Chapter 21
Astrid
“Wait, what?!”
Theo is currently heaved over the floor, tears flowing down his face as he wheezes with laughter.
Once I got home from an…interesting, day at the office. I fully filled him in on the sexual therapy session that I had with Nicholas in the toilets. Apparently, he’d never been like that with Theo before. He was always stern, always to the point, and always highly professional. So the fact that he even disclosed something as vulgar as that was completely and utterly out of character for him.
“I don’t know which was worse.” I snort, “your boss thinking you secretly had a vagina, or that he thought that your sex life was that non-existent, that you were practically screaming down the phone, begging for some pussy.”
We both roar with laughter at this point, slapping our thighs and holding onto each other like two lunatics. This was the most us moment we’d had in the past year. In this moment, we were those two 17 year olds again, laughing over the most stupid stuff, and then laughing even more because we made the mistake at looking at one another. I didn’t even care that by watching Theo, I was technically watching myself. Usually, in this moment, I’d start picking apart all of the abnormalities or insecurities I had, my gaping mouth when I laugh that reveals my ginormous set of teeth or the way my eyes practically disappear into a squint. But right now, I needed this. We needed this. Five bloody minutes when we weren’t at each other’s throats, five bloody minutes where we could ignore the insanity of our current predicament and just live in the moment of two regular, happy people.
Weird sexual conversations aside, Theo’s job was an actual mindfuck. I had no idea how confusing all of the different terminologies could be and all of the different responsibilities that he had to juggle on the daily. He always downplayed that side of things. Thankfully, he was my knight in shining armour when it came to the training bookings. I’d managed to grin and bear all of the many, many , superficial ‘Good Mornings’ and wait it out until lunch time so I could sneak out. I don’t know why it felt illegal, he might as well have been talking through a secret earpiece, helping me to cheat on a gameshow. Either way, after nearly an hour of explanations, (and tantrums on my part), I’d finally sorted it. I had about a million and one things left to do on Theo’s list, but I was proud of myself anyway. It was weird, we’d never really worked together like this before. Not since we were in school anyway, where we used to share our homework, (and by share, I mean, pretend like we were doing work, but really head straight for the TV to watch a movie), but it was…nice. He didn’t rant at me, and he kept me calm the entire way. He had a gentleness in his voice that I hadn’t heard in a long time. To be honest, I was still very much pissed about the lesson observation scenario, and I knew I wouldn’t fully be able to relax until we’d sorted something out, but in this moment, I found myself actually putting it to the back of my mind. I don’t know what had come over me. I just knew that I didn’t want this happy moment to be fleeting and rapidly turn into an argument, I didn’t have the energy to fight right now. All I wanted, for one night at least, was to forget about everything, to ignore the woes of the world. For the first time in ages, I had urges that I desperately wanted to give in to. I just wanted him . Every kiss, every touch, every softly spoken word, every inch. I just wanted my Theo.