Chapter 39 Myelas
MYELAS
That night, I slept better than I ever had.
I would have never guessed that sharing my bonded with another man would have given me such peace.
Yet, it did. Seeing the heights to which Rook and I could take Izzy, when working together — feeling her transcendent bliss shivering through our connection, her complete and utter release and relief and joy — had confirmed one ultimate fact for me: all I cared about was Izzy’s happiness.
When she was happy, so was I. When she was at peace… so was I.
It made sense, given how deep our connection had become, but still, I hadn’t fully understood it until last night.
And it emphasized even more how insignificant I was.
I may need Izzy, but she didn’t need me.
As an incubus, Rook alone could probably take her most of the way to the rapture she’d felt last night.
And if he did, I wouldn’t care, because I’d feel it too.
Yes, our bond would demand Izzy and I be together, but that would be the one and only thing she would need from me.
Izzy was a princess. She didn’t know it yet, but I did. She was royal, and once that came out and we’d dealt with Saldrea and her mother — not like that would be an easy fight — Izzy would be a queen. She’d rule these lands, and a little shifter like me would mean less than nothing to her.
She’d also have come into her powers by then, and if Safir was right, she might be able to break this bond between us.
If she chose to, I wouldn’t complain. I’d miss her like I’d miss my own heart, but I was so far beneath her, so unworthy of someone like her that it only made sense she’d abandon me eventually.
And that night… I came to a sort of peace with that fact.
I’d stay by Izzy, protect her, help her, give her everything I was, for as long as I could, but if she chose to break our bond, I could never be upset with her.
I didn’t want it to happen, and I’d treasure every day I had with her for as long as we were bound together, but once she was queen, I’d go my own way, happy in the knowledge that — in some small way — I’d helped this amazing woman come to power.
That was my position.
That was my place.
I was nothing, yet for a short period I’d be elevated because of my proximity to Izzy. That would have to be enough for me.
Because as long as Izzy was happy… I was happy.
And I’d never love another woman again.