11. Chapter 10 – Hannah
Chapter 10 – Hannah
I cleaned the counters until they sparkled. Then I scrubbed the oven and the baseboards in the entire living space of the house. After that, I shampooed the rugs and dusted the ceiling fans.
And I still wasn’t calm.
Which was abnormal for me, because cleaning was my therapy, my meditation. Yet tonight, I was still raw and on edge and in need of something I couldn’t quite put my finger on.
Brody and Knox hovered, lurking in the doorways, and watching me silently work through my mile-long spring-cleaning list, but they didn’t intervene.
I almost kissed Lex.
So close. Inches between our lips, that was all there was. The way she grabbed my shirt and pulled me back to her, God, it was hot. The way she knew I’d like the kiss because it was with her. After all, I was quickly becoming obsessed with her, and it spoke of that connection I’d felt from the start.
She looked so good tonight.
Her tight black ripped jeans hugged her thighs like those leather pants did the other day, the ones that made me wonder what her skin felt like underneath them. She had on a tight white tank top that stretched across her breasts, showing off the fact that they were fake, and she didn’t need to wear a bra.
What would they feel like in my hands? Would I like them the way Brody and Knox always seemed so enthralled with mine?
“Han?” Brody’s deep voice cut through the fog of arousal threatening to pull me under and I gasped, jumping from being caught daydreaming about breasts.
“What?” I snapped, looking over my shoulder at him with the duster in my hand, cleaning the empty air in front of me.
“We have to talk about this.” He said, and I could sense the thin veil of restraint over his words.
He was furious.
He didn’t say how, but he knew Lex and openly disliked her. Which just made me angrier because it felt like his dislike for her was keeping me further away from what I wanted.
Her.
Them.
All of us.
I didn’t want to choose. I didn’t want to define the dynamics, I just wanted to—have my cake and eat it too, if I was being honest.
Was it selfish? Maybe. Was I completely willing to include Knox and Brody in my imagery of perfection by letting them be with Lex as well? One hundred percent.
I wasn’t an overly jealous or possessive person before, and perhaps it was because Brody and Knox never entertained the idea of wanting anyone else. They always made me feel secure in knowing I gave them what they needed and weren’t looking for it anywhere else. So the idea of sharing them with Lex didn’t bother me, but she wasn’t interested in them.
She was a lesbian.
She didn’t want them, she just wanted me.
Damnit .
The realization of it all kicked me right in the stomach. The reason none of it would work the way I had mapped out in my fantasy.
She didn’t want them.
They couldn’t have her.
Therefore, they got nothing out of the move to expand my sexual partners to include her .
“Fuck.” I sighed, sinking to my knees in the middle of the carpet of the living room.
“What?” Brody asked, walking into the room but keeping his distance. “What is it?”
“It’s never going to work,” I whispered, staring at a speck of dust floating in the air in front of me. “The Lex thing was just a fantasy I conjured up in my head in a desperate attempt to make it real. But it’s not.”
“Why?” Knox asked, having followed Brody in. But I still stared at that small dust mite, floating aimlessly in the air.
“Because it isn’t equal.” I tilted my head, lost in thought. “Someone who doesn’t want you is not what I desire. I want to find someone that you want as much as I do.”
“This isn’t about us.” Knox sat down on the couch across from me, but Brody still lingered. Knox was always the understanding one, the one who would sacrifice if it meant making Brody and me happy. “If you want to be with a woman, we’ll make it work.”
“I don’t.” Blinking, I focused my eyes on anything but that speck of dust, and looked up at him. “I don’t want to just be with a woman.” My body flushed at saying the words out loud. “I want to watch you be with a woman, too.” Normally I would have buried the desire building inside of me, or not even spoken it into existence at all. Because I was a good girl, with good men who loved me, and I needed nothing more. But now? After the whirlwind of a week I’d had, I ached to experience what I fantasized over. Getting to my knees, I crawled to him, watching his eyes squint in confusion as I stopped at his feet. “I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to see something more than you having sex with another woman.” I licked my lips as his nostrils flared. “Well, that’s not true,” I ran my hands up his thighs over his jeans, “Watching you slide into Brody’s body the first time will probably always sit at the top of my list.”
“Hannah,” Knox growled, clenching his teeth. But I turned to look at Brody over my shoulder.
“Do you want that, baby?” I tried my best to seduce him into the room with my tone, but I wasn’t sure it would break through his mood. “Do you want me to help you fuck someone else? Like I did the first time you fucked Knox?”
“You’re playing with fire here, and I don’t think you’re going to like the outcome.” He replied with that fierce dominance that always made me ache to submit to him.
Purring, I lifted my shirt off and tossed it across the room. “I think I am.” I didn’t have a bra on, and both of their gazes fell directly to my tits as I shimmied out of my sweatpants. “I think I want to feel the burn of the fire as we all dance in it.”
Knox slid off the couch onto his knees in front of me and kissed me. “You know me, Sweetheart, I’m always down for a little danger.”
“Show me.” I whirred and slid my hands up under his shirt to feel his warm skin.
“Your wish is my command.” He knocked my legs out from under me and caught me mere inches before I hit the carpeted floor, cradling me down as he followed my body down.
He pulled my panties off and spread my legs, as I laid naked for him and ready. I was always so damn ready lately.
He kissed his way down my body, pinching my nipples and feasting on them as I rubbed my bare pussy against his abdomen, trying to get him to move on.
All the while, Brody watched silently from the doorway.
“Baby.” I held my hand out to him, inviting him in, but he still didn’t move. Knox lowered himself to my pussy and went to work, fucking me with his tongue and sucking on my clit as I lost focus on trying to get Brody to join. “You make that feel so good.”
Knox hummed against me and pushed two fingers in deep. “You taste so good, I could do it for days.”
“You know what tastes even better?” I curled up and rested on my elbows so I could see him. “Brody’s come dripping out of me while you lick it up.” He growled and put more pressure on my clit as I glanced back at Brody. “Are you going to leave me hanging here?”
“Yes.” He growled, and I gritted my teeth in frustration .
Brody wanted to play hardball, so I’d play right back.
“Fine.” I hissed and sat up, forcing Knox onto his back as I straddled his face. I faced Brody while I rocked my hips, rubbing my clit all over Knox’s talented mouth. I felt kind of bad using him, but I needed Brody to join, or it’d all be for nothing. “God, yes!” I moaned, palming my breasts and playing with my nipples as I stared directly at the infuriating man. Even so, he didn’t budge. I screamed in frustration. “Fine!” I crawled off of Knox when all I wanted to do was sink down onto his cock and fuck my frustration away, but Brody was cock blocking me by simply existing in his grumpy state. “Never mind!”
“Fucker.” Knox cursed in annoyance as I grabbed my clothes, intent on leaving the room and sulking somewhere away from them both.
As I stormed out of the room, Brody’s eyes were on fire, ignited by his own irritations, and I snarled at him as I went to pass.
He moved so fast, I never saw it coming, though I should have been wiser than to challenge his darkness at that moment. He grabbed me by the throat when I went by and pushed me into the wall, covering my naked body with his boiling one. His rage was clear as he put pressure on my neck, holding me but not restricting my breath. The blood pooled in my face though, as he held down the critical arteries and veins pumping blood in and out of my brain. I shoved at him, angrily wanting to tell him where to shove his dominance when he pushed my thighs apart and rubbed his jean-covered thigh against my pussy.
“Careful Darling, you’re forgetting who’s boss around here.” He warned, and I whimpered when he pulled his leg away.
“Then be my boss.” I challenged. “Being my boss means taking care of my needs, and right now, you’re neglecting them!”
He clenched his teeth together so hard I heard them creak as he pulled me off the wall and threw me over his shoulder. I kicked my legs and swung my fists into his back for good measure, but he spanked my ass so hard with one powerful slap that I froze in shock.
Spanking had always been playful between us, but that one felt like a punishment .
“You were rude to Knox.” He said, sliding me down his body and then forcing me to my knees. Knox leaned back against the couch on the floor where I left him, watching silently, though I knew if Brody went too far, he’d step in. But judging by the darkness in Knox’s eyes as Brody turned me to face him on my knees, it was going to take a lot to snap him out of the headspace they were both in. “Say you’re sorry.”
“No,” I argued, not because I wasn’t, he was right, I was rude to poor Knox, using his face and body to tease Brody. I refused simply to piss them both off.
“Brat.” Brody hissed, and I had a flashback to the way Lex had called me a brat in the parking lot. My pussy dripped at the name. He grabbed my messy bun and pulled it tight, angling my head to the side as he held the back of my neck until I was leaning directly in Knox’s personal space. “Say. You’re. Sorry.”
“Sorry,” I whispered to Knox, but the darkness didn’t leave his eyes as his lips turned up in a sinister smile.
“Show me.” Knox repeated my words from earlier as he undid his jeans. When his cock was free, he stroked it lazily, with a dirty grin on his face. “Show me how sorry you really are.”
I swallowed and fell forward when Brody let go of my neck and landed in Knox’s lap, cock already poised at my lips. “Careful what you wish for.” I hissed before running the tips of my teeth over the crown of his cock.
“Right back at you, baby girl,” Knox threatened, “You give pain, you take pain.”
I hummed, sinking my mouth down onto him and running the flat of my tongue up the underside of him seductively as he placed his hand on the back of my neck, guiding me. I didn’t want to fight with Knox at all, actually. But fighting with Brody made me angsty and Knox became a target for it as well. They were ganging up on me, but I didn’t hate it. I actually kind of liked it.
I liked the fire in their eyes and the burn of their touch. Rarely did they show this side of themselves to me, afraid of hurting me. I’d seen it when they were with each other; the unrestrained hunger and power they used. But rarely did I feel it.
I craved it.
I widened my knees under me and bent at the waist, presenting my bare ass and pussy to Brody, who kneeled behind me as I turned on the charm. I sucked Knox’s cock like a whore, desperate for his come, and it worked. He relaxed and softened his hold on my neck as I sucked him.
And then I struck.
With the next bob up I sank my teeth into the base of his cock and dragged them up, not hard enough to break the skin, but enough to elicit a deep growl from his chest as he pulled me off by my neck and pushed me back into Brody’s arms.
“Fucking hell.” Knox panted, stroking his cock and looking at the red marks I left. “I did nothing to deserve that.”
“You sided with him.” I nodded over my shoulder where Brody lurked, “Maybe next time you’ll choose wiser.”
“Brat.” Brody growled in my ear. “I’ve never seen this side of you before. There seems to be more about you than we knew, after all.”
“Maybe it’s because you’ve treated me like a princess all these years.”
He grabbed the front of my neck and pinned my back to his chest, “What else would we have treated you like?”
“Like a slut.” I moaned, pushing back into him where his cock throbbed like a piece of branding iron in his jeans. I couldn’t remember a time I felt it that hard before. “Like your bratty, spoiled, little slut who thinks she can just have whatever she wants.”
After I said it, I realized my insecurities were talking, taking me out of the sexy high I had been riding until that point.
I felt selfish.
I felt slutty.
For wanting someone that wasn’t them, and expecting them to be okay with it. And then throwing a fit when I didn’t get it.
“You aren’t our princess.” Knox got to his knees as tears filled my eyes, angering me further. “You’re our fucking Queen, Hannah.” He could see the truth on my face, and Brody could feel it as I shrunk at Knox’s declaration.
“We worship you, because you deserve it.” Brody softened, and I hated the gentleness taking place in his hold .
“No.” I shook my head, gritting my teeth as more guilt built in my chest. “I’m not. I’m a liar and a cheat.”
I shrieked as Brody’s grip tightened on my throat, bending me at the waist and forcing my face into the floor between Knox’s thighs. Brody’s hand landed on the same cheek he’d spanked over his shoulder and the burn ignited tenfold. “Is that what you want?” He spanked me again, as Knox took hold of my neck, keeping me bent over between them. “Do you want us to tell you that you’re a bad person?”
“Yes.” I cried, pushing back against him as he spanked me again.
“You want us to punish you for being bi?” Spank . Moan. “ For wanting Lex?”
“Yes!” I shivered when he switched sides and peppered my other ass cheek with his palm. “I fucked up!”
“Naughty.” Spank . “Little.” Spank. “Spoiled.” Spank. “Brat.” Spank.
“Yes!” I screamed into the carpet, digging my nails into Knox’s thighs over my head.
“Say you’re sorry.” Knox growled, pulling my face out of the carpet to look at him without letting me sit up. “Say you’re sorry for being bi.”
“I’m sorry.” I cried, staring up at him as the tears broke free and I sobbed. “I’m so sorry!”
Brody’s cock was already deep inside me before I could even finish my sentence. I screamed bloody murder from the invasion and the overwhelming emotions he was bringing out of me at the same time. “Good girl.” He groaned, pulling out and sinking deep.
“Take my cock, slut.” Knox held his cock at the base and smacked it against my lips, “Swallow me down with no fucking teeth, and show me you can be our good girl after all.”
I took him deep, without a second of hesitation, and swallowed his cock as Brody’s thrusts pushed me forward. I gagged uncontrollably but refused to pull off, punishing myself and begging for forgiveness with my mouth.
Knox and Brody both groaned in tandem, thrusting in and out of my body, and I simply knelt there, taking what they gave .
Shame burned in my gut and I desperately wanted to prove to them my remorse for acting up.
“That’s it.” Knox tightened his hold in my hair, “Open your throat and let me fuck it.”
I stuck my tongue out, drooling all over both of us as he thrust in over and over again. Now and then he’d hold himself deep, cutting off my ability to breathe and panic would swirl in my gut before he pulled out and allowed me to gasp before pushing in again.
I was crazed for them, pushing on and off their cocks, moaning, drooling, and begging for more of their intense pain and punishment.
My entire body snapped. Darkness clouded my vision, and I screamed around Knox’s cock while slamming back onto Brody’s as my body started convulsing in ecstasy. I didn’t deserve the pleasure, though I greedily took it, reaching under my body to rub my clit to prolong it. Brody pulled my hand away, pinning it behind my back, and replaced it with his own fingers. He rubbed my clit painfully as he laid over my back, “That’s it, come for us.”
I moaned and mewed as he forced another catastrophic orgasm from my body and, as soon as it was done, they both stopped moving. Knox pulled out of my mouth and Brody stayed fully buried inside of me, but pulled me upright to sit on his thighs.
My head lolled to the side as I tried to watch Knox as he kneeled forward and gently kissed me, uncaring of his raging hard-on swinging between his thighs. “No.” I cried softly, reaching for him. “You didn’t come.”
“I can’t.” He shook his head against my face as he ran his hands over my face and my arms, gently petting me as Brody’s fingers gently played with my swollen clit between my spread thighs. “I’ll never be able to come while treating you like that.”
It made little sense; I shook my head. Forcing my eyes open as Brody started kissing my neck and slowly thrusting his cock into me, grinding me on it just how I liked. I knew it wasn’t giving him what he wanted. “That was to teach you a lesson, Darling,” Brody whispered in my ear. “That wasn’t real. ”
“No,” I cried, as the feeling of devastation filled my chest. I needed to atone for the grief and I thought I did that by letting them use me so crudely, but they were telling me it wasn’t real.
“You owe us nothing.” Knox kissed one ear while Brody kissed the other, asserting, “You are not spoiled. You are not a slut. You are perfect.”
“No, no, no.” I rocked my head back and forth.
Brody palmed one of my breasts and rolled my nipple seductively in time with how he played with my clit. “You wanted us to treat you like that because you think you deserve it. But you don’t.”
“I’m ruining us!”
“You’re bettering us.” Knox countered, leaning down against my lips, “You did nothing wrong.”
“Then why does it feel so broken in here?” I slapped my chest directly over my heart and cried.
“Because you’re scared.” Brody reasoned. “You feel guilty, but you shouldn’t. There’s no reason to.” I opened my mouth to debate that, but Knox pushed his tongue into it and kissed me, silencing it.
“We love you.” Knox pulled back and added his fingers to my pussy, playing with me around Brody’s fat cock, still impaling me. “We love you so fucking much, we can’t breathe when you’re upset like this.”
“I love you!” Crying, clawing at them both and rocking myself against their hands, I unraveled. “I want to make you happy.”
“You do.” Knox lifted my hips and then dropped me back down onto Brody’s cock, making us both moan. “Even as a bi woman, Hannah. You make us happy. And we want to explore this with you.”
“I don’t deserve you.”
Brody thrust hard the next time Knox lifted me and slammed deep. “I never want to hear you say that again,” He commanded. “Do you understand me?”
“But I don’t—” I cried when he pinched my nipple in his hand and gasped when he pulled out of me, pushing me into Knox’s lap. “No!” I grabbed for him. “Please! ”
“Just wait.” Brody walked out of the room as Knox lifted me onto his cock, distracting me from Brody’s absence and making me moan as he sucked on my nipples while fucking his cock up into me.
Seconds later Brody returned, and I clawed at his arms as he pressed his naked body against my back. “Don’t leave me,” I begged, staring at Knox and then looking at Brody over my shoulder. “Never leave me.”
“Never.” Brody slid his hand down my back and through my ass crack to my empty hole, pushing two silky fingers into me. “We’re never leaving you. This doesn’t change our love for you, Hannah.” He worked lube into my ass and then I felt the tip of his cock nudging against my me as Knox started thrusting up into me again. “Just like it didn’t change our love for you when Knox and I fell in love.”
“Oh god,” I moaned as he pushed his cock into me, overwhelmed by them as always. “I’m so scared.”
“We know.” Knox licked my neck and sucked on my ear, holding me still as Brody gave me his entire cock. “We know, baby, we remember how we felt all those years ago. And your unwavering support got us through it. Through the darkest, scariest hours. You were the light that kept us safe.”
“I love you.” I moaned, grabbing Brody’s arms and wrapping them around me, as Knox did the same, both of them holding onto me as I shattered for them again. “Please, fuck me. Please, show me just how badly you want me still. Don’t hold back.”
Brody growled against my ear and put his hands under the backs of my knees, lifting them into the air so I was squatting between their bodies with my knees pressed to my chest, and then they both started fucking me hard. “Be careful what you ask for, Darling. Because I kind of enjoyed fucking you like a slut.”
I moaned and Knox added, as he started rubbing my clit with his fingers. “Our dirty, spoiled, little, slutty Queen.”
“Fuck!” I cried. “That’s it.”
“Our girl has a degradation kink,” Brody grunted. “Who knew?”
“I have a you kink; both of you.” I moaned, “Any fucking way I can get you. ”
“Oh, you’ll get us,” Knox smirked before kissing me and biting my bottom lip. “My hand is dying to redden your ass for fun now, and I can’t wait to feel your teeth on my cock again, little minx.”
“Mmh.” I moaned, already close as pressure built inside of me. I recognized the pressure from the angle of Knox’s cock, but I didn’t tell him what was coming. “Harder,” I begged like their perfect little slut, and clenched their cocks tighter as I neared my orgasm. “Harder!”
They both snapped, fucking me hard and giving me everything I needed, and it erupted inside of me. I screamed and Knox cursed as I flooded his cock with my juicy orgasm, having only squirted three other times in my life thanks to the two massive men sandwiching me and fucking me senseless. Brody growled, a primal sound as Knox pulled out and rubbed my clit furiously as I drenched his thighs.
“That’s it.” Brody bit my shoulder. “Squirt for us, whore.”
“Fuck!” I screamed as my orgasm kept rolling through me as Knox hammered back into me. Within a few more thrusts and a lot of incoherent pleas and begging, both men roared as they orgasmed, filling me up in both holes until it dripped out of me.
We fell into a pile of tangled limbs and twitching muscles right there on the living room floor. As the post-nut dazzle, as Knox liked to call it, faded from my body, I didn’t feel as overwhelmed with guilt as I had when I started processing my feelings, thanks to Brody’s firm hand.
My men knew me, inside and out, and even when I felt like my entire world was crumbling down inside of my brain, they were always there to hold it all together for me.
“We’re going to be alright, aren’t we?” I broke the peaceful silence that had blanketed us. Brody took my hand in his, and Knox rolled over, pressing his lips to my cheek.
“We’re always going to be just fine,” Brody reassured me, squeezing my hand and Knox agreed, pulling me into his warm embrace. “We can make it through any big change in life, as long as we do it together.”