The Conditions of Will

The Conditions of Will

Author: Jessa Hastings Listening Length: 13h 21m
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I cant remember the last time I couldnt get a handle on myself and my emotions, but the lid is slipping. Something about the slipping lid feels like its Sam Pennys fault. Like he broke the seal and hes slowly opening me up. London-based Georgia Carter, professional lie detector and body-language savant, has long been e...

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I don’t set an alarm for the next morning, which I don’t do consciously, but I think the subtext is pretty clear. I don’t want to get up for this day.

Where do I even begin?

On the day that’s been designated to mourn a man I don’t feel like I even really knew?

I don’t even know how I’m supposed to feel. I mean, I know what I’m supposed to feel in a textbook kind of way. Bereavement is multi-faceted and complicated when the person who’s died is someone you had a simple relationship with (if there even is such a thing as a simple relationship?). But once you throw in a spanner like all the ways my dad failed to be a dad to me and my brother most of our lives while we watched him be one for our siblings—grieving him becomes more complicated. Because the desire for him to be that for us doesn’t lessen in an honest way.