The Conditions of Will

The Conditions of Will

Author: Jessa Hastings Listening Length: 13h 21m
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I cant remember the last time I couldnt get a handle on myself and my emotions, but the lid is slipping. Something about the slipping lid feels like its Sam Pennys fault. Like he broke the seal and hes slowly opening me up. London-based Georgia Carter, professional lie detector and body-language savant, has long been e...

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I think probably if I could write it all out on a giant timeline and look out over it all, I could pick out the exact day that Oliver’s drinking really started. Not the first time he drank, but the first time he drank how he’d continue to drink. Gun to my head—I can’t say I blame him.

That day, I came home from school a little later than normal, and as soon as I walked in the house, I could hear yelling. And it was real yelling too—this nasty, persistent, wear-you-down hollering.

My mom mostly, but sometimes my dad…and holy shit, I hated it when my dad yelled. My mom was the yeller in our house, but when my dad yelled, the earth shook.

He didn’t not yell to be kind; I think he just didn’t yell because he didn’t care. I’d hear him raise his voice to Tens sometimes, about trying harder, focusing more, being better—never to Maryanne. Never to me either, but his nevers regarding me stretched far wider than yelling.