9. Chapter 9
Theo
B y the time I returned to the bedroom, Onyx was already in bed, sitting with a notebook and pen in hand. Their hair was twisted into a bun on the top of their head, and they seemed to be wearing another one of those silky camisole tops. A navy blue one this time. The sight of them in my bed, especially after such an intense scene earlier, gave me butterflies. Though, I wasn’t sure if it was from excitement or anxiety. Whichever it was, they looked absolutely stunning there.
When they noticed me at the doorway, Onyx looked up and met me with a cautious smile. “Hey, are you okay?”
They shifted around to set their notebook down on the side table. The action revealed it wasn’t a shirt-and-pants set they were wearing but a negligee which rose on their thigh, showing a tantalizing amount of skin. Fuck! It was such a tease. I wanted more. I wanted to see what they wore underneath it.
So much for trying to keep things cool, because the only thing I wanted right now was to touch them, to explore their body. I tried to feel bad about what had happened earlier. I really did. I went out to the barn and thought around in circles. I’d spent the last five years not allowing myself to think of anyone but Myra and couldn’t even fathom what it would be like to touch another human again in that way. But Onyx. Onyx was so bright, so real, so confident, and understanding. And so incredibly sexy.
For some reason, it felt worse knowing I didn’t feel worse about the whole thing. There was guilt at feeling any sort of happiness or excitement without her here, of course, but not as much as I expected. The day I’d spent in town with Onyx, though socially exhausting, was the best day I’d had since Myra. Having a connection with someone and doing everyday tasks with them... feeling needed... it filled my chest with a warmth I’d forgotten. It was nice to laugh and smile again. Onyx made me feel wanted, too. Holy hell, did that feel good. And I... well... I wanted them, too. Fiercely.
Instead of answering Onyx’s question, I decided to let my body take the lead, and marched across the room. Onyx watched with curious anticipation. I stopped at the edge of the bed next to them and cupped their chin, tilting their head up. They were just as stunning without makeup as they were with it.
Staring into their eyes, I said, “You are so beautiful, Onyx.”
They smiled and leaned their face against my hand. “Thank you, Theodore.”
There was something about hearing my full name in their soft, airy voice that sent warm shivers through me. “Can you help me with something?”
Onyx’s expression turned serious, and they took my hand from their face to hold it in theirs. “Of course. Anything. What can I do?”
“I don’t want to think right now.”
They sat up on their knees to get closer to my height. The short, silky dress resting high on their thighs was fitted enough to hug their small breasts and the bump of their dick, creating an enticing image that had my hands itching to slide over them.
Onyx grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me down for a kiss, before whispering, “I can absolutely help you with that.”
My arms went around their waist and I pulled them to me as I kissed them again, harder than before. Their hands slid down my shirt, undoing the buttons. The simple action had my cock throbbing with the excitement of clothes being shed, and skin being touched.
“You can tell me to stop at any time, okay?” Onyx said gently as they pushed my shirt off. Their hands roamed over my chest hair and a loud moan came out of me.
“I don’t want to stop. Don’t let me stop, please .” The plea came out far more desperate than I meant it to, but I wanted more than anything not to get in my own way and be able to stay in the moment.
“Okay.” A gentle kiss brushed against my lips as their hands moved to my jeans. I sucked in a breath at the brush of their fingers against my stomach, but I forced myself to stand still. At the slide of my zipper, my heart was pounding so loud, it echoed in my ears.
Onyx kissed above my belly button, then below it, and I lost the ability to even breathe, so thinking was very much out of the question.
“Can we get these off?” Onyx asked carefully, their hands hesitating where my jeans rested on my hips.
I simply nodded, unable to form any coherent thought. They smirked before sliding my jeans down and my boxers along with them. And there I was, standing naked in front of someone for the first time in years. Not only that, but someone who was not Myra, the only person to have seen me naked in the last twenty years.
Onyx let out a long whistle as they looked me over. “Holy fuck, Theo, you are so hot!”
I felt my lips tug up in the corners, as my cock bounced with the praise. Onyx’s negligee now tented out from their dick. The sight made my mouth water, and I was very intrigued. I cleared my throat and forced myself to speak. “So are you. Can I... see you, too?”
They grinned wickedly. “Soon. Come here, Theodore.” They patted the bed beside them, and I was all too happy to have them direct me. Rusty would be generous for how out of the game I'd been.
I sat on the bed, leaning against the headboard. Before I could ask what came next or think too much, Onyx slid a leg over me, settling onto my lap. I closed my eyes and focused on the way it felt to have their weight on me. They felt so fucking good.
My hands found their way to their hips, where the soft material slid up, baring their ass. I squeezed their sides to hold back the temptation to palm their ass and settle them over my cock, which was now pressed between us.
“Open your eyes, Theo. Stay with me,” Onyx spoke softly. Hearing their voice was comforting and also... extremely exciting.
When I opened them, I found them staring down at me. It was so unique, even with my limited experience, to have someone who was taller than me when on my lap. I didn't know why, but it made me smile and my heart started racing. “I'm with you.”
Onyx leaned forward and kissed me, nipping my lip a little, an action that sent a shudder of excitement through me. “You're allowed to touch me, whatever you want to do, all right?”
I swallowed and gave a nod. My eyes lowered to see where my hands sat on their hips, the thin material they wore draped in the front, barely covering the bulge beneath. What I wanted was to see them. I slid my hand up slightly, dragging the negligee up, until their full thigh was exposed, all the way to the thin strap that sat on their hip. I traced the strap back and found where it met in a T at the top of Onyx's crack. A thong. I didn't know what to expect, but it wasn't that. Following it back to the front, I pushed the dress up higher and drew in a sharp breath at the sight of their cock stretching the panties to their limit.
“ Fuuuck .” I wasn’t prepared for how hot it would be to see or how my dick jerked at the sight. There was something incredibly enticing about the mix of feminine and masculine, and I was entranced. Luckily, Onyx pulled my attention away with a kiss. They kissed me deeply, probing my mouth with their tongue, and I couldn't help but wonder how it would feel to have a different part of them in my mouth. The part they rolled against me, making a rumble sound in the back of my throat.
Onyx pulled back and ran their hands over my chest, making my skin burn under their touch. “I love the way your chest hair feels. You're so fuzzy.”
The hairs were more gray than black now, but with their long fingers playing through it, I’d never felt more sexy. My hands slid up their sides until my thumbs rested just under their breasts. The silky material between us was very erotic. Admittedly, I was glad they hadn’t taken it off right away, loving the way it felt beneath my touch, and building up anticipation, while also helping ease me into being with another person like this again. But Onyx’s skin felt even better, and I was dying to continue exploring.
Onyx kissed me again and whispered against my lips. “The answer is yes. I didn’t spend all this time growing boobs to have them ignored.”
They grabbed one of my hands and moved it until I cupped the small breast. We both groaned when I squeezed, loving the way it felt in my palm. At the same time, Onyx rolled their hips, sliding their cock over mine. As their mouth covered mine, I was feeling overwhelmed in the best way from all the places our bodies touched. It was a lot, and yet... not enough. Not nearly enough.
I hummed into their mouth while one hand was on their chest and the other reached back down to grab their round ass cheek and pull them closer. I needed them closer, closer, closer. Heat bloomed through my entire body, eager and anxious to feel more of their body. “I need...”
“What, honey? What do you need?” Onyx asked in a thick voice as they stared into my eyes.
“I don’t know. More. I don’t know,” I rambled. My brain was so far offline, I couldn’t even put together what it was I needed, but I was burning up with it, like a fireball growing inside me, ready to consume me from the inside out.
Onyx pressed a soft kiss on the tip of my nose. “Okay. Why don’t you help me take this off now?”
I nodded fervently. “Yes!”
They sat straight up on my lap and held their arms over their head, leaving it to me to take the negligee off. I held the bottom edge of it and drew it up, pulling it over their head and arms and tossing it to the side. And then they were there, naked except for the thong that barely contained them. Their long, slim form, their hard cock, their breasts that rose with each breath, their rosy, round nipples that peaked under my gaze. “Stunning.” The word formed in my mind, but with the way Onyx smiled, I wondered if I’d said it out loud.
“Kiss me, Theodore .”
I threw my arms around their waist, pulling them tight against me, and crashed my mouth into theirs. Their breasts rubbed against my chest, and our cocks ground against each other, the thong the only thing between us. Fuck, they felt so good, skin to skin, with nearly every part of us touching. Our tongues danced together, and I was addicted to Onyx’s taste. It was like finding the one thing that finally satisfied a craving you’d had for years. They were delicious.
Onyx reached between us and wrapped their fingers around my cock, making me gasp into their lips, but they kept going, not giving me time to think about it. I kissed along their jaw and worked down to their throat as they slowly stroked, every touch igniting me further.
Onyx leaned back slightly, putting their chest in easy reach. No longer able to resist, I leaned down and took a nipple into my mouth. Onyx moaned loudly, a sound that went straight to my already-on-edge dick. “Yes, Theo! God, keep doing that.”
I sucked and nipped, loving the way it felt in my mouth, while my hand worked the other one, and then switched off. At the same time, I felt Onyx shifting, and they rolled their panties down, freeing their cock. I wanted to look, but was too focused on the breasts in front of me. Except when I felt their hard, velvety skin slide against mine, my breath hitched loudly, and I lost all concentration.
My eyes lowered to watch as Onyx brought our cocks together. I was completely captivated by the sight. Not only was I seeing another person’s cock that wasn’t mine, but seeing them side-by-side, two heads glistening together, was thrilling in a way I never imagined. Their fingers wrapped around both and they stroked us together, slowly, cautiously, waiting to see my reaction. The sensation was surprising, but arousing as hell. “Oh, fuck!”
They did it again with more certainty, and my hips arched, pushing up, needing more. I sucked in a sharp breath. “Okay?” Onyx asked.
“Yes. Fuck! Do it again.”
Onyx grinned widely and pressed a kiss to my lips as they stroked us together. They grabbed my hand with their free one and brought it to cover theirs over our cocks. We moved as one, stroking together in an overwhelming sensation. Tension coiled deep, aching, ready to explode. With the excitement of the newness of this, as well as years of being untouched by anything but my own hand, I wasn’t going to last long.
“I need your mouth on me, Theo,” Onyx panted.
I took their breast into my mouth again and sucked, making Onyx hiss with pleasure. The sound, the way my mouth was full, and the feel of our hands and cocks together pushed me over the edge, and the tension released with a nuclear blast. My head fell back, and I shouted as I exploded into our joined hands. “Gah!”
Onyx didn’t stop moving their hand, and now my cum coated us, slicking the action. I was so oversensitive it was nearly painful, but I didn’t want them to stop. My gaze was locked onto our cocks, not daring to look away as I felt them harden. They came, shooting warm spurts all over us.
I was panting hard and stared down at the mess between us. It was captivating to see the physical evidence of pleasure, so unlike anything I’d experienced before. Even more captivating was Onyx, swiping a finger through the combined release and holding it up. My eyes followed and when they were sure they held my full attention, they stuck it into their mouth and moaned. My eyes widened and a stirring of heat pooled in my groin once more. “Holy shit!”
Their eyes glowed with heat, and they gave me a sly grin. “We taste pretty good together. Do you want to try?”
“I... uh...” I had no answer because I was too mesmerized by the sight of their mouth and what they had just done. Onyx swiped their finger until it glistened. They leaned forward and brushed a gentle kiss against my lips. There was a hint of saltiness on them that made my cock swell.
They kissed my ear next and whispered, “Open your mouth.”
I closed my eyes and did what they said. My heart raced out of control as I sat there waiting, trusting. Their finger landed on my tongue and instinctually, I closed my lips around it and sucked. It was unexpected, but I couldn’t stop the moan that came up from within me at the intoxicating taste. They plunged their finger in and out and I wrapped my tongue around it, sucking it, and reveling in the naughty novelty of it.
Onyx rolled their hips and said in a lust-thickened voice. “ Mmm , Theodore. If you keep that up, I’m going to be ready for round two.”
They withdrew their finger and kissed me again, before climbing off my lap, making me immediately miss their weight on me. But now that it was done, I felt a euphoric peace come over me and my eyes grew heavy.
“I’ll be right back.” Onyx headed to the bathroom, but I was crashing hard after that huge adrenaline rush and slid down the bed until I was more reclined. I looked down at the stickiness on my chest and stomach and felt my lips tug up with satisfaction. We’d done that. Both of us. Fuck, I felt really good, not just physically—and, well, physically I felt fucking amazing—but mentally, too. A sense of soothing joy filled me.
“Someone’s feeling good,” Onyx said in a playful tone when they returned. Was it that obvious? Was I still smiling? My eyes were closed and all I could manage was a hum in reply.
The hum turned into a sigh when they wiped me down with a warm washcloth. My arms folded behind my head and I simply allowed it, unable to do anything else but soak in the euphoria.
A moment later, I felt the bed shift as Onyx climbed in. I wanted so badly to see them again, but my eyes were too heavy to open. They sidled up beside me until I felt their head land on my chest. They were still naked and their bare flesh felt glorious against my body. I brought my arm down to fold around them and hold them to me.
Onyx pressed a kiss to my chest, making my sleepy smile stretch wider. They succeeded in helping me attain what I’d hoped for. Not the mind-blowing orgasm… well, yes, definitely that too, but my mind was blissfully quiet. In this moment, there was only us. Two people who shared in each other’s pleasure and nothing else mattered.
Throughout the night, Onyx stayed tucked against me, and I slept. I slept so deeply, there wasn’t room for nightmares of phone calls, or beeping machines in hospital rooms, or of the endless echo in our empty house. Many details have faded over time, but there were certain elements that never ceased to grip me in the defenselessness of sleep.
A quiet night. A warm body. True rest.
It was more than I could have hoped for.
Except the calm that embraced me through the dark of night peeled away as the morning light broke through. The quiet turned into loud thoughts that flooded my mind. Onyx’s head was still on my chest, the delicious tropical scent of their hair in my nose, the memory of the taste they fed me. It turned me on as much as it reminded me they weren’t Myra. I’d had sex with someone not her. Shutting off my brain last night had seemed like the best idea, and I’d truly enjoyed it and had a moment where I felt like I might actually be able to move on. Only... I didn’t know if I was really ready to.
Onyx’s fingers curled into my chest hair and spoke in a soft voice. “I can hear you thinking. Are you okay?”
That was the question, wasn't it? One I didn't have an answer to, not right then. I moved my arm off them and they scooted back to be able to look at me. “I, uh, should probably get up.”
Before I could run away, Onyx held my chin, holding my attention. “Listen, I really enjoyed last night. It was a lot of fun and sexy as fuck, but I need you to tell me if I pushed you too far. I can't read your mind, Theodore.”
I sat up and scrubbed a hand over my beard, but forced myself to meet Onyx's eyes. I didn't want them to feel bad about any of it. “You didn't. Shit... last night, you were”—I thought of our cocks sliding against each other, their breasts pressed into my chest, the sounds they made, and the wicked taste they'd given me—“perfect.”
Onyx's expression softened, and they sat closer to me, resting their hand on my arm. “So... what's going on?”
“I just have a lot on my mind.”
“Do you want to talk about it?” Their tone was so gentle it made my heart crack open. They were incredibly patient and understanding. If I were to be able to talk to anyone about the noise in my head, it would probably be them, but I wasn't ready.
“Not right now.”
They let out a soft sigh. “Okay. I'm here, though, whenever you need it.”
Leaning forward, I brushed my lips against theirs and got out of bed. “Thank you, Onyx.”
My heart and mind were working overtime and if I didn't get out of there fast, the tears that stung my eyes might have burst free. I quickly dressed and headed for the barn, where I might be able to turn the emotions threatening to overwhelm me into something productive.