18. Koi #3
He was still married and that alone had me moving at a slower pace, but I do know that their marriage wasn’t what it looked like.
It was complicated and only the parties involved were hip to it.
Could I actually take the criticism that I knew I was about to face by being with him?
It was a risk I was contemplating on taking.
“But what if-” Roman silenced me with a kiss. His hand was placed on my stomach. I was early on but there was a small pouch and unless you knew what I looked like prior, you would notice the change in my body.
“No buts. Let me be the man you need and want. All I need is for you to sit pretty, whether you keep the baby or not.”
“Okay.” I didn’t want this moment to end but the sound of Roman’s phone caused the both of us to sit back.
“It’s Rae, I gotta take this.” And just that fast, my stomach turned, and I felt the need to throw up.
I stepped out of the car, bent over while trying to force myself to puke. The nausea was annoying but no throw up came up. I pulled out my phone to type Marli.
Koi: Girl I’m pregnant and I just told Roman. Why this nigga talking about I need to keep the baby. Yet Rae calls and he jumps to answer.
Marli: First off congratulations bookie butt. Secondly, before you knew he was with Rae you knew he was married. So don’t even get upset about who it is. What is it you’re gonna do?
Koi: Part of me doesn’t want to put myself through another bad pregnancy, but the idea of finally being a mother is also exciting.
Marli: It is exciting. Enjoy it and let me know your due date. If you need me to come with you to the doctor, let me know.
Koi: Thank you. He’s coming over here; I’ll text you later.
I slid my phone back in my pocket just as Roman approached me. He asked if I was hungry before I happily agreed to go to City Island for some seafood. A good meal and a foot rub were all I wanted.
I checked in with my mother to let her know I was safe when Roman’s hand touched my thigh. “How’s ya sexual appetite been?”
“Horny as fuck but you know.”
“Nah, I don’t. So, in other words you gonna feed me tonight?” As angry as I was with him for answering Rae’s call, fat ma had a mind of her own.
“Umm.”
“You are. Just sit on daddy’s face. I ain’t even gotta touch you.” The sex between us was always one to remember. I was horny and already pregnant so why should I turn down the opportunity to sit on his face.
Back at Roman’s place, we couldn’t keep our hands off each other. Hot and bothered, I rushed to the bathroom, cut on the shower and stripped. He followed behind me, pulling me closer to him once he stepped into the shower.
“Shit. You feel this dick?” It was hard not to when it was poking me in my back.
“Umm hmm.” I lifted my leg, bending over slightly, rubbing the loofah over my swollen clit. “Shit, let me hurry up, I need to feel you inside of me.
Roman used that as ammunition to hurry up, shower and carry me to the bedroom.
As soon as he placed me on the bed. I spread my legs inviting him inside.
He dropped down, biting his bottom lip. Usually, I would play coy and be modest but tonight was different.
I guided him right to where I wanted him.
“Hmm, just like that.” Roman must have been trying to prove something because the way he was sucking and licking my clit, I didn’t know how I was gonna survive being fucked after.
“Fuck Ro, damn.” My legs fell to the side as my mouth widened in the shape of the letter O.
I used my hand to push him off, but he latched on to me, looking up at me with a look I didn’t want to challenge.
I lay my head back, allowing him to take full control of me. When my legs shook and my pussy jumped, I moaned out so loud, I knew the neighbors heard me. Still his head stayed dipped down low.
“Good girl. I love when you cum for daddy.” Stuck in a trance, I couldn’t move. All I did was smirk. “Let me clean you up.”
“Roman, if you touch my pussy with anything else right now, I’m gonna need to go to a doctor,” I warned him, lifting up on my elbows.
“Well damn. My lil’ baby had enough?”
“I wanted dick,” I told him. “But you, you just had to make me tap out, huh?”
“Ima give you an hour, get ya’ rest, but just know I’m sliding up in there tonight.
” He was serious. I lay back letting out a sigh.
If this was what it was going to be like dealing with him on a day to day basis then I needed to take some vitamins.
His stamina shocked me. At his age, I expected him to roll over, give me a few pumps, and go to sleep, but that was not the case.
“Roman, I’m scared to have this baby, but I secretly want this baby.”
“Our baby and no matter what, I am gonna be here with you. Every step of the way. This is not you situation. This is an us situation. We are now a family.” I let the words marinate. “I made it very clear to Rae.”
“What? That you want me?”
“Us,” he corrected me. “There is now a little person involved.”
What Roman was saying sounded good, but I still couldn’t help the fact that he was married. No matter how anyone felt, on paper, Rae and Roman had control, and I was the outsider with no real ties, except for the baby I was carrying.
If I didn’t think my life this past year couldn’t get any worse, I had to go and get pregnant.