of the sting.
My hands slide around to his ass. I pull his cheeks apart, hold tightly, and thrust up with all my strength.
Evan drops his forehead to my clavicle and grunts. “ Oh , God !”
“ That the spot?” I rasp in his ear before thrusting up again.
His entire body quakes as his hands clench my hair. “ Yes ! Fuck , yes! Don’t stop!”
“ The devil himself couldn’t stop me!”
Letting go, I lose myself to Evan’s body. Wrapping my arms tighter around him, I pull him closer, so our bodies are flush, sliding back and forth along one another. I bite his neck and lick the back of his ear. It causes him to shiver, and I swear nothing pleases me more.
I thrust, and he rocks. There is nothing else in the world than the sound of our love making and the moans of pleasure throbbing between us. The vibration roots itself in my chest, and I swear, I feel it to the ends of my hair.
I take his face in my hands, guiding him to look me directly in the eyes. I huff against his parted lips and watch him as I make love to him. He doesn’t look away, and when I feel his hands circle my neck, I lick his lips.
“ You’re mine,” I claim.
He kisses me, eyes wide open and not backing down. I grunt into his mouth as he sucks on my tongue. I swear his body is a furnace, and I want him to pull me in so I can burn to ash just from the feel of him. My balls tighten, and my cock is so painfully hard, I worry I might not last much longer.
We find a rhythm, although it’s urgent, and anything but gentle. He lands hard on my dick, and I yank him off just to pound harder into him. We bite and suck, clench and pull at each other’s skin and hair, like rabid animals. Desperation has made us lose the gentleness, and yet it is exactly what we both need.
“ I love you.” Evan’s voice hitches, and with a gasp, his cock erupts between us. The feel of his hot cum on my skin is bliss. He ruts against me, increasing the friction of our bodies.
I’m not prepared for his body to put a death hold on my cock. And fuck it is so damn strong that I’m temporarily blinded. I sink my teeth into his shoulder. With each contraction, his body lurches forcefully. The fact that I’m feeling his orgasm from the inside, blows my damn mind.
As tightly clenched as he is, I still manage to move, sinking deeper and landing harder. Each time I withdraw, my cock feels like it is being sucked back inside. With one final spasm from Evan , I detonate, coming deep into his tight heat. My entire body quakes.
“ I got you,” he chants in my ear as he envelopes me in his embrace. His voice is so broken and soft it rips me even further apart. His fingers rake through my hair as if he can’t feel enough of me.
“ Evan …”
Intense waves of pleasure roll through my body with such force, I think it might kill me. He squeezes me tightly and continues to rock his hips, milking me of every last drop of cum. I climax over and over with such force, it’s violent. I curl into him as he caresses my back and runs his fingers over my scalp. Clumsily , I grasp his biceps, burying my face against him.
“ I love you too, Evan ,” I pant.
The pressure recedes as I soften inside of him, but I don’t want to disconnect from him, not yet.
“ I don’t want it to be over yet,” I whisper.
Leaning into me, he eases us to lie back. He clings to me though, and I’m so grateful he doesn’t let go. He’s kissing me, and it feels like a thousand butterflies fluttering around me. I manage to kiss him back, but it feels weak. There is an overabundance of emotion in his kisses. I let his love wash over me, receiving it gratefully. It is so much more than I could have ever imagined.
It’s ecstasy.
When I feel myself slip from his body, I curl around him and roll our bodies to our sides.
“ You look utterly spent,” he says.
I look at him with heavy eyes. “ Because I gave you everything.”
He removes the condom from me. I mourn the loss of his body as he moves away from our embrace, but when he returns, he pulls the comforter over us.
His lips latch onto my throat, sucking steadily, making my toes curl. I pet his head and gently scratch up and down his back.
EVAN
Eat him alive. Right now, that is what I feel like I could do as I bite, nip, and suck at his skin, particularly his neck and shoulders. Each one elicits a different sound from Luke ; a moan, a grunt, hissing through his teeth, and my favorite, the growl lengthening into a hum of pleasure. I end up kissing along his jaw and over his closed eyelids.
“ So fucking divine,” I whisper.
He smiles lazily, taunting me to kiss his perfect lips. I can’t help myself as I nip at them too. There is this bizarre need to mark him and share pain with him, to claim him as mine so no one else can.
My body misses him, and I feel like I’m a gaping hole in need of being filled despite the soreness. I welcome it because it is a high-octane mix of pleasure and pain. As my sweat-coated skin cools, it leaves me feeling even more in need of his body. But I think I broke him.
“ I’m going to shower,” I whisper against his lips.
His hand fists my hair. “ I’ll come with.”
“ Stay . Rest . I won’t be long.”
I slip away. My skin recognizes other sensations since we are no longer touching. My cum has dried on my stomach, and it feels uncomfortable. I turn on the shower and then put paste on my brush. I run the bristles over my teeth before stepping into the shower with the toothbrush still in my mouth. The warm water sluices down my body, replacing the lost heat of Luke’s body. I finish brushing my teeth as I stand under the water. Something tugs at the toothbrush.
“ Who brushes their teeth in the shower?” Luke asks as he takes it from my mouth and sets it on the counter.
“ I do. Sometimes .”
He stands at the open shower door, propping himself against the glass.
“ Coming in?” I ask.
“ Watching . Clean yourself up, little brother.”
I smirk at him, but he takes a deep breath and pulls his eyebrows low and together. Suddenly , I feel more vulnerable than I did spread wide while he fingered me. Giving him what he wants, I run the bar of soap over my stomach first. With a soapy hand, I wash my balls and slide it up my cock. I take my time to give him a little show and wonder if he knows that I like that he is watching. His expression doesn’t change as he keeps his gaze fixated on me. Turning away from him, I wash my back and slide my hands over my ass, spreading myself wide to taunt him.
“ You’re asking for it,” he grumbles.
Yes , I am. I chuckle. To further entice him, I bend forward as I run the soap up and down each leg. Any moment I expect him to touch me. He is merely a couple of feet away from me, letting all the steam escape from the shower. Peering around my hip, I catch sight of his erect cock and smile to myself. Still , he doesn’t touch me as I finish washing my body.
“ Leave the water on.”
I nod in understanding and slip past him. Again , he resists touching me which worries me a little. I grab a towel and throw it over my head, wondering if he didn’t like it, or if I did something wrong. I hide in the towel for a minute or two, pretending to slowly dry my hair, afraid something has changed.
Suddenly , with an arm around my waist and a hand on the back of my head, he bends me over the sink. I land with an oof as my hands smack against the granite. Something cold is poured down the cleft of my ass, and then Luke roughly fingers and stretches me. My heart is in my throat, taken by surprise in the best of ways. Pushing my ass back, I take him knuckle deep. The towel is still over my head, shielding me from seeing anything. It doesn’t matter because my eyes are closed anyway.
I groan as he works my entrance and teasingly taps my prostate. I grunt loudly each time as sparks fly in my vision, and my body trembles.
His fingers slip away, and my head is jerked back. He throws the towel on the floor and fists my hair, arching my neck back. I barely register our reflection in the steamy mirror when he sinks his cock deep inside me again. I groan in a heady mix of pain and pleasure. His face is pure lust and determination, gritted teeth, and metallic golden eyes that are locked on me. His other hand grabs my hip, and he begins relentlessly fucking me. My jaw hangs open, letting free every grunt, growl, and curse.
His cock is like iron, hot and hard, spreading me open in the best of ways. My lack of control and mobility only heighten the sensations.
“ Fuck , Luke !”
How does he know that I’ve wanted this, masturbated to this very situation, commanded and controlled by him? Gone is the gentle lover of just a few minutes ago. He has been replaced by my dominating, alpha cowboy. The thought makes me shake as my dick seeks friction against the cold granite. Somehow that is getting me off too.
When he leans forward, spreading his warm chest across my back, I close my eyes. The image of him fucking me in the mirror is burned in my mind.
I feel his breath before I hear him growl. “ I couldn’t wait to feel you from the inside again, Evan .”
I come. It feels like my body is ripped apart by his words. I hump the counter, listening to the smack of his wet skin against mine and feeling his balls slap against mine.
His cock? Fucking hell, his cock is splitting me in two, owning me, taking me. I can only wish for a day when he is bare inside me, but I am sure it will be the death of me. I can’t imagine anything feeling more intense than this. This is everything; pleasurable, needy, rough, and hot as hell. I relish his swollen head pushing deep and stroking my prostate. Despite my orgasm, pressure is building past the point of control. The rush of it is painful as if all of my blood is flooding to one location.
Something detonates inside me like an underground bomb, shaking me with an internal force so intense I’m unaware of anything outside of the feeling. There is a stillness, and I think Luke has stopped moving. The sound of his breath is muffled, like being underwater. The world contracts and expands. Like a sonic charge, intense waves of pleasure roll through me.
“ Goddamn !” Luke curses.
The erratic jolts of his cock don’t align with my body’s contractions. As if I am outside of myself, I hear my voice pleading his name. There is a growl that must be his, but I feel the vibration curl over my skin, giving me chills. As the intensity loosens its death grip, I feel Luke rocking in and out of me. He is gripping my hands on the counter and huffing curses in my ear. His words are indiscernible, as if I’ve lost the ability to understand. I’m a different person on a different planet. Then the warmth and weight flood over me.
The sound of water appears from nowhere. The shower is still running.
“ Are you alright, baby?”
I can only manage a grunt because my tongue, like all the muscles in my body, won’t work. I’m still trembling like a fucking leaf in a hurricane.
“ That was like a fucking earthquake inside of you.”
“ Felt like it too,” I confess. I quickly begin assessing my body parts to make sure I’m still intact. It takes a few minutes to feel my fingers and toes. Thank God my dick is still attached, although I’m pretty sure it’s still writhing with the trauma of that orgasm, if that is what you would even call it since I had already come. “ What happened?”
Luke kisses my ear and then my temple. “ Anal orgasm maybe?”
“ Those are real?”
He laughs softly. “ You tell me.”
My eyes roll back as I melt on the granite counter. “ Totally fucking real.”
As I lose all sense of bone structure, Luke’s cock slips out of me. He softly smacks my ass. “ You stay there while I wash off real quick.”
“ I might fucking fall.”
He lifts my head with his hand under my jaw and shoves a rolled-up towel under my head. His fingers dance over my face. “ I promise just a minute, and I’ll take you to bed.”
Maybe it is a minute. Maybe it’s two or five. I don’t give a fuck because when I feel Luke peel my body from the bathroom counter, I am actually able to let him guide me back to bed. Falling into the softness, I let him tuck me in before he slides in behind me and gathers me into his arms.
“ That was amazing,” he whispers.
“ You are amazing,” I tell him.
“ So are you, Evan . Sleep .”
He doesn’t need to tell me twice.