Chapter 9
NINE
ASHER
It should have been weird to know that I was about to have sex, on camara, in front of the guy I’d been crushing on instead of with the guy I’d been crushing on.
Things between Lukas and me were strained and awkward unless it had to do with work.
And then it was like we were still a team.
Like my embarrassing pass at him hadn’t mattered enough to let it affect our working relationship.
A working relationship that seemed to extend to the new dynamic of me in front of the camera, not behind it.
I’m sure some people thought I was only going through with this to try and make Lukas see me as a sexual being.
As someone mature enough to be worthy of his attention.
Maybe that had been my reason some of the time, but the truth was that I wanted to see what it was like.
Leo had made a career in this industry, in no small part so he could look after me.
I’d never know if it was something he regretted or not because he was gone now…
I shook my head, took a deep breath, and told myself not to be weird. The last thing I wanted was to make more bad impressions on Jax and Blue. They’d been great after what happened at the screen test when I’d managed to make a proper fool of myself.
“You ready?” Lukas asked, poking his head outside.
Before he could launch into the whole you know you don’t have to do this, no one will think less of you if you back out speech, I nodded and found a smile that didn’t feel completely forced.
“I’ve been ready for two years, Lukas.”
He nodded but didn’t address my comment or the tone of my voice, which had come out a little harsher than intended. Maybe I was a bit nervous. The nerves had helped me not to blow my load as I’d thoroughly cleaned, stretched, and lubed myself that morning in preparation for filming.
“Okay, then. When I go inside, listen for the action cue, wait ten seconds, then come inside.”
“Got it.”
We’d planned the intro of the scene, and we’d discussed what kinds of things I was open to. But for the most part, I was choosing to put my trust in Jax and Blue. And Lukas.
Though I had begun to understand and accept the fact that Lukas and I had no romantic future, I still trusted him in all the ways I used to. And maybe some new ones, though I put that thought out of my head to deal with later.
I heard the cue and waited to the count of ten, then practically flung the door open in a bout of nerves and went careening into the room, slamming right into Jax.
“Sorry,” I said, meaning it. I hadn’t planned on crashing into him quite so hard, but I did like the way Jax immediately gripped me in his hands even as I tried to go around him.
“Hey, what’s the rush?” he asked, pulling me closer. He was wearing a pair of those basketball shorts that seemed to make up ninety percent of his wardrobe. The good thing was they didn’t hide anything and when he pulled me closer, his cock pressed against me, harder and hotter than I’d expected.
“I—” was all I managed to say as my brain short-circuited.
“We were just talking about you,” Jax said, walking me backward, his hands bracketed my hips and I could have died for how his tight grip on my arms made my stomach swoop.
“You were?” I asked, not entirely ad-libbing.
A deep voice rumbled from behind me, and I suddenly remembered Blue was there. I turned my head and watched him slide a bookmark into a book he hadn’t been reading and set it aside.
Jax kept walking forward, guiding me back to where Blue was sitting.
“I caught my best friend here looking at you earlier,” Jax rumbled. His voice had a growly, possessive edge to it that sent a thrill up my spine and down to my cock, which was so hard now that I could pound nails.
I was still aware of the cameras in the room. Of Lukas’s presence, which wasn’t awkward like I’d expected. Before I could work up any angst about it, Jax guided me down into Blue’s lap, where my ass pressed against his dick.
Blue buried his face in the curve of my neck and kissed the tender spot below my ear. His hands worked their way under my shirt, and I tried to think of something to say. We were supposed to be selling a storyline here, but my brain had gone to mush in two seconds.
Thankfully, Jax and Blue were there to carry that part of the scene.
“Did you like what you saw?” Jax asked Blue, whose lips traced the shell of my ear.
“I’d like to see a whole lot more,” Blue rasped as he worked my shirt up my body and tossed it aside.
Then his nimble fingers toyed with my nipples.
My head lolled back, and I let out a moan.
My cock throbbed in my pants and for a horrifying moment, I was terrified of blowing my load, but the shock of Jax going to his knees in front of me made me forget about everything else.
“Holy shit,” I breathed as Jax reached for my pants and worked them down just far enough to free my cock.
Nerves slammed into me. Lukas watching was hot. Blue touching me was hotter still. But the thing that I’d never forget was the look in Jax’s eyes as he lowered himself down and ran the tip of his tongue up my shaft.
Not to be outdone, Blue toyed with my nipples. Gently twisting the nubs, he had me wiggling in his lap, grinding my ass against his dick. We’d barely started and already I was losing my mind.
“Stop squirming,” Jax commanded, and before I could appreciate how fucking hot it was to have him go all bossy on me like that, he took my dick into his mouth and swallowed it down to the root.
Between Blue’s cock pressed against my ass, taunting me, his fingers plucking and playing with my nipples, and the wet heat of Jax’s perfect mouth, I never stood a chance.
My whole body jerked and I wasn’t even able to get a warning out before I was coming down Jax’s throat. My brain hadn’t registered what happened before Jax was pulling away, wiping the corner of his mouth.
He held my gaze, lust burning bright in his eyes where I’d expected to see mockery or pity. Instead he smirked at me like he knew something I didn’t.
“I hope you don’t think we’re done with you just because you came.”
The next thing I knew, Jax was standing and pulling me out of Blue’s lap. He crashed his mouth down on mine and swept me close, ignoring my spent—but somehow still hard—cock and the way my pants were still only partway down.
Then Blue was behind me again, his hands on my hips. His dick grinding against my ass and his mouth leaving trails of kisses across my shoulders. On my neck. Each kiss ramped me up more than the last.
I wasn’t sure if I turned or if Blue turned me, or maybe it had been an unconscious collective decision, but suddenly I spun around and Blue was kissing me.
I slung my arms around his neck and kissed him like I’d die if I stopped.
Honestly, I could have stood there and kissed them forever, but then Jax was pressed against me, naked.
Needy. A pleased sound rumbled out of him and then he stepped away again, only to help me out of my pants.
Once that had been dealt with, Jax returned.
His pleasantly naked form pressed against me, and then his hand wrapped around my cock and I moaned into Blue’s mouth, letting him taste my pleasure.
I’d almost forgotten this was a porn shoot and wasn’t real.
Were it not for the sound of other people in the room, I might have.
I felt Blue move around, his body twisting away as he reached into his pocket for something. Before I could understand what was going on, I sucked in a deep breath.
“That’s cold!” I yelped as lube drizzled down my asscrack.
I moved closer to Blue, seeking refuge in his arms. His hands slid from my hips to my ass, and he spread my cheeks for Jax.
The thrill of being exposed like that made me ache in ways I never knew possible.
It was like they knew what I wanted before I knew I wanted it.
“Get him nice and loose, Jax,” Blue said. “But go slow, we don’t want to wreck his tight, virgin ass.”
I whimpered and buried my face against Blue’s chest. A million thoughts and feelings swirled around in me and before I could identify any of them, Jax obliterated them all with the single press of a fingertip against my hole.
His touch was far better than the perfunctory stretching I’d subjected myself to earlier.
And now that I’d already come once, I was wrapped in a post-orgasm glow.
I relaxed as Jax continued to toy with me.
Gently teasing my hole, sliding his slippery fingers down to my taint, he teased me there too.
I moaned and arched my back, sticking my ass out to beg for more.
He moved in closer, sandwiching me between him and Blue as he toyed with my hole.
I held onto Blue like he was my lifeline.
My anchor. The only thing grounding me and keeping me from floating away.
Now that I’d come once, the urgency had passed, and I was left with a warm kind of content feeling that made me happy to bask in their attention.
Jax and Blue talked to each other like I wasn’t there, and I found that I didn’t mind that either.
It was hot, in a way, to have them talk over me while also being the focus of their attention.
Before we started the scene, we’d talked about how things would go and I’d found myself unable to make a single decision, choosing instead to trust them and let them lead.
“I thought about letting you fuck him,” Jax told Blue. “But I saw him first.”
“So long as I get a turn.” Blue squeezed my ass cheeks and Jax continued playing with my hole. Teasing. Tormenting me by spreading lube around and then, just when I thought I was going to go out of my mind, he slid a finger inside me.
God, it was thick. It burned at first, and I whimpered, clinging to Blue even harder.
“Shhh,” Blue soothed. “You’re okay. Take a breath.”
His gentle coaxing reminded me to relax. When I did, the burn changed to a sting, then to something warm, and full, and filled with pleasure. I stayed standing, draped against Blue, keenly aware that he was still dressed, and I was probably leaking precum all over his clothes.
I didn’t care. All I cared about was the way it felt like my universe slid into place when Jax added a second finger and Blue kissed the whimpers away as they tumbled from my lips.
Jax kissed my shoulder as he gently worked his two fingers in and out of me. The feelings racing through me were incomparable to anything I’d felt before. Nothing had ever even touched the kind of pleasure that was coursing through my veins.
Jax and Blue weren’t just fucking me. They were remaking me. Molding me. Fixing things in me that I didn’t realize were broken.
“You’re doing so good, Ashy,” Blue whispered against my cheek before stealing another kiss.
Then Jax joined in on the praise and my world shifted again. My cock leaked. Throbbed. Ached. Every little word of praise went straight to my dick, making it pulse and twitch. I grew increasingly desperate and writhed on Jax’s fingers, needing more than he was giving me.
I whined when he slid his fingers out of my ass and his presence vanished. Then I saw him position himself on the couch and before I realized what was happening, Blue was directing me, helping me climb onto Jax and straddle him.
Blue grabbed the lube and started slicking Jax’s cock.
For me.
The reality of what was going to happen must have flashed up on my face because then Jax grabbed me and pulled me down to him. He devoured my nerves in a toe-curling kiss.
Blue’s hand bumped against me as he lined Jax’s cock up with my hole.
“Take your time, baby.” Jax’s voice was tender. Affectionate. “Go as slow as you need.”
I needed him now. Deep. Needed him to stretch me open and tear me apart, and maybe then I’d be put back together in a way that made sense. I bore down on his cock, trying to take too much too fast. My face scrunched as a sharp warning jolt of pain shot through me.
“Slow, baby. Go slow. I’m not going anywhere.” Jax’s soothing words were a promise I was desperate for him to keep.