Chapter Thirty
TOREN
The feeling of his fingers inside me and his tongue licking me is orgasmic, it’s everything I thought it would be. Granted, I expected my first time to be with someone else but dammit, I’m not mad at the fact it’s Xaden.
“Let go, Tink.” His words seem to be the match to the inferno building inside me.
Out of nowhere a tsunami of ecstasy rolls through my body.
I scream his name loud enough for Cas and Harper to hear, but I don’t care, all I can focus on is the waves of pleasure rolling through me.
My body trembles and rides the waves as he pushes me over the edge.
I've made myself come before but it was nothing like this. It didn’t even feel close to how I feel right now.
My arms give out and I flop back onto the bed panting.
Xaden eases his fingers out of me and I suddenly feel empty.
I lift my head and look down at him as he climbs off the bed.
I begin to panic that he’s about to leave, but when he begins to undo his jeans, my breath hitches and I begin to feel hot all over as he slowly pushes them down.
The moment his cock springs free, my eyes widen to the size of saucers.
I’ve never seen a dick up close before but Xaden’s is fucking beautiful.
It’s hard and slaps proudly against his stomach. He’s huge!
I don’t want to be that girl, but the question is on the tip of my tongue and I force myself not to blurt it out.
I would sound like a fucking idiot if I asked him if he would fit inside me.
Rationally I know he will but it doesn’t take away the fact I know it’s going to hurt like hell.
Xaden slides back onto the bed and nestles himself between my legs.
He licks a trail from the top of my pussy all the way up to my neck.
I feel my pussy clenching down on nothing.
My stomach coils with need when he places his hands on either side of my head and looks down at me with something other than hatred for once.
Hunger. Knowing that a man like Xaden Devlin wants me has me feeling proud and confident.
I reach up and cup his cheek. He tenses but doesn’t bat my hand away or snap at me.
I slowly lift my head wanting to taste him and Xaden meets me halfway, sealing his lips to mine, robbing me of air.
All I can taste is him and my own cum. His tongue invades my mouth like he owns it.
I feel the head of his cock prod against my entrance and unintentionally tense. He breaks the kiss and peers down at me.
“Relax, just feel and try not to fight it.” The soft tone of his voice shocks me, he’s never spoken tenderly to me before.
I keep my eyes locked on his as I try to do as he says.
I drink in the sight of him and ignore the pinch of pain when he slowly eases inside me.
His features pull taut, mirroring my own.
I gasp when he pushes in further, my nails dig into his back, making him hiss but I don’t release him from my hold.
This is the most intimate moment of my life and it’s not just because Xaden is about to take my virginity, it’s the way he’s looking at me like he can see through the layers and right into my soul.
“Fuck!” I pant out when he pushes in further. I try to breathe through the pain but it hurts so bad. Tears prick the backs of my eyes, forcing me to slam them closed to fight them back.
“Eyes on me.” The clipped command has me snapping them open like he demands. He looks pained, I know this must be hard for him as well but—
“Xaden!” I scream when he slams inside me, tearing my hymen in half.
This time his name isn’t screamed in pleasure, it’s pain.
Tears roll down my cheeks and a sob escapes me.
I feel his hands cup my cheeks. He swipes my tears away with his thumbs, then he kisses me.
I want to refuse him entry but the moment his tongue swipes mine, I lose the battle.
Xaden Devlin has a hold over me and I have no idea how to sever it. A part of me isn’t sure I want to.
When he draws back, I whimper in pain but this time when he thrusts into me he’s slow and measured.
When he does it for the second time, the pain begins to lessen and I moan into his mouth.
He swallows it and grunts when he thrusts inside me again, but this time it’s with force.
I gasp and drag my nails down his back, relishing in the hiss that comes from him.
He breaks the kiss but doesn’t pull back.
We stare into each other's eyes for a second until he slams into me with enough force it robs me of air, causing me to arch my back off the bed. Xaden chuckles.
“Would you look at that. You like it hard, don’t you, Tink?
” he growls as he draws back and thrusts into me again, but this time harder making me cry out.
He sits back and lifts my legs, then pushes them forward.
I gasp at how deep he feels, then moan. Xaden draws back and slams into me again but this time a scream of pure pleasure comes from me, he’s hitting a spot inside of me that’s making me pant and claw at his chest. He keeps fucking me like this, I’m trembling and shaking.
I feel like a wild animal ready to combust.
“Oh, fuck,” I cry out when he hits that spot again. I feel an orgasm rising and I’m fucking terrified of it. I try to ignore the feeling but Xaden won’t ease his pace, it’s as if he knows what he’s doing to me and won’t stop until I give him what he wants.
“Come for me, Tink,” he grits out as he thrusts inside me.
His command goes straight to my pussy. It’s like he has a direct line to it because the bitch listens.
On the next thrust, I’m bowing off the bed and gripping the sheets in my clutches as I scream out my release.
Xaden’s thrusts are strong, steady and controlled, dragging out my orgasm.
Tremors rock through me but it doesn’t stop him.
I look up at him and love the sight of the scratches on his chest. A sick part of me loves the sight of my brand on him.
He looks like a fucking god. He’s beautiful and the fact he’s buried deep inside me right now, taking something that no one else will ever get from me, is purifying.
The need to watch him come undone is overwhelming.
Our moans can be heard by anyone in the house and I don’t give a fuck, I want everyone to know what he is doing to me.
“I want you to come inside me.” His brows bunch in surprise but his tempo doesn’t falter at my demand. I want to feel every part of him. “Shit, Xaden,” I pant when he presses the pad of his thumb against my clit.
“One more, Tink. I want that cum covering my cock.” His crude words have me moaning. I can’t fight him. It feels too fucking good. When he slams into me with the force of a fucking car, I cry out. “That’s right, let them hear you. I want them to know you’re mine.”
His possessiveness has me panting and moaning like a wanton bitch and yeah, I might be, but only for him.
“Xaden, I’m gonna come.”
“Now, come with me.” And we do, I come with his name on my lips and relish the sound of him calling out Tink as he comes deep inside my pussy, filling me up with his release.
Both of us are panting and trembling from our ecstasy.
He’s still burrowed inside me and I fucking love the feeling of him inside me.
After a minute, he eases out of me, making me whimper.
He climbs off the bed and I suddenly feel open and vulnerable, but then he reaches out a hand for me.
This time I place my own in his without hesitation.
He helps me off the bed and to my feet. I flinch in pain.
He leads me across his room and pushes open the door to his ensuite.
I marvel at the opulence of it. He has his own spa in here and I am fucking jealous.
He sees me eyeing it then sighs. “Take a bath. I got to head out.” My brows slam together in confusion.
“You’re leaving?” I hate that I can hear the hurt in my own voice.
When I look up at him, I want to cry. Gone is the look of the attentive lover who just made me see stars and kept his promise of blanking my mind of everything except him. He’s now back to the Xaden who says mean shit to hurt me and make my life hell.
“Yeah, got shit to do,” is all he says before he pulls the door closed behind himself and leaves me standing here, alone. I look and cringe at the sight of blood coating my inner thighs. As good as a bath sounds right now, I refuse to soak in my own blood so a shower will have to do.