Chapter 21
Audrey
Music blasted around me, the loud bass and fast-paced tunes filling every part of the large house. There was so much to look at, at any point, and my senses were in overdrive. There were couples making out on the couch, a bunch of drinking games going on in various rooms, and lots of laughter.
My idea of a party came from movies or TV shows, where people would do keg stands and chants. This was more chill. Some parts were crazy, but I found myself relaxing after scanning around the room and not seeing Quentin or his friends. Other guys on the team were there, most of them super kind.
Theo introduced me as his girl to five of them. I was just Audrey. His girlfriend. And it was so easy.
I smiled into my cup as someone approached me.
“Why are you smiling like that?” A dark-haired, young guy grinned at me. “Seems unfair that you’re not sharing good news.”
The first drink loosened me up, so my usual nerves and social awkwardness went away. This guy was on the team, I was sure. Maybe a sophomore? “This is my first party, and it’s better than I thought.”
“Oh, first hockey house party? This is pretty tame.” He downed his cup and jutted his chin toward mine. “Need another?”
I stared at the empty vodka soda. I rarely drank, but it felt fitting to do it at my first party. Plus, Theo was here. It was about damn time I did things that weren’t following every rule. I didn’t have clinicals tomorrow, so screw it. “Sure.”
“Come on then, girl.” The guy took my hand and led us from the spot in the hallway toward the kitchen where all the drinks were kept. His hand was smaller than Theo’s, and it felt weird holding it. The kitchen smelled clean. I expected trash or beer, but no, lemon something.
“You sniffing the air?”
“It smells good in here.” I chuckled. “So yeah. I am.”
“You’re fucking cute.” The guy nudged his elbow into my side. “I love it.”
“Oh.” I blushed, hard. No one but Theo had ever complimented me in my life, and my skin felt too tight. “I’m uh, with someone.”
“I’m sure you are, look at you.” The guy winked. “What were you drinking?”
“Vodka sprite.”
“Sit. Come on.” He hit the counter before he poured a shot into my cup. “Need me to lift you?”
“Audrey.”
Theo stood at the entrance to the kitchen, his eyes zeroing on the guy next to me. A muscle in his jaw flexed as he took two large strides toward me. Without a warning, he cupped my face and kissed me hard.
Holy shit.
This wasn’t a kind kiss. He nipped my lips, sucking my bottom one before moving his knee between my legs. Heat exploded all over me.
“Christ, Sanders. Take it fucking down. Point made.”
Theo cupped my throat, his large hand almost covering the entirety of it, where his thumb rested on my pulse point. His eyes darkened, and he licked the side of his lip with a slight smile.
“I see you’ve met my girlfriend.”
“Yeah, fucker. I got it. Damn.” The guy shoved Theo’s side with a laugh. “Audrey is a hot name.”
“No.” Theo glanced at the dude. “Move on, Hannigan.”
“Audrey, right? You’re stunning. When this old fuck leaves next year, let me know.” He winked. “Your drink is ready.”
“Th-thanks.” Jesus. My skin flushed, but tingles continued all over my body. Theo stared at me, his nostrils flaring like he was mad. Oh no. He thought… “No, he wasn’t… I didn’t…”
“I know you didn’t.” He smirked before picking me up and setting me on the counter, pushing my legs apart so he could stand right against me. Heat radiated off him, and he smelled so good. My favorite scent.
“Mm.” I closed my eyes and breathed him in. “I love how you smell.”
“Good.” He ran fingers up my leg and thigh, over my stomach and between my breasts. “You want to know what I don’t like?”
I opened my eyes. “Don’t like?”
“Finding you in the kitchen with some guy standing too close to you, complimenting my fucking girl when it should be me.” He dragged his fingers over my bottom lip. “I haven’t experienced jealousy before, but holy fuck. He touched you.”
“I’m sorry.” My mouth trembled. “I didn’t… I don’t even know. I’m so sorry.”
“Baby, don’t apologize. This is just making me feel things that are too forward, too much for you.”
“Too much for me?” I reared back. “What does that mean?”
“I’m trying to go slow, to respect you.” He closed his eyes and stepped back. “Yes, I need to go slow with you.”
Anger flared. “Why? Are you holding back?”
His eyes flared. “Yes. I am. Because you’re inexperienced.”
His words felt like a slap, even though I knew deep down they was true. My body recoiled on its own, and Theo saw. His eyes widened. “Fuck, Audrey, no that came out wrong. I didn’t mean it in a bad way.”
“Okay.” I swallowed down the hurt feelings and confusion. The second drink didn’t sound as fun anymore, but we’d only been there an hour.
“You’re not okay.” He placed a hand on either of my thighs. “Why aren’t you fighting back? Fight me. I was just a jealous asshole. Call me on it.”
It was so hard to do it. But he was right. “I want to know what you’re holding back. I really don’t like it when you hide things from me.”
“Baby.” His face softened. “I don’t want you to feel pressured. That’s what I meant about inexperienced.”
“Okay, but I want to make that call myself.” I gulped. “You said you were jealous. What does that make you want to do? Do I need to go find that guy again?”
“You little devil.” He laughed, but his eyes swirled with lust.
He liked it.
“Hannigan, yeah?”
“Last warning, Audrey.”
“Is Hannigan single?” I smiled and ran my tongue over my bottom lip, Theo trailing the movement with heated eyes. “He told me I was fucking cute.”
“Fuck.” Theo ran a hand over his face before picking me up off the counter. He hoisted me over his shoulder and weaved us through the crowd and into a back room before shutting the door. “Need to taste you now.”
He slammed me against the door and kissed me so hard it almost hurt. It was possessive and hot and holy shit. I had never been kissed like this in my entire life, like he was marking me for the rest of my life. I’d never be able to forget this moment, the way he groaned into my mouth and dug his fingers into my ass like he would die if he didn’t touch me.
The room was pitch black, the music from the party blasting, but it was just us in this room. My body hummed with want and need, and I met his fervor with my own. I kissed him back just as hard, and he growled. “Yes. Kiss me, Audrey.”
I dug my nails into his back, wrapping my legs around his waist so his erection dug into me. He shuddered when I pulled his hair, and I’d never felt more powerful. “Don’t keep anything from me, Theo.”
“Fuck, baby.” Using his hips, he held me up against the door as he lifted my crop top up and took a nipple in his mouth with one breath. He bit each one hard, sucking and teasing them before he lowered himself onto the floor. “Scream my name when I make you come, baby. I need everyone hearing you say it.”
“Wh-what are you doing?” I gasped. He removed my jeans and panties, guiding them down my legs with shaky hands. It was almost like he couldn’t control himself, and somehow, that got me hotter. This beautiful, perfect man was like this for me. Unreal.
“I’m claiming this pussy as my own.” He put each of my legs around his shoulders and growled against my thigh. “You smell so good, like you’re mine.”
“Theo.” I arched into the door as he spread my lips apart and flattened his tongue against my clit. Holy shit balls. He sucked the swollen nerve hard, then nipped it, which caused me to buck against the door and caused a huge boom. Everything was on fire, and his tongue could put it out. Was the only way. But heat gripped me, and I squirmed against his mouth, grabbing his hair to grind myself against him. This was the hottest moment of my life.
“Fuck my fingers while I lick up your cum.”
Holy. God.
“Lick them first.” He held two fingers outside my mouth, nudged inside, and I sucked them. He shuddered as I screamed in pleasure, before he slid them back between my legs. My head knocked on the door. “Scream, baby. Louder.”
“Yes, Theo.” The orgasm was growing closer by the second, and he curled his fingers as he sucked my pussy, and I lost it.
“Louder,” he commanded. “Scream for me.”
“Theo! Yes!” I cried out as I saw literal stars. Theo was on his knees, his fingers thrusting inside me as his tongue worked magic on me. I clenched his head between my thighs, never wanting this moment or orgasm to end. “God, yes.”
“You are exquisite.” He bit my inner thigh. “Extraordinary.”
I blushed even though he couldn’t see me and then his lips were on me. “Taste your pleasure, baby. Taste how good your pussy is.”
I kissed him back, and he groaned so hard I shivered. “Did I scream your name loud enough?”
“No, you little minx.” He kissed my neck. “You’ll come more. I want everyone knowing exactly what we did up here. I want everyone seeing this hickey on your neck.” He sucked the skin hard, his chest rumbling with pleasure. “God, your skin. Mm.”
“What else do you need to know I’m yours?”
He sucked in a breath. “This is perfect.”
“Theo.” I swallowed. “I want to feel all of you.”
“It’s too soon.” He stilled, his erection jerking against me. “I’m getting off from your pleasure, baby, I promise.”
I shook my head, but he couldn’t see it. I felt around the wall for the light and turned it on. We were in a study of sorts. “Theo, I want to feel all of you. No holding back.”
“I’m not fucking you for the first time in a random room a house party.” His nostrils flared. “You deserve more than this.”
“But I want it.” I dragged my nails over his chest. “Please.”
His jaw flexed. “Don’t beg me. I can’t say no to you.” He ran a hand over his face. “Audrey, baby, I want your first time to be special. Perfect.”
“Being with you is perfect.”
“Fuck,” he groaned and took a deep breath. “Fuck, baby.”
I removed the rest of my clothes and closed the distance between us. He let me remove his shirt and undo his belt. He was massive and could stop me at any point but let me take lead. “I wanted the full experience, yeah? Losing my virginity at a college party is pretty spot on.”
Plus, I was growing more desperate to connect with him. We’d done everything else but this, and taking all of him was what I wanted. We were really together, and I wanted it all.
“You’re more than that.” He stilled me as we were both naked, and he stared at me. “This is more. What we have is fucking special. You know that, right?”
I nodded as my eyes watered. I wanted to tell him that I loved him, but that was too soon. It might freak him out. Even though he was jealous as hell and clearly had feelings for me, love was too fast. He’d crashed into my world and brought life to everything, and I’d remember and love him forever. Sleeping with him just solidified how much he’d changed my life. Plus, the logical side of me knew this wouldn’t last forever. He had a whole future ahead of him, but I was done being responsible all the damn time. I wanted to enjoy Theo Sanders while I had him.
“Please, Theo,” I whispered against his lips. “Be with me.”
His hands shook as he dug into his discarded pants pocket and pulled out a condom. A zing went through me that he had it there, that he wanted to sleep with me. “Put it on me.”
I ripped it open and slid the condom on him. He moaned and kissed my forehead as I pumped him. This man was perfection, and he wanted me. It still blew my mind. “Theo?—”
“You tell me to stop at any point, okay? Promise me.” He swallowed hard and held my gaze. “If it’s too much or?—”
“I promise.” I didn’t say I had no intention of doing that whatsoever, but it appeased him as he lowered us to the floor.
It wasn’t the most romantic setting with the music and partygoers raging around us, but that all faded into the background as Theo kissed my neck and tugged my earlobe. “You are the sexiest thing, Auds. I’m obsessed with you.”
He kissed down my chest, swirling his tongue around my nipple before coming up and sliding his tongue into my mouth. Kissing him never got old. The same heat and pressure from my earlier orgasm returned, and I grew heated. Ready. Primed. “I want this,” I moaned, and that did it.
He guided himself inside me, his deep, contented sigh vibrating against my chest. “Fuck, baby. You feel so good.”
His cock entering me stung a little. He was massive, and for the first few seconds, I tensed. But he slid out and in, kissing and touching every part of me, and that sting disappeared really fast. A wonderful sensation grew in my core, and I dug my nails into his back. “Oh, this feels… yes.”
“Am I hurting you?” He lifted his head, and concern swirled in his eyes.
“No.” I gripped the back of his head and pulled him down to kiss me. “Not at all, you feel amazing. I love this.” You. That was what I wanted to say.
“God, you’re amazing.” He moaned against my mouth as he thrust into me slightly harder. It took him deeper, and a burst of pleasure hit me. Yes. My G-spot. I’d heard about this but holy shit. He hit it over and over, whispering how amazing this was in my ear as he held onto me tightly.
I loved the heavy weight of him, all his muscles constricting and tensing as he fucked me. He was all strength and stamina. He continued at a slow pace, deepening his thrusts so my clit was stimulated, but I could tell he was being gentle. Too gentle.
“Theo,” I arched my back, the heat intense as the need to release gripped me. “Stop going slow. I want the real you. All of you.”
“Not our first time, baby.” He sucked my neck. “This is about you, not me.” He gripped my ass and lifted so the angle shifted, and whoa. I was gonna orgasm.
He never changed his pace, and the continual rhythmic thrusts combined with the angle and Theo’s lips on my skin. I held onto him as the orgasm overtook me. There was something so insanely hot about feeling his cock inside me while I came. I clenched around him, crying out his name as I rode it out.
“God, you’re beautiful.” He licked my neck and face, his voice husky and hoarse. He was on the edge. “Perfect. Your pussy is perfect and made for me, Audrey.”
“Yes, Theo.” I clenched around him, wanting to hold onto the orgasm as long as possible because the way I felt with him staring at me with lust in his eyes? Invincible. “Holy shit, that was…”
“Fuck.” He buried his face in my shoulder. “I’m gonna come, baby. You’re… yes. Audrey, you’re fucking sexy.”
I’d seen Theo come before, but feeling his body tremble and his cock twitching inside me? My eyes fluttered with pleasure. I loved seeing this side of him, knowing I could make him feel good, and I held onto him as he orgasmed.
When he stilled, he pushed up and grinned down at me. His dimple popped out, and the same familiar and loving expression swirled in his eyes. “Damn. That was… are you okay?”
He pulled out of me and quickly tossed the condom into the trash can near us. Then he helped me sit up with a line between his brows. “Audrey, are you alright?”
I nodded, but he pulled me onto his lap and squished me against his chest. He smelled like musk and sweat, and I breathed him in, pushing away the thoughts that I could be with him forever. “Thank you,” I whispered, kissing his jaw.
“Thank you? Why are you thanking me?” He ran his hands down my bare back, over my shoulders and sides. It was like he couldn’t stop touching me, and I was here for it.
“Because I got to experience this with you.”
He sucked in a breath and somehow hugged me even harder. “You own my heart, Audrey Hawthorne. You truly do. Be careful with it, yeah?”
My eyes prickled, and I tightened my grip on him. “I will.”
It wasn’t a declaration of love, but I’d take it. Theo and I were going into dangerous territory. I was already in love with him, and he might be close. As he held me and made me laugh the rest of the night, a horrible, unwelcome thought lingered at the back of my mind.
He had to worry about his family and go play hockey miles away. Would hanging out and falling more in love make it that much harder to leave? He’d asked me to be careful with his heart. He took care of everyone else all the time, so it was my duty to take care of him… even if that meant hurting myself in the process.