Chapter 21
CHAPTER
TWENTY-ONE
Nova
I watch as Sawyer cleans me up, and his movements are so soft and gentle. That was… freaking amazing. I’ve never done that choke thing before, but when he said he liked it, it only spurred me on even more.
His naked body is something to behold. I can’t even right now. As he lays me back down on the mattress, he folds over the top of me — the washcloth discarded — and presses his lips to mine.
“You know why I’m kickin’ myself?” he murmurs against my lips.
I shake my head.
“Because we could’ve been doin’ this a year ago.”
I circle my arms around his neck. “Yes, but all good things come to those who wait, right?”
He rubs his nose with mine. “Yep, that is what they say.”
“Did you like what I did?”
“Baby, you made me come so hard I saw stars, and I’m hard again.
” He shifts, bringing his mouth to my neck.
He presses soft kisses there, murmuring at how good I taste.
I thrive under his praise. I didn’t know until now that’s a kink I’d really love to explore more, but here we are. Learning new things together.
He looks up. “What’s goin’ on in that pretty head of yours?”
I sigh. “This. It’s nice. Being with a man who has no expectations of me. I can be myself. I can enjoy being pleasured without worrying.”
“Well, that makes two of us, because pleasuring you has just overtaken my need for oxygen.”
He kisses me again and our tongues collide.
We’re wrapped in each other’s arms and there’s no other place I’d rather be.
I love it. Of course, being with Sawyer is fantastic no matter what we’re doing, but he’s right.
We could have been doing this a year ago.
I guess things happen when they’re meant to.
“Don’t stop breathing on my account.” I smile. “We couldn’t have that.”
“Baby, I can die a happy man now I’ve seen my cock down your throat.”
My eyes widen and I stifle a laugh. “Oh my god, you didn’t just say that.”
He kisses my forehead. “Just bein’ honest.”
“I’m gonna be honest now and tell you your dick is a masterpiece.”
He narrows an eye. “A masterpiece? Hell, and here I was thinkin’ I couldn’t do Only Fans…”
I laugh. “Don’t even think about it. This dick is for my eyes only.”
He settles over me with a mischievous grin on his face. “Ooh, gettin’ all protective over me?”
“Not you, your dick.” I laugh and he starts to tickle me, making me almost buck him off.
“Think you're funny?”
“Oh, I know I am, Sawyer!”
He laughs harder, pinning my arms above my head. “I’d love to tie you to this bed one day and eat your pretty cunt.”
My eyes almost bulge out of their sockets. In all the time I’ve known him, I’ve never heard him say that word.
Heat builds immediately in my lower belly. “Holy shit.”
“What? Too much?”
“No.” I bite down on my lip. “It’s never too much with you. I like the dirty talk, and I like you telling me I’m a good girl.”
He stares at me; his eyes are so blue, and I wish I knew what he was thinking, but there’s still a bit of mystery around Sawyer. I don’t have all the answers, and I don’t need to have them. As long as he’s happy. As long as we’re happy, that’s all that matters.
“You are a good girl when you milk all the cum out of me,” he mutters, planting another kiss on my lips. “Do you want more?” His words are almost a whisper.
“Yes. If you do, it doesn’t have to be tonight. I’m happy with what we did, if you are?”
“You even have to ask?” He buries his head in my neck, inhaling. “You make me so hard.”
My god. How have I lived without his dirty mouth this entire time? All the times we’ve hung out, watched movies and never touched, and the moments we did. Well, it was kissing, nothing else. Nevertheless, his mouth is everything. Everything I never knew I needed.
I brush the hair back off his face. “You make me so wet.”
He makes a guttural moan that vibrates against my pulse point, and I do want him.
I want him in all ways, but this has to be his decision.
I’m okay with sex. A long time ago, I made peace with my demons.
I don’t like it rough, and as I told him before, I don’t like to be degraded, but I do like Sawyer.
I like every single thing he does. “I wanna be inside you.”
“I want that, too, but only if you do. I’m not expecting anything.” I want him to know that I really do fucking love just being here. “Holding you is enough, Saw, but having sex with you? I’m not even sure I’d come down from that high.”
“I need to get you ready for me.”
I roll my lips. “What were those three other orgasms?” I remind him. “Chopped liver?”
He reaches between my legs and groans. “I see what you mean.”
“I’m not gonna object if you wanna give me more. A girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do.”
He lowers his mouth to one nipple and my words catch in my throat as he sucks. Oh, man.
I want to grip his ass, but I know that’s a no go area until he says, “Put your hands on me, please, baby, I can’t be the only one in heaven right now.”
I gently stroke my hands up his ass cheeks and he hisses. Fucking hisses. Jesus Christ, he’s smooth and a little slick. He cups my other breast, bringing it to his mouth and I feel his dick press against my lower belly. He really is rock hard again. Jesus.
I have zero reservations about wanting him like this.
I want it more than ever, and by the looks on his face, he’s determined.
I didn’t wanna harp on, but I don’t want him to do this just because he thinks I need it.
I don’t. I love whatever he can give me.
I’ve no doubt him being inside me will bring us to a whole new connection entirely, and I’m here for it.
I stroke up the side of his hips, then cup his pecs. Man, oh man, his body is perfectly sculpted.
“Your body is so hot,” I tell him. “I could get off with you just lying there naked.”
He looks up, with a mouth full of my tit, and he grins around it.
I’m having a hard time focussing because I suddenly love my breasts being played with, especially knowing he rubbed his spunk all over them.
That was criminally hot. I need to fan myself after that, and then him cleaning me up.
.. I had tears in my eyes but didn’t want him to think I was crying for anything more than adoration. Because I adore this man.
“Kissing and licking your body gets me off,” he mutters. “This pretty body is all mine, tell me it’s mine.”
I realize he needs that. He needs to hear it. “I’m yours.”
“Again.”
“Yours. You’re the only one.” I mean it. He is the only one. “I don’t even look at other men, not like I do you.”
“What about the guys without shirts on tonight?”
“They have nothing on you. I didn’t want them to eat my pussy.”
“And you like me doin’ that, don’t you, pretty girl?”
“Yes. Only you.”
“Fuck, baby.”
I reach down between us and he lifts his weight, his eyes dropping as I sheath him with one hand. “Such a big cock,” I tease. “You almost choked me with it.”
“I’m sorry—”
“Don’t,” I say quickly. “I liked it. I like how I know you’re about to come, I can feel the vibration change.”
“Yeah? Well, your taste changes.”
I blink. “It does?” I continue to stroke him and he bucks his hips as he nods.
“Yep.” He pops the ‘P’ loudly. “I could eat you all fuckin’ night.”
“Hey, I’m not stopping you.” He shifts off, and I pull him back down. “No, you don’t.”
“So greedy for dick, aren’t you, my angel?”
“Yes. I need it. I need it to fill me, Sawyer. Can you do that? Can you fill my little pussy with that big fat dick of yours?”
“Fuuuuuck.” He tugs on my bottom lip with his teeth. “Baby, that’s not fair.”
“No?”
“No.”
“How about this?” I squeeze his dick and he groans. “I want you, Sawyer. I want you inside me, please.”
“I’ll get a rubber.”
“I’m on birth control,” I blurt. I don’t know, but I’m okay with nothing between us. “If you’re okay with it? I don’t want anything to come between us, but it’s—”
“If you say it’s up to me one more time,” he laughs.
“You’ll what? Put me over your knee?”
He cups one side of my face. “No, I’ll put you over my face.”
Holy guacamole.
“Okay, that’s one way to make me come without even doing anything,” I laugh.
He places his hand over mine. “I want to fuck you.”
“Holy…”
“But I also want to make love to you, which do you want?”
I swallow hard. “Is there a difference?”
He nods. “Yeah, fucking is more like a feral need, and there’s a time and place for that. I want it, but tonight? Tonight I want to make love to you until I get better at it.”
Until I get better at it.
Who even is this man right now? Is he even for real? Judging by the look on his face, I’d say he is.
“Honey?” I whisper as his eyes meet mine. He’s such a lost soul, my beautiful Sawyer. “You don’t need to get better at anything, you’re already amazing.”
“You don’t know that, I could suck.”
“Yeah, you could suck the orgasm right out of me, just like you did with your mouth and your fingers,” I remind him. “God, I’m so ready for you. I’m so ready for you to take me.”
“Fuck, baby.” His hand folds over mine and he slides his tip over my clit, nudging it as I hiss. “One more, can you give me one more?”
“Yes,” I groan when he does it again.
“I wanna get you off like this, sliding my big dick through your little pussy, watch me.” He moves up onto his hands as I spread my legs wider.
His eyes never leave mine as he slides through my slickness, then rolls his hips back and forth.
His dick is so smooth, and lined with my arousal, he’s slippery.
It feels so good, I rock my hips up, my cheeks flushing.
This man has a sexual appetite I didn’t know existed, hell, I didn’t know it even existed in me. But it does.
“Yes,” I cry out. “Yes, right there.” I grip his ass and his eyes close as he rocks back and forth.
“Fuck, baby.”
I arch upward, my pussy needing more, I need to be filled by him, and then I’m coming all over his dick, crying out his name as he rides me through it.
He doesn’t waste a beat, finding my entrance, he slowly slides the head inside me. He’s big, but I’m so wet it’s ridiculous.
His eyes flick down to where we’re joined and I watch his reaction. He looks… in awe. Or something. He slides his tip in and out, slowly, and if I could impale myself, I would, but this is his pace, and I’m down with that. When he slides in even more, I groan.
“Oh, god, that’s good, so big, it’s so big.”
He grips the pillow on either side of my head, then with one push, he’s inside me to the hilt, both of our breaths huff at the same time. And he stays seated inside me. I’m so full, fuller than I’ve ever been, and he makes me so feral. What was that about fucking?
“Baby,” his voice breaks.
I panic, hoping that this hasn’t triggered him. I search his eyes for answers, but I’m breathy and confused when I say, “Yeah?”
“You feel so fuckin’ good. I know now, why we waited.”
“W-why?” I sputter.
“Because if we’d have known back then, we’d never have been able to stop.”
I roll my lips. That is a pretty good analogy. “You have a point.”
“Plus, we can make up for all of that now.”
One thing is for sure, Sawyer really knows how to work my body, and I’ve never felt it more than I do right now.
“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anything so sweet.”
He pulls out, then slides back in. “Let me fill you with dick and tell me that over and over again.”