33. Ben
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I’m going to be a father. I am going to be… a father.
The phrase plays on repeat in my mind as I lay in the dark. Emily is snoring softly beside me, but I’ve been restless since she showed me the test results. At first, I didn’t believe what I was seeing. I didn’t think Emily was pranking me, but it seemed impossible at first.
It’s still surreal we’re expecting a baby.
I knew having kids was in my future, but I could never picture it happening when Melissa and I were together.
Emily’s pregnancy announcement scared me at first. Of course, it did.
It is a natural reaction to unexpected news.
Though I’m not surprised she got pregnant so quickly since we’ve been fucking like cats in heat, she had been on birth control.
I knew oral contraceptives were not completely reliable, but the chances of it failing were still low.
One thing is obvious: I can see a future with Emily in it. I can’t even imagine a life without her in it.
I’m going to be a father.
It seems absolutely absurd. How am I expected to take care of another person when I am barely holding myself together? Not to mention, a significant promotion is on the horizon, requiring overseas travel to manage our international sites. With a baby coming, I need to rethink my priorities.
And Emily? I know what I feel about her is more than just lust, but our relationship is still new. We’re still getting to know each other. Can we handle bringing on a baby right now?
One thing I know for certain is that whatever Emily decides, I will fully support her.
If she decides to keep the baby, I will move heaven and earth to make it possible.
We’ll probably need more space when the baby gets here.
There are so many things we’ll have to consider if that’s what she decides.
And if she decides not to keep the baby? It would be a decision I know she wouldn’t make lightly. Even if the thought hurts, I’ll fully support her in her decision.
I’m going to be a father!
Thinking about it makes me even more sure I can be a great dad. Seeing Jason with his baby made me wonder what it would look like when my time came. Of course, I didn’t think it would happen as soon as it did, but the idea didn’t scare me as much as I thought it would.
I should probably feel more fear and anxiety than I do, but I suspect the woman by my side has something to do with alleviating my concerns.
The thought of watching her swell with my child growing inside her fills me with pride.
It’s primitive, but I can’t help it. Men are simple creatures, after all.
If anything, the idea turns me on so much I’ve been lying here with my cock at half-mast the entire time. Emily passed out almost as soon as her head hit the pillow. I don’t blame her. She’s trying to grow another human inside of her. My child.
I put a baby in her belly.
I think about what our future might look like with a child in the picture.
I want to be able to provide everything they both will need.
We’ll probably outgrow the apartment quickly, and the housing market is improving.
It might be one of the best times to buy a new house for the first time in almost a decade.
I know we’re doing things out of order, but eventually, we’ll have to discuss marriage.
My cock hardens at the thought of calling Emily my wife. My wife. Nothing sounds sweeter than the sound of calling her my wife.
The timeline is much faster than either of us expected, but it feels right.
The thought of marrying Emily feels right. It makes sense. We make sense. My heart swells, overflowing with the promise of our life together.
Everything happens for a reason, and sometimes you have to make mistakes. It’s too bad it was an expensive mistake. Next time, the ring I buy will be for just one person, and she’s right here with me.
I turn on my side and prop my head on my fist. Looking down at Emily’s sleeping form, her face relaxed in sleep, lips parted slightly as she snores. I can’t help the squeezing in my chest at the idea of spending the rest of our lives together.
She’s the one, as cliche as it sounds. I’d known for a while but have been ignoring it until now. There’s no use denying it anymore.
Life is about to change for us both.