Chapter 20
Kemah
We left Maryland and returned to South Carolina a few days ago, and that’s when reality slowly started to set in.
Knowing Hodge is going to murder my family, and Jake isn’t sitting well with me.
In fact, it’s had me on edge since he said it.
I’ve heard him talk to the guys about it, but not in detail.
Not that I needed that. What I heard was enough, and the fact that they all laugh and drink to it is a little upsetting for me.
I wring my hands in my lap as the guys all drink at the bar talking about it once more when Kiki comes to sit next to me.
“You okay?”
“No.”
“What’s wrong?”
“They just sit there, drinking and laughing about murder. Who the hell does that?”
“They do.” She laughs.
“This isn’t funny, Kiki. I’m … I don’t know what I feel right now.”
“You’re nervous. You’re afraid. You’re on edge. I get it, Kemah. I do. I’ve been there.”
“You have?” I ask, looking at her now.
“Yeah, I have. It’s never easy knowing the person you care about is going to something you find stupid, but that’s how these guys are.
It’s who they are. They were raised to be this, to do this.
” I don’t get it. How are you raised to want to kill?
I mean, I’ve thought about it with Jake, but I would never actually do it. At least I don’t think I would.
“It’s murder,” I tell her.
“In your mind, it is. Not in theirs. In their mind, it’s making something right. Do you honestly think Hodge would let it go? That he would turn the other way after he found out? Your dad sent you off to be used and abused and then helped Jake to do it again.”
“That doesn’t mean he has to kill them! Fuck, he could just stay away from them, right?” Kiki laughs and shakes her head.
“Not a chance in hell. That’s not how things are done around here. They get revenge, and they make things right. How would you feel if your dad did this to another girl? Or Jake tied another girl to the dresser?” I sigh now.
“I wouldn’t want that. It would kill me to know that was happening to someone else,” I admit.
“Exactly.”
“But what if they get caught?” Kiki giggles again.
“You have a lot to learn, Kemah, and I’m here to help you. They have cops,” she tells me.
“What do you mean?”
“They pay cops off.”
“Just like that? They just pay them to look the other way?” I ask, not sure I’m understanding her correctly.
“Just like that. You know how they say to keep your enemies close? What better way to do that than keeping a few cops in your back pocket?” she says. It makes sense, I suppose.
“It just feels all wrong,” I add without seeing Hodge walk over.
“What feels wrong?”
“She doesn’t like what you’re going to do.”
“Doesn’t matter, it’s happenin’.” Now I look up at him and nod my head slowly. He’s not going to listen to me. He’s not going, not to do it just because I said I didn’t want him to.
My stomach cramps as I think about it, but Hodge reaches out his hand, holding it there, offering it to me.
With a sigh, I reach out and slip my hand into his before he helps me up and leads me toward the door.
He grabs our jackets, passing me mine, and I slip it on.
I follow Hodge out of the clubhouse and out into the cold night air.
Snow flurries float around us, and I can’t stop the slight smile that crosses my face when I see them.
“You like the snow?”
“It’s beautiful.”
“Not when it’s ten feet deep,” he chuckles. I laugh along with him before he steps closer to me, cupping my cheek in his hand. “I get it, Kemah. This is all new to you, and it’s gonna take time to get used to things here.”
“It’s murder, Hodge. It’s not just that you’re going to beat them up,” I say. He nods his head.
“I know that.”
“It’s illegal. And if you’re caught, you’re going to prison,” I add. He smiles and licks his lips.
“I’m not goin’ anywhere, darlin’. I’m gonna handle this shit, and then we’re gonna be together. We’re gonna learn more about each other, we’re gonna live, Kemah. Together.”
“Together,” I repeat the word softly, not truly believing it.
“Yeah, together.”
“I’m scared, Hodge.”
“I know you are, but I promise this isn’t gonna take long, and then it’ll all be over, yeah?” He looks into my eyes, and there’s nothing more to say. He takes my breath away.
“Okay.”
“Good. Now you might wanna get ready,” he warns before pulling his hand away. He leans in and pecks a quick kiss to my cheek before reaching down and grabbing a handful of snow. He steps back, balling it in his hands as I watch him.
“What are you doing?”
“Snowball fight.”
“I don’t think so,” I tell him, stepping back and lifting my hands in the air.
“Oh, yeah, we are.” Then he does it. He throws the snowball at me while he laughs hysterically. I wipe the snow from my face before reaching down and grabbing a handful myself.
“I don’t think you know just how well I can roll a snowball.”
“Oh, are you tryin’ to make a bet, sweetheart?” he smirks at me.
“What’s the wager?”
“I win and you ride my fuckin’ face. You sit on me and let me eat your pussy until you can’t hold yourself up any longer,” he explains, causing my cheeks to heat.
“And if I win?”
“We can do it however you want.” I think about it for a second before smiling back at him.
“You’re on.” Before I have the chance to throw the one in my hand, Hodge has another rolled up and flying my way.
It slams into my chest as I gasp and throw mine.
Hodge easily dodges it as I reach for more snow.
Once I have a few more rolled, I move to stand next to the tree so it partially blocks me.
“Hidin’ from me, huh?” Hodge calls out as I laugh.
“You’re not going to win this,” I tell him.
“I always win, Kemah. I always get what I want, and I want you ridin’ my fuckin’ face.”
“You’re crazy if you think you’re winning this.”
“I’m gonna win this and you’re gonna be naked and on my face.
” As he speaks, I sneak out and throw another snowball at him.
It lands, and that’s when he moves. Just as I start laughing, Hodge launches himself at me.
He tackles me, taking us both to the ground as we laugh.
He reaches above my head, grabbing a handful of snow and holding it near my face.
“Tell me I won, baby. Tell me,” he says, threatening me with the snow.
“No! I won’t do it,” I laugh harder.
“Do it. Say that I won,” he urges as he brings his hand closer to me. He’s about to slap the snow in my face when I give in.
“Fine! You won!” I laugh harder than I have in a long time. Hodge laughs and drops the snow before grabbing my face in both hands, kissing me like I’ve never been kissed before.
“You’re on my face tonight, baby. No holdin’ back. You’re gonna give it all to me.”
“Hodge,” I whine.
“No. No negotiations. You’re gonna give me this.”
“I’m too big, Hodge.”
“I didn’t ask you that. Come on,” he says, standing and offering me his hand. I reach out to take it, and he helps me off the ground, brushing the snow off my clothes before leading me back inside.
Some of the guys are lingering, and so are some of the girls, but Kiki comes rushing over laughing.
“Did you have a snowball fight?”
“Yeah, she lost,” Hodge adds before tugging me along down the hall. Kiki laughs out loud, but Hodge is a man on a mission.
He walks me into the room and slams the door shut, nodding toward my clothes.
“What?”
“Strip.”
“Hodge,” I say softly.
“No. A deal’s a deal. Strip out of those wet clothes and let me make that pussy wet instead,” he growls low in his throat.
My heart leaps into my throat as I slowly start to undress.
I strip out of everything, standing naked in front of Hodge as his eyes roam over me.
If this were Jake, I’d be embarrassed, but Hodge makes me feel beautiful. More than I ever thought I could.
“I’m gonna eat you so fuckin’ good.” My cheeks heat from his words as he grabs my hand and leads me over to the bed. He climbs on and lays back, eyeing me.
“Let’s go, Kemah. I can’t wait to taste you,” he says, sending a chill down my spine. I walk closer and climb onto the bed.
“Grab the headboard,” he orders. I stand up and grab the headboard while he motions for me to straddle him.
I don’t know if this is a good idea or not.
I’m thinking not, but a deal is a deal, and I made a deal with him.
“Now lower that pussy down here to me.” I swallow hard and lower myself down until Hodge grabs my hips and jerks me all the way.
He doesn’t waste any time; his tongue slips inside me as soon as I’m close enough.
He licks me and then sucks my clit into his mouth as I gasp and begin to rock my hips against his face. He groans and keeps going. I keep rocking my hips, needing more, craving more.
“Hodge,” I cry out as he hits every spot that shoots sparks through my body. My legs tremble, and I’m almost afraid I’m going to collapse on him. “Please.”
He growls but keeps going, his tongue flicking over my clit once more. I nearly lose it. I nearly come for him, but I hold back as much as I can, savoring every second of this.
“Hodge, I can’t hold back,” I cry as his tongue gets to work on my clit. My body shakes, heat courses through me, and my body begins to tremble harder than it was before, and I let go. I come for him. I come hard for him. My nails dig into the headboard as pure pleasure washes through me.
Hodge is breathing hard beneath me, his warm breath dancing over my flesh before he slides out from under me. I let my body drop to my knees when I feel him move in behind me. He pulls my ass back and shoves me forward before I feel his cock sliding into me.