Chapter 19
19
T he next morning I woke up to Remi’s mouth on my clit. I went from completely asleep, lost in my dreams, to writhing under his mouth.
“R-Remi!” I moaned. “What are you doing?”
“Eating your pussy,” he mumbled against my clit.
“I-I can feel that.” I laughed. “Oooh.” I arched as he sucked on my clit. “But why?” My hands found their way into his hair, and I gripped as he slurped me into his mouth.
“You didn’t come last night.” He looked up at me.
“I did. I came twice if I remember correctly.”
“Not while I was in you,” Remi corrected me. I rolled my eyes.
“Hey,” Remi admonished jokingly. “There will be no lack of orgasms with me.” He dove back down and continued where he had left off. His mouth was so warm and wet against my swollen flesh. I was so sensitive and was still feeling the after-effects from last night. He slowed down.
“I can’t hear you.”
“Huh?”
“I’m not continuing until I can hear you.”
I tried to lift my hips to his mouth. He pulled away.
“Uh-uh,” he laughed.
“Remi!” I hissed. “The whole house will hear me!”
Remi licked me from bottom to top. I groaned.
“Be a good dirty girl, and let me hear you.” Remi seemed even more confident, if that was possible, now that he had fucked me. Once. He suckled, bit, and licked again. I whimpered.
“Oh, good girl,” he said encouragingly. “You looked so good under me last night. You took me so well.”
I combusted. When I was done, Remi climbed up my body and kissed me, looking very satisfied with himself.
“Next time, I want you to sit on my face,” he said. I gaped at him. “Go back to sleep.” He slapped my ass. “I’m going to the gym. I’ll be back soon, pixie.”
I slept with no dreams after that.
Lia woke me up at ten forty-five.
“It smells like sex in here,” she announced.
“It should,” I mumbled from under the blanket.
“Holy shit, Shay Shay!” she squealed, using Liam’s nickname for me. “Did you finally pop your cherry?”
I turned over and opened my eyes.
“Well, he popped it.” I laughed.
“I hope he popped it real good.”
“It hurt like a bitch,” I admitted.
“Perfect, that means he’s big enough to make it good.” She grinned. “It’ll get better. I swear. Aw, my little baby is all grown up.” She lay next to me and wrapped me up in a hug. A few minutes later, she sat up.
“Enough post-coital sleeping, bitch, we’re going to the beach.” She slapped my ass as she left the room. Why was everyone slapping my butt this morning?
Forty minutes later, I was on the beach with my friends in a skimpy black two-piece bathing suit, my hair was in two braids, and I was wearing minimal makeup. When I was getting dressed, I found a hickey on my breast and two bruises on my hips where Remi had gripped me. They turned me on, and they were clear as day in my bikini, yet I wore them with pride. The sun was hot on my skin, and I felt whole in my body in a way I hadn’t realized I would after sharing such an intimate moment with someone. I liked it a lot.
After an hour of shooting the shit with my friends, tanning, and eating copious amounts of fruit for breakfast, we saw the boys running toward us. All four of them looking hot in their bathing suits, their muscles swollen from their workout, but I only had eyes for one.
The boys had brought food from the local deli that was next door to the gym they had gone to, and we all dug in. I sat in between Remi’s legs, my back to his chest. Every once in a while, he would drop a kiss on my shoulder. He opened my seltzer can for me, he rubbed my back, and he cleaned the sand off my feet. He was being super attentive and attuned to my needs. I caught Liam watching us. He smiled softly when I shrugged, but he didn’t say anything. He obviously knew, and as my best friend, it felt like he was proud of me somehow. After lunch, I napped on a towel on the sand while the boys played volleyball.
When I woke up, Remi was lying on his towel next to me, reading a book about cars.
“Are you reading?” I asked, sounding surprised.
“Good morning, sleeping beauty.” He grinned and put his book down. “And yes, I know how to read, Shaen.”
I rolled my eyes and sat up.
“Where did everyone go?” I asked, looking at all the empty space around us. Remi pointed to the water.
“Apparently, Sam bought jet skis the last time they were here, and Liam found them.”
I shaded my eyes with my hand and looked out at the ocean. It looked like Liam and Lia were on one, Dee and Ashley were on another, and Eva stood in the water up to her waist as Carter swam around her.
“I feel bad that you’re missing it.” I stood up and brushed the sand off my feet as I slipped on my slides.
“I was not going to leave you, and I got a good amount of reading in.” He slung his arm over my shoulders and pulled me close as we walked to join my friends.
“How are you feeling?” He gestured to my lower half.
“I’m fine.” I felt embarrassed somehow.
“Hey. Tell me for real.” Remi stopped walking and spun me to face him.
“Every step is a reminder of what we did last night,” I admitted. Remi bit his lip and turned around from where our friends stood a few feet away.
“I’m gonna need a minute,” he explained. I laughed when I saw that he had gotten hard.
“Didn’t take much, huh?” I giggled.
“Well, you’re standing there looking like a sexy minx, and you just told me that you feel… Okay, that’s not helping.” He groaned, which made me laugh harder.
“You guys okay?” Eva called. I nodded.
“Be there in a second,” I called back.
“Your dad called,” I told Remi. He immediately stood straight and glared at me.
“He did?”
“No, but you’re soft now soooo…” I pointed to the front of his bathing suit.
“Damn, you’re smart.” He reached for me, and I ran off, making him chase me. Of course, he caught me in about ten seconds since his legs were so damn long. Then he threw me over his shoulder and ran us into the water as I shrieked and begged him not to. The next thing I knew, I was being tossed into the cold yet refreshing water, and I came up sputtering.
“You fucker.” I splashed him, and he cracked up.
“Does my pixie not know how to swim?” He swam circles around me.
“You know that I know how to swim!” I exclaimed, throwing more water at him, which just made him laugh harder. Eva and Carter joined us.
“Who naps in the middle of the day?” Carter teased.
“I was tired.”
“You would be with monster dick over here keeping you up.”
“I don’t have a monster dick,” Remi muttered, rolling his eyes.
“Bruh, we’ve all seen it.” Carter lay on his back, floating in the water, the sun shining bright on his face.
“What do you mean you’ve all seen it?” I sputtered. Eva had brought over two floaties, and I leaned my chest and arms on one.
“In the locker room. Showers after the game,” Carter explained.
“Why were you staring at my dick?” Remi asked slyly. “Something you need to share with the class, Carter?”
“It’s hard to miss, Remiel.” Carter shot back.
“Touché.” Remi lifted his hands in surrender and swam off to where Liam was sitting on the jet ski and was shouting for his cousin to join him. Dee, Ashley, and Lia began to swim over to us as Remi got on the other jet ski and roared off after Liam.
“Is it really bigger than normal?” I asked Carter, which made Eva giggle.
“Bruh.” Carter stared at me right on. “I’m not one to say anything that would hurt Little Carter’s feelings, but I swear Remi is bigger than all of us.” He had his hands cupped over the front of his bathing suit as if to protect his penis from hearing about the competition. Eva snorted.
“Your dick is just fine, babe,” she reassured him.
“Only fine?” Carter pouted.
“It’s exquisite,” she corrected dramatically.
“That’s better.” He grinned and then turned back to me. “But seriously, the dude is blessed.”
I wondered if that was why I still felt so sore. I had no experience with any other penises, obviously, so this was all I knew.
“It’s a good thing,” Eva told me. “He’s gonna be able to do so many fun things.”
I laughed. “You make it sound like it’s an amusement park.”
“It kind of can be.” Eva winked as Lia and Dee came over.
“Where is Rachel?” I asked, changing the subject.
“Oh, she and Jake had a fight earlier, and they walked off and haven’t come back yet,” Dee explained.
“I hope they’re not angry fucking out here,” Lia said. “Sand up in your coochie does not sound fun.”
“Where could they possibly be fucking out here?” I asked, looking around at the beach, which offered very little privacy.
“You’d be surprised how creative you can get when you want some lovin’.” Lia laughed.
“Where’s the craziest place you’ve done it?” Ashley asked. Ashley was bi, so she had been with boys and girls.
“I went down on a girl in a Walmart dressing room,” Dee piped up.
“At the movie theater,” Eva confessed.
“How?” I wanted to know.
“We were in the back row, and I sat on his lap and had a coat over me. We thought we were being so chill about it, but it was probably so obvious.” Eva cracked up describing it to us. Carter was looking all smug.
“It was obvious ‘cause you’re so damn loud, Ev.”
She pushed him but didn’t argue.
“I fucked a guy in a cemetery,” Ashley told us.
“That’s so creepy,” Dee told her.
“You’re just jealous.” Ashley leaned in and kissed her.
“Liam and I fucked in a confessional booth at his uncle’s church,” Lia admitted.
“Holy fuck, Lia.”
We were all bent over howling when Liam and Remi came back to join us.
“What’s so funny?” Remi wanted to know.
“Apparently, Liam and Lia had…” I started.
“Sex in your dad’s church,” Lia finished the sentence for me. Liam reached over to high-five Lia.
“Hell yeah, we did.” He seemed so proud of himself.
“At my pop’s funeral?” Remi asked, looking perturbed.
“Bro. No! At Christmas the year before.” Liam seemed appalled at the question.
“Oh yeah, that’s when I was shocked you guys were even kissing.” Remi seemed annoyed at himself. “I wore a purity ring and everything back then.”
“Yeah, you did.” Liam laughed and patted his cousin on the back. “And look at you now. Tearing up pussy and everything.” Liam seemed to remember it was me who he was talking about, and he leaned over and said, “Respectfully, of course.”
“Of course.” I nodded, laughing and blushing as he fist-bumped me.
“Anyone hungry?” Carter asked. We all agreed that we were starving, and together, we went back to the house to get ready for dinner.
Eva, Carter, and Rachel, who had shown back up with a very satisfied-looking Jake, were on dinner duty tonight, so I went back to the room to shower and change. I knew the group had plans to hit up the local club later, and I was feeling wary about it since shit had gone down at the last two parties I had attended, but I got dressed to go either way. I decided to wear a pair of ripped jeans and a cream corset halter top. I was doing my hair when Remi came in and closed the door.
“Oh fuckkkkk,” I heard him say. I turned around.
“What?”
“What do you mean, what? You look so hot.” He came up behind me and peppered some kisses up the back of my neck. I shivered.
“Well, thanks.” I kissed him back and then finished doing my hair as he sat on the bed and told me about his plans to visit his godfather. Apparently, Dermont had bought him a plane ticket for the end of August, and the plan was for Remi to stay with him for a week. He seemed excited to hang out in California, and I was excited for him, but I knew I was going to miss him too.
“Does your dad know you’re going?” I asked and stood up to leave the room because I was so hungry my stomach was rumbling.
“I don’t know. I have no plans to talk to him, especially knowing that he tried to hurt you.” Remi took my hand and opened the bedroom door.
“Well, we don’t know that for sure.” I wasn’t defending the pastor, but the fact is we did not know one hundred percent what had actually happened.
“Listen, I know. Proof or not,” Remi told me. “And he’s an ass anyway. I’m done with him.”
“No argument from me.” I got up on my tippy toes and kissed his cheek.
“Hottie alert!” Lia announced as I came into the kitchen. Liam whistled as Ashley said, “I’d tap that.”
Dee fake slapped her.
“What?” Ashley pretended to be confused.
“I’m right here,” Dee laughed. “Shut up.”
“I got you something.” Liam was pulling a packet out of his pocket.
“My birthday isn’t until September, Liam.” I reminded him.
“Oh, I know.” He looked over at Remi. “She’s a psycho for her birthday, so just start preparing now.”
Remi nodded. “Noted.”
Liam handed me the small package, the size of a pack of travel tissues but thinner. It was black, and in white letters, it said “Cup Condom.”
“You cover your drink with it so you can stay safe tonight. There is enough in there for all of us to have one,” Liam told me.
“Oh my God, thank you. I actually love this. I was feeling a little nervous about tonight.” I hugged him and slid the “gift” into my small bag.
We ate quickly and then called an Uber so no one would have to be the designated driver tonight.
The club was so posh that there was a bouncer with a list of names on it. Liam had called ahead and got us into the VIP section using his parents’ names. The beach club community was tight-knit and wealthy, so his last name meant something up here. I had no idea how Liam had also managed to get us drinks, being that we were all under twenty-one, but he did. We all popped a cup condom onto the glass and then stuck a straw through the top. I stuck to one drink only, so I was feeling good but fully in control as well. The dance floor was packed, yet we found a spot to squeeze into, and we all began to move with the music. Remi was all over me as we danced, and I loved it. If I was dancing in front of him, we were chest to chest, my hands around his neck, and his hands were on my ass. If I was standing with my back to his front, then his hands were firmly around my waist. At one point, we ended up making out in the corner, completely lost in the music and our lust.
“I swear I could take you right here,” he rasped in my ear. I imagined what that would be like. Me up against a wall in the corner of a packed club. The lights flashing, the energy palatable, and him pumping into me, hands on my waist, gripping tightly, his mouth on mine.
“It would be hot, wouldn’t it?” He could see the cogs in my mind going. I dipped my head, suddenly feeling shy.
“It would be hot,” I admitted.
“Do you think you’ll be able to go again tonight?” Remi had to shout over the music because it was so loud. I did a kegel to test out my level of soreness.
“I think so.” I blinked up at him as the strobe lights flashed over his face. “You’re so hot.”
“No, you’re so hot,” he murmured in my ear and sucked my ear lobe into his mouth. Suddenly, Liam knocked into us as he danced nearby with Lia.
“You love birds ready to go? I’m horny, and public fucking is frowned upon,” he asked.
We all knew he would definitely do it if it weren’t illegal. I laughed and nodded. “Yeah, let’s go.”
Back at home, Remi joined me in the shower, where I got on my knees and blew him until he was holding himself up against the shower wall with one hand and gripping my hair with the other.
“I want to come inside you, so let’s stop.” He gasped, pulling me off of him. I stared up at him, the water spraying down into my face.
“Oh fuck. Okay, finish me. I’ll just get hard again,” he acquiesced. If I hadn’t been so eager to make him come, I would have cracked up. It only took a few more twists of my hand and suckles of my mouth for him to explode down my throat. I stood up on shaky legs, and he picked me up to take me out of the shower.
“I want you to sit on my face,” Remi told me as we dried off.
“I don’t know…” I felt weird about it. I wasn’t heavy by any means, but what did sit actually mean? Hover? Or literally use his face like a chair?
“Come on, baby, you’re gonna love it,” Remi urged. He laid down on the bed and urged me to get on top of him.
“What do you mean by sit?” I asked nervously.
“Smother me with your pussy. If I need air, I’ll tap out.” Remi looked so serious, but when I began to laugh, he joined me. I loved how even our intimacy was full of laughter and coupled with feeling the lighter side of life. I widened my thighs around his face and lowered myself till I felt his breath on me. I grabbed onto the headboard and braced myself. Sure enough, with the first lick, I had to hold on for dear life because, in this position, he had access to my body in a way that was going to weaken me completely. Remi immediately put his tongue inside of me and started lapping at my juices.
“Oooooh, Jesus,” I moaned.
“You don’t even believe in him,” I heard Remi mumble against my skin.
“I-I know, it just felt like an appropriate thing to say while you eat me out,” I panted. I felt Remi’s chest shake under me with laughter. His hands reached up, and he grabbed two handfuls of my ass. His fingers were really close to my butt hole, and I wasn’t sure how I felt about that; however, all cognitive thought left my brain as Remi went to town. He licked, sucked, nibbled, and completely wrecked me as he did it. His fingers dug into my flesh, and I could hear him moaning in between licks. The fact that he loved doing this as much as I liked receiving it made it so much hotter for me. I was grinding my pussy against his mouth, and I knew his face must be soaked. I wondered how he was breathing with my body so fully seated on his face. I could feel my orgasm barreling toward me, and with the next suck, my legs tightened on either side of him, and I came so hard I had to throw my head back and yell his name. I collapsed backward and saw Remi’s face sit up from between my legs. Sure enough, his whole chin was wet from me. He used the towel from our shower to clean up his mouth.
“Fuck, baby. That was so hot.” He sounded gleeful.
“Proud of yourself?” I asked weakly.
“Oh definitely.” He repositioned us so I was under him, and he was in between my legs. I watched him take a condom from the pillow next to me and roll it on.
“You’re getting good at that,” I told him. He winked at me, and with his hand, he guided his cock between my legs. I braced myself for the pain again, but this time as he slid in, it just felt like a throbbing bruise rather than a pain I couldn’t ignore.
“Okay?” Remi peered down at me, holding himself still. I nodded. He began to move, and I was happy to see that it didn’t hurt as bad as last night. It wasn’t quite pleasurable just yet, but it definitely was better. The best part again was watching Remi completely lose his shit in me. He was going faster and deeper than last night and was breathing so hard as he talked to me.
“Fuck, Shaen, you feel so good around me. Look at you taking me. God that’s so hot. You’re so tight.”
Suddenly his hand went in between us, and I felt his fingers flick my clit.
“Oooh.” A delicious feeling went through me. Remi watched my face as he moved his fingers over me again. That felt really good. As he strummed my clit, he began to fuck me in earnest, so hard that the headboard was shaking.
“Still okay, pixie?” he asked with teeth clenched as he looked down to watch where he slid in and out of me. I nodded. My whole body was focused on the amazing things that were occurring between my legs. Remi’s ministrations to my clit were allowing my body to relax, and without feeling so tense, I was able to focus on the feeling of his cock hitting my G-spot. It was so good that it almost hurt, but it was different from that of last night. It was an intense feeling. Almost like how perfect it felt to itch a mosquito bite that you couldn’t quite reach all day, and then the relief you got from finding the right spot was the best and weirdest way I could think to describe how it felt to chase this orgasm that was about to hit me. It felt different than my usual orgasms. This one felt less sudden, and the start to it was more drawn out. I knew it was going to come, and I knew when it crashed, it would take me under.
“You’re such a good girl letting me fuck you like this,” Remi growled. “You are doing such a good job.”
Oh fuck, lights pricked the edges of my eyesight, and I had to shut my eyes as the orgasm decimated me. It felt like it just went on and on till I had to remind myself to breathe.
“Oh-oh.” I opened my eyes in wonderment at the new pleasure I had just discovered, only to watch Remi’s face contort with the intensity of his own release. His hips stuttered above me, and then I felt him unload inside of me, only stopped by the condom. When he was done, he gripped the top of the condom, pulled out, and rolled over onto his back. His chest was sweaty and was heaving as he breathed quickly.
“Wow.” He looked over at me, and we both burst out laughing.
“Yeah, wow,” I agreed.
The next morning, I woke up to an empty bed and a quiet house. A note from Remi sat on the night table.
“You looked so peaceful, pixie. So I didn’t want to wake you. Went to the gym. Be back soon. Xoxo, Remi.”
I smiled and then picked up my phone. The group chat had been active.
RACHEL
going to starbies with Dee and Ashley anyone want anything?
LIA
1 venti iced coffee. 3 pumps vanilla, 2 pumps hazelnut, drizzled caramel and cold foam. Thank u bestie!!
EVA
I’ll have a shaken espresso with oat milk, cinnamon and 1 pump of white mocha
LIAM
we’re good. Thanks rach
REMI
speak for yourself
RACHEL
what do you want?
REMI
can you get Shaen an iced vanilla chai tea latte with sweet cream foam?
RACHEL
yup. Also you win best bf award
LIA
I need tampons anyone have?
DEE
Ashley has in her pink bag. It’s in the bathroom.
CARTER
Aw poor Liam won’t be getting any
LIAM
u think aunt flow stops me? Booooy
CARTER
*blood droplet emoji* *eggplant emoji*
LIA
it helps with the cramps
CARTER
tmi
LIAM
u literally started this conversation lmao
REMI
can y’all work out? I’m almost done and I’m gonna have to wait for you idiots
EVA
I have a masseuse coming later. Who wants one?
CARTER
*raised hand emoji*
LIAM
*raised hand emoji*
RACHEL
Jake does but I’m good
DEE
Ashley will
EVA
k. @remi do you think Shaen will?
LIAM
lol no way she hates being touched
REMI
she likes when I touch her
LIAM
I know we heard
REMI
*middle finger emoji*
I laughed and then sat up when I saw that my drink was sitting on the night table, right next to the empty condom wrapper. Whoops. I couldn’t even muster up the energy to feel embarrassed because it just felt so good to have taken this next step with Remi. I took a sip of the tea.
“So good,” I said out loud to the empty room. Then I got up to pee, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and put on a bathing suit. I stopped to admire the tan I had gotten yesterday. I always felt so much better when I was tan. Grabbing my drink, a dirty book, and my phone, I went out to the pool. Eva and Lia were lying out by the pool and called out a good morning when they saw me.
“I want to have a lazy day today,” I told them. “Like Uber Eats food, then we do nothing for the rest of the day and maybe end off with a movie?”
“That sounds perfect,” Eva agreed.
“Liam wants me to come with him to visit a friend of his later, but other than that, we have no plans,” Lia told us.
“I think Dee and Ashley are renting a boat this afternoon,” Eva remembered. Rachel and Jake walked out to the pool, and we told them about having a lazy day. They liked the sound of it too. Lia attached her playlist to the speakers, and we sat in the sun like that for an hour until the boys got back.
Remi made us avocado toast for lunch. We were alone and eating it by the pool as Dee and Ashley had gone off on the boat, and Lia and Liam had gone to visit a childhood friend of his that he had made from his summers spent here. Liam and Ashley had already gotten their massages before they left, so Eva, Carter, and Jake were inside with the masseuse. Rachel was in her room on the phone. I was sitting in Remi’s lap, licking avocado off of my fingers, when he leaned closer to me and said, “I didn’t know I could feel happy like this.”
I turned to look at him. “What do you mean?” I asked.
“You know how I grew up,” Remi started. I nodded.
“Yeah.”
“Well, it was a lot of pressure on me once I found out what my dad had done to my mom, that he had abandoned his child, and just that everything I thought was true was possibly a lie. I felt like not only would I need to figure out what I did want for my life and what did actually matter to me, but it also felt like everything would be shadowed by my parents feeling like they had failed me somehow. I mean, what fucked up trauma is that?” Remi laughed at the irony of what he was saying. “For example, if Liam decided he didn’t want to be a doctor anymore but instead he wants to do something else, Sam and Julia wouldn’t be disappointed and think they failed him, right?” He looked over at me.
“They would support him in whatever he chose,” I agreed.
“Exactly. But here, with this, my parents are wondering where they failed me. They’re praying for me to come back because they think if I don’t, I’ll burn in hell. This is not about them not supporting me, that’s way too simple. This is them believing intrinsically that I am a reflection of a failure of theirs because I am not living the life they chose for me.”
I patted Remi’s arm as he took a deep breath.
“Yeah, it’s fucked up.” I nodded.
“For a while, it felt like I would get stuck either going back to their life to make my parents happy, or I would forever live not fully happy because I would be… missing something… maybe. I can’t really explain it. But then I found you, and I know this sounds so corny.” Remi’s eyes seemed to beg me to take him seriously.
“But you’re legit the best thing that ever happened to me. I feel like I’m able to realize who I really am because I don’t have to pretend to be the pastor’s kid, or the football player, or anything else in front of you. I can just be me… and that makes me happy.” His fingers were now playing with my hair nervously. I turned around to be able to fully to look at him.
“You’re mine for keeps.” I smiled.
“Same.” He bent forward and kissed my lips gently. I felt that kiss for the rest of the day.
On Sunday, we woke up early because we had to pack up and clean the house before we left after dinner. Rachel had baked fresh blueberry muffins for breakfast, so we were all gathered around the table, stuffing our faces with muffins and talking about the timeline of when we would all be together again. Liam wanted Remi and I to fly to Boston to visit him around Halloween, but I didn’t know if I would be able to afford to take off work and buy plane tickets. The good news was that everyone would be coming back home for Christmas and New Year's, but after that, we probably wouldn’t see each other until spring break and then, of course, next summer. Lia was wiping away tears as she finished her muffin.
“I don’t like this,” she cried.
“Yeah, it fucking sucks,” Carter agreed. I was again feeling very grateful that Remi had decided to stay home. The school he was attending was literally a half hour from his house. Remi looked over at me and squeezed my hand. He knew I was going to miss my friends, particularly Liam.
“Soooo,” Dee said, changing the subject. “This may seem weird, and there is zero pressure to do it, but as you know, I’m adopted, so my dads got me a kit to do that anonymous DNA test thing to see if I have any siblings, and they accidentally got two, so I wanted to give it to you, Shaen. In case you ever want to see if you can find your dad.” She seemed uncomfortable as she took the envelope out of her bag. “But again, no pressure at all. It’s all anonymous, so even if you do it, he wouldn’t know who you are unless you choose that option. Basically, everyone is given a number, and if he happens to be on the website, he would get an email that a number matched with his DNA, and he can choose to view it or not, but he can only view it if you agree for him to see it,” Dee rambled. The whole room had gone silent. I took the envelope that Dee held out to me and held it against my chest.
“That’s really nice, Dee, thank you,” I told her quietly.
“Can I hug you?” she asked. I nodded. She leaned in and gave me a quick hug and then let go.
“Do you want to do it, hun?” Liam moved next to me immediately. He knew how not having a dad my whole life had really messed with me. I hadn’t ever really wanted to talk about it, but he had picked up on plenty over the many years of our friendship.
“I’m not sure yet. But it says here that it doesn’t expire till next summer, so I have time,” I told him. He gave me a quick hug too.
“Okay, it’s not allowed to be awkward.” I laughed. “I don’t have a dad, and Dee has two, kind of selfish if you ask me… but anyway, what are we doing today?”
That had everyone laughing.
“I love you. Call me when you get home,” Lia called out the window of Liam’s jeep as Remi reversed his car out of the driveway. I waved until we couldn’t see them anymore. We spent the day on the beach snorkeling and riding four-wheelers. Then we had dinner at a local Thai place, after which we said goodbye to each other. I knew that we would still be hanging out for the rest of the summer, but I was feeling very nostalgic knowing that this was really the last big trip we’d be doing as a friend group before everyone left for college. As if he could feel how heavy my thoughts were, Remi put a hand on my knee as he drove.
“That’s the same company I did my DNA test with,” he told me, referring to Dee’s surprising gift from earlier.
“Oh yeah? Still no matches?”
He shook his head.
“I’ve given up at this point. I’m okay not knowing. I have you and Liam’s family. That’s good enough for me.”
I smiled up at him. “Me too.”
The next thing I knew, I was being carried from the car into my apartment.
“We’re home, baby,” Remi whispered. I woke up groggily.
“What time is it?” I asked.
“Nine.” He sat me on my bed and then put our bags down.
“I’m gonna shower and then sleep ‘cause I have to go to work early to film content for Julia tomorrow,” I told him. He nodded, standing awkwardly in the doorway of my room.
“What’s wrong?” I asked as I peeled my clothes off and put them in the laundry.
“Where do you want me?” he asked awkwardly. “Here… or do you want a night alone? I can go if you do…”
“I never want a night alone.” I went over to where he stood and wrapped my arms around his waist. “I know we haven’t talked about it again, but I want to live together eventually.” I kissed his chest and peered up at him; this lack of confidence was not usual for him.
“You okay?”
“Yes.” He smiled at me, seemingly back to his normal self. “Let’s go clean you up.” He swatted my ass as he walked behind me to the bathroom.
After we showered, I popped us some fresh popcorn and drizzled melted chocolate on it.
“I would have never thought to do this, but holy shit, it’s good.” Remi was inhaling the popcorn.
“Right. It’s the perfect mix of sweet and salty.” I took another handful and pressed play on the next episode of Yellowstone . So much for going to sleep right away. After we finished the episode, I cleaned the now-empty bowl and brushed my teeth. Remi was lying in bed doing something on his phone when I crawled into bed next to him. Then my phone lit up with a notification. It was from my social media app, and it said that @rem22 had tagged me in a post. I swiped up to open the app and saw that he had posted a photo of us.
“Liam sent it to me,” he said softly. I blinked. Liam must have taken it the morning after we had sex for the first time. I was in my black bikini, sitting in between Remi’s legs, leaning up against his chest. Remi’s body is angled toward me, his head leaning down, and my face is looking up at his. He is smiling at what I’m saying, and the sun is shining down on us. I can see the water behind us and how the wind is blowing through my hair. What stops me in my tracks is how obvious his love is for me. It’s all over his face. In the way he is looking at me. At how his body is around me, protecting me. Our energy is palpable from the photo, and it takes my breath away for a second.
“Oh.” I am suddenly at a loss for words.
“Is it okay that I posted it?” Remi asks. I can tell that he is misunderstanding my silence. I take a look at the comments that are suddenly rolling in.
JULIA_INJECTOR_RN: oh my god my favorite couple. I love you both
LIAM_HEN: photography credit
LIA.B: you guys are so sexy *swoon*
CARTER.9: *eggplant emoji* *water droplet emoji* *hot panting face emoji*
RACHEL_BAKES_12: I miss you guys already
DEE*rainbow emoji*: invite me to your wedding
EVALUVSCARTER: oh my gawwwwd
I shared the photo to my stories and typed on it, “I fucking love this man,” and I added some heart stickers before pressing “Share.” Then I saved the photo to my phone and made it my wallpaper.
“Okay, so you like it?” Remi laughed, sounding relieved.
“I love it,” I corrected, pushing him back on the pillow, and I climbed on top of him.
“Okay, good.” His words cut off as I kissed him with everything I had. Quickly, we discarded our clothes, and I got up to get a condom from his bag and lock my door. I came back to the bed and handed him the condom. He made quick work of putting it on, and I climbed back on top of him. Remi looked up at me.
“You’ll be okay like this?” he asked, worrying about me as usual. I nodded.
“Okay, good because, fuck, you look good on top of me.” He guided his cock between my legs and took my mouth in his as he thrust up into me. He felt different from this angle. It was slightly deeper, but it also hit a new place inside me. Remi sat up slightly, taking me with him so that I was sitting in his lap and his back was against my headboard. This way, he was able to guide me in my movements above him. He was holding onto my hips, and as I lifted up, he helped me, and as I shifted back down, he thrust up. We got into a rhythm of movements until his breath was coming out in short grunts, and I was sweating around my hairline.
“You close?” he asked me. Although it didn’t hurt anymore, I still felt very stretched and tender, so I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to get there without help, and I told him so. Remi reached over to my night table and pulled open the drawer. He grabbed my vibrator and turned it on. As soon as he put it on me, my eyes rolled back, and I shuddered.
“Come on me, Shaen,” he ordered. His mouth had found my nipple, and he was working it between his lips. Then he let go and began thrusting into me as he kept the vibrator on my clit. His movements kept knocking into my toy, but I could feel myself getting there, and I began to moan louder. Suddenly, Remi moved his hand.
“Wh-what are you doing?” I demanded. The wave of the orgasm that was about to hit me moved away, and I lost it.
“Beg me.” Remi’s other arm was across my back now, holding me down on him as he rutted his way up into me.
“Beg?”
“Beg me to let you come.” His eyes shone with a glint of an emotion that I couldn’t decipher.
“Babe… no.” I couldn’t possibly. The vibrator turned back on, and I sighed with relief when he put it back on my clit. I rocked against his cock and my toy as I chased my pleasure. Just as I was about to come, Remi moved the vibrator off of me again.
“Fuck.” I was feeling frustrated now. “Why!?” I slapped his chest.
“Beg. Me.,” he enunciated, sounding breathless.
“Please,” I heard myself say.
“Please, what, pixie?” He was not playing around, and I half hated it, half loved it.
“Please let me… come,” I whispered.
“I can’t hear you.”
“Oh my God, let me come, Remiel, make me come!” I sobbed. The vibrator was on me in a second, and this time, he didn’t stop as the orgasm hit me. In fact, he fucked me harder through it, and we came together.
“Oh my Goddddd,” I groaned, “I love you so much!”
“I love you too, Shaen,” he panted. “Fuckkkkk, I’m coming.”
He pulled out when he was done and then looked at me seriously.
“When are you ovulating next?”
“I didn’t even get my period yet,” I laughed. “I’m not due till July twenty-secondish.”
“So we’re safe right now?” he confirmed. I nodded.
“Okay, can you download the app you use so I can track it with you?” he asked as he got up to dispose of the condom.
“Okay. What’s your password?” I called.
“615526,” he called back. I put in the password, and his phone opened up to the favorites screen in his contacts. I saw that I was on his favorites list, and he had me saved as Pixie *sparkle emoji* *heart emoji*. That gesture made my heart skip a beat. I swiped out to look for the App Store, and as I did, I saw that the photo of us was the background of his phone too. Just kill me, I thought, he was so sweet.
“6/15 is the day we met, and 5/26 is the day I got to kiss you for the first time,” Remi explained, coming back into the room. He was stark naked, and he laughed when he caught me staring.
“Like what you see, pixie?” he asked, his voice sounding throaty.
“I really do.” I smirked as he got into bed next to me. I proceeded to show him the app and where I input May and June’s periods so July would pre-populate.
“I’ve been taking my temperature every morning, and I track that too because I’m not going to just trust an app,” I explained.
“Text me your temps, and I’ll input them into my app too,” Remi told me, fully serious. I leaned over and kissed his cheek.
“I don’t know how I got so lucky with you, baby,” I told him, lying on his chest.
“I’m the lucky one,” I heard him say as I drifted off to sleep.