20. Chapter 20 #2
“While I’m nervous, I still feel comfortable around you,” he said, stepping close enough to me so that our dicks touched. I pulsed with need as I nuzzled my face into his throat, and my hands grabbed the meaty flesh of his ass.
“Same.”
Nate took my hand in his and pulled me to the bed. I sat down and looked at him for guidance. He knew as much as I did, but I needed his confidence at that moment.
When he grabbed my face in the palms of his hands, they stuck to my skin, sweaty like mine. That alone eased my tension, knowing he was just as nervous as me. Saying it was one thing. Knowing it was quite another.
His hands trembled, but they were strong, controlling, and confident. They always knew what to do. His beautiful hands would soon own me.
Our kiss grew deeper as he eased me onto my back, taking ownership of our kiss.
Each time my mind wandered from my insecurities, Nate would pull me back again like the ocean waves.
I retreated, and he tugged me back to shore each time.
We were fluid, working in opposite directions, yet together. For some strange reason, we worked.
“On your stomach, Sam. We need to work you open.”
My stomach dipped as I slowly rolled over, growing uncertain and insecure again. It could be fucking frustrating, but I had no control over my emotions sometimes… most of the time.
A quick and gentle slap to my ass brought me instantly back to Nate. “Move, baby. I want to play with that ass of yours. I’ve waited long enough.”
I smiled and fell into the bed, at ease once more.
“Sorry. Was… that too much?” he asked with a tentative voice, making me giggle.
“No, I liked it. I enjoy you controlling me. You’re the star, and I’m the planet forced to orbit around you by your gravitational pull.”
Nate pressed his lips to one of my ass cheeks. “You’re so cute and poetic sometimes.” He gently smacked me once more, careful not to hurt me but to keep my attention. “Now ass up.”
My face burned as my knees slid under me and I boosted my butt up. It was fucking vulnerable and a little scary, but I trusted Nate completely. I shouldn’t have been embarrassed around him, but this was so new, and it completely changed our dynamic.
“Fuck, Sam… You should see what I see. It’s so damn hot with you like this. My dick is throbbing painfully. I can’t wait to get inside you.”
The sound of the lube bottle snicking open was the first step to our new destination. Nate and I were finally moving forward, no longer satisfied with being on a steady and flat field, living parallel lives, but not really together. Now we intersected, two links in a chain bound forever.
“Touch me, Star. Touch me everywhere.”
Nate gasped. “Yes… God, yes. I’ve been waiting fucking forever for this day.”
The tips of his fingers swirled around my hole with the confidence that Nate always carried with him. Even in his nervousness, he took charge and went into everything he did with a stubborn fearlessness.
“Oh, god…” he groaned as he swirled the tip of a finger around. Then he eased it inside. “This is so fucking hot. You’re doing so good for me, baby. You’re holding so still, letting me do my work to open you up. Your ass is so beautiful.”
The sensation didn’t hurt, but it felt odd having something going inside me. It was a little intrusive, but it turned me the hell on, mainly because Nate was doing it. My cock leaked on his bed, desperate to find friction, but I held still for my Polaris.
“Are you okay, baby?” he asked, pulling out his finger and pushing back in.
“Yes.” My ass pushed back on him for more in response. I did it on instinct.
“While I can’t wait to get in there, I really like this, too, watching your ass swallow up my finger. One day I’m going to get my mouth back on your hole, more than the last time.”
My breath caught in my throat. The very idea had my body thrumming and tingling. “Oh, god… I want that. It was amazing the last time.”
“You got it. I’m going to put another finger in, okay?”
His talking and directions kept me focused on everything he was doing to me. “Don’t stop talking.”
“You sure? I feel kind of stupid right now.” His chuckle was light and insecure.
“You don’t sound stupid at all. Don’t stop.”
When he inserted his second digit, there was a slight burn. I started feeling a little full, but this gave me a taste of what was to come. Nate was bigger than two fingers.
He pulled them in and out, moving faster now, and I groaned, and Nate groaned along with me. The air grew heavy with arousal. And fuck if I didn’t need some relief already. I’d never been more needy before, desperate to come, but I wanted this to last forever, too.
I pushed back on his hand, and suddenly, a blinding light flashed behind my closed eyelids, and my body was filled with this strange warmth that sent electrical currents through my body.
I trembled with the need to come more than ever.
My inevitable orgasm was a volcano just bubbling and building towards the surface, ready to explode.
“I’m going to push in a third one. You still okay?” he asked. His voice came out breathy, clearly enjoying this, though I wasn’t sure why. His arousal only made mine grow. God, I needed him in me.
The third finger really stretched and burned, but the muscles there started to relax. I could feel my hole opening up more as it got used to being forced open.
“God, it’s so hot from my viewpoint, baby… my fingers going in and out of you. Your hole is spreading for me, knowing I’m about to be in there.”
“I need it, Star. You keep hitting this spot, and I’m… fucking dying. My dick is drooling all over your covers.”
Nate snorted a laugh behind me as he wiggled his fingers around. A stinging pain hit my ass cheek suddenly. I hissed, but I liked it, too. “Did you just… bite me?”
“Too much?”
“No, I weirdly like it, as if you’re trying to mark me.”
He bit my other cheek. “Yep, I find it a turn-on to see my handiwork displayed on your fresh skin.”
The bed moved, and I was hit with coldness when Nate moved away from me.
I craned my head to look back at him. It was strange seeing my naked ass in the air.
His tongue peeked out as he fussed with the bottle of lube, pouring some into his hands.
My star was so fucking cute, with his determined face and curls spilling over his forehead.
“Nate?”
“Hang on, baby. Let me get lubed up. In fact, roll over onto your back. I want to see your face when we do this.”
My stomach flipped all over the place, and my breathing picked up as I turned over, watching Nate lube his stiff cock between my propped-up legs.
Nerves, excitement, fear, and want all culminated into this monster of emotions.
Nate and I were actually going to have sex for the first time.
After all these years of our silence, it was finally happening.
Nate crawled back into the bed and hovered over me, and my breath caught with his fathomless eyes filled with a galaxy of love.
If I ever doubted him and his feelings for me, I was sure right then.
Who knew how long it would last, but for now, I felt his love emitting from the very pores of his skin.
I reached for his face when he leaned in, pulling him so our lips met—cotton candy soft lips, and he smelled like some tropical drink. I needed to make a drink that smelled like Nate, and I’d call it Polaris Under the Sun, full of coconut, lime, maybe some Mezcal, or a splash of rum—
He gently tugged at my lip ring with his teeth and looked at me with smiling eyes, bringing my attention fully to him.
His hand rested on my cheek, cupping my face with his usual delicate tenderness. “Ready for me, baby?”
“Yes. More than ready.”
“Tell me to stop any time it hurts or you feel uncomfortable, okay?”
I swallowed the lump made from nerves as I nodded. “Yeah… I will.”