Chapter 4 #2
I wasn’t sure how much time passed before I stepped back into my home and locked the door behind me.
Like the zombie that I felt like, I trekked up the stairs and into my bedroom.
The second I rested on the edge of the bed, trying to calm my ragging heart, my cell phone rang in the distance. Somehow, I knew it was Keanu.
I rushed to the nightstand where it was.
When I picked it up and saw Ever’s name cross the screen, I squeezed my phone to the point that I thought it would break.
With a low, deep groan, I fell back onto the bed with my eye to the ceiling.
I’d never been so disappointed to see my best friend’s number on the caller I.D.
“Lyric?” Ever’s soft, swaying voice appeared on the line after I didn’t greet her for a few seconds.
“Yeah.”
“What’s the matter?”
“I don’t know,” I admitted.
“Is everything okay? Are you hurt? Are you at home?”
“Everything is not okay and for some reason my heart hurts. Yes. I’m home,” I answered her questions one after the other.
“Do you want me to come by once San gets here for the kids?” she offered.
“No. I know you have a busy schedule today. I’ll be fine,” I assured her.
“I’ll drop it all for you, babe.”
“I know.” I cringed.
She would and that’s what I loved so much about her.
While women found themselves having several friends to juggle, I only needed one.
Ever was a Godsend and there weren’t many in the world like her.
She had my back and my front. If women weren’t stepping like her then I didn’t want them in my life.
She was rare and she was mine. I loved that for me and for her because I had her covered, too.
“Talk to me.”
“We had sex,” I confessed.
After a gasp, the line went silent. I waited for Ever to get herself together before I said anything else. Before I was able, she responded.
“Wow. Okay.”
“And not regular sex, Ever. It should be illegal for him to be so good at what he does. He doesn’t cum once.
He cums over and over and over. I’ve only seen that in porn, never in real life.
He had me risking my livelihood, begging him to re-enter me each time he removed it.
I didn’t give a damn that there was still nut on his dick or if he decided to leave it inside of me when he came.
I just wanted every crevice of my pussy filled to capacity with him. ”
“It sounds like the ideal night to me, so what’s with the sadness?”
“When I got out of the shower about ten minutes ago, he was gone.”
“Woah. Did he really do a hit it and quit it or did you say something to make him leave?”
“He didn’t do a hit it and quit it,” I explained, needing to give credit where it was due, “I just got so scared after last night and this morning. I’d go crazy over Keanu.
If he’s been giving out dick like that all his life, I’ll go completely insane over that man.
I will. I’ll only end up breaking my brother’s heart, again.
Both of theirs. I can’t risk that, Ever.
Not for anyone and especially not for some good dick – no matter who it belongs to.
“So, I told him that I was going to agree to being Collin’s girlfriend.
He asked me on the way to my house last night.
I told him I needed some time but after that night with Keanu, I don’t.
I’ve made my decision. Collin is the safest option so that is what I’m going with.
Keanu is a threat to my body, brothers, and heart.
I can’t do this with him. Not freely and openly. Collin is different.”
“You told him what?” Ever’s voice raised, something it hardly ever did. In fact, I’d never heard her raise her voice in the decade I’d known her.
“I told him I was going to agree to being Collin’s girlfriend.”
“And you’re wondering why you’re hurt over there?
Imagine how he feels right now. He came home to you, Lyric, risking it all as well.
He risked his friendship with the two men that he loves dearly all for you to be ungrateful for his sacrifice and have the nerve to tell him that you’re going to agree to be someone else’s girlfriend.
That’s ludicrous. I hate to say this, but whatever pain you’re feeling right now, you deserve it. ”
“Ever!”
“I apologize, but I’m serious, Lyric. Why would you do such a thing?” she complained, making it obvious that she was not agreeing with my actions.
“You’re rooting for Keanu. I get that. It’s why you see errors in my ways, but if you were to really think about it… like really. You’d understand why Collin is my choice.”
“I’m rooting for you, Lyric. I’m rooting for your heart, and I’m only upset because I know where it belongs. Of course Collin is the better option on paper and maybe when it comes to the family, but none of that matters when the heart is involved,” she reasoned.
I understood where she was coming from, too, but I wasn’t willing to dismantle the family’s dynamic for the hell of it.
I’d grown some courage that I shouldn’t have over the course of Keanu’s stay and wrote him a message that should’ve stayed between Ever and I.
When I wrote it, I hadn’t thought about what would actually happen or how much it could change things for everyone.
I was being selfish, but after having three months to think things through, I knew that it wasn’t a risk I could take.
“The heart has gotten me into a lot of trouble, Ever,” I reminded her.
“I understand.” She sighed. “As much as I don’t want to, I understand.”
“Thank you.”
“But the damage is kind of already done. It’ll be too hard for you two to stay out of each other’s bed now that you’ve both experienced what one another feels like.
I couldn’t imagine not being intimate with Luca after the first time we gave into our desires.
It would be torture and an unnecessary evil that I wouldn’t be able to face. ”
“That’s exactly why I have to go ahead and take that next step with Collin. I’ve felt his dick. He is not half–stepping.”
“Well, if that’s what you think it will take, but I don’t see it. Because, even if he has the size, does he have the skills?”
“When I find out, I will let you know.”
“I just can’t believe you told that man that.” She released a long, hard breath.
“I can’t believe he just left.” I sighed, feeling the sadness from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. “I want him back already.”
“I’d tell you to get him back there immediately and apologize but there’s a small piece of me that really understands where you’re coming from and won’t allow me to encourage that.
I will, however, keep an eye on you and see how well you handle his absence now that you’ve had Keanu in your presence.
If it’s not up to standards, I’m calling him myself to get him back over there.
If you want to give Collin a chance before you give into Keanu, then do it.
But don’t think that I’m going to sit and watch you try to force something with another man because you’re truly in love with another one. ”
“I won’t do that. I promise. If Collin isn’t for me, I won’t force it. I promise.”
“I won’t let you.”
“I’m sleepy again,” I yawned, dragging the words much longer than necessary.
“Well, I bet you are,” Ever chuckled, “get some sleep and call me when you wake up.”
“Only if we’re not talking about this.”
“Then, we won’t talk about this.”
We ended the call after saying our goodbyes. I slipped into something a bit more comfortable and silky, knowing that I’d be out for a while. My body had been overworked and so was my pussy. We needed to recalibrate and it wouldn’t be a small task, either.
The explosive pounding on my door had awakened me from my slumber. I descended my steps in a drunken-like haze, rushing to see who was demanding my presence. When I stood close enough to the peephole, I could see Laike’s frame situated on my porch, pissing me off to the max.
“Why not just use your key?”
“I’m trying to respect your little privacy or whatever and not barge in only to find that lame ass nigga in there.”
Laike walked inside, looking around as if he’d find another human in my home other than myself.
“Laike, you care nothing about my privacy for the most part. Let’s be very clear on that. As far as Collin goes, he’s far from lame and you’re going to have to start showing him some respect.”
I followed behind him as he made his way into the kitchen.
He was making it clear that it’s where he preferred me.
My brothers considered me spoiled, but it was them who I’d spoiled over the years.
Whenever they came over early mornings, they’d get a hot, fresh, homecooked meal that would fill their bellies for at least a few hours.
“Says who?” He stopped, turned around and waited for my answer.
“Says me because he’s going to be around for a while. He asked me to be his girlfriend.”
With a roll of my eyes, I kept walking ahead of him. When I made it inside of the kitchen, he was still trying to comprehend what was being asked of him.
“I hope you declined,” he muttered.
“I don’t have a reason to,” I told him as a matter of fact.
“You’ve been around your father and your brothers your entire life and that’s the nigga you’re choosing to spend the rest of your days with? Have we not taught you anything? Shit, has Laura not taught you anything?”
Sucking the skin of his teeth, Laike shook his head. The disgust on his handsome face didn’t go unnoticed. In fact, it caused my stomach to turn as Keanu flashed before my eyes.